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Chapter 19: Anger

"Shawn… meet Alexandria Shawna Reed… your daughter…" For a moment Shawn thought he'd misheard Marissa, but there was no doubt and deep down in his heart he knew that Marissa wasn't lying.

"My daughter?" He whispered, looking at the girl lying in the hospital bed.

"Yes… your daughter…" Alexi's mother confirmed a small, sad smile on her face.

"But… you told me… you said…" Shawn started but truth to be told he had no idea what to say.

For the first time in his life Shawn felt helpless. He had absolutely no idea how to react or what to do. He felt Randy's, John's, Chris's and Marissa's eyes on him, all waiting for him to do something, but right now HBK wanted nothing more than to close that door again and run.

But he just couldn't run. He had left Marissa twenty years ago and it had made him miserable so he decided to stay. Something else or better someone else also made it impossible for him to just run. This someone was lying in the hospital bed and looking shocked and afraid.

Alexandria… his daughter. Shawn still couldn't believe it.

"My daughter… I have a daughter…" Shawn stuttered and wondered once again what he should do with this knowledge.

When HBK said those words, Randy, who was still standing beside Alexi, holding her hand, could sense the immediate change of mood in the girl. Had she before been too shocked to react in any way, she now stiffened and her features only showed anger.

"As far as I'm concerned you're not my father…" She yelled the hatred evident in her voice.

Her mother turned to her, a soft look on her face.

"Alexi, honey… please just give him a chance." She said almost pleadingly.

Alexandria shook her head wildly. "No… there's no reason to give him a chance. He didn't want a chance for twenty years… so why should I give him one now?"
"Honey… please… it wasn't his fault…" Marissa tried again. She had no idea what to do now. She hadn't expected her daughter to react so violently to Shawn when she actually came eye to eye with him. Obviously she'd underestimated the anger her daughter felt towards Shawn.

"Stop… stop lying and get out… all of you…" Alexi screamed and pressed her hands to her ears.

Randy was immediately reminded of the breakdown Alexandria had had the day before at the hotel room.

"Alexi… honey…" Marissa tried again.

"No… get out of the room… leave me alone… " The girl screamed again, shaking her head wildly.

Chris could see that this wouldn't end well if they didn't leave her alone now.

"Shh… Alexi calm down…" Randy meanwhile tried to soothe his girlfriend.

"GET OUT!" Alexandria screamed as if she hadn't even heard what Randy had said.

John could see that it was best if all of them left her alone for a while.

He walked over to his best friend and laid a hand on his best friend's shoulder.

"Come on Randy…" He said softly.

With a sad glance at Alexi, Randy looked at Chris who nodded slowly, and then let himself be led away by John.

Marissa stood by the door and gave Randy and John a small smile when they passed her. Then she turned to Shawn, who stood motionless in the doorframe, staring at Alexi.

"Come on Shawn… we need to talk… actually… we have a lot to talk about…"
With that she pushed the Heartbreak Kid softly but determinedly out of her daughter's room.

Chris was the last to leave when suddenly Alexi called out: "Chris-chan… please don't leave me alone."

Randy's head jerked up when he heard Alexi once again call for Chris and not for him in the time of her need.

Jericho could easily see the hurt on Randy's face and he mouthed a 'sorry' to the Legend Killer before he went back into the room and closed the door behind him.

As soon as the door was closed behind Y2J, Marissa, John, Shawn and Randy looked at each other. Silence entered the hallway that was finally broken by Randy: "I need some fresh air…"

And without another word he walked away from the group.

John looked after Randy and then he looked at Marissa and Shawn again.

He could easily see that the two needed some time alone to talk.

Actually they would need twenty years. I can't give them that but I can give them at least the chance to talk alone for a while. John thought. The WWE Champion also knew that he needed to see if Randy was okay.

So he told Marissa and Shawn: "I'm going to talk to Randy."

Marissa just nodded and smiled thankfully.

John gave a short smile in return and then he sprinted down the corridor to catch up with Randy.

Marissa watched him go and then she turned to Shawn. She looked at him and wondered what would happen now.

HBK still tried to come to terms with the fact that he'd just gotten a twenty year old daughter.

"Is she… I mean is she really my daughter?" He questioned again, not really expecting a negative answer.

Marissa nodded. "Yeah… she is."

"But… Sid told me that you had the abortion and you hated me for it." Shawn said.

Marissa looked at the father of her child with surprise.

"He told you that? But… he told me that you didn't want to see me anymore because you didn't need a girlfriend for your wrestling career."
Now it was Shawn's turn to look surprised.

Marissa ran a hand through her hair and sighed tiredly. "I see there's a lot we need to talk about… we better sit down."

Shawn nodded and they sat down in the uncomfortable plastic chairs in the hallway.

HBK looked at Marissa and suddenly he had this weird feeling. It was a feeling of affection and maybe even more.

"You haven't changed…" He said and added: "You're still as beautiful as you were when I last saw you."

Marissa blushed a little and a small smile crept into her face.

But then she got serious again.
"Shawn… this is not the right time to talk about us… right now all we have to worry is about our daughter that is lying in the hospital, having a breakdown right before her surgery." For a second Marissa wondered how easily she could call Alexi her and Shawn's daughter. But in truth she had always considered Alexi their daughter and not just hers.

The Heartbreak Kid looked at Marissa and for a moment had no idea what to say.

"But… shouldn't you be in there with her if she has an emotional breakdown?"

Marissa shook her head. "Chris will take care of her."
"Chris? But how does he know Alexandria?" This was a part Shawn still hadn't figured out.

"He was our next-door neighbour. But that's also a long story."
Shawn nodded and if he was serious this wasn't actually what interested him the most.

"Marissa… why didn't you tell me that you had our child? Don't ya think I would've the right to know?"

Marissa nodded. "I thought so… but when I told Sid that I'd kept the baby… he told me that it was better not to tell you because if I would've told you he feared that you might give up your career and after you had worked so hard for it I didn't want to ruin it for you… and a day later Sid called me and told me that you didn't want to see me again…" She explained, shortening the long and complicated story to the most important details.

"Wait… Sid told you I didn't want to see ya again?" Shawn asked, trying to suppress the anger he felt. "I'm going to kill him…"

Marissa looked at Shawn surprised at his outburst.

"You wanna kill Sid? But why? I mean it's not his fault." She asked, torn between getting curious or angry at Shawn for blaming Sid for his own decisions.

"This asshole told me that you didn't want to see me because you hated me for agreeing with the abortion." Shawn explained, calmer this time.

Marissa's eyes widened and she felt a wave of anger wash through her.

"You mean that I was miserable and missed you for 20 years just because Sid lied to me?" Marissa asked, still not believing what Shawn had just told her.

"He lied to both of us…" Shawn started but quickly stopped when he realised what Marissa's words had just meant.

"Wait… did you just say you missed me for twenty years?"

Just now Marissa realised what she had admitted. She blushed faintly and nodded slowly. There was no use denying it. And this was perhaps the chance to find out if Shawn perhaps still felt something for her.

"Yes… I missed you every single day… I tried to forget you but it didn't work… well in the last years I was able to push it into the back of my mind… but I could never let go of my feelings." She confessed.

Shawn looked at her wide-eyed and was speechless for the second time this day.

"Are you telling me that you still have feelings for me?" He asked dumbfounded.

Marissa nodded slowly. "Yes Shawn… I still have feelings for you… I just can't help it… but I can live with it… and I know that you don't feel the same… but I can live with that too…"

HBK had no idea what to say and looked at Marissa, who looked expectantly at him.

And suddenly, Shawn couldn't tell why, he leaned forward and pressed his lips softly on Marissa's lips. When he felt her respond to the kiss it was as if the twenty years of separation had never existed.

"Randy, wait up…" John called and quickly caught up with his best friend.

Randy slowed down his pace a little but never stopped walking until he was out of the hospital.

He breathed in the fresh air and finally stopped.

John stood beside him and was silent and waited for Randy to start talking.

"I hate hospitals…" Randy muttered. John nodded slowly. He knew that Randy hated doctors and hospitals ever since his shoulder injury.

Once again silence entered. John looked at his best friend and was pretty sure he knew what the Legend Killer was thinking about. Randy looked like he had no idea if he should start crying or start punching someone, preferably Chris, John guessed.

"You know that Alexi loves you and not Chris, don't ya RKO?" He questioned softly, trying to get Randy to talk to him about his feelings, which wasn't something the young Orton did often.

Randy just shrugged. "And why is he with Alexi and not me?" He questioned bitterly.

John had some sort of déjà vu because they had had a similar conversation earlier but this time Randy sounded even more depressed.

"Randy, I can't answer that question because I don't know her well enough to know how her mind works… the only guess I have is that she's just freaked out because of Shawn finally really knowing about her and it has always been Chris who was there for her when she needed emotional support. And as I told you earlier I think she needs to get used to the fact that you love her and will always be there for her no matter what. With Chris she knows where she stands and she knows what to expect. With you she can't be sure and when she's freaked out she probably needs emotional stability and her feelings for you are still too fresh to give her that sense of security she needs." John explained his observations of the past few hours.

Randy looked at John surprised. "Since when are you so good at reading people JC?" He asked his best friend, once again amazed that John could reed his thoughts and feelings like an open book.

John grinned and shrugged. "With a friend like you, I needed to get good at reading people because that's the only chance for me to find out how you really feel… so that I can help you if you need help… and I guess this made me good at reading other people as well."

Randy gave a tiny smile and looked at John.

"Do I really do that? I mean… do I really hide my emotions?" He questioned, having had no idea that he had been doing that.

Cena nodded thoughtfully. "Well at least most of the time… mostly when you're really worked up over something… and that's when I start to get worried…"

Randy raised an eyebrow and looked at John. "Do I really worry you that much?"

John nodded. "You're my best friend… I'm supposed to be worried."
The Legend Killer smiled, realising for the first time what a good friend John was.
"You feel better now?" John wanted to know.
The young Orton nodded. "At least a little… it's still awkward when I think about the relationship between Alexi and Chris. I mean they've known each other for years. It will take a lot of time until I get to know Alexi as well as Chris knows her. And that's what's bothering me. He knows how to help her when she has an emotional breakdown because he has been there almost all her life. I don't… all I can do is to hold her and to tell her I'll be there for her."
John sighed. He realised that Randy was far from okay.

"Come on RKO. That's all you have to do in such a situation. Look at it that way. You have all the time in the world to get to know her and you will find out something new about her everyday and that will make you love her more and more… and that's something Chris and Alexi can't have because they already know everything about each other… and they settled to be friends and they will have good reasons for that."

Once again Randy looked at John in awe.

John's words made him feel a lot better.

"JC, tell me why you don't have a girlfriend. I mean she would be hanging on your every word."
John gave one of his infamous in-ring smiles and answered: "Just haven't found the right one like you have RKO."
Randy smiled and slapped his best friend on the shoulder in a friendly way.

"Don't worry you'll find the right one when the time is right." He said.

Cena nodded, glad that his friend seemed in much better spirits than after the incident at the hospital room.

"You wanna go back? I mean Alexi sure misses you. And I think you two need to talk."
Randy nodded. He knew what John meant that he and Alexi needed to have a talk. The Legend Killer knew that he had to tell Alexandria how he felt about her relationship with Chris and needed to hear what she had to say about it or his jealousy would effectively ruin every chance the two had as a couple.

And he also wanted to be there for her, to make sure that she was okay, that meeting Shawn hadn't thrown her too much off balance.

"Yeah… let's go back so that we can stop Lexi from murdering Shawn."
John chuckled and was about to go back into the hospital when suddenly had a hand on his shoulder again and looked at him seriously.

"Thanks JC…" He said softly.

John looked at him with question in his eyes.

"For what?"
"For being a friend…"

John smiled and said: "That's nothing you need to thank me for… and now let's go back…"

Randy nodded and without another word the two made their way back into the hospital. They had nearly reached Alexandria's hotel room when John suddenly spotted Marissa and John in front of the room. He stopped dead in his tracks when he saw that the two were kissing passionately.

He elbowed Randy into the side. "Look…" He said, because the Legend Killer had been so absorbed in his own thoughts that he hadn't seen the two.

Now he looked into the direction John did and his eyes widened.

"I don't believe that…" was all he could think of saying.

John nodded. "You can see that the two have been separated for twenty years…" He said, trying to figure out what to do now.

Randy also had no idea how to react to that development. Alexandria hated her father that much was obvious. And Randy didn't want to know what Alexi would feel if she found out that her mother seemed to have forgiven Shawn.

And suddenly he felt a wave of anger wash through him.

"How can they?" He said through gritted teeth and balled his fists.

John could sense the change of mood in his best friend without having to look at him. When he turned his head however, he immediately laid a hand on Randy's shoulder to stop him from doing something stupid.

"Calm down RKO." He said and used his nickname for Randy on purpose so that Randy knew that John was serious. "Let them at least explain before you do something you might regret."
"What is there to explain? How can Marissa betray Alexi like that?" He questioned.

Hadn't the situation been so serious, John would've smiled at the reaction of the Legend Killer. The affection and concern for Alexi was evident and so was the love for the girl.

And that was why Randy looked ready to attack Shawn right in the hospital.

At least there would be a doctor available to tend to Shawn when Randy is finished with him. John thought in an attempt to stop the uneasy feeling he had, that told him that something bad was about to happen.

He had his hand still on Randy's shoulder but looked at Marissa and Shawn again who had finally broken the kiss. Breathlessly he waited what would happen next between Alexandria's parents.

Chris closed the door behind Marissa, Shawn, John and Randy and then turned to Alexandria who sat on the bed, her face buried in her hands, sobbing quietly.

Jericho walked over to the bed and took the girl in his arms. After a moment Alexi reacted to his touch and buried her head on his shoulder and her hands grabbed Chris's shirt to make sure Y2J wouldn't go anywhere.

With a sigh Chris softly stroked the girls back, wondering if things would get better now or even worse than before.

"Shh… Alexi… calm down… Shawn's gone… they're all gone."

It took a while for Alexandria to calm down again but she recovered quicker than after her breakdown in the morning.

"Why Chris? Why did mom tell him I was his daughter?" She questioned, looking at Chris for an answer.

"Alexi, honey… I know it's hard for you to understand… but Shawn is your father and he has a right to know about you." Chris said softly, hoping that Alexandria wouldn't yell at him for siding with Marissa.

But Chris knew that Marissa had done the right thing by telling Shawn when he'd appeared in front of the hospital room. And Jericho also knew that deep down in her heart Alexi also knew that Shawn was her father and had a right to know, even if she didn't like it.

To his surprise Alexi didn't yell at him but just looked at him with teary, unseeing eyes.

"But Chris… now that he knows that I'm the daughter he gave up twenty years ago, her perhaps will want to get to know me… I can't handle that… I'm not ready to forgive him… and… Mom… she's not ready to handle that either. She still loves him…" Alexandria still found it hard to even call Shawn by his name.
"Alexi, sweetie… your mother knows what she's been doing. She's had twenty years to work out what to do if she ever met him again…"

"You don't understand Chris… it's not that I fear that she can't handle seeing him again… I fear that she can't handle letting him go again…" The girl explained, trying to get Chris to understand what she meant.

I'm not sure if Shawn wants her to let him go again. Chris thought but found it better not to say that part out loud because he knew Alexandria wouldn't like to hear that. So he said instead: "Sweetie… you need to have more confidence in your mother. I'm sure she will work through this situation…"

Then he took a deep breath and said: "Alexandria… I know you don't want to hear it, but you should give Shawn a chance to at least explain why he did what he did…"

Immediately after saying that, Chris knew that he'd made a mistake.

Alexi tensed and shook the hand, Chris had still resting on her arm, off.

"So you want me to just go out there and say: 'Hi Dad, you've ignored me for the past twenty years but hey… that's okay. I forgive you… can we please be a family again?' Oh come on Chris he just left me and mom twenty years ago without caring so he has to live with the consequences. I waited for him to come to my birthday every year… I always thought if I'd just be good he'd be coming to see me… but he never came… so how do you expect me to forgive him." The sarcasm and the hurt were evident in her voice and the hatred for Shawn was too.

It nearly broke Chris's heart to see Alexi suffering like that.

I'm sorry Marissa… I know I promised not to tell her but I can't see her hurting like that. He thought before he said: "Alexi… it's not entirely Shawn's fault… he never knew you even existed…"

Alexi stiffened when Y2J said that.

"Why do you say that Chris? Of course he knew about me… Mom told me so… He left because he didn't need a family."

"Alexi… I know what I'm about to tell you will be hard… but I promise you it's the truth." Chris said seriously, taking Alexi's hands in his to give her comfort.

The girl had stopped talking and hung her head, unable to look at Jericho.

With a deep sigh Chris started: "Alexandria… Shawn never knew about you… before you were born, Shawn's manager and Marissa's father wanted to have an abortion… and Shawn and Marissa agreed because they were still young at that time and had no other chance but to agree… but when the day finally came your mother didn't have the heart to just give you up. She worked it out with her parents had had you… but Shawn never knew that… Marissa told him that she had had the abortion… and then Sid pressured Shawn into breaking up with your mother… and then Shawn and Marissa lost touch because your mother moved away." Chris explained in short what he'd been telling a lot of people in the past two days.

And the one who the story concerns is the last to know… He thought, waiting for Alexandria's reaction. At first there was no reaction. Alexi had gone very still. But then she said faintly that Chris almost didn't hear it.

"She lied to me… my own mother lied to me for twenty years…"

Then she raised her head and yelled at Chris: "You lied to me… how long have you known?"

Chris swallowed hard, wondering if it had really been a good idea to tell Alexi.

"Alexi… I…" He started but Alexandria shook her head.

"No Chris… I don't want to hear your explanations and apologies. I want to just hear how long you've known… how long all of you have known and lied to me…"

"Alexandria… please… we never meant to hurt you… we just thought it was better for you."
Alexandria laughed bitterly. "Yeah… I really have the feeling that you didn't want to hurt me. Why else would my own mother and my best friend lie to me for years… so thank you for that…" She said sarcastically.

"Alexandria… please… just try to understand us."
"No… I don't want to understand you… at least not right now… it's better you go now… I want to be alone."
Chris looked at Alexandria and could see that she shouldn't be alone in such a situation. But he also knew that it was better for him to go now.

I can send Randy back in here… he can take care of her since he's got nothing to do with this whole mess…

So with a look at Alexandria, he slowly walked to the door.

"If you want to talk to any of us… just call… we'll be waiting outside if you need us…" He said, with his hand already on the doorknob.

When Alexandria didn't react, he sighed sadly and said: "I'm sorry…"

With that he left the room and closed the door behind him.

As soon as Alexandria heard the door close, Alexi sat in silence for a moment and wondered what she should do now. But suddenly she remembered something and reached for the phone on her nightstand and dialled a number, she had learned the day before.

After a few rings someone on the other end of the line picked up.

"Eudy?"

to be continued...