Hazing Chapter 10

NanaandJayMommy4Life: Tara is really in a pickle but I don't think she will hurt the baby.

TeamEveryoneButEdward: Nina really does need to focus on herself and raising her child. She needs to stop waiting around for Jax and grow up….will she do it? That remains to be seen.

NYstateofmind428: As you know I love your story. Keep it up!

APeaceofPie4Everybody011: Tara is in a very rough emotional state but I think profession will override emotion for the time being.

AyannaCosta: I would not want to be Nina right now. She is definitely in a whirlwind of emotions. I don't things will get much better for her right away. Jax needs to decide what he is going to do now.

Storylover00: Here is an update. Hope you enjoy.

Guest: Yes Tara handled it pretty well. I wonder if she will continue to handle the situation in a respectable fashion.

Guest: I feel for Tara as well. I do not know what I would do if I was in her shoes.

Val: Here is an update. Hope you enjoy.

NatalieLynn: I agree Margaret should not have pressed Tara to do the surgery but I feel she was looking out for the baby in the best way she knew how. Who knows what is going through Jax's mind why he didn't stress the fact that he was hurt when Nina assumed the child would have her last name and not his.

IreneLove83: I agree Jax and Nina do need to get together but I'm afraid it might get worse before it gets better.

Guests: Here is an update and I hope you guys enjoy.

Ebonyeyez1: Thanks for letting me know that I forgot to change the complete to in progress. I just fixed it.

Tara tried to control her breathing as she held the scalpel over the tiny pale baby girl.

"Dr. Knowles?" Nurse Anna softly called to her. Tara looked up and blinked a few times as she cleared her raging thoughts about her husband.

Focus Tara! You can do this.

"I'm fine…..let's get started." She announced as she made a small incision through Lily Rose's sternum.

"Where is Tara?" Gemma snapped as she walked up to Margaret as she was standing at a nurse's station.

"She is in surgery."

"On who?" Gemma hoped it was not on her grandbaby.

"That is private information." Margaret eyes squinted at Gemma.

"It better not be the Johnson baby."

"Why?" Margaret asked playing dumb.

"You know why. If anything happens to that baby, we will sue this hospital for liability. You know as well as I know she should not be operating on that baby."

Margaret walked around the nurse's station and stood face to face with Gemma.

"Tara is the only surgeon here now that can save your sorry ass son's baby." Margaret hissed at Gemma not backing down from her.

"You need to get up out my face before YOU need surgery." Gemma said through gritted teeth. Seeing the look in Gemma's eyes Margaret took a few steps back.

"I can't believe Jax would do this Tara. How is she supposed to get past this?" Margaret asked concerned for Tara.

"You need to mind your own business!" Gemma barked at her.

"Mom!"

Gemma followed the sound of the voice that called her and turned around to find Jax and Bobby walking up to her. Gemma glared back at Margaret when she heard her suck her teeth with disgust.

"How are they?" Jax asked both women, breathing heavy as he and Bobby literally ran across the hospital to find Nina and his baby.

"The baby is in surgery now with Tara." Gemma answered.

Jax eyes lit up with shock.

"What?! Why is she doing the surgery?" Terror displayed on Jax face as he thought of an emotional Tara working on Lily Rose.

"She is the only surgeon here now that can do it and your daughter needed immediate surgery." Margaret looked at Jax with pure disgust. Jax knew how Margaret felt about him and he did not give a damn.

"Margaret she better not intentionally hurt my child."

"Tara is professional and will not let her emotions get in the way of her practice. I will let you know when the baby is out of surgery." Margaret told them as she walked away. She needed to get away from the Tellers.

"Have you seen the baby yet?" Jax asked his mom as he tried to control his breathing.

"No. She went straight into surgery." Gemma sighed and Jax noticed she looked tired and her eyes were full of worry. Jax pulled his mom in a tight hug and held on to her for a few moments before slowly letting go.

"Come on baby you need to see Nina." Gemma took Jax hand and they headed to Nina's room. Just before Jax open the door Gemma warned him that her parents were with her and they were pissed.

"Jesus Christ!" Jax murmured as he braced himself to deal with her parents. The door swung open as Kozik pushed April in a wheelchair out the room.

"Are you ok April?" he asked grabbing her hand. April nodded yes. Kozik pulled Jax into a hug and warned him that Nina's parents were pretty upset.

"Yeah. Mom told me." Jax sighed.

"Good luck." Kozik said patting Jax on the back before taking April to her room.

Tim and Sandy looked up at Jax, Gemma and Bobby's entrance.

"Jax!" Nina gasped; she almost jumped out the bed to run to him until she felt the pain from her stitches. Jax rushed up to her bed and grabbed her hand.

"Hey sweetheart." His other hand smoothed down her hair and caressed her cheek. She looked as if the life drained out of her. The sparkle he loved to see had disappeared from her eyes. His heart began to ache for her. She did not deserve this.

"So you are the father?" Tim got up from his seat and walked up to Jax. Bobby started to put himself between them but Jax held up his hand to stop Bobby.

"Yes I am." Jax confirmed as he looked at Tim and then back down at Nina.

"My God how old are you?" Tim looked at Jax up and down sizing him up.

"37." He answered looking at him to see his reaction. Tim did not disappoint.

"What the fuck is wrong with you getting a kid knocked up?!" Tim shouted before he could calmed himself down.

"With all due respect Nina is not a kid."

"You are sixteen years older than her." Sandy said barley above a whisper. The room turned to her as she began to cry.

"Mom please don't…." Nina could not take any more of her mother's tears.

"You see what you have done to this family." Tim turned back to Jax. Jax was trying really hard to show respect and patience to Nina's father but he was the last person that should throw stones.

"Does the name Tyler Yost ring a bell?"

Tim took a step back in disbelief. Nina told this man her family's business.

"Nina you told this man all of our business?" Tim asked in disbelief at his daughter. Nina looked away from her father. His look of betrayal stabbed her in the heart. Why would Jax throw that sensitive information in her dad's face? She told him that in confidence. As if on cue, the door open and Tyler rushed in. Ignoring everyone in the room, he rushed to Nina's bed pushing Jax and Tim out the way.

"Are you ok? The baby?" Tyler leaned over, kissed his sister's forehead, and took her hand into his.

"Lily is premature and has CHF. She should be in surgery now." Nina started to cry again as she ached for her daughter. She needed to see and hold her.

"It will be alright sis. She will make it. She has too." Tyler comforted her as he squeezed her hand. Nina nodded her head as she tried to control her sobs. Tyler looked over at Jax and Tim.

"So I see you met the dad." He said to Tim with slight amusement. He could see how livid his dad looked.

"You knew who the father was all this time?" Tim asked.

"I just found out not to long ago."

"And you didn't tell us!" Tim transferred some of his anger to his son.

"It was not my place to tell you anything. It was up to Nina."

'Nina had her reasons to not tell you about me." Jax spoke up.

"No one asked you anything!" Tim shouted poking Jax in the chest. Nina looked on helplessly as the situation escalated between Jax and her dad. They started yelling at each other.

"Please stop." Nina said barely above a whisper. The arguing continued.

"Please stop!" she yelled louder. Jax and her father was so heated they did not hear her. They were toe to toe in each other's face and Tim pushed Jax out of his face. Jax stumbled back, quickly found his footing and started to charge at Tim. Bobby grabbed Jax as Tyler grabbed his father.

"Stop it!" Nina screamed her voice filling the room. This time she was heard as Jax and her father looked over at her with anger in their eyes.

"Look everyone needs to calm down! We need to focus on Lily Rose who is fighting for her life. What is done is done and standing here at each other's throat is not going to help her. Whether we like it or not we have a common bond and it is Lily!" Gemma shouted to everyone hoping to knock some sense into them. Everyone looked at Gemma and silently agreed.

"I need to speak to Jax…..alone." Nina said as sternly as she could muster. Her dad started to object but Nina put up her hand to stop him.

"Dad! Please…I need to talk to Jax alone." She snapped. Tim was not happy but he complied and followed everyone out the room. As soon as the door closed behind them, Jax walked up to the bed, leaned over, grabbed Nina's face and kissed her passionately.

"I'm so sorry." He whispered against her lips as he rubbed his fingers through her hair.

"I want my baby girl." Nina held back her tears. She was tired of crying.

"We will see her soon." Jax told her as he sat on the side of her bed.

"Do you think she will hurt her?" Nina asked referring to Tara. Jax shook his head no.

"She won't." he assured her as well as himself. Nina reached up and caressed his cheek. His face was full of worry.

"What are you going to do Jax now that she knows?"

Jax closed his eyes and sighed as he thought of the impending argument with Tara.

"I don't know Nina…..I just don't know. I may not get to see you for a while I try to fix things with Tara."

A wave of nausea consumed Nina. Fix things with Tara?

"Are you leaving me?" Nina choked.

"No baby I'm not leaving you but you know I can't lose my family. We discussed this remember. I told you I could not be with you full time. I already have a family. You agreed…..remember?"

"Yes I remember but that was before I fell for you Jax." Nina could feel her heartbeat increase. She was going to lose him.

"Sweetheart," Jax leaned in and planted kisses on her face. "You know I care deeply for you and our little girl."

"But you don't love us."

Jax caressed Nina's cheek. Did he love her? She was constantly in his thoughts; he physically ached for her when he was not with her, he had a deep desire to protect her and he wanted to make her happy but did he love her. Nina searched his face for an answer and started to cry when she only found confusion. Nina sunk down in the bed and looked away from Jax. She could not look at him as he just broke her heart.

"Nina look at me," Jax grabbed her chin and moved her face to where she was facing him again. "I do have feelings for you Nina; there is not a minute of the day where you are not on my mind. As for Lily Rose there should be no doubt in your mind that I love my child." Jax leaned in and softly kissed Nina on the lips. Nina kissed him back and savored his lips and tongue, as she did not know when she would ever get to kiss or see him again.

Tara removed her surgical mask and took deep breaths. She finally finished surgery and she tried to calm herself from a panic attack. Performing surgery on that child was by far the hardest thing she has ever experience emotionally and now she had to go tell the woman or girl rather that slept with her husband the outcome of the surgery. Tara had no idea what she was going to do. She loved Jax so much and just did not understand why he would do this to her. Was she not a good wife to him? She had sacrificed so much for him and his club. Was he not in love with her anymore? Was he in love with that girl?

Tara found Nina's parents, Bobby, Gemma and a man she did not know in the waiting room. So Bobby knew? Who else knew of Jax's indiscretion? If Bobby was here, Jax had to be here. Where was he? Everyone stood up as Tara approached.

"How is she?" Gemma asked rushing up to Tara. Tara could not believe Gemma was ok with Jax's betrayal. Tara ignored Gemma and focused on Nina's parents. She was glad they were not in the room with Nina, as she knew she could not look at her again without the urge to hurt her.

"The surgery was a success. We will need to keep her in NICU until she gains some weight and can feed on her own." Tara told her parents as she tried to control the quiver in her voice. Tara explained in more details the surgery and what will need to happen before the baby could go home.

"Can we see her now?" Sandy asked.

"Yes."

"Thank you Dr. Knowles." Sandy told her sincerely. She knew it had to been hard for her to do the surgery. Tara nodded. Sandy understood the hurt that showed in Tara's eyes as her husband's portrayal still hurt Sandy and it stung again today seeing Tyler. Just before Tara started to walk away, Sandy grabbed her hand.

"I'm so sorry that my daughter has hurt you so. If I could take away your pain I would." Sandy squeezed Tara's hand. Tara looked in Sandy's eyes and saw sorrow and agony. It was not sympathy but empathy. She had felt the anger and pain that Tara was feeling.

"Thank you." Tara whispered and quickly walked away. Tara needed to get her boys out of daycare and get away from the hospital. She had no idea what she was going to do or where she would go. She had no family as Jax and her boys were her family. Maybe she would stay at a hotel for a few days until she figured out what she would do.

Gemma, Bobby, Tyler and her parents walked in on Jax and Nina in a deep kiss.

"Jesus!" Tim muttered under his breath. Jax pulled from the kiss when he heard them walk in the room.

"The surgery was a success. We can see her now." Gemma told them as she went to hug her son. Nina quickly sat up in bed despite the pain from the C-section.

"Take me to her." She said to Jax. Tyler pulled a wheelchair out the corner of the room and he and Jax helped Nina from the bed to the wheelchair. Jax pushed Nina out the door with Bobby, Gemma and her family close behind. Nina and Jax were finally going to see their baby girl.

Well….well looks like Jax has chosen his family over Nina….hmmm….interesting. Poor Nina... should she really be all that surprised.