another InuKag poem--this one's a little sad. (there's no capital letters on purpose.)
CXXXII
i only wanted to cry for you.
i only wanted to hope so hard that you'd survive that you would.
how is it that we can feel so much and never say a word?
i only wanted you to live.
i only wanted to give you all that i had.
why isn't that allowed?
i just wanted you to smile forever, to bring the light to the world that no-one else could imitate.
without you there is no hue in the sky, no dance in the breeze, no life in the lonely howling of the universe.
why didn't you open your eyes?
i only wanted to tell you i love you.
i never wanted you to cry.
i never wanted you to trip and scrape your knee,
or feel bad because someone had said you weren't what i believe you to be.
and that's not just a belief for me.
your bright life is all the proof i need.
my soul rends in twain to contemplate your absence.
there's no way i could be happy now.
you only wanted that for me . . . but i only wanted that for you.
you don't have it anymore . . . so how can i, when all that keeps me alive is dead?