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Choose my disguise, and I will wear it, but never ask for me not to remove all my masks.

Did you know that the full moon of April is called the Pink Moon. I didn't know it either until Remus told me one morning. It was still very early, the sky was orange, gold and violet where the moon had just sunk into the horizon. My favorite time of day, when the sky woke up, it was every color and full of every possibility.

I love color it shows the world's possibility for simple beauty. You just have to notice it. I noticed it everyday. That's why I am colorful, to remind my self of the possibilities of everyday.

I normally can't roll myself out of bed on time if it killed me, but there I was awake looking out a small dingy window in Remus's room at Grimmauld. The black smudges and cobwebs marred the view but I could still see the effect.

Remus was still asleep on his back. I was probably not helping his breathing by laying on him, nestling under his arm. His left arm was around my waist. My hand on his stomach. The sunrise was breaking just over his right shoulder, where, Fenir Greyback had bit him.

I touched the old gray bite mark. I traced the heavy pink ridges of deep slashes on his chest. I followed a dark purple vein to his hand and grasped it. I clutched his hand to my chest.

He had been watching me with his curious blue eyes. His free hand was combing through my hair, I kept in my normal length, but the sun rise inspired me to try and match the colors. I wasn't near close with my melon/salmon/coral color.

"Nymphadora?" he said. "Hmm" I responded absentmindedly.

"What do you look like?" he seriously questioned. I paused and looked at him. I didn't know how to answer him.

"Please, Remus, Don't ruin a good thing so quick." I said shyly.

He turned on his side to look at me in the eye. "I didn't mean to upset you, I just never seen with out all the morphing."

"I know, its just that I don't feel like my natural appearance, I feel like what I make myself." I explained. "My natural appearance is drab and rather depressing looking, and that's not how I like to be."

"Well, If this is who you are. I like it. I wouldn't have you any other way." he admitted.

I smiled and looked into his eyes, merlin we are getting corny, "Well, What about you.? Will I ever see the wolf?"

"NO" he shouted, "It's too dangerous, I would never want you around that beast!"

"Even with the Wolfsbane?" I questioned

"Yes, The wolf isn't me, like your natural form isn't you." he ventured, " I can't show you that."

I nodded. We sat there awhile in silence. I hate silence. It just kind of creeps me out how he can be so quiet like that for hours. I started fidgeting after a while. He looked down at me. Noticing my unease with long silences.

"Did you know tonight is the Pink Moon." he off handedly said. "I find it ironic, that you are so pink and full of life and make me so happy. That the moon is some how associated with you in my mind."

"It is a little ironic, I guess." I responded. YAY. I made him happy. Ok, I just got associated with something that turns him into a monster. Maybe not so good.

"Let's get breakfast," I said cheerfully, "Before Molly catches us in bed together."

He laughed, "Yes, What will be of our reputations. If it ever got out that we spent the night in bed together"

"You are ruining my virtue, Mr. Lupin" I fake fainted. "Get up, N'dora its getting late" he said as he crept out of bed.

OOH, He was naked. Oh yeah that's my doing. "Stop. Staring Nymphadora" he said in professor-ish tone. I watched him finish dressing, whilst I sat there in the bed with the sheets wrapped around my shoulders.

"Seriously, Tonks you need to get dressed. I don't think Sirius wants to see you in only a sheet." he accused.

"Actually I don't think he would mind if I ran around Grimmauld in nothing at all. It has been awhile he's seen a girl my age naked." I joked.

"Really it has been that long for him" he said blatantly. "You guys swap sex stories like you were still at Hogwarts don't you?" I accused.

"Get Dressed, Tonks." he said attempting not to get caught. I'll get the stories later from Sirius. I want to know what is exactly going on in this house. And what type of things Remus is telling my cousin about me.

"Nope, my clothes are covered in mud from last nights mission." I feigned an excuse.

"Ok," he reached down and grabbed my waist. "WHAT ARE YOU DOING?" I screamed as I was thrown over his shoulder.

"Going to your actual room and getting some clothes for you to wear." he said opening the door. My room was right across the hallway, but Sirius was right on the landing at the start of the hallway.

"Hello, Sirius" I waved before the door shut after us. He threw me on the bed.

"Clothes. Nymphadora"he said. I shook my head. I wouldn't mind staying in his sheet all day.

"Ok, I am hungry, So I'm getting you clothes." he said whilst he went to the wardrobe. He grabbed a pair of jeans and faded jumper and threw them at me.

"What? No underwear!" I gasped

He shook his head, "You've been difficult. Now change! I'm hungry." I grabbed the clothes and hastily put them on.

Running down the stairs I was caught by Moody. He later went on to assign Emmaline and I to watch Narcissa shop. They thought she was going to buy some dark objects. It was a rather fun mission. We got to be girls shopping, all the same places Aunt Cissy did. One the more uncomfortable moments was following my aunt into a muggle sex shop and watching her buy a whip. Funny. Yes. Disturbing. Definitely.

When I returned Remus and Sirius were talking and laughing rather loudly in the study. My inquisitive mind always wants to know, plus hadn't dear old wolfie mentioned that they could be like school mates I leaned my ear against the door then suddenly the door opened. I fell smack on to the floor in front of Remus's feet.

"Hello, Nymphadora, What were doing at the door?" Remus said politely.

Sirius sniggered from behind him, "Spying very badly, If I say so."

I moved back to sit on my feet. I hated it when Sirius was right. I gave my best attempt to give "the death glare" and growl/grunt. I really have no idea, what I was doing other than I had to think fast to cover this. I am horrible at thinking fast or lying when it comes to Remus.

"So, N'dora. Sirius is correct then. " he said.

"Yes" I admitted, " What were you guys talking about?"

He crossed his arms and looked down at me like I was a petulant child. "I really don't believe you deserve to know."

"Yes, she does, it was about her. Remus." Sirius grinned. HAHA I had my advantage, thank you cousin. I got up and brushed pass Remus to sit in the arm chair. Sirius followed suit and sit in a chair next to me.

I crossed my legs in business fashion; lent over like a gossipy girl, "So tell me dear cousin, what is wolfie saying about me?"

"Well first of all you are very bendy." he replied. My eyebrows shot up. I looked over to Remus sitting on the sofa who had his head in his hands.

"Sure" I tried sounding nonchalant, but it isn't everyday your cousin talks about your sex life.

"I would love to know where you learned so much? Was it Auntie's Wicked Witch?" he continued on., "Does she know you have it.? I remember this one article."

I laughed, "No, nothing ever from an article, all natural talent."

"Oh yeah, And that costume sounded great. Where did you get it?" he went on.

"YOUR MOM." I joked. "HAHA, I bet you did." he said seriously. My mouth dropped. Who in their right mind says stuff like that about their mom.

"It seems your quite handsy , Coz….. Maybe you need to be tied up" he said off-handedly.

"SIRIUS" Both, Remus and I yelled. We were red from embarrassment.

He had the balls to continue on, "And he," Sirius pointed to Remus, " Finds it fascinating that when you come your eyes change about a billion and one colors."

I looked to Remus, he was looking at his feet, as if he was a shamed. He found my ability fascinating.

"This is my cue to leave." Sirius muttered as he exited the door. I walked to Remus and kneeled down at his feet; looking into his eyes. "It's ok, I'm not mad. I never knew that actually." I gently kissed him.

He brushed the hair from my face. "Nymphadora, It's getting late. I need to go upstairs." he paused collecting his thoughts, " Severus didn't have time to brew the wolfsbane tonight. No matter what you hear. You must stay away. Can you promise me that?"

"Yes" I said. I could feel my eyes burning from kept tears. Thank goodness Sirius would be keeping him company. He took my hand and lifted me up. He kissed me passionately at the threshold of the attic door.

"It's time for me to go Remus." I struggled out. Sirius went in and Remus followed; the door shut. I placed my hand on the door. "Goodnight. Wolfie"

I took my shower, I tried my best on nights like this to be normal but it is still very hard. About midnight I had settled into Remus's bed. Its something about smells. It was comforting, even in the most tense moment. All through the house I could hear growls, barks, slamming; basically anything that sounds like the most intense fight of anyone could ever hear.

Late during the night. I snuck to the door and sat at the seal. I could hear the wolf sniffing my scent from the other side of the door. He began to scratch. Where had Sirius gone. He was probably knocked out. The wolf was running up and smacking against the door. I could hear the wolf gnawing on itself.

I could hear the wolf killing him. All I wanted was to save him from the beast with in, but the beast was him. My resolve was to not cry not to show weakness, I would be strong for Remus, for myself.

The sun broke. I yanked open the door exposing and naked, bloody form of Lupin. I fell to knees, cleaning the blood from his face. He had gashes on his body just from my scent. Me. I had to go to the door.

I knew I had to clean his wounds. I tore off my shirt and began making pink strips to tighten around his scratches. With each strip, my resolve began to break away.

Slowly he began to wake. My face was red and teary. "N'dora, is that you?" he said hoarsely. "I'm so sorry" I cried into his chest mousy locks falling into my face.

"Is this you?" he asked.

My mask was gone. No more tears. No words

I just nodded.

A/N: This has not been to a beta, I am also really sorry this took so long. I moved to college. My goal is a chapter a week from now on. So sorry. Despite my incredible tardiness please review. They make my day.