Hiya! Firstly- what the hell do you do with a LiveJournal? Someone please tell me, or go and post a message on mine (go on, you know you want to). The link's in my profile under webpage.

They are in sixth year apparently- most people think they're 16-17, which puts them in sixth year. Crap, that's me in a month…

Ok, firstly to set the scene- Remus has gone to St Mungo's in order to be treated. Because he's obviously not a well chicken. And the actual story bit- Remus POV.

Dear Sirius,

How formal does that sound? I expect you're laughing at me, calling me a stuck up idiot. But how else could I start the letter? 'Hey lover' really isn't me, and 'Dear Padfoot' makes it seem as though we're just friends. But you mean more than that to me.

I miss you. I know it's only been two days, but I miss sleeping in your arms. I miss waking up next to you. I miss those stolen kisses we have to hide from nearly everyone. In fact, I miss everything about you. Including that stupid laugh.

I have to tell you something, something I haven't told you since that night on the tower. This is hard for me, because as you're so fond of reminding me I don't like letting people in. But I have to tell you this, because you're important to me.

I love you. And I think I could see myself spending the rest of my life with you. You're a wonderful person, my Siri. You don't care about my lycanthropy. Sometimes, in History of Magic, I sit there and daydream about our future. I can see us getting married, and adopting children. I don't need anyone else.

Anyway, this treatment. You made me promise to tell you about it. They removed my bones to regrow them better (very bad grammar there- sorry Sirius). The Skele-Gro- try never to get your bones removed. It tastes horrible, and the pain of regrowing the bones almost made me think that the pain before was better. My arms and torso have finished (obviously, or I wouldn't be writing this), but my legs are still going. After this they'll give me a day's rest, and then start me on a potion. I'll have to exercise too.

I'll be back with you soon. But I can't wait. Write back soon. I need something of you, to remind me.

All my love,

Remus.

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Rem,

Yes, that did sound stuck up. Why not call me Siri? That's what you normally do. Sometimes it's Padders, or stupid dog. Once you called me mangy cur. Too many old books in your head, Rem.

I bet you're wasting away, pining for me. Seeing my face in your dreams. Hearing my voice in your head. Calling out my name in the shower… try to control yourself, please. I know I am totally irresistible, but still.

Prongs says hi. Wormtail also said something, but I wasn't paying attention. Evans says she's buying the new Queen record, so you listen to it when you get back.

See you,

S.

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Dear James,

Don't show this letter to Sirius, whatever you do.

Is he ok? I sent him a letter a few days ago, and he responded quite quickly, but with something only a few lines long. He seemed strange, like he was avoiding me. He didn't mention half of what I'd said. I don't know, he just seemed… distant. I'm probably worrying over nothing, but please write back to put my mind at rest.

Hope everything's ok there.

Remus.

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Dear Moony,

Hey. I'm writing this squashed in the Quidditch cupboard, so I hope you damn well appreciate me.

Firstly, I miss you. Sniff. It's not right without you. No one's there to nag me and Padders when we do idiotic stunts, or say stupid things. Ach! Moony! Remus! Return to us soon! We need your calming influence! Also, with you gone, Lily's decided to sing- not a pretty sound. As much as I worship the ground she walks on, I have to admit that when she sings she sounds like a cat being strangled.

Don't worry about Padders. He probably didn't want you to get distracted from your treatment. You just need to get well, ok? Then you'll have plenty of time to think about Sirius being distant. He was probably just thinking about something else, and meant to put more, but got distracted. He misses you, I think. He seems morose. That's a big word for me, huh? Well, not big, but posh.

When you get home we're gonna have a party. I know you won't drink, but everyone else will, and it'll be a right little rave. I'll get Lily to bring her thingybox- you know, the thing you put discs in and it makes music.

Relax. I'll take care of Padders.

James.

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I button up my shirt and look into the mirror. I'm wearing makeup, to surprise Sirius. I haven't seen him in so long. James' party is tonight. I would rather have spent tonight catching up with Sirius, and then having a party tomorrow, but I didn't want to disappoint James.

I have black eyeliner around my eyes, and Lily used mascara to separate and 'accentuate' my eyelashes. There's just a hint of blusher on my cheekbones, and light brown eyeshadow looks good with both my eyes and my ash blonde hair.

I laugh nervously at my own reflection. Tonight Sirius and I will go public. No turning back. This will change everything. I take a deep breath to still the butterflies in my stomach, and step out of the door.

Lily's already got her record player on. I can feel the heavy drumbeat pounding on the staircase. As I get to the bottom I see James pounding his head on the wall.

"Do that any more and you'll end up with permanent damage."

He looks up and smiles distractedly at me. "Hey Moony."

I smooth my clothes down anxiously. "How do I look?"

He gives me more attention, turning towards me. "Gorgeous. If I wasn't straight I'd go for you."

"Thanks. Where's Sirius?"

His eyes widen. "Ah-"

But then I hear the voice, loud even through the door. "Peter Piper picked a peck of pickled peppers. A peck of bloody pickled peppers Peter Piper damn well picked. You owe me, Edgbaston! Takes more than a bottle of Firewhiskey to slow me down!"

I growl. "I'll kill him. He promised me he wouldn't drink." I start off down the few remaining steps, but James grabs my arm.

"Remus, stay here. Let me…"

I shake him off, and walk into the Common Room. And stop dead.

My heart breaks.

Sirius is sat in a chair, a bottle in one hand and a girl on his lap. As I watch, he pulls her down into a lingering kiss.

I was right. This has changed everything.

How I loved you- how I cried…

Mwhahahaha! Right, now I won't update unless everyone reviews. Tee hee! Ain't I a bitch? Oh, and who knows what Edgbaston is? Lauren at least should know. And the Peter Piper thing is from a book- took me ages to remember which one. And it's one of my favourites…

sesshomaruhasafluffytail- Of course I can update soon- I am the great and powerful, you know. And I have no modesty issues… girl-in-the-moon- Well, dunno how I could make the next bit fluffy- I love fluff, but can't write it continuously. IssaLee- You imagine weird things! checkmarks- At least you take the time to review. Ta! butterflywings32- Someone's made at Sirius… please don't kill him after this chapter? EsScaper- Rem is adorable anyway, n'est pas? Crap, is my French right? Dunno, I did German. The Notorious Black dog and the Man in the Moon- :sends love right on back: YumiFukushima- In some fics werewolves can see into the future. I'm saying that the stress unfocused his mind from the present. Aussie Munchkin- I know- I want a Studmuffin! Lykaios Nyx- Was gonna write a sequel, starting from about this chapter, but then I put it all in together. Because lots of people are reading this! And the letter was gonna be in the last chapter, but I changed my mind! Silverwitch07- You flatter me terribly. Icy Sapphire15- Freaks rule! And you're not the only one to like the letter. KawaiiMegami86- No, I haven't seen it. I'm not watching films for a while- I watched Alien a few days ago, and Charlie and The Chocolate Factory. Mm, Johnny Depp… Shamandalie- I'm always writing, dahling. Lady of Faerie- Sarcasm rules. Please don't kill me? dempi- Yo! Any review is good. And you've already been on my livejournal… only person so far… ta…. SlashyKitty- Nah! Kenmare Kestrels all the way!
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