A/N: A thank you to all who reviewed! Your feedback is greatly appreciated. Dances around Here's chapter two!
Oh yeah. Hehe. I almost forgot!
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Chapter Two: You Wouldn't Lie to Me, Would You?
Gradually the sun rose. Fortunately. For some reason I felt like it was going to stay nighttime forever, and I would have to feel lonely forever and talk to no one forever. I knew it wasn't going to be forever, an eternity…probably. I just couldn't help but think about it in the back of my mind. What if the sun never rose and it stayed night? And the sun never rose again, the moon reigning over the earth endlessly. Then what would happen?
'Well', I thought to myself as I hastily pulled on my school uniform in the early morning, 'life would go on.' I stopped for a moment as I buttoned up my shirt while looking in the mirror.
Or would it? I sighed, adding a couple accessories to my outfit and neatened my hair up just a little.
Though the sun certainly was up and greeting the new day, it still felt like night to me… It was so quiet. 'I wonder if Yami is still sleeping. And if Kaiba-kun is still here. Hm.' I opened my door and tiptoed out gingerly, making sure every step was done softly and carefully. I stood in front of the next room. Putting my ear to the door, I made sure to be quiet as a mouse just in case my darker half was awake. I listened intently for any indication of noise or stirring.
…Nothing. 'I wonder…' I knew I was out of my mind, but I wanted to see if the other me was awake. Oh, I really hoped I wouldn't disturb him… Like ripping a band-aid off quickly to get the sharp, quick pain over with, I shut my eyes tightly and jerked the door open in a flash, biting my lip with doubt.
Again…nothing. Was it safe to open my eyes again? I didn't hear anything, but what if Kaiba-kun and Yami were staring at me with shocked and twisted expressions? What if one of them yelled at me? Or worse, what if they both yelled at me? Would Yami be angry with me?… Why was I even doing this? It didn't make any sense… Having the strong urge to explore the actions of my counterpart… It was kind of like eavesdropping, kind of like spying… Suddenly I was overwhelmed with a confusing mixture of doubt and fear both at once. But I couldn't move. So I just stood there in the doorway. And then-
"Yugi?… What is it, Aibou?"
My eyes shot open automatically at the mention of my name. I could recognize that voice anywhere. "Y-Yami!" I chortled nervously, scratching my head a little. The ex-pharaoh lay in bed, propped up against his pillow, which was resting on the bed's headboard. Thin sheets covered his slender figure up to the bottom of his bellybutton. His bare chest was modesty flaunted, which is kind of an oxymoron but that's what it was, really! Somehow my darker half managed to show his body off without really meaning to, and without the aftertaste of whore.
Then I noticed something. Kaiba-kun was not there next to him being flaunty and stuff alongside his newfound lover. He wasn't present, not lying next to Yami, not bare-chested and propped up, not anywhere in the room at all. I looked around for a moment to make sure I hadn't made a mistake, but I right the first time.
"Oh, Seto?" Yami had read my mind. I blinked, kind of embarrassed that my thoughts had been so obvious like an easy reader book. "He went home a while ago…"
I blinked again, frowning a little.
Yami just chuckled. Was he being psychic for the second time today? My eyes widened a little.
"Aibou…don't worry. It's not what you think." He smiled that smile… Not the smile, but the deformed, broken down version of it. I raised my eyebrows confusedly. The noises from last night…
"But then, why…" My voice trailed off and I focused my attention on Yami a little lower than the shoulders…
"Oh." Yami shook his head. "Aibou, where do you get such ideas?" He suddenly pulled the sheets off of him, grabbed his button-down shirt that had been hanging on the headboard and pulled it on quickly. He walked over to me, looking me in the eyes, and his expression suddenly drastically changed from warm to serious. "Hikari, Seto and I didn't do it… Got that?" He brought his hand to my face and brushed his fingers across my cheek reassuringly, comfortingly. They were warm and soft, and sympathizing, even… I stared blankly back at him, not sure what to reply back with.
Finally, after a period of awkward silence, I murmured, "Oh…" I found myself staring at the floor, feeling stupid that the thought of sex had ever crossed my mind last night. How dumb could I get? Kaiba-kun and Yami had been together for, what, four months, now? Yami just wasn't that kind of person… Sex after four months… No. My darker side would never do something like that. How could I have ever believed myself? I guess I just hadn't been thinking… With all those memories racing through my head last night, it was hard to keep anything straight.
"But…the noises…" I felt so dumb. I continued staring at the floor.
"Noises…oh…" Yami was silent for a moment. Curious, I looked up and saw that his cheeks had turned a light shade of pink. I was a little surprised. The other me didn't really show this side of him often. I cocked my head at him and nodded for him to continue.
"We were rather…" He trailed off again, turning away suddenly. Was he lying to me? This wasn't like him, either…
"Nn?" I repeated my nod.
"I just… Aibou…" He turned back, looking me straight in the eye. And…suddenly, for a split second, I could've sworn there was something there in his violet eyes that I had never seen before… Had it been fear? I was silent with a bit of confusion. It was only there for a split second, as though the blink of his eyes had wiped it away from existence. A hallucination? It couldn't have been. There had been something in his eyes that made me know my dark side was telling the truth. It was just one of those things that you couldn't explain but you just knew. You just did.
A fear of mistrust… My mistrust… I doubted someone who was part of my heart and my soul, who was half of who I was. Similar to minutes ago, I returned to staring at the floor sheepishly. I wanted to crawl into a hole and curl up into a little ball.
My heart and my soul …
If Yami said he didn't do it, then he didn't do it. I trusted his word. Though I really wanted to know what they had really been up to, I didn't ask for fear of making things more complicated than they already were.
But why did I care so much? Whether or not something dirty had been going on last night and if Kaiba-kun was still here this morning… I felt so confused inside. There were so many questions going through my mind and so many mixed emotions. They were being tossed at me left and right as though I was some kind of washing machine tumbling clothes around in the pit of my stomach.
I smiled reassuringly at Yami and said, "I believe you." I hugged him for a few seconds and then took a glance at my watch. "Whoa, I'm gonna be late for school! Gotta run!" With a wave, I headed out the door. "Itte kimasu!"
"Itte irasshai," I heard the other me say.
School was a drag.
"Now don't forget, your projects are due on the twenty-first! I want to see a full ten pages from all of you by Monday. Class dismissed!"
I got up wearily from my chair and grabbed my books weakly. I was absolutely bushed because of my no-sleep-till-Kami-sama-knows-when episode last night. Every time a teacher began their lecture I felt my head droop more and more, my eyelids slowly closing, becoming heavier and heavier. Then, a whispering voice that got louder and louder and I suddenly jolted back to life. My friends were saving my butt too many times. I could've sworn I was going to pass out in the middle of the hallway and get trampled by seniors. It's awful.
Luckily, lunch hour came. I was elated. In spirit, I mean. In reality I looked like a zombie. That's what Jonouchi-kun kept telling me, anyway. I don't think zombies and I go well together, so I guess that means I looked pretty messed up.
"Yugi, are you alright today?" Anzu asked me concernedly at lunch as I bit into my sandwich. "You don't look so well."
"Zommmbiiieee!" Jonouchi-kun immediately exclaimed with exaggerated laughter. Honda-kun joined in, the two of them turning many heads across the lunchroom.
I smiled at my friends despite a groan. "I didn't get too much sleep last night."
"You should take a nap after school," suggested Bakura-kun kindly in his polite voice. "That will make you feel much better."
Anzu nodded. "Yeah!"
"Zommmbiiie!"
"Stop it!" Anzu yelled. "You two aren't helping!" She stood up from her seat looking like she was ready to pound them.
"It's alright Anzu," I said with a blush. "They're not bothering me."
"Grraaa!–" Anzu stopped her fist. "Huh? You sure?"
"Yeah… It's fine, really." I waved my hand.
"Okay," she said, "but only because you insist." She beamed.
As I finished up my sandwich, taking the last bite, Kaiba-kun walked into the lunchroom, his eerie presence touching upon every student. Whenever Kaiba-kun walks into a room, everything seems to get quieter. Is he really that intimidating? Though Kaiba-kun is cold and mean on the outside, on the inside he is warm, kind, and gentle. Really, though, he starves for companionship and the caring words of a friend. It's a good thing the other me has come into his life. Things seem to be looking up for him. I've tried befriending Kaiba-kun, but he just pushes me away. There's something really special inside of Yami. Somehow they've connected. I think that's kind of beautiful.
"Konnichi wa, Kaiba-kun!" I greeted my classmate friendlily. I heard people snicker behind me as though I were foolish for speaking to him, for they knew that Kaiba-kun usually merely ignored me or smirked, or gave an aggravated remark. I liked to say hi to him anyway. I won't rest my efforts of being nice to him, no matter what anyone says. Because even though no one believes me, Kaiba-kun truly is a good person. He just hasn't opened up to the world.
Kaiba-kun stopped walking at the sound of my words. There were hushed whispers among the tables as to what was happening. I saw a couple people glance in my direction questioningly while others waited to see what Kaiba-kun would do next, and still others who were more interested in what was in the school's ranch dressing than what the infamous Kaiba Seto was up to.
"Yugi." His voice was blunt and clear, almost cold, as though he shuddered to speak of my name. That was weird. Did he want me to come and talk to him?
I gulped and looked around at what everyone was doing. No one seemed to be interested anymore. Most of them had gone back to pondering the salad dressing. I guess they figured Kaiba-kun was just going to tell me off like he usually did, so it'd be boring to pay attention anymore.
"I'll be right back," I said to my friends, and hopped out of my seat, over to Kaiba-kun. Somehow I had a bad feeling about this.
"Come here," he said quietly once I was close to him. He grabbed my sleeve and pulled me out of the lunchroom without hesitation or care. I was startled. My eyes widened in disbelief.
'What's he going to do to me!', I wondered to myself worriedly. "Kaiba-kun…" But the taller boy only sighed at me. He kept dragging me along like I was some kind of stuffed animal. I was a little scared. What was he doing? Was it something urgent? Whatever it was, I hoped it wouldn't be drastic…
We exited the lunchroom and my blue-eyed classmate dragged me along still. We kept on going on down the hallway, Kaiba-kun frighteningly silent. It made me nervous and even quieter than him, I think. After what had seemed like an eternity (which probably had been less than a minute), we reached our destination.
I found myself in front of the boys' bathroom. We entered without a word. Once we were in, Kaiba-kun looked around to make sure no one was around, and after hat was clarified…it happened. Kaiba-kun grabbed my shoulders and pushed me up against the wall. He pushed on them so tightly it hurt. Our faces were so close together we could almost touch noses. Now I was terrified. My heart began to race, my eyes wide with fear, my head spinning in confusion. What was going on! What did I do! I tried to break free, but then Kaiba-kun pushed my arms tightly against the wall, tighter than he had done with my shoulders. There was no escape. I was locked in. A single tear slid down my face.
"Kaiba-kun, stop it! STOP!" I begged him with every ounce of strength I had in me.
"Can you settle down for one damn second?" he breathed calmly yet angrily. "I want to talk to you."
"If you want to talk then why are you holding me up against a wall!" I questioned, diamond drops glistening down my cheek one by one, now. I wanted to wipe my sopping face but Kaiba-kun still had control over my arms. I tried to pull away again, but he was too strong, his grip too tight. He smirked at me.
"You stop. You're not going to get away. Just listen to me!" Kaiba-kun raised his voice slightly. I nodded, fearful that if I objected it would only get worse. "What didhe tell you?"
"Who? You mean Yami? About what?"
"You know what the hell I'm talking about, Yugi. Spit it out!" Out of rage he dug his fingernails into my arm.
"He told me nothing happened," I spoke in a small voice, wincing. "Ow! You're hurting me!"
Kaiba's grip loosened. He let go of me, stood there for a few moments, sighed, and then walked out of the bathroom without a word.
'What's going on?… Kaiba-kun seemed so tense, but after I told him what Yami said to me he went back to normal… Wait. No… No, it just can't be…'
"Kaiba-kun and Yami…they…" My eyes began to well up with tears. It was one thing that they had had sex, but the lie was what bothered me most. Yami had lied to me about something that was a big deal. Why did he do it? Why oh why?… "Y-Yami…" A few tears streamed down my face. Leaning up against the wall, I buried my face in my hands and hopelessly whimpered . 'After all this time of being such close friends and doing anything for each other, he goes and lies to me? Lies to me about something like this? This just isn't like him! It's not how he used to be! I want the old Yami back! With that smile! I want Yami! Yami!' I wanted to erase this new memory. I wished I had never followed Kaiba. I wanted to take back my hello. I wanted to turn back time and make it so this whole thing never happened. There had to be some way. There just had to be!
…But there wasn't. I filled myself with false hope until I overflowed with a river of lies. 'Face it, Yugi,' I thought to myself. ' There's nothing you can do and you can't change it. You can't do anything about it. It's done with.' I cried harder, tears dripping down onto the wall. I pounded my fist into it, only resulting in pained knuckles, but I didn't care. I was in disbelief. This couldn't be happening. It just couldn't be.
"Yami," I muttered to myself, "Yami…Yami, Yami! Yami!" I repeated my other self's name endlessly until I stained the walls with my salty tears, my cries echoing in the bathroom so loudly I wondered how no one could hear me. But that was good. I didn't want anyone to hear me. I wanted to be left alone… I wanted to cry by myself and say his name until my throat bled. I wanted him to feel my pain, my anger.
Who was I to believe?
But then… I thought again.
My darker side. Kaiba Seto. Had sex. Last night. Yami and Kaiba-kun. Boyfriends. Neither of them my lover. Why did I care? Why? Why did it matter so much to me whether or not they kissed or held each other? It had never bothered me before. 'I don't…I can't…I know I don't…'
I had said yes, I love you Yami. But not that way.'
'I'm such an idiot! I said no!And I was truthful! But couldn't I have made that little white lie?I had beentruthful that night!Truthful!'
...Hadn't I?...
'If I had said that little white lie,he'd still be my Yami! The Yami that dissappeared!... I miss him... I miss him so much...'
But I was so confused. So utterly and completely confused. I didn't want to deal with my problems anymore. I wanted to wipe them all away and be happy. I wanted to laugh, not cry. I wanted to live in the moment and stop dwelling on the past. But I couldn't. I couldn't do those things. Because I was messed up, now. Messed up so bad.
A/N: I hope you enjoyed. Chapter three will be up soon. : )
KeyItte kimasu- What you say when you leave the house for school, work, etc. Kind of like saying, "I'll be back." Hehe.
Itte irasshai- The response to itte kimasu. "Be back soon!"
Kaiba Seto- In Japan last names are stated first. It's not Seto Kaiba. It's Kaiba Seto.
