Disclaimer: I do not own Evangelion or any of its characters
A/N: well it's that time again. Another chapter is here just itching to be read. I tried to portray Rei in character but her thoughts are now more known to us. So she's still in character, but maybe her thoughts are a little talkative since she isn't. Oh and it IS GOING TO BE A REI SHINJI FIC. Stop worrying about that please.
Chapter: 4 dreams mean something
What seemed like a solemn march down death row, commander Ikari, sub- commander Fuyutsuki and, Shinji Ikari walked, as if they didn't have any outside distractions.
The two commanders stopped and turned around to Shinji, "take this door and follow the catwalk to the entry plug." Fuyutsuki said motioning to the door.
"Ok." Shinji then walked in and halfway through the lights flashed on. Shinji jumped at the sight of a giant robots face. He was even more scared to make a sound because he thought it would add to his fathers' satisfaction.
"I mustn't run away, I mustn't run away"
Shinji then takes a seat in the entry plug. After it's lowered in and starts to fill with LCL he begins to feel at ease, almost as if there was something protecting him.
He hadn't noticed he was holding his breath until Ritsuko said, " you'll get used to it once the LCL fills your lungs."
With flashing changes in the entry plugs background he felt at ease again.
"Eva launch!" captain Katsuragi shouted. With that Shinji felt the g-force for a good 4 seconds before it cam to an abrupt stop. =This is so stupid; they know I cant possible defeat what they call an angel. =
Shinji then saw it. He was horrified and frozen with fear. =Ok calm down, I changed my mind. I can do this. = The Eva then stepped forward and stumbled. When Shinji regained his composure the angel was at an arms distance.
It grabbed his left arm and begun pulling at it. Shinji thought with the excruciating pain he had no choice but to give up.
Gendo saw this and opened a communication line shouting, "You came all this way to die! Stop being pathetic! Its time to grow up and endure the pain of living as an Eva pilot!"
Shinji took these words as fuel in a sense, =what do you know about pain? Except how to inflict it on others. =
"I'll show you!!" Shinji then lifted both the Eva's feet to the chest and kick as hard as possible, he broke his arm that the angel still clung to. He didn't care though. So much hate coursed through his blood.
=This will be entertaining. = Gendo thought as he sat back down in his seat to watch the first actual fight with an angel. =Entertaining indeed. =
Shinji was lost in the moment. All he saw was his fathers' face in place of the angels. "I'll kill you!!"
He lunged at the angel as if he was possessed by a daemon. Landing on the angel both beast fell to the ground.
Shinji then began pummeling the angel with all his strength. Even with his broken arm he kept the assault going until he finally hear a loud snap. His arm had broken in another spot and the Eva let out a horrifying cry of pain.
He shook it off and laid into the angel again until he saw the large gemlike center crack. Then it exploded propelling the Eva off into the buildings. Shinji quickly jumped to his feet and saw the angel was destroyed.
Everyone in the control room was fearful for their own lives still. They thought that the Eva would surly now turn on them and destroy the city in the process.
To their relief they saw the Eva fall to its knee then finally it was face down. Shinji had nearly killed himself using so much strength. And now his arm was broken in more than one spot as well.
"Ok get him out of there. Now!" an almost hysterical Misato shouted breaking the silence.
=The results speak for themselves. He needs to mend again now. His emotional state exceeds my expectation and he had killed the angel with ease. Now how can I push Rei to the limit? Hmm I wonder. = Gendo was now forcefully containing his joy.
Shinji was rushed to the medical wing looking as if he was clinging to life. It was simple a matter of fatigue now, and of course the badly broken arm.
Once he was bandaged up he was taken back to room 12 where he was to start his recuperation. Rei could only help but to feel happy that Shinji had survived. She however did not show any emotion.
=Caring for the well being of others is not required. Yet I cannot help but feel relieved that his struggles for the day have ended. It is convenient that I feel these feelings, for I have been wondering what it would one day be like. I thought that it would first come from the commander. But a whole new feeling is projected towards him. Maybe he was wrong? =
Rei's new thoughts had her feeling very uneasy about herself. She was glad to be able to look over at Shinji and see him sleeping there. She felt comfortable around him, the way she used to feel around the commander. But this time the feeling was slightly different, stronger in a way.
Gendo sat in his office and saw Rei looking at Shinji sleep. He now knew how he would be able to push her to the same point that Shinji was at. =Yet this will be harder, but if they both perform at the next level, I will be able to proceed with the plan with tremendous success."=
=Now its up to how Shinji will act towards Rei, but I know he will not disappoint. She will want to protect him because he has already done this for her. That is all my concern is with her. Now it is simple a waiting game. I may have to start helping them along the way if they takes to long. =
"Hmm, I will have to talk to Rei later and further fuel her curiosity for her feelings." Gendo then got up and said into a open communication link, "Fuyutsuki, inform me when Shinji wakes." "Yes sir."
Back in room 12 Rei unknowingly continued to stare at Shinji. When she caught herself she slightly blushed. =This is very unbecoming of me. = She laid down to sleep again.
Shinji began to stir. He couldn't run from his dreams this time. He didn't have the energy to fight them off or his SDAT to drown them out.
"Shinji you can't run from your destiny. It's only fitting that you try and seek shelter in others when you are so easily turned down and hurt." He was then sitting on the floor in a dark room by himself. He felt two arms hold him gently yet he felt safe in them. He didn't know who it was but it was comforting and familiar. "He's trying to stop us from fulfilling our destiny by forming it into his own."
"What? Who is trying?" Shinji then found himself standing in a long endless hallway dimly lit. Gendo was standing a few feet from Shinji. Shinji was about to make a dash towards him when a small figure came from behind Gendo. It was Rei. "Don't move Shinji, or you'll lose what you hold most dear." "You can't control me!"
Gendo then turned to Rei and clutched both his hands around her neck and raised her in the air. Shinji saw Rei look for help in his eyes so he began running to Gendo again. He was never able to reach Gendo. The space between them was endless. "No!! Stop!!"
Gendo then dropped Rei's now lifeless body. Shinji finally got there, but it was to late. Shinji fell to his knees and sat Rei up. She was indeed dead and this made Shinji fell an emotion he had never felt before. He could describe it as despair or grief only. It was more than a loss. It felt as if something was ripped from his very soul.
"How could you? How could you!?!"
"You did it Shinji. Her fate was in your hands and you let her slip." Shinji was on the verge of a breakdown. "I wasn't the one who strangled her to death!!"
"Weren't you?" Shinji then saw his hands around Rei's neck. "No! I would never do such a thing."
"You don't know what you are capable of until you do it."
"No!!!" Shinji shouted so loud he woke himself and Rei up.
"What is wrong Shinji Ikari?" Rei spoke softly. "Huh. I just, oh never mind, sorry Rei. I didn't mean to wake you up."
Rei was confused. If he didn't want to wake her up then he would not have shouted. But then she remembered the phenomenon known as dreams. =I want to comfort him but I would not know how to begin. =
"How are you feeling Rei? Are you ok? You had a pretty bad fall." Rei was surprised at how Shinji was showing concern to her. It was a first for her. She only wished she knew how to return the favor.
" I am feeling.. tired." Shinji smiled at Rei's response. "I'm sorry about that again. Just go back to sleep. We'll talk later."
=Why does he wish to talk later? We are talking now.. I shall comply with his request though. I feel that I am still too weak to be coherent for much longer. =
"Goodnight Rei." She then fell asleep almost as soon as she had closed her eyes. Shinji felt that his strength was returning so he walked over to the window to see if there was any noticeable damage from his fight.
There was barely any structural damage. "You did some good work Shinji." Shinji turned to see Misato smiling in the doorway. "Tomorrow morning they're going to release both you and Rei. I'll give you two a ride home."
"Umm thanks Misato, I'm sure that Rei would appreciate it also." Misato couldn't help but smile even brighter at his comment. She knew that he held some feelings for Rei. But then she began to feel guilty about it all. The two of them would live a life unlike any other kids their age. Also, Rei was a hard person to get to know.
Misato remember one time when she was ordered to go and pick Rei up from school once and bring her to NERV. Misato tried all she could and talked till there was nothing left to talk about. She didn't get more than three words out of her.
'Well, I'll see you two in the morning."
Fuyutsuki walked in to Gendo's office and said, "He's awake. What do you want to do with him now?" Gendo sat silently, seemingly thinking of what to do. "Let him and Rei go home. I have already got Captain Katsuragi to provide both of them with a ride." Fuyutsuki knew that he was up to something. He has never given anyone a break. "How could he keep on doing this to his own son? How would Yuri feel about this I wonder?"
The next morning:
"Ok you two you're free. Huh? Oh come on wake up, its already past ten." Both Shinji and Rei got the wake up call from Misato. "Get dressed. I'll be right outside okay."
In a minute Shinji was out the door. He wanted to get as far away from there as soon as possible. Rei on the other hand was taking her time and looked like she was lost in her own thoughts. Even more than usual for Rei. She then came out and gave an acknowledging look to both Misato and Shinji.
Rei still had a little trouble walking but not enough where she needed assistance from anything. Her right wrist was in a cast and her forehead wrapped in bandages. Her side was bandaged under her cloths and the wound was healing nicely. Shinji still had his left arm in a sling. They both walked to Misato's car slowly and got in the back seats without a word.
"Well aren't we a happy bunch. It looks like you two have been through hell." Shinji only smiled while Rei ignored her. "Well I might as well tell you two now. You're both ordered to begin school again tomorrow. Oh and it is a request by the commander that you two spend as much free time together as you can."
This time Misato got both of their attentions. Shinji and Rei glanced at each other, both with a small blush to their cheeks. "Umm miss, I mean Misato, how come that was a request and not an order?"
"Beats me. It should still be treated like an order I guess. But don't sweat over it. You still have a choice. But you two lovebirds now have an excuse to hang out with each other." Misato then burst into laughter.
Rei then said, "I do not understand." While Shinji was beat red and stuttering out words that didn't make sense. Rei was confused at both Misato's and Shinji's body language but stayed silent.
"Ok you two we're here. Get some more rest and remember to keep in touch." Misato then showing off her driving skills and need for speed screeched down the street till she was out of sight.
Shinji began walking up and when he was halfway up he noticed that Rei was having trouble going up the stairs. He walked back down saying, "here Rei, I'll help you up." Shinji took her hand and took all time she needed. Rei was now trying to convince herself that it was possible to have feelings for someone. =Is Shinji Ikari the one whom I will be able to express my deepest thoughts to? Commander Ikari said that I would one day be able to find a person that made me feel as if I could trust them completely. Then I would be complete. =
Walking to their apartments hand in hand they stopped, not wanting to let go. Shinji then noticed that they were still holding hands and slid his hand away, but not fast. "Well then Rei, I guess we'll be going to school together tomorrow. How about.. you and I walk together.. say seven we leave.. I mean that is if you want to."
Rei stood silent for a moment thinking of how walking to school together was such a hard question to ask. "That is acceptable. Good day Shinji Ikari." Rei felt what she believed to be happiness. "Oh yeah great Rei. I'll see you tomorrow." Rei nodded and went inside her apartment.
Shinji stood out his door for a while. =Maybe this trip wasn't such a bad idea after all. =
A/n: well I didn't want to end every chapter with a downer. I tried to fix the flow a bit as suggested. Thanks for all your advice and reviews people. Next chapter is coming soon. Until then tune in next time. Same bat time, same bat channel. (I don't own batman either =)
A/N: well it's that time again. Another chapter is here just itching to be read. I tried to portray Rei in character but her thoughts are now more known to us. So she's still in character, but maybe her thoughts are a little talkative since she isn't. Oh and it IS GOING TO BE A REI SHINJI FIC. Stop worrying about that please.
Chapter: 4 dreams mean something
What seemed like a solemn march down death row, commander Ikari, sub- commander Fuyutsuki and, Shinji Ikari walked, as if they didn't have any outside distractions.
The two commanders stopped and turned around to Shinji, "take this door and follow the catwalk to the entry plug." Fuyutsuki said motioning to the door.
"Ok." Shinji then walked in and halfway through the lights flashed on. Shinji jumped at the sight of a giant robots face. He was even more scared to make a sound because he thought it would add to his fathers' satisfaction.
"I mustn't run away, I mustn't run away"
Shinji then takes a seat in the entry plug. After it's lowered in and starts to fill with LCL he begins to feel at ease, almost as if there was something protecting him.
He hadn't noticed he was holding his breath until Ritsuko said, " you'll get used to it once the LCL fills your lungs."
With flashing changes in the entry plugs background he felt at ease again.
"Eva launch!" captain Katsuragi shouted. With that Shinji felt the g-force for a good 4 seconds before it cam to an abrupt stop. =This is so stupid; they know I cant possible defeat what they call an angel. =
Shinji then saw it. He was horrified and frozen with fear. =Ok calm down, I changed my mind. I can do this. = The Eva then stepped forward and stumbled. When Shinji regained his composure the angel was at an arms distance.
It grabbed his left arm and begun pulling at it. Shinji thought with the excruciating pain he had no choice but to give up.
Gendo saw this and opened a communication line shouting, "You came all this way to die! Stop being pathetic! Its time to grow up and endure the pain of living as an Eva pilot!"
Shinji took these words as fuel in a sense, =what do you know about pain? Except how to inflict it on others. =
"I'll show you!!" Shinji then lifted both the Eva's feet to the chest and kick as hard as possible, he broke his arm that the angel still clung to. He didn't care though. So much hate coursed through his blood.
=This will be entertaining. = Gendo thought as he sat back down in his seat to watch the first actual fight with an angel. =Entertaining indeed. =
Shinji was lost in the moment. All he saw was his fathers' face in place of the angels. "I'll kill you!!"
He lunged at the angel as if he was possessed by a daemon. Landing on the angel both beast fell to the ground.
Shinji then began pummeling the angel with all his strength. Even with his broken arm he kept the assault going until he finally hear a loud snap. His arm had broken in another spot and the Eva let out a horrifying cry of pain.
He shook it off and laid into the angel again until he saw the large gemlike center crack. Then it exploded propelling the Eva off into the buildings. Shinji quickly jumped to his feet and saw the angel was destroyed.
Everyone in the control room was fearful for their own lives still. They thought that the Eva would surly now turn on them and destroy the city in the process.
To their relief they saw the Eva fall to its knee then finally it was face down. Shinji had nearly killed himself using so much strength. And now his arm was broken in more than one spot as well.
"Ok get him out of there. Now!" an almost hysterical Misato shouted breaking the silence.
=The results speak for themselves. He needs to mend again now. His emotional state exceeds my expectation and he had killed the angel with ease. Now how can I push Rei to the limit? Hmm I wonder. = Gendo was now forcefully containing his joy.
Shinji was rushed to the medical wing looking as if he was clinging to life. It was simple a matter of fatigue now, and of course the badly broken arm.
Once he was bandaged up he was taken back to room 12 where he was to start his recuperation. Rei could only help but to feel happy that Shinji had survived. She however did not show any emotion.
=Caring for the well being of others is not required. Yet I cannot help but feel relieved that his struggles for the day have ended. It is convenient that I feel these feelings, for I have been wondering what it would one day be like. I thought that it would first come from the commander. But a whole new feeling is projected towards him. Maybe he was wrong? =
Rei's new thoughts had her feeling very uneasy about herself. She was glad to be able to look over at Shinji and see him sleeping there. She felt comfortable around him, the way she used to feel around the commander. But this time the feeling was slightly different, stronger in a way.
Gendo sat in his office and saw Rei looking at Shinji sleep. He now knew how he would be able to push her to the same point that Shinji was at. =Yet this will be harder, but if they both perform at the next level, I will be able to proceed with the plan with tremendous success."=
=Now its up to how Shinji will act towards Rei, but I know he will not disappoint. She will want to protect him because he has already done this for her. That is all my concern is with her. Now it is simple a waiting game. I may have to start helping them along the way if they takes to long. =
"Hmm, I will have to talk to Rei later and further fuel her curiosity for her feelings." Gendo then got up and said into a open communication link, "Fuyutsuki, inform me when Shinji wakes." "Yes sir."
Back in room 12 Rei unknowingly continued to stare at Shinji. When she caught herself she slightly blushed. =This is very unbecoming of me. = She laid down to sleep again.
Shinji began to stir. He couldn't run from his dreams this time. He didn't have the energy to fight them off or his SDAT to drown them out.
"Shinji you can't run from your destiny. It's only fitting that you try and seek shelter in others when you are so easily turned down and hurt." He was then sitting on the floor in a dark room by himself. He felt two arms hold him gently yet he felt safe in them. He didn't know who it was but it was comforting and familiar. "He's trying to stop us from fulfilling our destiny by forming it into his own."
"What? Who is trying?" Shinji then found himself standing in a long endless hallway dimly lit. Gendo was standing a few feet from Shinji. Shinji was about to make a dash towards him when a small figure came from behind Gendo. It was Rei. "Don't move Shinji, or you'll lose what you hold most dear." "You can't control me!"
Gendo then turned to Rei and clutched both his hands around her neck and raised her in the air. Shinji saw Rei look for help in his eyes so he began running to Gendo again. He was never able to reach Gendo. The space between them was endless. "No!! Stop!!"
Gendo then dropped Rei's now lifeless body. Shinji finally got there, but it was to late. Shinji fell to his knees and sat Rei up. She was indeed dead and this made Shinji fell an emotion he had never felt before. He could describe it as despair or grief only. It was more than a loss. It felt as if something was ripped from his very soul.
"How could you? How could you!?!"
"You did it Shinji. Her fate was in your hands and you let her slip." Shinji was on the verge of a breakdown. "I wasn't the one who strangled her to death!!"
"Weren't you?" Shinji then saw his hands around Rei's neck. "No! I would never do such a thing."
"You don't know what you are capable of until you do it."
"No!!!" Shinji shouted so loud he woke himself and Rei up.
"What is wrong Shinji Ikari?" Rei spoke softly. "Huh. I just, oh never mind, sorry Rei. I didn't mean to wake you up."
Rei was confused. If he didn't want to wake her up then he would not have shouted. But then she remembered the phenomenon known as dreams. =I want to comfort him but I would not know how to begin. =
"How are you feeling Rei? Are you ok? You had a pretty bad fall." Rei was surprised at how Shinji was showing concern to her. It was a first for her. She only wished she knew how to return the favor.
" I am feeling.. tired." Shinji smiled at Rei's response. "I'm sorry about that again. Just go back to sleep. We'll talk later."
=Why does he wish to talk later? We are talking now.. I shall comply with his request though. I feel that I am still too weak to be coherent for much longer. =
"Goodnight Rei." She then fell asleep almost as soon as she had closed her eyes. Shinji felt that his strength was returning so he walked over to the window to see if there was any noticeable damage from his fight.
There was barely any structural damage. "You did some good work Shinji." Shinji turned to see Misato smiling in the doorway. "Tomorrow morning they're going to release both you and Rei. I'll give you two a ride home."
"Umm thanks Misato, I'm sure that Rei would appreciate it also." Misato couldn't help but smile even brighter at his comment. She knew that he held some feelings for Rei. But then she began to feel guilty about it all. The two of them would live a life unlike any other kids their age. Also, Rei was a hard person to get to know.
Misato remember one time when she was ordered to go and pick Rei up from school once and bring her to NERV. Misato tried all she could and talked till there was nothing left to talk about. She didn't get more than three words out of her.
'Well, I'll see you two in the morning."
Fuyutsuki walked in to Gendo's office and said, "He's awake. What do you want to do with him now?" Gendo sat silently, seemingly thinking of what to do. "Let him and Rei go home. I have already got Captain Katsuragi to provide both of them with a ride." Fuyutsuki knew that he was up to something. He has never given anyone a break. "How could he keep on doing this to his own son? How would Yuri feel about this I wonder?"
The next morning:
"Ok you two you're free. Huh? Oh come on wake up, its already past ten." Both Shinji and Rei got the wake up call from Misato. "Get dressed. I'll be right outside okay."
In a minute Shinji was out the door. He wanted to get as far away from there as soon as possible. Rei on the other hand was taking her time and looked like she was lost in her own thoughts. Even more than usual for Rei. She then came out and gave an acknowledging look to both Misato and Shinji.
Rei still had a little trouble walking but not enough where she needed assistance from anything. Her right wrist was in a cast and her forehead wrapped in bandages. Her side was bandaged under her cloths and the wound was healing nicely. Shinji still had his left arm in a sling. They both walked to Misato's car slowly and got in the back seats without a word.
"Well aren't we a happy bunch. It looks like you two have been through hell." Shinji only smiled while Rei ignored her. "Well I might as well tell you two now. You're both ordered to begin school again tomorrow. Oh and it is a request by the commander that you two spend as much free time together as you can."
This time Misato got both of their attentions. Shinji and Rei glanced at each other, both with a small blush to their cheeks. "Umm miss, I mean Misato, how come that was a request and not an order?"
"Beats me. It should still be treated like an order I guess. But don't sweat over it. You still have a choice. But you two lovebirds now have an excuse to hang out with each other." Misato then burst into laughter.
Rei then said, "I do not understand." While Shinji was beat red and stuttering out words that didn't make sense. Rei was confused at both Misato's and Shinji's body language but stayed silent.
"Ok you two we're here. Get some more rest and remember to keep in touch." Misato then showing off her driving skills and need for speed screeched down the street till she was out of sight.
Shinji began walking up and when he was halfway up he noticed that Rei was having trouble going up the stairs. He walked back down saying, "here Rei, I'll help you up." Shinji took her hand and took all time she needed. Rei was now trying to convince herself that it was possible to have feelings for someone. =Is Shinji Ikari the one whom I will be able to express my deepest thoughts to? Commander Ikari said that I would one day be able to find a person that made me feel as if I could trust them completely. Then I would be complete. =
Walking to their apartments hand in hand they stopped, not wanting to let go. Shinji then noticed that they were still holding hands and slid his hand away, but not fast. "Well then Rei, I guess we'll be going to school together tomorrow. How about.. you and I walk together.. say seven we leave.. I mean that is if you want to."
Rei stood silent for a moment thinking of how walking to school together was such a hard question to ask. "That is acceptable. Good day Shinji Ikari." Rei felt what she believed to be happiness. "Oh yeah great Rei. I'll see you tomorrow." Rei nodded and went inside her apartment.
Shinji stood out his door for a while. =Maybe this trip wasn't such a bad idea after all. =
A/n: well I didn't want to end every chapter with a downer. I tried to fix the flow a bit as suggested. Thanks for all your advice and reviews people. Next chapter is coming soon. Until then tune in next time. Same bat time, same bat channel. (I don't own batman either =)