Disclaimer: I do not own Evangelion or any of the characters
A/n: ok this is gonna get rough. Not for the faint of heart =). And for all of those that are asking for a Rei and Shinji fic don't worry. That's what its gonna be. Be patient and in due time it will be folded into the story. I don't want to rush them into it. They don't like to be rushed I tells ya!
Chapter: 3 decisions decisions
Slowly Shinji let himself fall into a slumber that was only braced with sounds form his SDAT player. At noon tomorrow his father would put him to a test of will. Shinji thought, =tomorrow will be the beginning of my life here. =
No dreams were forced into his subconscious because he knew if they did they would slowly drive him insane. He always tried to keep them at bay.
+++++
The light crept through his curtains and he awoke feeling more tired than when he went to sleep.
It was 10am and NERV was a 15-minute walk. Getting up to go stare at himself in the mirror came to be the highpoint in the trip so far. At least the person looking back at him wouldn't judge. "I know how I feel, and I'm the only one that I know I can rely on."
Time passed so quickly. By the time he got out of the shower it was already 11:25.
He walked out and stared in the direction of NERV, =what if I just turn around and walk off in the other direction. I know... I know. I can't do that. = With a sigh he began walking towards NERV.
With only his SDAT player to keep him company he walked at a slow pace, looking as if he was walking down to his death. Taking in all the subtleties of nature and man.
Shinji slid his security card in and the door rose open. After he stepped inside a guard told him "Shinji Ikari, you are to report to the sickbay immediately, room 12."
=Oh man what's going on? That's where Rei is. How can my father keep involving her? He knows he's beaten me. He can't still be turning the knife. Can he? =
A long and grim decent in the elevator was all he needed. He began to sweat because of anxiety and fear. It stopped, and in a walk down the hall where his father first lead him, he had to hold back his tears and anger.
Upon opening the door he saw something he hadn't expected. It was just Rei sleeping on the bed. No one else. He could only hurry in and shut the door behind him. =Why wont the mysteries stop. What's the point of being summoned here? =
He went and sat at the chair next to her bed as he did last time. Only this time he didn't look at Rei. He didn't know what to think.
Rei then stirred and opened her eyes. Then Shinji heard the quietest voice he had ever heard. However her voice was completely emotionless. But to Shinji it was a comfort nonetheless.
"Are you Shinji Ikari?" Shinji just nodded his head. "I am to inform you to wait for the commander to arrive."
"Wha... um... I..." Rei then simple closed her eyes and ignored him. "Do you know what he wants with me?" Rei opened her eyes, looked at him wordily, and closed them again.
=She must be tired. Or maybe she doesn't want to tell me. Or she was ordered not to. My father has everyone in check here it seems. =
Gendo then made his presence know when he opened the door. =Will you pass the first test Shinji? I cannot wait for the results. =
Gendo made his way over to Shinji who was already standing by the foot of the bed now. "Here take it." Gendo gave him an object wrapped in a thick black cloth. Shinji took it and immediately noticed its heavy weight.
Shinji unwrapped it and couldn't believe what he saw. "No..."
"We'll see where your loyalties lye."
Shinji held it in both his hands with tears in his eyes. A glisten of silver was revealed to be a large handgun.
"Point it at her head Shinji."
By then Shinji was in utter disbelief. "You can't mean it!! Not even you are this cruel." Shinji looked over at Rei and saw her emotionless face. But her eyes told a different story.
She looked scared.
"NO!! You can't make me do this. No one should suffer from you anymore."
Gendo smiled to himself, =he's still so predictable. He can still pass the test. One more push=
"It's a command, I gave it, and you are to follow it without discretion!"
"NO!" Shinji the raised the gun and pointed it towards a now grinning Gendo. He whispered very emotionally, "You...Don't...Deserve...Life..."
It was now dead silent and their positions froze in time.
CLICK
=He really did it= Gendo thought.
Shinji was completely oblivious to the silence of the gun. There were no bullets in it. Gendo stepped up to Shinji with something in his hand. Shinji heard a loud crack and turned to see if Rei was ok.
He saw a large splatter of blood on her face. She was staring at him again only this time her mouth was slightly opened and she was sitting up.
But it wasn't her blood.
Shinji then saw darkness and fell to the ground. "Rei, inform a medic to come and attend to Shinji."
"y...yes commander."
Gendo then turned and left, =now that wasn't so hard, now was it. Your anger with me will help you in the heat of battle. When fighting gets more intense with the angels, so shall your hate with me. =
Rei pressed a call button and when the nurse walked in she dropped her clipboard when she saw Rei with blood on her face. "Shinji Ikari needs medical attention." Rei wiped her face clean with her good hand and laid back down.
=Why would anyone disobey the commanders orders? I think that I may be glad he did disobey. But why do I feel this way. Am I replaceable?=
Rei saw the nurse and a doctor place Shinji on the bed next to her. The nurse then picked her clipboard back up saying, "it looks like a fractured jaw and a minor concussion. We'll get him into surgery and then bring him back here to rest up."
"Looks like you'll have some company for a while miss Ayanami," the nurse said heartily.
=Company? I would like that I think. = Rei then resumed her place in bed and closed her eyes as if nothing had happened. And fell back to sleep
About 2 hours later Rei woke up and notice they had indeed brought Shinji back. He was sleeping and it looked like he really needed it. All of the ordeals he had been through had exhausted him something fierce.
He slept for three days. Only waking up with an occasional pain in his jaw. Every time he awoke he fell back asleep as if he hadn't slept a day in his life, and so quickly did Rei also except this. While he slept she could have the only company she thought she was ready for.
The kind of company that was just there, devoid of any noticeable emotion. Keeping it inside for fear of being hurt.
=I do not know what to feel. How does one comprehend these emotions and then act accordingly. The commander wanted my life taken. Am I, angry? No. The commander was only doing what was best. I do not know anymore. =
=I require rest. =
Rei was still in pain and the most she could do was sit up. But even that was a struggle. Sleeping would make the time pass faster.
Shinji was now awake and actually rested. =That was a dream. It had to have been. Knowing my luck it was real though. Yeah, I can't deny it. Heh, I really tied to kill him, didn't I? =
Shinji then took in his surroundings and stood up. He walked over to the window and looked out to see the large geo-front.
Rei opened her eyes expecting to see her company in bed and was startled to see him standing by the window. Shinji turned to her and by the look of it was about to say something when a siren went off.
"Its an angel, we must go Shinji" Rei spoke casually.
"Hey wait, you're still hurt and can't even walk."
"It is required." Rei then began to get up when a voice over the loudspeaker shout, N2 bomb immanent, brace for shockwave.
Shinji ran over to Rei just as the bomb was going off and caught her right before she hit the floor. A wound reopened on her side and she began to bleed and cry.
The commander Ikari and the sub commander Fuyutsuki walked in with a very serious tone. "Its time, we need a pilot." Fuyutsuki addressed.
Shinji put Rei back on the bed and whispered to her, "don't worry about this one. Leave it to me." Rei forced open her eyes and stared deeply into Shinji's, for once in her life she was silent when she didn't want to be.
Shinji then walked towards the two men and with the same tone as they used saying, "I'm ready. Lets go."
A/n: well good times everyone. Another chapter done. I'm looking forward to those reviews. The next one wont be up for a few days because it's a holiday and there are things to be done. I'll have it up by the beginning of the week most likely.
A/n: ok this is gonna get rough. Not for the faint of heart =). And for all of those that are asking for a Rei and Shinji fic don't worry. That's what its gonna be. Be patient and in due time it will be folded into the story. I don't want to rush them into it. They don't like to be rushed I tells ya!
Chapter: 3 decisions decisions
Slowly Shinji let himself fall into a slumber that was only braced with sounds form his SDAT player. At noon tomorrow his father would put him to a test of will. Shinji thought, =tomorrow will be the beginning of my life here. =
No dreams were forced into his subconscious because he knew if they did they would slowly drive him insane. He always tried to keep them at bay.
+++++
The light crept through his curtains and he awoke feeling more tired than when he went to sleep.
It was 10am and NERV was a 15-minute walk. Getting up to go stare at himself in the mirror came to be the highpoint in the trip so far. At least the person looking back at him wouldn't judge. "I know how I feel, and I'm the only one that I know I can rely on."
Time passed so quickly. By the time he got out of the shower it was already 11:25.
He walked out and stared in the direction of NERV, =what if I just turn around and walk off in the other direction. I know... I know. I can't do that. = With a sigh he began walking towards NERV.
With only his SDAT player to keep him company he walked at a slow pace, looking as if he was walking down to his death. Taking in all the subtleties of nature and man.
Shinji slid his security card in and the door rose open. After he stepped inside a guard told him "Shinji Ikari, you are to report to the sickbay immediately, room 12."
=Oh man what's going on? That's where Rei is. How can my father keep involving her? He knows he's beaten me. He can't still be turning the knife. Can he? =
A long and grim decent in the elevator was all he needed. He began to sweat because of anxiety and fear. It stopped, and in a walk down the hall where his father first lead him, he had to hold back his tears and anger.
Upon opening the door he saw something he hadn't expected. It was just Rei sleeping on the bed. No one else. He could only hurry in and shut the door behind him. =Why wont the mysteries stop. What's the point of being summoned here? =
He went and sat at the chair next to her bed as he did last time. Only this time he didn't look at Rei. He didn't know what to think.
Rei then stirred and opened her eyes. Then Shinji heard the quietest voice he had ever heard. However her voice was completely emotionless. But to Shinji it was a comfort nonetheless.
"Are you Shinji Ikari?" Shinji just nodded his head. "I am to inform you to wait for the commander to arrive."
"Wha... um... I..." Rei then simple closed her eyes and ignored him. "Do you know what he wants with me?" Rei opened her eyes, looked at him wordily, and closed them again.
=She must be tired. Or maybe she doesn't want to tell me. Or she was ordered not to. My father has everyone in check here it seems. =
Gendo then made his presence know when he opened the door. =Will you pass the first test Shinji? I cannot wait for the results. =
Gendo made his way over to Shinji who was already standing by the foot of the bed now. "Here take it." Gendo gave him an object wrapped in a thick black cloth. Shinji took it and immediately noticed its heavy weight.
Shinji unwrapped it and couldn't believe what he saw. "No..."
"We'll see where your loyalties lye."
Shinji held it in both his hands with tears in his eyes. A glisten of silver was revealed to be a large handgun.
"Point it at her head Shinji."
By then Shinji was in utter disbelief. "You can't mean it!! Not even you are this cruel." Shinji looked over at Rei and saw her emotionless face. But her eyes told a different story.
She looked scared.
"NO!! You can't make me do this. No one should suffer from you anymore."
Gendo smiled to himself, =he's still so predictable. He can still pass the test. One more push=
"It's a command, I gave it, and you are to follow it without discretion!"
"NO!" Shinji the raised the gun and pointed it towards a now grinning Gendo. He whispered very emotionally, "You...Don't...Deserve...Life..."
It was now dead silent and their positions froze in time.
CLICK
=He really did it= Gendo thought.
Shinji was completely oblivious to the silence of the gun. There were no bullets in it. Gendo stepped up to Shinji with something in his hand. Shinji heard a loud crack and turned to see if Rei was ok.
He saw a large splatter of blood on her face. She was staring at him again only this time her mouth was slightly opened and she was sitting up.
But it wasn't her blood.
Shinji then saw darkness and fell to the ground. "Rei, inform a medic to come and attend to Shinji."
"y...yes commander."
Gendo then turned and left, =now that wasn't so hard, now was it. Your anger with me will help you in the heat of battle. When fighting gets more intense with the angels, so shall your hate with me. =
Rei pressed a call button and when the nurse walked in she dropped her clipboard when she saw Rei with blood on her face. "Shinji Ikari needs medical attention." Rei wiped her face clean with her good hand and laid back down.
=Why would anyone disobey the commanders orders? I think that I may be glad he did disobey. But why do I feel this way. Am I replaceable?=
Rei saw the nurse and a doctor place Shinji on the bed next to her. The nurse then picked her clipboard back up saying, "it looks like a fractured jaw and a minor concussion. We'll get him into surgery and then bring him back here to rest up."
"Looks like you'll have some company for a while miss Ayanami," the nurse said heartily.
=Company? I would like that I think. = Rei then resumed her place in bed and closed her eyes as if nothing had happened. And fell back to sleep
About 2 hours later Rei woke up and notice they had indeed brought Shinji back. He was sleeping and it looked like he really needed it. All of the ordeals he had been through had exhausted him something fierce.
He slept for three days. Only waking up with an occasional pain in his jaw. Every time he awoke he fell back asleep as if he hadn't slept a day in his life, and so quickly did Rei also except this. While he slept she could have the only company she thought she was ready for.
The kind of company that was just there, devoid of any noticeable emotion. Keeping it inside for fear of being hurt.
=I do not know what to feel. How does one comprehend these emotions and then act accordingly. The commander wanted my life taken. Am I, angry? No. The commander was only doing what was best. I do not know anymore. =
=I require rest. =
Rei was still in pain and the most she could do was sit up. But even that was a struggle. Sleeping would make the time pass faster.
Shinji was now awake and actually rested. =That was a dream. It had to have been. Knowing my luck it was real though. Yeah, I can't deny it. Heh, I really tied to kill him, didn't I? =
Shinji then took in his surroundings and stood up. He walked over to the window and looked out to see the large geo-front.
Rei opened her eyes expecting to see her company in bed and was startled to see him standing by the window. Shinji turned to her and by the look of it was about to say something when a siren went off.
"Its an angel, we must go Shinji" Rei spoke casually.
"Hey wait, you're still hurt and can't even walk."
"It is required." Rei then began to get up when a voice over the loudspeaker shout, N2 bomb immanent, brace for shockwave.
Shinji ran over to Rei just as the bomb was going off and caught her right before she hit the floor. A wound reopened on her side and she began to bleed and cry.
The commander Ikari and the sub commander Fuyutsuki walked in with a very serious tone. "Its time, we need a pilot." Fuyutsuki addressed.
Shinji put Rei back on the bed and whispered to her, "don't worry about this one. Leave it to me." Rei forced open her eyes and stared deeply into Shinji's, for once in her life she was silent when she didn't want to be.
Shinji then walked towards the two men and with the same tone as they used saying, "I'm ready. Lets go."
A/n: well good times everyone. Another chapter done. I'm looking forward to those reviews. The next one wont be up for a few days because it's a holiday and there are things to be done. I'll have it up by the beginning of the week most likely.