A/N: I don't know why, but for some reason I had a really hard time writing this chapter. I'm kind of glad chapter four is over with. Chapter five will be so much more fun. Hehe. Anyway, not much else to say. Except big hugs to everyone who is reading and/or reviewing! I'm having a fun time writing this (except chapter four!), so I'm glad you're having fun reading it. Makes me happy.

Oh. Also, sorry this chapter has taken so long to get up. Like I said, I was having a hard time with it. Schoolwork also takes up a lot of my time, so…yeah. Sorry for the inconvenience. I'm doing my best.

Disclaimer: I don't own Yuugiou or any of the characters. It's just a severe case of fandom. ; )

Chapter Four: Hitotsu Dake

I didn't know what to say.

My dark side continued staring at the door in back of me rather uncomfortably.

"I…I don't know!" I yelled. I paused for a few moments and heavy tears began welling up in my eyes. I sniffled a little, standing there insecurely. "I guess I just…I just care about you, Yami! Nothing like this has ever happened before, and I just don't know what to think anymore!" My emotions became an intoxicating mixture of sadness and angriness, tangled together tightly in a knot. I let the tears fall down without care, not even trying to hold them back anymore. I couldn't stop myself this time. It was all coming out…

"What do you mean?" my other half asked. I let him seize me into a hug this time. He embraced me softly, rocking us back and forth on our feet gently. I felt a strong wave of serenity come over me as this took place and closed my eyes without worry or fear.

"I-I mean," my voice was muffled, my face buried in my reflection's chest, "I mean…I…" I sniffled uncontrollably now, despite my sudden serene disposition.

I had always had him to myself, no one in the way. It was just the two of us together, smiling and laughing, getting through rough times. We were one. I had always known that. I had always known that we were special to each other. More special than friends who had known each other since the toddler days. This was different. Yami was I and I was Yami, and it had always been that way. There hadn't ever been anyone else… Sure, he had other friends. Anzu, Bakura-kun…and everyone else…

'But…that's different. Different from what Kaiba-kun and him have become together. Now it's not just us anymore… I don't feel like we're one… I don't feel like a whole… There's a hole. It feels like he's being taken away from me… Little white lie, little white lie… I need you now… I want to go back in time…please…please… I want things to be how they were before. I want the Yami I know back. And I want us to be whole again…'

"LIAR!"

"Wh-"

I pushed Yami away, escaping from his grip and ran. I ran, not looking back at his face. I wondered if he was dumbfounded or if he knew what I was talking about. I wondered what his expression was. I wondered, but I didn't care. I ran through the house until I reached my room, where I then opened it, went in, and shut it tightly, making sure to lock it.

I sobbed and screamed into my pillow, pounding it with my fists.

"I'm not even fooling myself! I-"

"Yugi, please don't be this way with me…" Yami's voice from the other side of the door came.

"No! Go away, Yami! I don't want to talk to you right now!"

"But…Yugi…Aibou…I just want to help you."

"How can you help me when you were the one who caused all of this in the first place!"

I heard Yami sigh. "Yugi…I don't know why you think I'm lying, and I know you don't believe me, but Seto and I did not have sex. I mean it. I love Seto, I really do. But…I could never have sex with him."

I looked up from the pillow and blinked through tears. "N-nani?… What do you mean?"

"I just can't."

I heard his body slide slowly down against the door.

"Oh." I sat up on my bed, staring at my feet. What was he talking about?

"The only person I'll ever want to share that much love with is out of my reach… Only you, Hikari…"

I heard my darker side sigh sadly and continue. "I just can't imagine myself expressing my love that way to anyone except you…but…you come first before myself, dear Aibou, and if that means I will never be your lover or share that act of passion together…then, that is just the way it will be. Life goes on, Yugi… This I know. But I will never, ever be able…to go through an act of such binding love with anyone. Just you. Only you."

"Yami I-"

"It's alright, Yugi… Don't apologize… You didn't know." His words were solemn and mournful.

"No, really, mou hitori no boku. I'm sorry. I really am. Please forgive me."

"Alright. Apology accepted, Aibou."

He…he didn't want to…do it with anyone except me?

I suddenly felt as though I had been punched in the chest. A sense of embarrassment fell over me. Partly because my actions had been so foolish, and partly because I…I…was the only person Yami ever wanted to…to…(I blushed, turning a light shade of pink).

And I had been yelling and screaming at my darker side all this time and it had turned out that he had been telling the truth all along. I was so stupid!

"Are you sure about that?" I got up from my bed slowly and tiptoed over to my door, putting my ear against it.

Another sigh from my other half. "Yes. I don't think I'll ever be able to completely move on from, well, you know…being rejected… I don't think there is a single person in this world that is like you, Yugi. If I traveled to the ends of the earth, the road would lead me right back to you. And even though we're not in a relationship, I feel like I'd be betraying you if I were to make love with another. And so you see, I just can't do it, Yugi. I cannot. I won't participate in the act of passion. Not unless it is with you."

I opened the door a little. A teardrop of mine fell onto Yami's forehead as I wept, standing there childishly, hanging onto the doorknob.

"Really?" I asked smally.

"Really." Yami brushed off the tear, looked up at me, and wiped my face.

"Why-why didn't you just say that before when I started fighting with you?" I said, shedding another warm drop.

"I just didn't want to have to resort to saying it… I didn't want to make you feel hurt or as though you did something wrong." The pharaoh lowered his head.

Still, I felt embarrassed about the whole thing. Though he had forgiven me, I had acted like a little kid. And this whole "only you" thing was making me feel both embarrassed and special at the same time. Embarrassed because…wow, I knew Yami felt strong about me, but what he had said to me was deep. He had poured some of his deepest guts out just to help me understand the truth.

As for special… Like my darker side had said, I was the only one.

'Only one? How could that be?' I didn't completely understand, but it made me feel loved and needed. Like I was superior to all of his other friends or something. I don't know.

The question came back of whether or not Yami still had the feelings for me that he had had months ago, and boy, was I afraid to question it, even just in my mind. Yami had mentioned about not being able to completely move on. I knew exactly how he felt. But did that imply that his feelings had deceased? At least, his more-than-just-friends feelings for me? I wanted to know, but it wasn't like I could just ask him, so I remained quiet about those thoughts.

"May I ask you a question, Yugi?" He patted the space next to him, gesturing for me to sit there.

I opened the door just enough so that I could get through and took the seat next to my dark side, shoulder-to-shoulder.

"Um…sure," I answered.

"If you don't mind me asking…what exactly did Seto tell you? You mentioned something about him tipping you off?"

"Oh. That." I clicked my feet back and forth nervously. "He said something like, 'Whatever Yami told you, it's not true' ". "I…I guessed that he meant about…you know." I felt my ears and face get hot, so I turned the other way.

Yami raised an eyebrow curiously. "What?" He shook his head. "That's ridiculous. Why would he say something like that? I'll talk to him about it when I go over to the Kaiba house tonight…" The other me frowned and tapped my knee a couple times before looking over at the clock on the wall. "Oh, yes, well, I was just about to make myself some lunch before you came. How about it?"

I giggled and turned back towards mou hitori no boku. Even though I had already eaten lunch, I replied happily, "Sounds good." I wanted to stay with Yami.

Yami made us a nice lunch of instant ramen. It was chicken flavored! I tried to forget about my feeling of incompleteness because of Kaiba-kun, and how Yami wasn't the same. I didn't want to mention these things to Yami during our talk, kind of like the thing about if he still likes me or not. It just wasn't the time to bring them up…

'Soon, I hope, I'll be able to, because eventually these things will eat away at me…'

"Good-bye Yugi. See you later," Yami said with a wave later that night as he headed out the door to go to Kaiba-kun's house.

I started to wave back, but then said, "Hey… Maybe I should come with you, Yami. To sort out all of this."

"Maybe you're right," Yami agreed, rubbing his chin in thought. "You actually witnessed what Seto said… It would be useful to have you with me." He held his hand out to me. "Come along."

I pulled on my shoes and grabbed his hand trustingly, shutting the door and locking it.

It seemed like we got to Kaiba-kun's too soon. That was probably just because I was scared of what might happen. Because I began to have second thoughts about coming with my darker side. I was thinking that I should've just stayed out of the whole thing and let just the two of them handle the situation. But then, I knew that I was needed for the confrontation, since Kaiba-kun said those words in the bathroom to me. But still… I wished it hadn't happened. All of it was a complete mess and I wanted to go back home. I never should've mentioned the idea to come with mou hitori no boku…

I cringed when Yami rang the doorbell, quivering behind him in fear.

"Hikari, what has gotten into you?" my other inquired, but I was sure that he knew exactly why I was afraid.

The door opened shortly, and I was relieved to see the face of Kaiba Mokuba, Kaiba-kun's younger brother.

"Konban wa," Yami and I said in unison (though you could barely hear me).

"Konban wa, but…" he said, blinking. After a few seconds, he beamed at us. "Ooooohhh yeaaah! Onii-sama told me that you were coming. I forgot! Come on in! He's in his room." The black-haired boy gestured for us to come in.

Sheepishly I stepped slowly into the mansion with Yami. Immediately we walked off to Kaiba-kun's room, with mou hitori no boku leading the way, of course. The way that I wished I didn't have to walk. We climbed the stairs that I wished and didn't have to step on. And finally, we reached Kaiba's door, a door that I didn't want to knock on (Yami knocked, but…you know what I mean).

At the knocking a voice answered, "What is it?" I knew that growling, annoyed voice all too well.

"It's me," answered Yami bluntly.

"Oh," Kaiba-kun said. "Come in, then."

Yami opened the door with me still hiding behind him like a scared little puppy. The two of us walked in.

Kaiba-kun was sitting at his desk, an expensive-looking laptop on top of it. His eyes were glued to the screen, darting back and forth, the only sound the tapping of fingers on a keyboard. He looked up at us and raised an eyebrow at Yami.

"What's he doing here?"

I tried to scrunch up and make myself less noticeable.

"Well," Yami said, "I thought we might discuss what you said to Yugi during lunch today."

Kaiba rolled his eyes. "There's nothing to 'discuss'."

"Oh, but I think there is." Yami narrowed his eyes. "About what you said to Aibou during lunchtime."

A/N: I hate it in Yuugiou fanfics when people make Mokuba immature and stupid. Also I see a lot of Mokuba being into porn? What's up with that? Anyway, thanks for reading. Next chapter will be up next week. I'm not really impressed with this chapter…so if you're not either, I understand. Don't worry. I have exciting plans for chapter five! Stay tuned!

Key

Nani- "What?"

Hitotsu dake- Along the lines of meaning "only one". For some reason I have so much fun naming chapters. xD.

Onii- Older brother. I forget whether Mokuba calls Seto "onii-chan" or "onii-sama". But I think it's "onii-sama". Once again, correct me if I'm wrong.

Konban wa- Good evening.