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Never Let Me Go
She forced one foot in front of the other as she walked down her street on her way home from work. She just couldn't take it anymore. She was sick and tired of one man. Colonel Roy Mustang. Everything he did lately seemed to piss her off to no extent.
He didn't do his paperwork. When it looked like he did he was merely doodling on a scrap of paper. Riza just didn't understand his motive. It was like he did everything to annoy her on purpose… of course he did! That was an idiotic thought! Of course he did it on purpose, but why? Riza let out a cry of anguish as she passed by a couple walking hand in hand.
Seeing the couple walking close together made Riza's heart drop to her feet. She had always wanted someone to cuddle next to her and whisper let words of comfort in her ear to make her feel better, wanted. Riza could only sigh sadly at this thought and drag her feet up a set of stairs. She had finally arrived home.
As she climbed the steps from the street to her apartment, she noticed that her vision was becoming a bit blurry. She could barely see the glint off the shiny brass doorknob from the streetlight standing outside her apartment lawn. It looked like a streaking star falling for the light post.
Shoving her keys into the keyhole, she twisted the doorknob and pushed the door open letting it slam against the wall behind it. Riza was welcomed home to her dark apartment to the sound of sliding nails scratching across her hardwood floors. The noisemaker barked once, twice to get her attention. Right then though Riza didn't want to hear any noise.
Sensing that his Mummy wasn't feeling herself Black Hayate merely whimpered at her feet. Bending down to scratch him behind the ears, Riza was followed by Hayate to her room where she kicked off her shoes and changed into her nighty. Crawling into bed she turned off her beside table light and snuggled into the covers that surrounded her.
Riza was about to slip off into a deep sleep when she heard a knock on the door. Wearily she stumbled out of bed. Wipping her eyes groggily she headed to the front door and without thinking Riza pulled the door open. There stood… no one? Riza took a step outside onto her 'porch'. There was no one there…
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You know how in movies if you don't see anything at eye level they ALWAYS (ok so not always but you get what I mean… I hope ;)) look down to the ground? Well Riza did just that.
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Riza looked down to the doormat that served to clean shoes. There, featherly placed, was a ivory colored envolope. Slowly, as if she feared it was going to explode in her fingers, she picked up the peculiar letter. It wasn't every day she got letters… especially on her doorstep. She looked at the top of the letter. It was addressed her in fancy writing saying, To My Dearest Riza, She recognized the writing… it was so familiar but she couldn't place it with the owner.
Curiosity overwhelmed her and she turned the envelope in her hands. A stamp sealed the flap. She squinted her eyes slightly in the firelight to see what the stamp was. The red wax used amplified the flickering flame look that was forged into the wax.
Unclipping the seal she carefully slid the ivory letter from its place and opened the message with slightly trembling fingers. What the letter said made her drop the paper with the words written in the same loopy writing.
My Dearest Riza,
I cannot express to you how terrified I am, sitting here writing this letter to you almost scared of your reaction. I guess I should come out with reason for writing to you. I know what I am about to say will come as shock to you but I pray that you will not take my confession the wrong way. It was just after Maes died, that I discovered something. What I found scared me but at the time it assured me that I had a future here. That I still had someone here to look after and protect. It also reminded me that I had a friend, someone to like – no love, wanting me to stick around. Riza I want you to know that what I found from my discovery made me feel so happy. It made my heart swell. Yes I, Colonel Roy Mustang am capable of actually being human. I wanted to exclaim to the world what I found, that I realized someone was there by my side helping me to get through each day. Riza I realized what I had right there beside me all along. That I had you. I had you there comforting me when no one else did. So I am going to stop beating around the bush and come out of the shadows. My Darling Riza, I love you. I knew that have for sometime. That I have loved you from the very moment we met. From every perfect strand of hair to your enchanting caring personality. Everything about you to me, is perfect. Everything. I just wanted to confess my love for you. If you don't return my affection I understand completely. I know what the military says, that we can't love each other. I know that. But what the military tells me my heart defies. It resists every attempt on my part to deny me feelings for you. I do not want you to suffer because of me. I want you to be happy with your decision. If you indeed have the same feelings for me I will be waiting for you. If you just open your door you will see me there waiting for your body to become entwined with mine. To embrace your warmth, to kiss your captivating lips. I now await your word. I hope you will be happy with your decision whether I find it heartbreaking or heart mending. Your resolution will not change mine. It will not change my love for you. Nothing ever will. I love you Riza Hawkeye. I love you.
Yours forever,
Roy Mustang
Riza could only gasp. Gasp for the air that didn't want to come. Breaking out of her semi trance she flew to the door and flung it open.
There was no doubt about it who was sitting on the steps of her apartment. A raven black haired man with silent tears streaking down his face sat on the cold stone steps before her. The light from the room beyond the door flooded out into the outside world. Resting upon the man's non-uniformed back his shoulders trembling slightly.
Suddenly if just now noticing that he was not alone he swung around to reveal a face reddened from the appearance of crying. His eyes widened at her company. He stood abruptly.
Riza couldn't take it anymore she trotted down the steps, slowly at first but with every step she took became faster before she broke into a run. The impact she received as she tumbled slightly into Roy Mustang's arms was a tight squeeze. They finally found each other. Both holding on to each other as if for dear life.
Through her sudden tears Riza whispered,
"Roy don't let me go."
"Never, never again will I… never…never…" came his reply to her hair.
Rizahawkeye21A/N: Hey everyone. I was gonna end this at where she finished reading the letter but I found that kinda cruel so I an ending. Ok so it's not a good ending but hey it took me along time to find the right words to type. I would really like to thank everyone for their reviews it mean A LOT to me. if this sounds kinda cheesy to you im sorry it does but in my opinion it is one of my most excellent writings I have created. I hope to update more often seeing its now 'Holiday' break… Happy Early Christmas everyone!