Chapter 5 is up!
Here you go!
Alexz
The next morning, I woke up to see Tommy sleeping beside me, Megz on his stomach. It was kind of cute actually.
I quietly made my way to the kitchen and made myself some toast. It's the only thing I can make without setting fire to the kitchen (I managed to burn water the last time I tried to cook!).
When Tommy emerged from his room, he was fully dressed and had a serious look on his face.
He sat down at the table beside me and smiled.
"Managed to keep the kitchen in one piece?"
I playfully hit him on the arm.
"Shut up! I can cook somethings. Just not very well."
Tommy then looked at me, the serious look back on his face.
"Jude, we need to talk."
God that didn't sound good. I put down my toast and looked at him.
"Listen, I don't think it's a good idea for us to be together right now."
I couldn't believe it. He had lied to me again.
"What? Why?"
He sighed.
"Well, to start with I'm seven years older than you and it's illegal for me to date anyone under 18."
I shook my head in disbelief.
"Well, that's never stopped us before." I saw his face stay serious as I spoke. My eyes started to tear up but I wasn't going to cry infront of him. "Tommy, please, don't break my heart again. It's been broken by you before and I'm tired of it. It hurts too much."
He just shook his head.
"I'm sorry, Jude."
I jumped up from my seat, knocking over the chair, and I ran into the guest room. Megz followed me and I slammed the door shut, locking it behind me. Only then did I allow myself to cry.
I collapsed onto the bed in tears. Megz came and sat beside me. She managed to comfort me – she managed to make me feel better.
That night, I didn't sleep. I was engrossed in a song I was writing. During the day, Tommy had knocked on the door asking if I wanted anything to eat. I refused. I refused without talking to him. I just ignored him. Eventually he went out, leaving me alone with Megz.
Tommy stayed out all night so I managed to work out the chords and tunes on my guitar without him hearing.
I must have fallen asleep as I felt Megz licking me awake. I went to the bathroom, took a shower and got dressed.
When I stepped out of the room, I found Tommy asleep in his room. I then made my way to G-Major, not bothering to leave a note.
On the way to the studio, I ran through the thoughts in my mind. One thought stood out from everything else: No one wanted me.
Mom left home, Sadie is away at college and Tommy broke my heart, again.
Inside G-Major, I found Kwest waiting for Tommy. He literally jumped at me and began asking where Tommy was. I pulled him into an empty studio and told him everything.
I then told him that I had a new song and that I wanted to record it, but not with Tommy.
For the next 12 hours me and Kwest were holed up in the studio recording.
Soon enough it was finished, on a CD and ready for my album.
When I reached Tommy's apartment, he wasn't home and Megz was whining at the door. I left some food for her, packed up my things and left the CD on the table with a note explaining that he had to listen to this song.
I left with my things and went back to G-Major.
Georgia soon found me, sat on the sofa in the lobby, quietly singing my new song to myself.
"You said you didn't need me (but you did)
You said you didn't want me (but you do)
It's kinda like a comedy
Well first you kiss me
Then you say we're through
I say you got some issues (yeah, you do)
Some things you gotta work through (really do)
It's sorta like a talk show, no wait a freak show
When the freak is you
Chorus
I'm the smoke from your fire
I'm that lie you can trust
I'm the chord on your guitar
I'm that girl you can't shut up
I'm that blood you might need
In your car when you speed
In that cigarette you breathe
You can't get rid of me
You said I wasn't funny (but you laughed)
You said I couldn't drive fast (then you crashed)
Funny how it works out
With your big mouth
You'll always get it back (ha ha ha ha)
You thought you had me worked out (you're not deep)
Mr. "I Screw About" (you're still a creep)
At best you could've confessed
That you're a big mess
And that you're so damn weak
Chorus
I'm the smoke from your fire
I'm that lie you can trust
I'm the chord on your guitar
I'm that girl you can't shutup
I'm the blood you might need
In your car when you speed
In that cigarette you breathe
You can't get rid of me
But still, I try and justify
Try to let this die
We'll never say goodbye I can't wait
I'll rub it in your face
Dressed in pretty lace
I'll send you home, to cry
Ha ha ha ha ha
Ha ha ha ha ha
Ha ha ha
Chorus
I'm the blood you might need
In your car when you speed
In that cigarette you breathe
You can't get rid of me
Yeah, yeah
Ha ha ha ha ha
Ha ha ha ha ha
Ha ha ha
Ha ha ha
Ha ha ha
Can't get rid of me"
She waited until I had finished and then sat down beside me.
"Jude, what are you doing here? You left over an hour ago. Why don't you go home and get some sleep?"
I sighed.
"I can't go home."
Georgia looked confused.
"Why?"
"Mom left to live with her newest man and Sadie's at college. I don't want to be alone. I stayed with Tommy last night…" the tears started to flow. "…but this morning we had a major argument. I think it destroyed our friendship. So I left. No one wants me in their life."
Georgia made me look at her.
"Now, you listen to me Jude Harrison. Don't you dare say that no one wants you in their life, because, look around. Me, Kwest, Spiederman Mind Explosion and even EJ care about you. We all want you in our lives. Tommy, your Mom and Sadie all care about you and want you in their lives, even if it doesn't seem like it. Ok?"
I nodded, wiping the tears from my face. "You can't stay here though. I don't want you sleeping on what is probably the most uncomfortable sofa in Canada."
"But, where shall I go. The house is just so empty when I'm on my own."
Georgia put her arm around me.
"You can stay with me if you want." I looked at her.
"Are you sure? I mean, you see me enough at work, you probably don't want to see me outside of work either."
Georgia stood up, pulling me up as well.
"Jude, you're staying with me ok."
And with that we began to head to the door.
But it was blocked.
Standing in front of us was a dog and someone I didn't want to see.
"Jude, what were you thinking, just running off like that?"