I must say you lot are rather violent. Most of the suggestions seemed to involve neutering Sirius and chopping him into little pieces. Swearing again in this chapter. Those of a nervous disposition, look away now. In fact, I'm wondering about upping the rating because of a future chapter. Dunno. Muchos thanks to Lykaios for ideas as always, and to KawaiiMegami86 for the Latin. Kudos dudes! The cuddly dog also belongs to Lykaios completely. It is hers. So go and read her fic with it in! Omniscient? Is that how you spell it?

James POV

I love you till I die

"Moony? Are you in there?"

"Go away." His voice is muffled by the bathroom door. He's barricaded himself in there, but at least his response lets me know he's still alive. I'm worried about him. He might do something stupid, like killing himself. Last time he attempted suicide because they kissed and Sirius had betrayed him. Another kiss, another betrayal.

"Please, let me in. It's James."

"I want to be alone."

"I'm worried about you." I sit and lean against the door. "What did he say to you?"

I hear him move so that he's leaning on the other side of the door. "Didn't he tell you?" His tone is bitter.

"No. He came down and left the tower without saying anything."

"He told me that he never felt anything for me. That he only told me he loved me to stop me from jumping."

"Did he say anything about the girl?"

"She was 'available and up for it'. He said he wanted someone who'd actually sleep with him." His voice gets quieter, and he whispers the next words as though they're physically painful. "How long has he been… with someone else?"

I shut my eyes, and decide honesty will be better in the long run. "I'm not sure. Not openly at least, but he's been disappearing at nights and not coming back until the next morning."

He's silent for a few moments. "Bastard. How the hell…"

"He's a git. He didn't deserve you."

"Why not? I'm a monster, so shouldn't I be with someone like him?"

"You're not a monster. Remus, you're good, kind, clever, compassionate, considerate, a much better person than any of us…"

"Except I'm not." He starts to cry again, huge chesty sobs. "I've lost the one thing in my life that made me better."

It's breaking my heart to hear this. He's my best friend. "Let me in."

I hear him stand up and deal with the locks. The door swings open to reveal him. He looks so vulnerable. His hair has been mucked up, as though he's been running his hands through it. The make up he took so much time over has run, creating a mess over his face which seems to add to his childlike air. His sorrow gives him an air of tragic beauty. All his guards are down, and the aching loneliness that radiates from him makes me feel… like everything has been destroyed, and nothing will ever be the same. I gather him in my arms and hold him as he shakes with body wracking sobs.

"Why? James, I love him so much."

"I know." I place my cheek on the top of his head.

"And I hate him." His voice suddenly becomes vicious. "Everything he's done to me."

I lift my head to look into his eyes. "Don't do anything stupid to him," I warn.

"I won't. But I never want to talk to him again." He leans his head on my shoulder. "It's been killing me, all this stuff with him. I can't deal with it." He whispers the last sentence. He pulls away, wiping his hand across his eyes. "I'm going to have a shower."

"Remus- don't, you know, do anything stupid in there." He looks at me quizzically, and I shift uncomfortably under his gaze. "Like hurting yourself."

"I won't. I won't give him the satisfaction of seeing how he's affected me." He shuts the door in my face, and I start to bang my head on the wall.

"P-Prongs?" I turn slowly. Sirius is stood in the doorway, one hand pressed to his head. "Where's Rem?"

I snarl and run across the room, leaping on him at the last moment. As we land on the floor I draw back my fist and punch him, his flesh giving a satisfying thump beneath my hand. "How dare you," I hiss. "You're not getting anywhere near Remus, not after what you've done."

"What?" He brings one hand up to his face distractedly. "I didn't do anything…"

"Didn't do anything?" I grab his shoulders and shake him. "You've broken his heart!"

"What?" His eyes widen, and he struggles upwards, pushing me off easily. "I have to speak to him."

"No! You prat, he'd probably kill you!"

"Why? What happened?"

I stare at him. "You damn well know what happened! What you said to him nearly killed him!" I stand in the doorway, blocking his entrance. "You're not getting near him."

"You're talking shit! Rem would want me to see him."

I clench my fists again. "I'm choosing to believe you were such an unbelievable prick because you were drunk out of your head. Just like you have been every single night since Remus fell."

His face changes, and anger pours out of every line. "That is none of your business. I'll go to hell in my own way, on my own terms."

"Do those terms include taking Remus with you? Coz that seems like what you're doing! Leave him alone, Black! You're destroying him!"

He shakes his head. "I have to talk to him. Get out of my way."

"No." I fold my arms, totally unprepared for what happens next.

"Petrificus Totalus!" I stiffen, and fall onto the floor. He steps over my prone body and across to the bathroom door. He rattles the handle, and finds it locked. "Rem, it's me. Open up, I want to talk to you." There's no response. "Come on, Remmie! Prongs punched me, I need to see you." There's still no reply, but the shower has been switched off. "Rem, what the hell is up? Come on, it's not that bad. I'm sorry, ok? Open the door. Wolfie… babes… let me in…" When the door doesn't open, he sighs in exasperation and slouches against the wall. "What the… Rem, why did you do that to my stuff? I haven't done anything to deserve that." He shuts his eyes, a clear sign that his mind is wandering. "We're both pissed, Rem. Hmm. But in different ways. I'm drunk, and you're mad, and I really don't know why you're so angry. I'm sorry for being drunk, and everything else, but come on, Re! Open the goddamn door!" Sirius turns to hit the door only to find it open. Remus ghosts through, looking almost ghostly in his oversized dressing gown. He totally ignores Sirius, instead going to his bed and pulling out his pyjamas. "Rem, look at me." Remus stands with his back to Sirius, who exhales in irritation. "For God's sake, Re, don't ignore me!" He walks across the floor, putting his hand on Remus' shoulder.

Remus flinches away, and from my position on the floor I can see the pain in his eyes. He can't even stand to be touched by Sirius, but then again I suppose he's imagining those hands on the girl.

Sirius becomes angry. He steps away from Remus, bringing his hand round to hit the bedpost. "Bloody hell! You're impossible!"

"I'm impossible?" Remus says quietly. "Unus frater verus, Sirius. The ultimate joke." He walks back into the bathroom, locking the doors behind him.

Sirius' face has shut down, giving him the appearance of a mask. Then it cracks, and he throws Remus' toy dog at the bathroom door. "Bugger you!" he yells, and then leaves, abandoning me on the floor.

unus frater verus one true lover

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