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Her eyes slowly opened with regret, the bright lights shun painfully into her eyes. For a moment she thought she was at home, that it was some kind of miracle that everything bad had gone away. A head loomed over her, it was Harry's; there was another, it was Ron's.

"Has she awoken?" asked Madam Pomfrey, Hermione recognized her voice.

"I think so-" She wasn't sure who that was, her head was too cloudy.

Her eyes suddenly came whole- she was in Hogwarts! It had only been a dream when her life was together, when she had a reason to live…

"HARRY! RON! NO!-" she jumped out of bed and realized that she was in white robes clean and fresh, that also made her feel sick.

Harry and Ron approached her with raised arms "Hermione, calm down, we just want to know what's the matter with you" Harry approached her calmly.

"YOU WANT TO KNOW WHATS THE MATTER WITH ME? I EAT 30 MEALS A MONTH WHEN I SHOULD BE EATING 90- AND HALF OF THEM I THROW UP! I-I GET WASTED JUST TO FORGET A CRAPPY DAY" she didn't realize it till then- she was crying, and what was she doing? But it was too late to stop. "A-AND I CUT, BURN AND HURT MY-SELF IN ANYWAY POSSIBLE, BECAUSE HARRY-"

Why was she only saying Harry's name? "I'M ADDICTED TO PAIN!" she finished stumbling over her last words. 'Oh my goodness, what have I done?' she thought.With nothing left to do she ran, she ran like she does from her problems. She ran with Harry and Ron chasing her franticly. Her endurance was too weak; she couldn't stand it any longer, somehow, with out memory she found herself at the Room of Requirements. She thought of what she needed- for it was the standard process for entering the room. Her thoughts were concealed only for her to know. When an old wooden door appeared she tore it open and snuck in. The room was not at all near colorful, it had a few dull tapestries and a very sullen, grey sheeted bed. There was drapes hanging from the ceiling, also not at all colorful, behind a dark plum colored one there was a table. She discovered that a person was seated there… It was Draco. She jumped with slight fright, though he did not move an inch. He had his legs upon the table and his right shirt sleeve was withdrawn. In his opposite hand he held a knife, a simple snake embedded knife. He did not move nor spoke, yet he continued to press the cold metal to his skin, drawing blood with every move. She quietly sat down opposite of him and relaxed.

"What took you so long?" Draco finally said continually keeping his attention on his arm. "Don't answer that…" he caught her gaze and followed it to his arm "Yes, me too" .

"H-how long?" she felt a sharp stab of pain for an unknown reason, she was used to that too.

"6 years. You?"

"I don't know" she mumbled

He wiped the knife on his robes and handed it to her "You look like you need to get it out" he didn't smile, but placed the knife in her loosely gripped hand.

She took it. It was put to her wrist and she dragged it along in a straight line. She blood ruined her fresh new robes that was the way she liked it; though, she started to cry. Draco removed the knife from her hands and looked her in the eyes

"No crying in hear, hear you do it my way, no alternate option. You cut; you do it for a reason because you can't cry no longer. This is how you silently cry" His eyes were soft with slight worry despite his words being hard and firm.

"B-b-but Draco?" she breathed, and hesitated.

"Yes love?"

"Why do we do this?"

"Because…Because we don't know how to deal"

She looked him directly in the eyes, then rested her head on the table.

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