DISCLAIMER: I do not own the characters from Card Captor Sakura. They are the property of CLAMP. I merely borrowed the characters because I wanted to write something about my favorite characters.
Depression
Written
by: kazezero
Mido-chan e
It's been a while, hasn't it? A great deal has occurred since the last entry that I had written in here. By estimation, I would say that around ten months has lapsed already.
Over the course of this time, I had begun spending more time with Rika-chan. Each day we would speak of things that may seem mundane to others, but I was really glad that we had even spoken. As we became closer to one another, the barrier that we had with opening up slowly dissipated. I got to know her better and found we share the same doubts in the relationship we each had with Sakura-chan. She thought that Sakura-chan was much closer to another friend of ours, Naoko-chan. And I had agreed. We both felt left out and separated from them too. We also wished to be closer to Sakura-chan again.
But it isn't working that good… well for me anyway. Rika-chan still talks to her and in my case, I haven't spoken with her since the summer before school started.
I feel as if we would never speak to each other again. I don't want that! And I feel so guilty for not doing anything. Yet, I am too afraid of taking a step. My head is so cluttered with images of her rejection that I don't think that I will be hold myself together, if the event should come to pass. But I had chosen this path. The choice where I leave the situation as it is and deals with it later. Time will come to heal all things… or so I have heard.
Ah! I want to scream at the top of my lungs, so that all the feelings of frustration trapped within my chest will be released. Although it's ironic because no matter how much I want to let out my emotions, I don't think that I will be able to. Well, I think that I will stop writing now. Just thinking about the situation will make myself more depressed anyway. Ja.
-Tomoyo
Edited Version: April 07, 2006
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Notes: Wow. I've finally revisited this old short fiction after such a long time. This version is rewritten so much that little remain from the last version. But nonetheless, I am very satisfied. I hope to redo the first chapter soon. hehe. :)