Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Wing or it's characters, and I definately don't own Etta James's absolutely beautiful song, "All I Could Do Is Cry."
All I Could Do Is Cry
I heard church bells ringing
Relena blinked as she silently watched the couple in the shadows of a crowd. They were happy. Something she obviously wasn't able to give him in return.
I heard a quiet singing
They were a beautiful couple, and she should've been delighted for them both, but she wasn't. She was torn apart by the mere sight.
I saw my love walk down the isle
On her finger, he placed a ring
They were the happiest bride and groom she had ever seen, and she had seen plenty in her young life. The wedding itself was perfect, and she forced herself to witness it with a heavy heart. This was the man she loved, after all.
She deserved to see him be happily married off.
Oh, I saw them holding hands
She was standing there with my man
They stared deeply into each other eyes and she could see their love just bursting through that gaze. It hurt. It hurt more than she thought possible and she found herself choking back tears. The reality of it all finally hitting her like a slap in the face.
He was marrying another woman. Another woman that wasn't her.
I heard them promise, 'Till death do us part'
Each word was a pain in my heart
As they lovingly read their vows out loud to each other Relena slowly began to cry, finally realizing that she was losing him forever. He wasn't hers any longer, and she couldn't claim him to be. He was someone else's. She didn't have anything to keep him around anymore. He now belonged to someone else.
All I could do, all I could do so was cry
All I could do was cry
She cried, her bottomless sadness and sorrow showing through for anyone to witness. Her tears masked as profound happiness for the newlywed's and their newly cemented relationship.
I was losing the man that I loved
And all I could do was cry
She sniffed softly as she saw them smile tenderly towards each other, eyes gleaming with joy and anticipation for what was to come in the near future of their marriage. Then, they kissed. Everyone cheered ecstatically for the couple while she, on the other hand, covered her mouth as she began to sob uncontrollably.
And now, the wedding's over
Rice, rice has been thrown over their heads
Hesitantly, she chanced a glance at them as they made their way back down the isle. The people crowded around her, cheered and applauded jovially for them as they walked by and the couple just smiled back. He looked so happy -- it was devastating to watch for too long.
For them life has just begun
But mine is at an end
Suddenly, she couldn't take it anymore and she ran out of the church with tears streaming down her face. As she quickly exited she didn't notice the pair of prussian blue eyes widening at the sight of her. So she ran, only stopping to catch her breath outside of the large church doors.
"Relena." She heard her name being softly spoken behind her, and she immediately stiffened at the sound.
She didn't have to ask who it was, she already knew all too well so she decided not to turn around. He didn't need to see her tear streaked face on the happiest day of his life. His wedding day. "Heero, congratulations." Relena whispered, still trying to catch her breath. "I'm so happy for you. The ceremony was absolutely beautiful and everything looked so perfect . . . I loved your wife's wedding dress . . ."
Heero sighed and roughly turned her around to meet his intense gaze. "Relena, why did you come?"
Relena paused, desperately trying to keep her eyes in level with his without having to look directly into them. That would be too devastating to withstand without breaking down in tears. "I-I . . . I just wanted to see you one last time before I have to leave for space, and I also wanted to see you get married."
"Why?" He asked, his face as emotionless as ever.
Something inside of her told her that he only put that mask on around her, not his wife . . . His wife got the satisfaction of seeing his joy, anger, sadness, or any other emotion at any time. How she wished deep down inside that she could've been the one to give him that. She just wanted to make him happy, maybe that had been their downfall . . .
"Because you mean a lot to me, Heero, and this is a very important day for you." Relena began with a small smile crossing her youthful features. The first in a long time. "I at least wanted to be a witness of it. I truly am happy for the both you and I hope the two of you have a wonderful life together."
Heero let her go and nodded, seeming satisfied with her answer.
Thinking that he had finished with her, Relena turned and began to walk away when suddenly he once again called out her name. Relena stopped. "Relena, thank you for coming . . . It meant a lot to me, really."
Relena nodded and walked away. She would have liked to say if they could be friend's, but she knew it wouldn't have worked out. There was already too much distance between them, and it would've just made things worse.
This way was better. This way she left with a good memory of him and not a bad one. Then she would be able to slowly begin to forget him and move with her own life. Who knows, maybe then he would be the one attending her own wedding . . . With his wife by his side of course.
All I could do, all I could do was cry
All I could do was cry
I was losing the man that I loved
And all I could do was cry
A. N.: How did you like it? I hope it wasn't too depressing since it's supposed to give some hope at the end. However, I do like to write a tad bit of angst, and especially while listening to some Etta James. And since I'm currently listening to her greatest hits 24/7 do be expecting some more songfics inspired by her. She is the absolute best and I recommed at least giving her music a try. XD