Hazing Chapter 17

Nina sighed as she lowered herself in the tub. As she scrubbed herself, it didn't take long for the water to turn red from all the blood that was caked on her. She had to get out and change the water. After an hour in the tub, scrubbing and soaking Nina finally felt clean enough mentally and physically to get out. She just could not process the fact that just hours earlier her and her daughter's life was in danger. She decided she would not think about it and decided to she was going to compartmentalized it for now. She needed to be strong for Lily.

Drying herself off she threw on a tank top and boy shorts. She smiled as she walked out to the living room where Juice was feeding Lily from one of the bottles she had frozen in the freezer. When Juice looked up from Lily his mouth fell open and his eyes dilated as he took in Nina's figure. Nina caught his look and realized she picked a poor choice of pajamas. She should have covered herself up more as she did have a guest in her house.

"She hasn't gone to sleep yet?" Nina asked sitting next to Juice. Juice's eyes wandered to her thighs.

"No..no…she…she" he was stuttering a little. Nina smiled he was so adorable.

"I would think after her bath and her feeding she would be out like a light." Nina reached for Lily and Juice's eyes focused on her chest as he handed her over.

"Juice you really don't have to stay." She told him rocking Lily.

Juice shook his head no.

"Jax wants me here so I am here. We need to make sure you stay safe." He told her finally looking up to her eyes.

"Ok. I hope the couch will be ok for you. I only have one bedroom."

Juice found himself looking back down at her thighs. He felt bad as images of her naked flashed in his head.

"The couch is fine." He said shaking his head to get the images out of his head. Jax would kill him if he knew what he was thinking. Juice didn't know the extent of Jax's and Nina's relationship but he knew by Jax's actions today he loved her. Juice wondered what Jax was going to do about Tara because it was obvious that Nina had Jax's heart.

"Are you hungry I can make you something real quick?"

"I'm fine." Juice needed her to remove herself from his presence, as it was really becoming a struggle not to kiss her luscious lips.

"Ok. Well good night and thanks for watching over me. I know the last thing you want to do is babysit." Nina said getting up from the couch. Juice smiled at Nina as he looked her up and down.

"It's fine." I bet she is a good fuck. He thought as he watched her walk to her bedroom. Stop it Juice! He chastised himself as he laid down on the couch.

Tara slowly opened her eyes, looked around confused, and daze.

"Where am I?" she asked Jax who was standing at her bedside.

"St. Thomas. How do you feel?"

"Like shit. Why am I here? Where are the boys?" Tara tried to sit up but Jax stopped her.

"Don't get up Tara. You got high and Abel tried to wake you. He threw your joint in the trash and it set the kitchen on fire." Jax tried his best to hold back his anger at Tara. This was his fault. He knew Tara got high because of him and she did not deserve this but he could not help how he felt about Nina.

"What?! Where are my babies? Are they ok?"

"Yes. They are with Gemma. Tara you have to go to rehab and I am working with child services to not make a case against you."

Tara started to cry. This could not be happening to her.

"This is your fault!" she yelled and then winced from a massive headache.

"I know Tara but you need to take some responsibility. You should not have smoked and drink to where you passed out. You were so out of it you didn't even know there was a fire! You and the boys could have died if it wasn't for Abel getting the neighbor." Jax had to step back from the bed because he was so angry he had to fight the urge to slap the shit out of her.

"I want a divorce Jax. I know you love her and I can't be with anyone who is in love with another woman."

Jax was not going to argue. She was right he realized that he was indeed in love with Nina. The realization came crashing down on him today when she and Lily were in danger. There was nothing he would not do for them. However, he still loved Tara. Tara would always be a part of him as she was his first love.

"Tara I did not want to hurt you. I did not expect to fall for someone else. I still love you but I am going to give you what you want as I see my actions are sending you down a destructive path and I do not want that for you."

Tara slowly sat up and Jax did not stop her this time.

"What about the boys. I want custody."

Jax shook his head no.

"We can share custody. You know I would never give up my boys."

Tara reached for a tissue on the nightstand by the bed to blow her nose and wipe her tears away. She knew Jax and Gemma would never let her have full custody. How could she fight for full custody after what happen tonight? She really fucked up.

"Fine…..but I don't want that little slut near my kids."

"Don't call her that!" Jax hissed at Tara.

"Jax I don't want her near my boys….promise me."

"I can't promise that Tara. They have a sister and they will eventually meet her."

"They don't need to meet her now. Wait until they are little older and can understand their father can't keep his dick in his pants."

Jax was too tired to argue.

"Fine Tara….whatever you want as long as we share custody."

Tara laid back in bed satisfied with his answer.

"I will be back tomorrow."

"Don't bother…..just tell Gemma to bring the boys by. I want to see them before I go into rehab."

"I will see what I can do." Jax told her before leaving. Tara took a cup from the nightstand and threw it at the door.

"Fucker!" she yelled at the door.

Juice woke up to the music of Nina Simone and the smell of breakfast. He found Lily sleeping in the playpen across from him and Nina at the stove moving her delectable body to the music. Juice got up, stretched and went to see exactly what Nina was making. He was starving.

"Good Morning!" she smiled at Juice. She was still in her tank top and boy shorts.

Jesus! She was stunning! Juice could see why Jax fell for her.

"Good Morning. What you making?" he asked standing a little too close to her.

"Pancakes, bacon, eggs and grits. I hope you are hungry."

"I am." Juice frowned as he smelled alcohol on her breath.

"Are you drinking?"

"It's 5:00 somewhere." She said reaching for her glass of vodka and Sprite.

"Will that be good for Lily…you know since you breastfeed."

"I pumped earlier." She explained. Nina did not sleep well last night as she had nightmares of her kidnapping. She desperately needed to numb herself. Juice watched her take a big gulp of her drink.

"Are you sure?" he asked concern.
"I will be fine Juice….plus I have you here to watch and protect me." She purred as she stepped closer to him putting her hand on his chest. Nina was buzzing hard and Juice was becoming cuter to her by the minute. She wondered how his lips tasted. Why couldn't she find out? Hell Jax was married and most likely still fucking his wife. After all, she was just a side chick to him. She needed a distraction from the terror she still felt from yesterday's ordeal and Juice would be the perfect distraction. Juice looked into Nina's brown eyes and lost himself. He forgot all about Jax as he leaned down and captured Nina's lips. Nina pushed her body against him as their kissed deepen. Nina moaned as she felt Juice's hard on pressed against her. Juice took his time exploring her mouth with his tongue. He wanted her bad and he had to have her. Juice broke their kiss and pulled off his t-shirt. Nina smiled as she took in his muscular chest. She sighed with desire as she ran her hands over his chest.

"We can't tell Jax." He told her.

"I know….it will stay between us." She said cutting off the stove and moving the frying pan off the hot element. Nina laughed as Juice picked her up and headed to her bedroom.

Nina…Nina…what is she doing. Totally not the way to deal with what happen to her and Lily.