KawaiiMegami86 has to win for getting most of the characters! Most people got at least one though, so that's ok. They were- Hotlips Houlihan from MASH (my fav show EVER), Jack McFarland from Will and Grace, Kris Kochanski from Red Dwarf and the really random one that I'm not surprised no one got was Sam Carter from Stargate SG1.

Right, now on with the show. This is how most people wanted things to go, and I was going to write this anyway. Also, I'm now taking any requests for new fics that people want me to write. Coz the summer's coming up, and my holiday, so I need something to do, and it may as well be something that people like.

"What the- Re, get out of the window!" Damn, damn, damn. The only person who'd ever be able to talk me out of this is Sirius- so of course he's the one who's found me.

"No. Now get lost."

"You could fall!"

"That is the general idea."

"What!" He runs into the room to stand behind me. "Rem! You don't want to fall, you might die."

"What have I got left to live for?"

"There's me. And Prongs, and Wormtail."

"You?" My voice is dead, lifeless. "You don't care about me."

"Re, I care! I've barely spoken to you in the past month and it's been killing me."

I turn around and step back into the room. He's standing with his hair mucked up in a way that would normally send my heart spinning around. Not now. "Do you want sympathy? Yo betrayed me. The one thing I keep to myself you told. For all your high talk about how you looked past my curse, you still only see me as a monster."

Surprise appears in his eyes, and he shakes his head quickly. "Re, no…"

"You knew I would kill Snape, and I think you wanted me to," I hiss.

"Maybe." I look at him again, taken aback by the admission of guilt. He's staring off into space. "You never did let me explain why I did it." He takes a deep breath. "I was jealous."

"What? What of?"

He's drumming his fingers on his leg, something he only does when he's nervous. "Snape. When I saw you with him, you were relaxed, smiling and joking. You haven't been like that around me for ages. And he fancied you, I could see it in his eyes."

I shrug angrily. "So what if he liked me? Sirius, aren't I allowed someone? I wouldn't have gone out with Snape, but can't I have a friend?"

"I didn't think he was good enough for you," he says in a small voice.

I shake my head and turn away, back to the window. "You know, you can't physically stop me from killing myself."

He stands beside me. "Full moon's on Thursday. Strength kicking in?" I nod. "Listen, Re, let me get something straight. You want to kill yourself just because you might have killed Snape, and because I've been a git?"

"No, not just that." I sigh. "I'm in love, and it's killing me."

"What? Why?"

"I can't tell him. He already has someone, and he'd never look twice at me in that way."

"Re, you're an amazing guy, and- hang on, he?"

I stiffen. Make or break time. I'm glad I can't see his face. "Yes. I'm gay."

"Ah. That's why you got pissed off and walked out of the room. Rem," he puts his arms around me from behind, "being gay is nothing wrong. Pete's a prat, you know that."

I relax against him. "It's just another way of making me different, Siri."

"Bull. There are tons of gay guys in the school, and some bi ones like me."

"There's about twenty."

"Suppose. Is the guy you like gay?" I nod, knowing he'll feel the movement rather than see it. "Then you should tell him how you feel, even if he has got a boyfriend. Moony, you're an amazing guy. Anyone with half a brain can see that. And if he doesn't feel the same way about you, then he doesn't deserve you."

I pull away, and sit on the floor, my back against the wall. "He won't like me. I don't deserve him. Merlin, I can never hold onto anyone else. I have no one."

He sits a little way away, watching me. "No, just your family, your friends. Your parents don't hate you for everything you are. They don't beat you, try to break you, throw you out."

"My parents don't even acknowledge my existence. They're scared of the wolf, partly. Do you know what it's like to have a father who stays out all night drinking, because he doesn't want to see you? Or a mother who ignores you, unable to even stay in the same room as you because she blames you for your sister's death?"

He frowns. "You never told us about your family."

I know that. It hurts, and not even my best friends would be able to make it feel better. Now that I'm going to die, I may as well tell. "It started when I was bitten. I was seven and my sister was five. We were camping, and it was full moon. The werewolf got into our tent, killed my sister first and then bit me. He would have killed me too, but my father came in and killed him first." Tears are rolling silently down my cheeks. This is the first time I've ever told anyone the story. Sirius gets up and sits back next to me, putting his arm around my shoulder. I lean into him.

"It wasn't your fault."

I talk through the tears. "Siri… if I'd jumped in front of her, pushed her behind me, protected her, then she would have only received a bite, and she'd still be alive."

"But you wouldn't be." He turns his head to speak into my hair. "Rem, let me tell you what I believe. Everyone's time of death is preordained, so we can't change that, coz death'll get us somehow. So, if I stopped you from jumping and you were meant to die, then you'd just drop dead."

I shake my head and pull away. "Nice story, Sirius. Sometimes I wonder. I think it might have been better if I died. My parents would be happier. You guys would be."

"No, Re! You're one of the best people I know. Better than the rest of us Marauders. You're so good, and kind. You keep us under control. Without you I'd be just like the rest of my family, an arrogant git who believes everyone else is just around for my amusement."

"No, Padders-"

He nods earnestly. "Yeah. You're my conscience. Whenever I'm about to do something bad, your disapproving face pops into my head."

"Doesn't stop you though."

"Oh, you'd be surprised. I've stopped loads of times, thinking about what you'd say." I stare at him. He shrugs. "Not every time. Sorry."

I stand up and walk across to the window again, leaning on it. "I hate my whole life, Siri. My curse… lycanthropy. Do you know where the word comes from? Greek. Lukos, meaning wolf and anthropos, man. I'm caught between those two worlds. I'm not a complete human. The pain of the transformations… You've never seen them."

"No, but I've heard them."

I smile sadly. "Yes. I can't bear the pain any more, Sirius. I'm beginning to give into the wolf, letting it take control of me, fill me with anger and rage and bloodlust…"

He pulls me round and into an embrace. He rests his cheek on the top of my head and makes soothing sounds. "Remmie, don't worry. The wolf is part of you, yes, but something you have the strength to control. I believe in you. And we can help you."

I pull away, making a halfway successful attempt to stop crying. "Yes, you can. By leaving now and letting me die in peace."

"No." He shakes his head resolutely.

I stand at the window again. "OK. Tell James and Pete that it's not their fault."

"But it is mine?"

I ignore that, and instead begin to sing. "Goodbye everybody, I've got to go. Gotta leave you all behind and face the truth…" I turn to face him. "After all, death is the next great adventure." He nods, and I climb into the window. I didn't realise before just how high it was. When I fall, I'll hit the cliffs and bounce off, until my body rests in the lake. "Bye, Sirius."

He's silent for a moment. "Bye." Then he clambers into the window, next to me. There's barely enough room for us both.

"Sirius, what the hell are you doing? You could fall!"

He grins nervously. "Like you said before, Rem, that is the general idea." He peers down. "Bloody high, isn't it?"

I gape at him. "Why? Sirius, you have everything to live for. You're clever, handsome, half the school wants to date you-"

"Re." He cuts me off firmly. "If you die, I die."

I shake my head. "Guilting me won't work. I'll still do it."

"Rem-" he takes a deep breath- "I need you. I'm in love with you."

winterbaby93- Randomness makes the world go round, so don't worry! And W&G rocks!

checkmarks- I'm a scary person! Well, Rem and Siri are going to have to talk about their feelings now…

Versipellis- I'm sorry, I couldn't make him jump. About the name- I didn't know it was canonly John, so ta- but I really couldn't resist making it Julius. If I could (and I was in a weird mood) I might have ended up calling him Remus Julius Augustus Claudius Nero Hadrian Lupin…

MinnieDiabolo- Nah, I'm afraid I buy into the SiriRem slash. If I made it unrequited I think I'd probably be lynched by all my lovely amazing reviewers. I wouldn't snap at anyone who bothered to review me!

KawaiiMegami86- Ah, another long lovely review:) Ah, my reputation for angst will remain intact, especially when you see the follow up to this fic! Ta for the grammar thingy, General Lee didn't pick it up. Ah, Will and Jack. Seriously, I only started watching it a couple of weeks ago- got ten minutes into it and decided they were perfect!

I-Shave-Clowns- They are cute, and drama is a good thing in life.

PrincessSkywalkerOrgana- Really? Sometimes I feel like I'm repeating myself. But cool, that you liked it, and my other fic!

A M-Kyle Willert is hot- Thanks for the idea about Rem telling Siri about his home- I only threw that bit in at the last moment on the last chapter, so I almost forgot about it for this one.

IssaLee- There you go, you can safely review again. Yeah, Severus is gay (sure, why not?) And Padders has come to the rescue… Sure you can borrow the names! Just let me know what the fic is called, so I can read it! ;)

BeautifulMisconception- Thank you for the hug and the sentiment

peacockgal17- Aw, I've been added to the good list! Ta!

Silverwitch07- You're making my ego fat, you know. And of course he saves the day, otherwise I wouldn't be a romantic.

Lady Pyrefly- So many things, in just one fic. Ga, I'm good… ;)

Shay- At 4 in the morning I have trouble even opening my eyes, so don't worry

shay- Don't know if you're the same person as Shay above, but thanks!

RonaldYHarry- I'm glad you couldn't find anything wrong! Another person to add to the hand fanatics…

SilverTrinity- Thank you, and here is your next part

SLC- Ta for the grammar, that's what I'm most likely to muck up on. And the computer is now officially General Lee. I will knight it with my imaginary inflatable silver hammer (that's not as strange as it sounds)

lauren- There you go, more and fast. And ta for reviewing the other one, and liking it, and reviewing both!

Hannio- I always take care not to get that drunk! And I love your stories, the ones under your other names. Are you going to update them:puppy dog eyes:

Kira Miri- Thank you for liking it! And for saying that it's one of your favourites

carpe-nox-sulum-nox- The eight series isn't out yet over here! And I don't have any of the DVDs… but hey, I've watched every episode at least twice so that's ok. A killer rabbit as well? Oh my Ga! You shall receive the… English bad weather (although outside is pretty nice right now). Ta for reviewing the other one. Bubbles…

madscotswoman- I'm writing just from Remus' view (and one chap into Severus) but dunno why. Maybe I'll add on one later from Sirius' pov…

Pippin-chan- A knife as well? My reviewers can be really mean (luv ya really!)

phaedradarkwood- I'm feeding an addiction here. Ah well. And now you don't have to die, either!

EsScaper- I've updated pretty quickly… And you like the chapter? I don't know. My brain's getting muddled.

Lady of Faerie- I've had 'the feeling' too, back in November last time. And you're good at guessing, aren't you?

Lykaios Nyx- Yay, that's what I was going for!