Theme Challenge: Bridge and Syd
From the Ars Amatoria Romance Themes Challenge
Challenge #20: Confidence
A/N: Set after Closer but before Messenger Part 1
Disclaimer: Power Rangers S.P.D. belongs to Disney.
Confidence
Bridge's POV
I was in my room in my best thinking position, a handstand. I inwardly cursed myself for almost letting my feelings for Syd surface. Thankfully, I was able to play it off as merely being something that I fabricated. However, I could've sworn that Syd did say my name earlier today at the Gold Depository. Even if she had though, which she didn't, telling the others that during my side of the story was a huge mistake. The last thing I want is for them to get any ideas. I mean yeah I'd love for Syd to be my girlfriend, but for the moment, I don't know if she wants me to be her boyfriend. I know I'll never know if she wants me to be her boyfriend unless I ask her, but it just never seems like the right time. Or maybe that's just an excuse. I heard a knock.
"Hey Bridge, could I talk to you for a moment?" Syd asked.
From her body language, I could tell that she was nervous. She had her hands stuffed in her pockets, and she was avoiding making eye contact at all costs.
"Yeah sure. Come on in and have a seat," I answered getting down from my handstand position.
Syd came in and sat on the foot of my bed. Even though I was to her right, she was staring straight ahead. I started to get uncomfortable myself. My hands began to sweat. It was good thing I was wearing gloves because otherwise Syd probably would notice. On second thought, maybe it's because I'm wearing gloves that my hands are sweating.
"Uh Bridge, about earlier, you don't—were you—what did—how do I say this? Do you have feelings for me?" Syd asked.
That question caught me off guard. Out of all the questions Syd could have asked, it had to be that. What do I answer? I don't want to say "yes" only to have her say that she doesn't have feelings for me. On the other hand, I don't want to say "no" because that would be lying to her, and I wouldn't want to blow any chance of us getting together.
"W-what g-gives you that idea?" I stuttered.
At that moment, I wanted to go and bang my head on my desk. My stuttering was totally giving me away. I crossed my fingers and hoped that Syd didn't take my stuttering as me having feelings for her. Ok, well I didn't literally cross my fingers.
"I think you know," Syd stated.
I felt a lump begin to form in my throat. If I wasn't mistaken, I think my heart just skipped a beat.
"I know that you think I know, b-but I d-don't," I answered.
Syd arched her eyebrows at me. That's right she actually found the confidence to look at me face to face. I'm glad that she found some confidence, because I sure as heck didn't have any right about now.
"When you told your side of the story today, you had me say your name over and over again," Syd explained.
Uh-oh. What to say? What to say? I could admit to having feelings for her, but I don't want to do that for fear that I might be rejected. I could deny having feelings for her, but again that would be lying.
"I d-don't s-see what the b-big d-deal is. Z had Sky say her n-name over and over in her s-side of the s-story," I responded.
I felt proud of myself for being able to think on my toes. However, at the same time, I was disappointed with myself because I couldn't stop stuttering for the life of me. Syd laughed. She has such a beautiful laugh. It relaxed my nerves momentarily.
"Bridge, we both know that Z doesn't have any feelings for Sky. He's like the big brother she never wanted. She wouldn't be caught dead dating him even if he was the last guy on the planet," Syd commented.
I couldn't help but laugh at Syd's remarks. Then I remembered that I was supposed to be nervous. Ok, so maybe I wasn't necessarily supposed to be nervous, but I didn't like where this conversation was going.
"Ok, well hypothetically, what would you say if I were to tell you that I do have feelings for you?" I asked.
I was so glad I wasn't stuttering anymore. I was still dreading Syd's answer despite it being a hypothetical question, but at least my voice didn't give me away.
"I suppose I would say that I really enjoy being around you, and that I feel like I can always count on you when I need someone to talk to," Syd answered.
I was touched by Syd's words, but also I was confused by them. That didn't answer my question. Man, why is she beating around the bush?
"Are you saying that you have feelings for me too, hypothetically of course?" I asked.
I immediately wanted to take my words back. I was pretty sure that I just admitted having feelings for Syd. Nice one Bridge. Like "hypothetically of course" made it any better.
"Wow! So you do have feelings for me!" Syd exclaimed.
I had a major case of butterflies in my stomach. Actually the aforementioned butterflies seemed more like the size of dragons, not that dragons could fit in my stomach, but still.
"Yeah, well you never answered my question. Do you have feelings for me?" I asked.
Syd looked to be in too much shock to answer any questions right now. Wait why was she shocked? Was it a good shock or was it a bad shock?
"I…uh…hey, why are you putting me on the spot here?" Syd asked.
"You? You put me on the spot first!" I countered.
Syd let out a nervous laugh. I guess she realized that she had put me on the spot first. She took a deep breath before responding.
"Here's what I think Bridge. I know you're a good guy. I know that you would never ever cheat on me. While I'm being honest with myself, you do have boyish good looks. However, what I'm afraid of is that if we go through with this, it'll jeopardize our friendship. What if things don't work out for us? Will we still be as good of friends as we are now?" Syd asked.
If I wasn't hearing things, it sounded to me like Syd admitted to having feelings for me too. I felt like jumping for joy. I shared her worries too though. The friendship that Syd and I have is special, and I wouldn't want to do anything that would jeopardize it, but with that being said, I don't want to let an opportunity pass me by either.
"So are you saying that you do have feelings for me?" I asked.
Syd looked like a deer in headlights. "Did I say that? I uh…I have feelings for you hypothetically. The key word being hypothetically," Syd said.
I smirked at her. Whatever you say Syd. Whatever you say.
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