"Oh, Mamo-chan..." she whispered as she looked at his calm face. His eyes were closed as he slept calmly...or so she thought he was sleeping.
Usagi closed her eyes as she reminisced the events that had taken place after she had called 911.
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Mamoru was rushed out of the appartment complex as quick as possible. They placed him in the ambulance and let Usagi come, since it was she who had made the call. Usagi remembered his face screwed up in pain as he tried not to scream. once they got to the hospital, he was rushed into the emergency room. They had performed some kind of operation to help him.
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"That damn nurse! It was all her damn fault! I know it was the cream that hurt him! I thought nurses were supposed to help people? Damn her!" Usagi muttered as she closed her eyes.
She heard a female chuckle comeing from the door-way of the hospital room Mamoru was placed in. She looked toward the door and snapped; there, smiling wickedly was the same nurswe that had reccomended the creame. As Usagi looked at her, her hatred toward the nurse grew.
It sky-rocketed when the nurse walked into the room and spoke, "Heh heh hehhh...So, the cream worked I take it? Hmhmhmhmmmm...it is so much fun watching you suffer, hearing your thoughts..." Her smooth voice spoke humorusly.
Usagi's eyes stayed narrow, "hearing my thoughts...?".
"Yes...you see...I'm no ordinary human...in fact, hahaha!...I'm not human at all...I can hear your thoughts." The woman spoke.
"Why do you think your family died in that accident, hmmm?" The woman asked as she stood over Usagi.
"Wh...oh you evil woman!" Usagi spoke with acid in her voice as she stood up.
"Yes...I killed them, I sent the youma bird loose and intended for Mamoru to get attacked, to kill him when he cam here. I know your soft-spot for him and knew you would want to get revenge on the monster for almost killling him and save the other people by ridding the world of that monster. I knew pluto would perform death-dome close and that you would want to save her and by doing so, killing yourself! Yes, Tsukino Usagi...Sailor Moon... I am trying to make your life nothing but misery and pain, I am trying to kill you! And, I will kill you and make your love suffer from seeing it!"
The woman finished speaking and Mamoru slowly opened his eyes. He looked at the nurse then back to Usagi.
The nurse reached into her pocket and pulled out a switch-blade, "Prepare to die...".
She flipped it open and drew her arm back, Usagi didn't even react, she just stood there, not helpless, just not careing at all anymore.
"Go ahead, do it...I don't care anymore. I want to die...I want to stop hurting. But, please, not in front of Mamoru..." Usagi spoke as her expression became blank.
'Usagi!' Mamoru thought.
As the nurse began to lunge the blade for Usagi's heart, a hand grabbed her wrist.
"Don't you DARE harm her. I'll kill you before I see her hurt!" Mamoru spoke.
Usagi's eyes had been closed and when she heard his voice and his words her stomach jumped. She opened her eyes and looked at Mamoru; his blue eyes were narrowed in anger at the nurse whose expression was of pure shock.
"Mamoru..." Usagi whispered as she stared at him.
Mamoru moved the nurses arm and made her stab herself in the throat. The woman faded into dust that flashed white then dissapeared.
"You...killed her.." Usagi spoke, shocked.
"I heard her, she wasn't even human." Mamoru broke out into a fit of coughs.
Usagi ushered him back into bed and spoke, "You shouldn't have forced yourself out of bed, you aren't ever going to heal like that you know!".
"You actually expected me to watch you get killed and not do anything about it? How stupid...you actually want to die? Look Bunny, do you know how many people you would hurt by makeing that choice and by getting yourself killed? I thought you put everyone before yourself, I guess I was wrong..." Mamoru spoke as he gazed at Usagi sadly.
Usagi gazed into his eyes for a moment.
Suddenly she dropped to the floor and red her head in her arms on Mamoru's bed, "I'm sorry Mamo-chan...I'm sorry. I'm just...sick of all this happening to me, its too much to handle. I'm sorry but, I'd rather be dead and resting peacefuly instead of going through this pain, I can't take it tanymore, I am not strong enough!"
"I'll help you find the strength!" Mamoru's voice whispered re-asuringly.
Usagi looked up into his eyes for a moment. His eyes drew her in somehow.
Usagi opened her mouth to speak but was caught off-guard when Mamoru grabbed her by the shoulders and placed a kiss upon her lips. As he kissed her she felt some of the fears, worries, doubts and pain in her heart melt away with the rest of her. Her heart beat increased rappidly and showed no sign of slowing down anytime soon. She suddenly lost the ability to keep herself upright and started to slip.
Their lips broke apart for only but a second because Mamoru wrapped his arms around Usagi's back and held her tightly to him as he joined their lips again. He could feel Usagi's tears touch his cheek and run into the kiss, but held her lips firmly in his.
A moment later they realized with great dissapointment that they needed to breath. Mamoru pulled his head away from her just enough so he could see into her eyes. Each felt the rapid, warm breath of the other as they gasped for breath; in desperate need of air from holding the kiss for so long. Their breathing soon calmed as they starred into the eyes of eachother, being mesmerised by the blue of eachother's eyes and the love and care and worry each held for eachother showing clearly so that words needed not to be spoken. But they spoke them anyway.
"Mamoru...I love you so much! Please don't leave me, I've lost everyone else in my life I loved in a close way, don't let me lose you too!" Usagi pleaded in desperation as she grasped his shoulders but still keeping the space between them as close as Mamoru had made it.
Mamoru watched as Usagi's eyes filled with fresh tears.
"How could I even think of such a thing, Usako? I love you too much! Never, I'll never leave you, I promise! I swear it! As long as you promise to never want to die again and leave me, Bun; then I'll keep my promise!" Mamoru spoke as he wrapped his arms around her and pulled her to him.
Without heasitation, she returned the embrace and whispered in his ear, "I promise to NEVER want to die again, I promise, I swear it!".
Author's notes:
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FINALLY! It's up:) Well, what did you all think? Like it? Please reveiw and let me know! I know, kind of a boreing chapter, sorry about that. Just because I'm bored doesn't mean my story should be right? Right. Well, anyway, in the next chapter, Usagi is sent to Rei's temple because Mamoru doesn't want her to be alone at his apartment. A little Rei and Chad is mixed in there too (Anyonbe know Chad's Japanese name?). The next chapter is going to have alot of the characters thoughts and feelings in it too. Well, till next time,
-Silver carnation