A/N: Sorry it took so long to get this up but I hope you enjoy.
I don't own the show or any characters other than Lisa,and I don't own "Through her eyes" By Dream Theatre a little bit of a song fic for this chapter.
They made it to the hospital a few minutes later. An IV was put in Lisa's arm to replenish her bodies' nutrients. Then was rolled to a more private area where they would do a rape kit.
"I want to stay with her." Olivia said when they began to guide her away.
"We have to do a rape kit of both of you," the nurse told her. The two women 's hands hadn't detached yet, Olivia tried to make herself believe it was to comfort Lisa but she had to admit the idea of being separated right now would probably hurt her more than it would Lisa.
"They can be done in the same room can't they?" Lisa spoke up softly. The nurse nodded, she had just been filled in on what happened. She didn't want to be the one to separate the two.
Lisa helped as much as she could to remove her clothes, though now that the adrenaline had worn off it was all she could do to stay awake. There was a curtain between the two women having the exam. Olivia looked over at Lisa, surprised by how calm she looked.
"You look like you've done this before." Olivia said trying to lighten the mood a little by starting a conversation. Lisa turned to her and smiled.
"It is easier the second time." The smiled didn't fade, Olivia's did, she was at a loss for words.
"When?" was all she said.
"When I was 18, I went traveling through Europe and was attacked in Belgium." Lisa smiled trying to lighten the mood. "Do you know how scary it is to ride code 3 down the streets there? The roads are so narrow I thought we would crash into everything we passed." Lisa laughed lightly. "I didn't even know what the official language was there." She laughed again, trying to shake off the uneasy feeling. "That's when I decided I wanted to be a sex crimes detective." Olivia tried to shake the feeling from stomach. No wonder this girl was so demolished when her dad was arrested. She knew what it was like to be on the other side, and to see her dad as the perp, Olivia didn't want to think about it. Both were given morning after pills and Lisa was rolled to another room to recover. Olivia had hesitated at first when offered the pill but took it, she didn't want to raise a child she knew would be a constant reminder of what happened. Fin, John, Elliot and Don all watched as Olivia followed the bed into the room. Never leaving Lisa's side. The two had been given some clothes from the hospital and it was then that Olivia saw the bandages around her wrists. A small scab on the bottom of her chin and a white bandage poking out from the bottom of her shirt wrapped around her middle that looked similar to her own. She sighed not really knowing what to say, Lisa looked up and saw Olivia's dazed look in the direction her stomach, she self-consciously pulled the shirt down and gave a small smile to Olivia.
Lisa had finally been given permission to fall asleep and seconds later she was out like a light, leaving Olivia with her own thoughts.
She never really had a chance
On that fateful moonlit night
Sacrificed without a fight
A victim of her circumstance
Olivia sat in the hospital room, thinking about her mother. She wished she could have been conceived another way and been raised by a mother that wasn't an alcoholic. Never the less she loved her mother for the chance she gave her by not having an abortion, and she loved her mother for being her mother.
Now that I've become aware
And I've exposed this tragedy
A sadness grows inside of me
It all seems so unfair
Lisa woke up to see Olivia sleeping, wondering how much sleep if any, the detectives got while she was gone. Her thoughts went back to her father, she knew she did the right thing. She charged a rapist, closed a case and helped another detective find closure, but why did it have to suck so much? Lisa would have preferred to have arrested him on bank robbery, anything else but rape. It just didn't seem fair. Olivia began to shift and woke up. "Hey," Lisa smiled, Olivia smiled back.
"Hey, how are you feeling?"
"Better, how about you?"
"I'm fine," Olivia answered rehearsed. Lisa gave her a look.
"We both know that's a lie," she raised her eyebrows, Olivia smiled. "It just takes time to talk and think it through, it does get better or easier." Lisa offered.
"I thought the older sister was supposed to be giving the advice not receiving it?" Olivia smiled weakly, Lisa smiled back, Olivia grabbed her hand and the two just sat with each other for a while.
I'm learning all about my life
By looking through her eyes
George had taken over watching her while Olivia went for a walk she needed to get out. She had one place in particular in mind.
Just beyond the churchyard gates
Where the grass is overgrown
I saw the writing on her stone
I felt like I would suffocate
In loving memory of our child
So innocent, eyes open wide
I felt so empty as I cried
Like part of me had died
Olivia kneeled down beside the grave of her mother and put a flower she had bought down beside her name. She understood what her mother had gone through now, she was able to see life from her prospective now. Olivia feared this would rule her life like it did her mothers, until she had talked to Lisa during the exam. Lisa was so strong and it gave her hope, hope that she wouldn't be a victim of rape; she would be a survivor of it.
I'm learning all about my life
By looking through her eyes
George watched as Lisa began to cry in her sleep, his heart lurched in pain to see her like this. To imagine what she had gone through.
'"Mommy mommy come play with me." Little Lisa said she ran in from school.
"Not now sweet heart mommy's tired."
"You're always tired, it's no fun." The little girl stomped away. Her father walked up to her mother and lifted her disappointed face.
"She's trying to understand why you're sick right now Arial, it's confusing for her." He tried to sooth, she just nodded and smiled and slowly stood up to watch her daughter play.'
And as her image
Wandered through my head
I wept just like a baby
As I lay awake in bed
George was so thankful to have her back, he knew it would be another lengthy healing process but he had a feeling it would be easier this time because she wouldn't keep it hidden inside for nearly as long as before. He thought back to the second day she had been missing, he was devastated. He thought he'd lost her again for good this time.
And I know what it's like
To lose someone you love
And this felt just the same
"Please no," George heard her say before a scream erupted from her mouth. Don and the other three male detectives ran in, followed by nurses to make sure she was ok. "please no, not again Toby." She said quietly, still loud enough for everyone in the room to hear. Everyone exchanged looks, all knowing what happened to Olivia was just a glimpse of what happened to her the 4 days in captivity.
She wasn't given any choice
Desperation stole her voice
I've been given so much more in life
Lisa had been released from the hospital that afternoon, Olivia had been in and out talking with a psychiatrist Elliot forced her to go to. Olivia had a picture of her as a little girl, maybe 3 or 4 when her mother was still sober, it had been laminated; it was dry out right now so she went and bought some super glue and headed to her mothers grave.
I had to suffer one last time
To grieve for her and say goodbye
She placed a dab of glue on the back of the picture and held it firmly to the stone until it set, kissed the picture one last time and got up to leave. On the other side of the cemetery she recognized a figure kneeling on the ground. Olivia knew it was Lisa, she took one breath and walked over to her.
Re live the anguish of my past
To find out who I was at last
"Lisa," Olivia said putting a hand on her shoulder, Lisa jumped and reached for her gun not expecting anyone to be here. When she saw Olivia she snapped her gun back into her holster. Olivia cursed herself she had been working with victims of rape for how long? She should have known not to do that, Olivia looked down at the stone 'Arial Madow-Johnson' her mother. "What else have I inherited from my father? Aside from my eyes and stubbornness." Lisa looked at her a little defensive at first, but when she saw the sincere look she stood and the two walked side by side leaving the cemetery, opening doors that had been closed for years, and finally start to make sense of things.
The door has opened wide
I'm turning with the tide
Looking through her eyesA/N: I'm soooo sorry it took so long for me to update but I moved on Saturday and I don't have internet yet. So I have to do it at school. I've already started the sequel so I'll get that up as soon as I can but it may take another week or so. I'll try and put it up faster but no guarantees. Anyway please read and review, also if you have anything you'd like me to focus on in the sequel let me know and I'll try and fit it in.