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Chapter Three: Things Might Be Harder if You Weren't a Lesbian

Dream

"Sora" I heard Kairi say in slight confusion as I touched her hand, having a frenzy of new sensations go through my body.

I smiled at her as I held her hand in mine, unsure of how she was really reacting. I didn't dare look into her eyes. If her eyes carried any disgust by my the gesture, I would have died. I just held her hand tighter, not wanting to ever let go. I looked away from her, too afraid to look in her way.

"Sora" I heard Kairi say again, her voice coming out more stern than before.

I felt her free hand pull my head lightly toward her direction. She picked my head up to try and meet my eyes, but I wouldn't allow it. I was too scared. I don't know why exactly. I mean, in times of "need" I had reached out to other girls who were more than willing to "comfort" me in any way necessary; so I was not ill equipped when it came to women. But this just wasn't any woman, this was Kairi.

My heart speeds up at just the sight of her. It's overwhelmed when she is just standing close next to me. I'm driven insane when some part of her body accidentally touches mine. And I feel so at peace when I just gaze at her beautiful face.

"Sora, look at me" I heard Kairi say in an almost desperate voice.

Not being able to bare the tone in her voice, I looked into her eyes, and as I did they lit up with happiness. She smiled at me and I smiled back; I swear her smiles were contagious. I could feel her squeeze my hand, which was sweating profusely, and it gave me some type of assurance.

All I could do was stare into her beautiful purple gems, bringing myself some peace as I did so. They were so captivating. She smiled at me as we continued to hold each others gaze as a lock of her beautiful red hair flew into her face. She used her free hand to pull it behind her ear and a very odd erg to touch her face sprung up from within me. Following on the feeling, I slowly let my free hand reach for her face.

As my hand came in contact with the soft, smooth skin of her face, she closed her eyes and took in a sharp breath. She breathed out slowly and opened her eyes, revealing everything she was feeling. Her eyes shone with happiness, desire, and love; just from that little action.

A large jolt of happiness and excitement grew within me. Love! Love was shining in her eyes, for me! I could feel the gentle smile on my face turn into a full-fledged grin at the thought of her loving me.

And just as I was about to explode from the overwhelming feelings of happiness that were surging through my heart, everything went black.

End of Dream

I awoke once more from my sleep, less tired than before, but still tired. I was happy and sad all at once. The dream I had just had was fantastic, but it ended.

"Kairi" I said out loud, lowly to myself.

It seemed I only really felt anything when I thought of her. And to just think about how I would be going home soon filled me with happiness.

I looked out the window that lingered above my bed. It was still night and the stars were shining brilliantly. Wanting to feel the cool air blowing on my face, I got up out of my bed and began to dress so I could go outside. I grabbed my long black shorts from off of the table and quickly through them on over my boxers. I quickly grabbed my navy blue t-shirt and threw it over my head as I headed out of my room.

I shut the door behind me as lightly as possible, not wanting to wake anyone on the floor up. I went right and began walking toward the end of the hall, where a staircase was. As I walked, I took in the hallway. The walls were a dark yellow that only seemed bright were light from the lamps hit it. The lamps weren't that bright and they hung low from the ceiling, almost hitting my head. The floor was a deep red carpet that felt soft under neath my bare feet.

"Damn," I said to myself as I reached the door, "I forgot my shoes. Oh well."

I pushed open the door slowly so it wouldn't creek and shut it as gently as I could. I thanked whatever heavenly being that controlled everything for there being carpet on the stairs. I walked all the way up the cold and dark staircase to the highest landing, on the highest floor. I opened the window on the landing I was on. I smiled as I popped my head out of the window and saw I would be able to get onto the roof easily. I hopped out the window and landed on the roof, hurting my feet slightly as I did so. Ignoring the minor pain, I climbed up the brown, wooden roof and stopped when I reached the top. I sat down and just stared at the night's sky, filled with stars.

"Beautiful, isn't it?" I heard a familiar voice say from behind me.

I turned my head around to find one of my best friends, Taylor. She stood a few feet behind me, balanced perfectly on the slanted roof top. Her shoulder length, black hair flew gracefully in the air as a gust of wind shot by, sending chills down my spine. Her warm green eyes matched the smile on her face as she walked toward me and sat down next to me. Once she had sat down, she brushed her black jeans off and crossed her legs; something I had known her to do ever since I had met her. And as soon as she smoothed out a wrinkle on her green, long sleeved shirt, she turned her head in my direction and began to speak.

"Doesn't it just make you wish you could be a star?" Taylor asked me as she looked away from me and up toward the sky.

"What?" I asked as I stared at her, slightly confused.

"The sky," She responded in a dreamy voice, "doesn't it just make you wish you could be a star?"

I smiled and chuckled lightly at her, "Yes, it does."

Taylor sighed and leaned her head on my shoulder. I wrapped my arm around her lower back and rested my head on top of hers. She began singing lowly to herself and I closed my eyes; I had always loved the sound of her voice ever since I had her speak.

" And she falls down, and she falls down

I could help her up, but she needs to learn

So she falls down, she falls down

I could save her now but she needs time to heal

so she falls down . . . "

"Why do you still sing that song?" I asked her, thinking of the memory it brought.

"Well, I like it" Taylor responded as she lifted her head from my underneath mine, I could hear the smile in her voice. "You were amazing when you sang it."

I blushed, I a really embarrassing memory. "It was for a distraction, and you know that."

"It sure distracted me. It was so beautiful the way you sang it. I almost cried."

I laughed at her last comment, as I could clearly hear the teasing in her voice. "Shut up."

"I'm serious, I wish I had taped it" she said as she tried so desperately to hide the laughter that was escaping her throat.

"Shut up" I said as I quickly poked at her sides, causing her to laugh loudly.

"Stoooooooooppp" She whined in a voice filled with laughter as I continued.

"Only if you will" I said as I continued my poking attack, holding her close to my side so she couldn't escape.

"Fine!" she shouted.

"Good" I said, hearing her voice slowly letting the laughter die.

"You're no fun" She said in a childish' voice as she clung to my side.

"Aw, sure I am. I'm loads of fun" I said in a cheerful voice as I smiled cheekily at her.

"Shut up" she said laughing as she tapped my face lightly, imitating a slap.

We stopped talking and she rested her head on my shoulder once more. I also laid my head down on top of hers once again, feeling at home just sitting with her.

Taylor ... holds a ... weird place in my heart. See, the first instant I saw her I fell in love with her. When I finally got up the courage to tell her so, she explained how she was in love with me but was not attracted to me in any way. Cause ya see, Taylor is a lesbian. So, our relationship was weird for about a year. I was in love with her, body and soul. She was just in love with my soul. It was hard for us to maintain any type of relationship. Eventually, we just decided we would just ignore all the strange things that went on between us and we just winged it.

Since then, we've been using each other for ... well ... let's just say satisfaction. And oddly, it's not weird between us. We're actually as close as we could ever be. We both know that it won't lead anywhere. And now, we're like brother and sister ... in a weird, incest way. I mean, I do love her, but somehow Kairi still seems to win my heart. And we both know that as soon as I go home, there will be no more ... emm ... satisfaction between us. We'll just act like we normally do, like brother and sister; just without the weird incest thing.

I could feel my self dosing off as my mind just kept thinking. Taylor became aware that I was slowly slipping away to lala land. She rubbed my back to get my attention and spoke lowly into my ear.

"Come on, we should get you back to your bed mister."

"I don't wanna" I said in a child like voice.

"Come one mister, or else I'll have to spank you" She said as she stood u, leaving me no pillow to lean on.

"Promise?" I asked in a cocky voice as I slowly began to get up.

"Shut up" She said as she helped lead me off of the roof.

Once we made it back to the front door of my room, she kissed me good night and began to leave. I didn't want her to leave. I didn't want to be alone.

"Wait" I called to her. She turned around and crossed her arms across her chest, waiting impatiently for me to speak again. "Please sleep with me tonight. The only time I feel anything is when I'm with you or thinking of her."

Taylor smiled sympathetically at me, understanding me wanting to feel. She new how numb I had become over the years. Hell, I bet she could tell how even more unfeeling I had become within the last 24 hours.

"Fine," she said as she walked toward me, "but if you kick me once, so help me God."

I laughed as I turned from her and opened the door. I waited for her to enter and closed the door after she had walked in. I watched as she took her black and green shoes off and slowly laid down in my bed, underneath the covers. I smiled as I walked toward her and the bed, feeling all the more tired with each step I took.

I laid underneath the blankets with her and draped my right arm over her stomach, pulling her a little closer to me than she already was. I looked at her with half-closed eyes, smiling at her. I felt peaceful whenever she was near. She smiled at me and gently kissed me on the lips.

"Ow, how much harder this would be if I didn't know you were a lesbian" I said lightly, smiling at my own truthful joke.

She laughed lightly and snuggled her fast into my chest. "I know what you mean" I heard her say before I dozed off into my dreams.