Author's note: Well yeah as you've already guessed here comes chapter five of my story and I hope you like it...

You may notice during the story that the draft lottery will be different from the real draft lottery but I hope you don't mind that. Oh and for Shawn's first and former manager I mentioned when Chris was telling Batista about Alexi's and Shawns connection... well I just made someone be Shawn's first manager even though in reality he wasn't, so that he would fit into the story... I hope you don't mind that either.

But now have fun with my new chapter

As always: The quick word to my reviewers:

andonly: Yepp John will definately make appearances in the fic... actually that's why I drafted him 'grin'

Roxxy1984: 'smile' I'm happy that you want me to continue and here comes the new chapter... well for Shawn finding out... you just have to wait and see.

Jen105: Here comes mor for you to read... and thanks for the review 'hugs'

HeartagramBaby: Thanks for the compliment 'hugs' and I hope you like the new chapter as well

Mizz Molko: Well good question there... you'll see how or if Shawn finds out when the time comes 'hugs' anyway have fun with the new chapter

qtea-angel: As I told adonly, John will appear in the story soon... and he'll play a major part in the whole difficult story of Shawns and Marissas past 'smile' Have fun with the new chapter

Zanderlover: No I really like your reviews because they show that you really read the story and think about it... and that makes me happy that I can make people think about my stories 'hugs' so you can get as 'wordy' as you want and it makes me really happy to think that people can put themselves into the position of Alexi... that's a huge compliment for me 'smile'... well Randy didn't beat the truth out of Dave because with his shoulder injury Dave would probably have kicked his ass 'grin'

Yepp curious Shawn is a dangerous Shawn... at least in my story... 'evilgrin'

And well... John and Randy are my favourite wrestlers so I made them best friends in my story...

Well... for the thing with being blind... yepp I have knowledge about that... I know the feeling when the world suddenly turns black around you and I know the helpless feeling and the desperation... but I also know the feeling of happiness when you can finally see again...

And for the other ideas you have for my story... well I can't tell you which one were right and which one weren't... but I can assure you you'll find out soon enough that you had some ideas I've already planned on using... you just have to read to find out.. 'hugs' and now have fun with the new chapter

Disclaimer: I don't own anything in this story except Marissa and her mother... 'hides Randy in her bathroom'
And something in bold and italics is when "someone's talking through the telephone"

and something in italics is still thoughts


Chapter 5: Memories
"What the hell was that Chris? Why didn't you even let me say goodbye to Dave and Randy?" Alexandria asked angrily and sat down on the bed.

Chris sighed and went to sit down beside her, putting an arm around her shoulders.

"Your father was out there with them…"

Chris could feel Alexi tense.

"He isn't my father… well at least not in the common sense and as long as I have a say in it." She spat angrily.

Jericho sighed again. He seemed to do that a lot ever since Alexandria had come to stay with him.

This would be harder than he had thought in the beginning, but he was determined to at least get her to talk to Shawn since Alexi was being unfair.
Okay, Chris had to admit that she had every right to be since she didn't know the whole truth.

But Chris still thought that Shawn had a right to know that he had a daughter and they both had the right to know the full truth.

I definitely need to talk to Marissa about that… He thought.

Then he looked at Alexi, who was still sitting beside him, her lips pressed together.

"Alexi, honey, don't ya think that Shawn at least deserves a chance to explain?" He tried to reason with Alexandria, but Alexi shook her head vehemently.

"No Chris… he had every chance for twenty years to call my mother to explain his actions but he never did. And as far as I'm concerned this man out there isn't my father." She said stubbornly.

Great… so this method doesn't work… Y2J mused.

I need to think of another way…

Nevertheless he tried again.

"Alexi, please what have you got to lose?"

Alexandria looked at Chris and Y2J could easily see that she was hurt.

"Are you on his side or what?" She questioned, the hurt evident in her voice.

Chris was shocked at her outburst and a little hurt that she could think that he was on Shawn's side, well a side Shawn didn't even know he was on.

"Of course not Alexi, and you know that… I'm just trying to be objective here…"

Alexandria's expression impression softened immediately.

"Sorry Chris… I didn't mean it… it's just that the thought of him being so near makes me mad and insecure at the same time."
Chris gently took her into an embrace.

"I know you didn't mean it sweety."

Alexi smiled slightly.

"And the surgery tomorrow is taking its toll too…"

Chris tightened his arms around her and kissed the top of her head.

"It's going to be okay Alexi… and I'll be with you all the way, before the surgery and when you wake up you'll see me waiting and smiling at your bedside."

Alexi couldn't help but smile when Chris said those words.

She believed what he had said. Chris had always been there for her and had never lied to her, so why should he lie now.

This was the whole reason that she had started to talk to him again after the two months of not talking to each other after she had found out he was a professional wrestler.

She had forgiven him because she had just missed him too much to be angry with him any longer.

And Alexi had no idea how she would've handled the accident and the aftermath of the accident without him by her side.

Chris was, together with her mother, the most important person in her life. Alexandria loved him and for her Chris was the big brother she never had.

Suddenly, and Alexi couldn't really tell why, her thoughts drifted to Randy.

"Chris, do you think that Randy will come and visit me at the hospital after the operation?" She asked in a small voice and Chris hated how lost she looked right at the moment.

So he quickly smiled and said: "I'm sure that he will come to see you Alexi. By the way were you able to finish the 'room-ritual' or were you interrupted by the phone call?"

"Nope, we had just finished when his cell rang."
"Good… I hope he didn't bother or annoy you too much and asked questions about the accident…" Chris asked.
I swear if he has, I'll go over to his room and kick his butt… He thought.

Alexi smiled warmly at that.

"No he hasn't asked at all about it. He was all gentleman-like."
Even though Jericho had expected this answer, he was still relieved.

"That's good then…" He looked at Alexandria again and saw her smiling dreamily.

"Are ya thinking 'bout Randy?" Chris asked teasingly.
Alexi snapped out of her thoughts and blushed.
This was answer enough for Jericho and he just left it at that, glad that his plan really seemed to work.

"Alexi, I'm sorry but I have to get ready for the show."

"But… I thought you didn't have to be on the show tonight?" Alexandria asked confused.

"Originally I wasn't needed, but Vince came up with a new storyline so I'm needed for a match tonight… and since I have tomorrow already off, I couldn't protest…" He said a bit sadly.

Alexi nodded. "I understand that… but I was hoping you would spend the evening with me and maybe we'd go out to eat something…."
Chris sighed. He really felt bad about it but he knew that there was nothing he could do.

"I'm really sorry sweety."

"I know you are Chris…" Alexi assured.

"I just hate the thought of being alone the night before the surgery."
Y2J smiled a little when he had an idea.

"I can ask Randy to keep you company tonight. You two can go out to eat something and before you know the show will be finished and I'll be back… so would that be okay?"

Alexi's face lit up.

"Do you think he would do that? And doesn't he have to work?"
Oh shit… I forgot that Randy isn't the injured wrestler here but supposed to be working for the TV company… come on Chris, think of something…

"Umm… no, he doesn't have to work tonight since he's mainly responsible for the promo filming and since there won't be any promos tonight, he has the evening off. And I'm sure he'll come to keep you company if I ask him to."

Alexi grinned and hugged Jericho again.
"You're the best."
"I know…" Chris grinned, wondering if he should just go to Dave's and Randy's room to ask the Legend Killer if it was okay with him or if he should call him real quick.

But he decided against calling because it would be better to talk to Randy alone about how to handle Alexi best.

So he told Alexandria: "Alexi, I'll go and ask Randy if it's okay with him… I'll be back soon."
"Okay… I'll call Mom to let her know that everything is all right… you know that she worries a lot since the accident."

Chris nodded. "Okay… see you in a few minutes…"
With that he left to go find Randy and Dave.

Shawn walked down to McMahon's office again, wondering what he did want now.

When he was nearly at the door, he heard the door open and he stopped in his tracks, even though he didn't know why.

Eric Bischoff walked out but stopped in the doorframe again.

"Vince, I still don't think that it's a good idea." Bischoff said, unaware that Shawn was there and was hearing what they were saying.

"Eric, don't worry too much. It will all work out and Chris doesn't even have to know about it."
"If ya think so… but if he finds out you deal with him alone…"
Shawn could hear McMahon chuckle.

"I will… but now you should better go. Shawn will be here any minute now…"

"Okay, see you later." Eric said his final goodbye and closed the door to the office before walking into the direction where Shawn was standing.

The Heartbreak Kid quickly hid behind a corner since he didn't want Eric and Vince to find out that he had listened in on them.

When the General Manager of RAW was out of sight, HBK walked up to Vince's office and knocked.

"Come in…" He could hear McMahon's voice.

With a sigh Michaels opened the door.
"You wanted to see me… again?" Shawn asked and entered the office.

Vince laughed a little.

"Yeah… I've thought of another storyline but I wanted to discuss this with you alone first…"

He motioned with his hands for Shawn to sit down. The Heartbreak Kid did so and sat down opposite of Vince.

"So what's this new storyline about?" He questioned.

"Shawn… I've thought about a romantic storyline for ya…" Vince started.

Let's see what I can find out… He thought and wasn't disappointed by Shawn's reaction.

HBK stiffened.

"Vince… I've told you once and since you seem to have forgotten I'll tell you again.

There is no chance I'll ever do a romantic storyline."

"But Shawn… you can even chose for yourself who you want to do the storyline with…." Vince tried again, already knowing that he wouldn't be successful since he never had been whenever he had brought it up.

"… and the fans would sure love it to see you in a romantic storyline."

Shawn shook his head in determination and he wouldn't be talked into it.

I never thought that I'd say something like that but… He thought before he continued out loud: "Fuck the fans Vince… I don't want to do it…"

Vince eyes widened a little when HBK said that because normally Shawn loved his fans and he knew that he wouldn't be where he was now without them.

I should have expected it. He's always gotten defensive whenever I've brought the relationship angle up. But after all this years I've finally an idea why. Let's see what I can get out of him now.

"Shawn… you know that I could order you to do it. I never have in the past and I don't want to order you to do it… but I need a good reason for you why you won't do it… because the only thing that keeps me from ordering you to do it, is that you wouldn't give your best in the storyline if I forced you to do it."

Shawn nodded, glad that McMahon really didn't seem like he wanted to force him to do it, but he also knew that Vince expected a good explanation.

"So? What's your excuse?" Vince asked again, when Shawn didn't say a word.

The tone of Vince's voice told Shawn that Vince wouldn't give up before he had his explanation.

Guess I can as well tell him the whole truth… there's nothing for me to lose.

Shawn sighed.

"Well you want the truth… here comes the truth… I just can't pretend to have a happy relationship in front of the camera when wrestling screwed up the best relationship I've ever had twenty years ago. Hell… I could even be a father right now…"

So I was right… but now I want to hear his side of the story… Vince thought, studying Shawn's face.
"Excuse me Shawn, but I don't really understand what you're talking about." He said because he couldn't let Shawn know about what Chris had told him. So he just waited patiently for Shawn to continue with his story.

The Heartbreak Kid ran a hand through his hair and looked at one of the pictures hanging in the room, just so that he didn't have to look at Vince.

"Well… it's like that. 20 years ago, just before I was about to make it big in the wrestling business I had a beautiful girlfriend. One day she made me the happiest man when she told me she was pregnant. Even though she was 16 and I was only 17 we were ready to marry and raise the child together. But that was when Sid and Marissa's father started to interfere…"

Vince nodded. He figured that Marissa was the girl Shawn had wanted to marry 20 years ago and of course he knew Sid Eudy, since it had been him, who had brought Shawn into the wrestling business. Shawn and him had parted when Shawn decided to have 'Sensational Sherri' as his manager. Vince dragged himself away from these thoughts when he heard Shawn continue.

"Well actually Sid started to talk to Marissa's father and they decided that it would be the best solution if Marissa had an abortion. Marissa and I went along with it, basically just because her father and Sid had made us doubt that we would be able to take care of the child. Well, my manager and Marissa's father basically kept us away from each other. I wasn't even allowed to go with her when the appointment for the abortion had come up. All I wanted back then was to be there with her… to be there for her to support her…" Shawn stopped for a second to rub his face with his left hand. He finally looked at McMahon and continued: "… anyways… I called her the next day but her father answered the phone, telling me that she was still weak and needed to rest and that I should call back tomorrow. I wanted to, but the next morning Sid appeared on my doorstep and told me that Marissa had just called him to tell him that he should tell me that it was over. He said that she'd told him that she blamed me for choosing my wrestling career over her and the baby. Sid also told me that Marissa never ever wanted to see me again… Shortly after that her family moved away and I never heard from her again… she didn't even say goodbye. I was hurt and confused since I had thought that the abortion had been a decision we both made and it hurt that she didn't even tell me in person that it was over… anyways from then on I concentrated solely on my wrestling career. There… this is the reason I don't want to do romantic storylines. It would always remind me on what has happened back then…" Shawn ended and buried his head in his hands. Vince had listened to HBK's story quietly, even though he had wanted to ask a lot of questions during the story. He watched Shawn quietly for a moment, since he had never seen Shawn that worked up over something, well except the time when HBK had been told that he wouldn't be able to wrestle again.

Okay… something is weird about this whole story. Chris tells me that it was Shawn who broke up with Marissa through his manager. And here is Shawn, telling me that it was Marissa who broke up with him through Sid… Vince mused. Suddenly McMahon realised something. There was a person who had almost the same role in both stories…

Sid Eudy, Shawn's former manager…

"Vince? Is everything okay?" Shawn wanted to know, having regained his composure somewhat and McMahon realised that he must've spaced out for a moment.
"Yeah… sure everything's okay Shawn." He said quickly. "I see now that you have a good reason for not doing the romantic storyline.

HBK nodded. "I'm glad that you understand."

"I do, Shawn, I really do… and I'm glad you finally told me." Vince glanced at his watch.
"But you should go now to prepare for your match… and if you should somehow change your mind about the storyline just let me know…"
Shawn frowned a little. It seemed that Vince wanted to get rid of him all of sudden.

But since he was glad to go he stood up. "I don't think I will change my mind but if I should do, I know where to find ya… so thanks for yer understanding and I will talk to you later…"

With that he left the office and walked back to his hotel room.

Vince waited until the door to the office had closed behind Shawn before he started to dial a phone number.

Vince was determined to get to the bottom of this whole story, since he felt kind of responsible for the situation Alexandria was in at the moment.

And he had known Shawn for about twenty years now and Vince felt like he owed it to Shawn to find out the truth so that HBK one day would get to know the whole truth since he deserved to know.

His thoughts were interrupted when suddenly someone picked up the phone at the other end.

"Sid Eudy?"

"Hey Sid. This is Vince… I need to talk to you."

to be continued, if you want me to