Disclaimer: I do not own Evangelion or any of its characters.
A/n: here's a reminder. "This is someone talking" =this is someone thinking= oh and Steve VADER, thanks for pointing out Shinji's mom's name is Yui not Yuri. I would never have caught that and would have continued to call her that throughout my story. Much thanks dude.
Chapter: 5 Rei's turn
Shinji and Rei had just been in their apartments for about half an hour before Shinji felt he needed something to do. He seems to have misplaced his SDAT player and was very desperate to find it before nightfall. He still had all day to replace it so he wasn't really too worried about it.
=Maybe I'll just go for a walk and see if any of the electronic stores are open or something. I need to get some air anyways.. I wonder if Ayanami would like to go. =
Shinji then went to his door, put his shoes on and opened it. To his surprise Rei had her hand up as if she was just about to knock. She put her hand down and stared at Shinji, waiting for him to initiate the conversation. "Umm hi, uhh, Rei." "Hello Shinji Ikari." Rei still stood with a look on her face that she wanted to tell him more so Shinji then said, "did you want something Rei?"
"Yes, I would like to know if you wished to accompany me to NERV headquarters. I am to pick up my new security card and thereafter I will proceed to the nearest food emporium. I will require some assistance in carrying them back to this location."
"Umm after NERV what did you want me to help you with again. Groceries right?" Rei then stated, "yes Shinji Ikari. Does that seem acceptable?" Shinji nodded his head in agreement.
Shinji locked his door and then they were both began slowly walking side by side. Shinji held out his hand again and the same as last time to help Rei down the stairs. Rei looked at his outstretched hand for a moment, = I may not require his assistance but I do not want to turn him down. I feel almost relieved when he does this small gesture of what I think is kindness. =
Rei took his hand with a small, unnoticeable blush. Shinji was acting so casual about it. It's not that he's smooth, it's that he is a very noble and kind person by nature. Shinji felt very good today, even though he was headed towards NERV. Rei even felt as if she was on top of the world. The uncomfortable feeling that she always had in her stomach was beginning to fade.
=I think I may be complete when I am with Shinji Ikari. It is how the commander said, yet now I know to trust his words with caution this time. He is willing to hurt my new friend and for that I must take his word into deeper perspective. Wait.. Is Shinji my.. Friend? =
"Shinji Ikari?" He looked over to her in acknowledgement. "We are friends, are we not?"
"Of course Rei, that's the least we are, considering all we've been through. And now that we know we're really friends, call me Shinji please."
"Very well.. Shinji"
They were so caught up with each others company that they didn't noticed they walked past the entrance until Rei did not recognize the scenery. "I believe we are lost. Shinji." "Oh haha, we walked past the entrance. Looks like we're here." Rei seemed a little troubled that she did not know anything out side of NERV. Shinji noted it and was going to try and change that.
"I must report to Lt. Ritsuko Akagi for pick up of the actual card." They proceeded to the checkpoint. Shinji used his card for the both of them, Rei was glad he was there because she did not remember that she wouldn't be able to get in without an updated card.
"Lets make this quick Rei, this place makes me uncomfortable." Shinji said as they stepped into the elevator.
=If this place makes Shinji uncomfortable then why did he chose to be a pilot. Why is he even here at this moment... He has done something for my benefit even though he was unwilling. = Rei couldn't help but smile slightly at the thought. It wasn't so much of a smile as it was a half grin.
Then the elevator stopped when they were not even close to their floor. The doors opened and they both had a feeling of fear. Shinji was scared because he wanted to protect Rei. And Rei feared that Shinji would be hurt trying to protect her again.
It was Gendo
"Pleasure seeing you two here on your day off."
No one welcomed his awkwardly warm greeting and both were completely silent. Gendo then stepped in and the doors closed behind him. Shinji balled up both his fist because he was angry for not knowing what to do in this situation. Rei stood there like the elevator never stopped, but she felt the tension that Shinji was giving off. She wanted to stand in front of him and block him from Gendo's sight.
"I am expecting that you both will be able to slip into your normal civilian routines and wait until the next angel attack. However, your purpose is to defeat the angels and nothing is to come before that. Do I make myself clear?" He looked back at them to see them both nod in agreement.
The elevator stopped and Gendo stepped out, "Shinji, remember, next time it'll be a lot more permanent. The stakes will be higher for you both. Only time for one choice. So if you don't make it right.. I will." He said glaring at Shinji, he then turned to Rei and gave her an evil grin. He was no doubt idly referring to what happened in the hospital room 12.
Shinji looked away and then unclenched his fist as he heard the doors close. Rei was still standing like a person turned to stone, but what caught Shinji's eye was a single tear that rolled down her check. She couldn't help it. She was scared, for the both of them.
The elevator stopped and she said, "We should not keep Lt. Ritsuko Akagi waiting." She walked out and Shinji followed her. He didn't know what to do or say. That was only the second emotion that he saw Rei express. But he still didn't know why they had to be forced out of her the way they were. She didn't even acknowledge her own emotions.
They came up to Ritsuko's office. Rei turned to Shinji, " I will return shortly, I must have a photograph taken for the security card."
Shinji sat down on the bench in the hall. He then took this time to think. =It's just like I was thinking. Not one hint of the emotions she had just experienced. My father did indirectly say that he would kill her if I wouldn't follow my orders.. She's walking around as if he just said hi to us. I know that she was cut deep by his words, the same as I was. I have to some how protect her to the end, even if it is from myself. =
Rei then came back with her usual emotionless face " they are going to use my old identification photograph because they did not want one with me wrapped in bandages."
"Well, umm, ok Rei lets get out of here then."
Both walked out of NERV and to the grocery store in silence, not ever looking at each other in the eyes. They did spend hours walking in there slow pace of theirs. Shinji than began to think that Rei never had anyone to share her feelings with before. He was the same as her but his spirit was not as damaged as hers. He still had hope and wanted to help her be heard.
When they were close to home he recognized the spot that Misato had shown him earlier. This time he had some special with him and sunset was presenting itself. His first real friend was with him. He only wanted their relationship to get better. This was a good chance to make her feel better.
"Hey Rei." She jumped a little because they had both been silent for so long. "I have some place that I want to show you. We both need a break anyways." Shinji then lead the way up to the spot not knowing what will happen at sunset.
Shinji put his bags down and sat on the grassy hill. Rei followed his example and did the same sitting next to him. "What is it we are doing here Shinji?"
"Well Rei, Miss Misato told me to bring someone special with me here one sunset. And it's a beautiful sight. I wanted to share it with you.."
"Thank you Shinji" Rei said slowly as if it was the first time she said the words thank you. "Your welcome Rei. What are friends for?" Just then the buildings began to rise out of the geo-front. Both Rei and Shinji took in this moment to remember how it was the first time they really had a chance to fully see the city that they were protecting. The city they were to save from the angels.
Rei had a rush of new emotions thrown at her all at once. It was much for her to bear. =My time spent with Shinji is always bringing about these new feelings. He is the first person I am to thank.. Ever. All I have done is cause him hardship between him and his father. And yet, everything I find new about him and life, I do not want to stop here. I have the urge to protect that, which has brought me all these feelings. Shinji. I believe you are the reason I will keep fighting =
Shinji was in awe of the city and the expression of calmness on Rei's face. =I knew that she needed some time to relax. To bad this moment's gonna end. I wish that I could find a way to get her out of this situation. I know I won't be able to because my father would only bring her closer to control me. I'm so hopeless when it comes to being kind to girls', heh. I bet she doesn't feel the same way I feel about her. I would do anything to protect her. =
"We should do this more often Rei." Shinji then stood up, "but I guess we had better get back home, it's getting late and we're both in bandages and casts. Rest would be best if we plan to wake up for school tomorrow."
Rei stood also and picked up her share of the bags, "yes." They both took one last look at the scenery and walked back down the hill. It was starting to get dark and they were home within minutes. When they got to Reis' door she opened it walked in and turned to Shinji, "please enter." He walked in took his shoes off and proceeded to the kitchen to put the food on the table.
Rei closed the door and was going to the kitchen when her phone rang. She stood still for a moment and thought of the only person that would ever call her. The commander. With her new perspective of him she was nervous to say the least. She walked over to the phone and answered in her monotone voice.
"Hello"
"Hello Rei, it seems that you were out of your apartment for a long time today, as was Shinji. Is he with you?"
"Yes sir"
"Put him on the phone please"
"Yes sir. Shinji the commander wishes to speak to you."
Shinji was now in a serious mood. The mood he seems to have when he hears mention of his father. Shinji was thinking of just hanging up on him but he knew that was not the answer at all.
"Yes"
"Shinji, I noticed that you are spending your free time with Ayanami as I have requested. Have you come to sense or is this one of your personal excavations.. Well Shinji?"
"You can control my life as a pilot, but this is going to far."
"It is, is it not? If that is the best way to achieve my goal then so be it. I want to make it clear that you will not disappoint me. Understand? If she means as much to you as you yourself believe then you will go to great length to protect her. Will you not? Her fate lies in your hands Shinji. You must know what I am capable of by now." Then there was a click and low hum of a dial tone.
Shinji did not believe what he heard. He had dreamt of this situation before. He knew all to well what happened when he disobeyed his father. Rei had been killed and Shinji himself held the grip around her neck. He wasn't going to let this happen. So he would play his fathers game for as long as he knew Rei was safe.
Shinji hung up the phone on his end saying to himself, =shake it off Shinji, you don't want any of this to upset Rei more than she already is. = But it was a lot for him to handle at the time. He was reliving the moment when his father left him so many years ago. Then, he would have done anything to be with him. Now he wanted to give it all up to get away from him.
Rei saw tears in Shinji's eyes and brought her hand to her mouth in a gasping motion. Her facial expression didn't change but her body language signaled that she couldn't bear to see Shinji like this.
Shinji wiped his face and looked to Rei, "its ok Rei, everything is.. Okay. Don't worry about me. I'm fine I'm fine." Rei looked into his eyes and said, "Thank you Shinji."
Rei wanted to say more than just thank you. But Shinji said, "lets get those groceries put away now. We both have to get some rest. Its my first day of school tomorrow." Rei was feeling less disturbed now that Shinji was trying to break the tension. It was not so subtle; yet, it was kind of him to do. Now she wanted to just sleep and forget her troubles. To her sleep was a comfort where she could turn off her mind. But for Shinji, that was a different story.
"Okay Rei I'm going. I need to get some rest myself. Take care. Oh, and I'll see you at seven.. Good night Rei." Shinji then walked to the door as he heard a soft reply, "good night Shinji."
=He seems to have recovered from his conversation with his father. That is good. I will look forward to tomorrow. =
Rei then proceeded to ready her bed. She then decided to take a shower now because she did not want to take to long getting ready tomorrow morning.
Shinji got in his apartment when he realized that he never got a replacement for his SDAT player. His conversation with his father had shaken his nerves enough to make him dread the night that was ahead of him.
=I still have to at least try and sleep. If only for a bit. =
He laid down in his bed and fell asleep very quickly. The hard part for him was staying asleep. His dreams would surly creep into his mind.
He had the same dream as he had before. The one about his father and Rei. Only this time he wasn't choking Rei after Gendo dropped her lifeless body. Gendo looked at a kneeling Shinji and said, "If you don't do it, then I will." Shinji looked down at Rei and saw her gasping for air. He then looked up at his father who was now holding the same gun that he gave Shinji before. He unloaded the whole clip into Rei in an instant. "She would have wanted death to be a gift from you"
Shinji jumped to his father like a wild jackal and swung at him screaming as loud as his lungs made possible. Right before he made contact. He saw a ceiling. He woke up in a sweat, staring at the ceiling.
=If dreams are a way for your subconscious to solve problems, then I'm in a riddle with no answer. = He then forced himself back to sleep.
..
Meanwhile back at Rei's apartment she was just getting out of the shower. She walked over to her bed when she noticed commander Ikari's broken glasses that she kept as a memento. There was a folded piece of paper under them. It read:
=Cherish the time you have with him. You never know when he will not be a necessity to me any more. He will surely be taken care of once all the wheels are set into motion. Serve me as you have always done. Without question. And I promise his death will be painless, if I feel his death need be necessary. =
Rei threw the commanders glasses against the wall watching them break apart. She still had no out going emotion in her face. She had the feeling as if she was going to breakdown completely. So, quickly she got in her bed and drew the covers over herself.
=Life without Shinji Ikari. That is not a life I wish to see. The commander will regret his words. I will make him regret them. I will give my life for Shinji before I would ever let the commander take it from him.. And me=
She was frozen in her thoughts when she had a new feeling. She couldn't keep them inside anymore.
She felt tears gather in her eyes. She rolled over on her stomach and began to cry. Completely letting herself get lost in the moment. It was the first time she had ever let her emotions get the best of her. She cried all night till her body forced her to sleep.
Crying herself to sleep was such a way for her to vent without having to show her emotions to anyone. This would now become a common sight to the moonlight if she would continue to keep her emotions locked from everyone. She wanted comfort, but was too afraid to seek it.
She wanted a reason to sleep soundly at night. She wanted peace. She wanted to express herself.. But.. Couldn't.
A/n: whoa, deep huh? The next chapter is on its way. I'm already halfway done with chapter 6. Should be up soon.
A/n: here's a reminder. "This is someone talking" =this is someone thinking= oh and Steve VADER, thanks for pointing out Shinji's mom's name is Yui not Yuri. I would never have caught that and would have continued to call her that throughout my story. Much thanks dude.
Chapter: 5 Rei's turn
Shinji and Rei had just been in their apartments for about half an hour before Shinji felt he needed something to do. He seems to have misplaced his SDAT player and was very desperate to find it before nightfall. He still had all day to replace it so he wasn't really too worried about it.
=Maybe I'll just go for a walk and see if any of the electronic stores are open or something. I need to get some air anyways.. I wonder if Ayanami would like to go. =
Shinji then went to his door, put his shoes on and opened it. To his surprise Rei had her hand up as if she was just about to knock. She put her hand down and stared at Shinji, waiting for him to initiate the conversation. "Umm hi, uhh, Rei." "Hello Shinji Ikari." Rei still stood with a look on her face that she wanted to tell him more so Shinji then said, "did you want something Rei?"
"Yes, I would like to know if you wished to accompany me to NERV headquarters. I am to pick up my new security card and thereafter I will proceed to the nearest food emporium. I will require some assistance in carrying them back to this location."
"Umm after NERV what did you want me to help you with again. Groceries right?" Rei then stated, "yes Shinji Ikari. Does that seem acceptable?" Shinji nodded his head in agreement.
Shinji locked his door and then they were both began slowly walking side by side. Shinji held out his hand again and the same as last time to help Rei down the stairs. Rei looked at his outstretched hand for a moment, = I may not require his assistance but I do not want to turn him down. I feel almost relieved when he does this small gesture of what I think is kindness. =
Rei took his hand with a small, unnoticeable blush. Shinji was acting so casual about it. It's not that he's smooth, it's that he is a very noble and kind person by nature. Shinji felt very good today, even though he was headed towards NERV. Rei even felt as if she was on top of the world. The uncomfortable feeling that she always had in her stomach was beginning to fade.
=I think I may be complete when I am with Shinji Ikari. It is how the commander said, yet now I know to trust his words with caution this time. He is willing to hurt my new friend and for that I must take his word into deeper perspective. Wait.. Is Shinji my.. Friend? =
"Shinji Ikari?" He looked over to her in acknowledgement. "We are friends, are we not?"
"Of course Rei, that's the least we are, considering all we've been through. And now that we know we're really friends, call me Shinji please."
"Very well.. Shinji"
They were so caught up with each others company that they didn't noticed they walked past the entrance until Rei did not recognize the scenery. "I believe we are lost. Shinji." "Oh haha, we walked past the entrance. Looks like we're here." Rei seemed a little troubled that she did not know anything out side of NERV. Shinji noted it and was going to try and change that.
"I must report to Lt. Ritsuko Akagi for pick up of the actual card." They proceeded to the checkpoint. Shinji used his card for the both of them, Rei was glad he was there because she did not remember that she wouldn't be able to get in without an updated card.
"Lets make this quick Rei, this place makes me uncomfortable." Shinji said as they stepped into the elevator.
=If this place makes Shinji uncomfortable then why did he chose to be a pilot. Why is he even here at this moment... He has done something for my benefit even though he was unwilling. = Rei couldn't help but smile slightly at the thought. It wasn't so much of a smile as it was a half grin.
Then the elevator stopped when they were not even close to their floor. The doors opened and they both had a feeling of fear. Shinji was scared because he wanted to protect Rei. And Rei feared that Shinji would be hurt trying to protect her again.
It was Gendo
"Pleasure seeing you two here on your day off."
No one welcomed his awkwardly warm greeting and both were completely silent. Gendo then stepped in and the doors closed behind him. Shinji balled up both his fist because he was angry for not knowing what to do in this situation. Rei stood there like the elevator never stopped, but she felt the tension that Shinji was giving off. She wanted to stand in front of him and block him from Gendo's sight.
"I am expecting that you both will be able to slip into your normal civilian routines and wait until the next angel attack. However, your purpose is to defeat the angels and nothing is to come before that. Do I make myself clear?" He looked back at them to see them both nod in agreement.
The elevator stopped and Gendo stepped out, "Shinji, remember, next time it'll be a lot more permanent. The stakes will be higher for you both. Only time for one choice. So if you don't make it right.. I will." He said glaring at Shinji, he then turned to Rei and gave her an evil grin. He was no doubt idly referring to what happened in the hospital room 12.
Shinji looked away and then unclenched his fist as he heard the doors close. Rei was still standing like a person turned to stone, but what caught Shinji's eye was a single tear that rolled down her check. She couldn't help it. She was scared, for the both of them.
The elevator stopped and she said, "We should not keep Lt. Ritsuko Akagi waiting." She walked out and Shinji followed her. He didn't know what to do or say. That was only the second emotion that he saw Rei express. But he still didn't know why they had to be forced out of her the way they were. She didn't even acknowledge her own emotions.
They came up to Ritsuko's office. Rei turned to Shinji, " I will return shortly, I must have a photograph taken for the security card."
Shinji sat down on the bench in the hall. He then took this time to think. =It's just like I was thinking. Not one hint of the emotions she had just experienced. My father did indirectly say that he would kill her if I wouldn't follow my orders.. She's walking around as if he just said hi to us. I know that she was cut deep by his words, the same as I was. I have to some how protect her to the end, even if it is from myself. =
Rei then came back with her usual emotionless face " they are going to use my old identification photograph because they did not want one with me wrapped in bandages."
"Well, umm, ok Rei lets get out of here then."
Both walked out of NERV and to the grocery store in silence, not ever looking at each other in the eyes. They did spend hours walking in there slow pace of theirs. Shinji than began to think that Rei never had anyone to share her feelings with before. He was the same as her but his spirit was not as damaged as hers. He still had hope and wanted to help her be heard.
When they were close to home he recognized the spot that Misato had shown him earlier. This time he had some special with him and sunset was presenting itself. His first real friend was with him. He only wanted their relationship to get better. This was a good chance to make her feel better.
"Hey Rei." She jumped a little because they had both been silent for so long. "I have some place that I want to show you. We both need a break anyways." Shinji then lead the way up to the spot not knowing what will happen at sunset.
Shinji put his bags down and sat on the grassy hill. Rei followed his example and did the same sitting next to him. "What is it we are doing here Shinji?"
"Well Rei, Miss Misato told me to bring someone special with me here one sunset. And it's a beautiful sight. I wanted to share it with you.."
"Thank you Shinji" Rei said slowly as if it was the first time she said the words thank you. "Your welcome Rei. What are friends for?" Just then the buildings began to rise out of the geo-front. Both Rei and Shinji took in this moment to remember how it was the first time they really had a chance to fully see the city that they were protecting. The city they were to save from the angels.
Rei had a rush of new emotions thrown at her all at once. It was much for her to bear. =My time spent with Shinji is always bringing about these new feelings. He is the first person I am to thank.. Ever. All I have done is cause him hardship between him and his father. And yet, everything I find new about him and life, I do not want to stop here. I have the urge to protect that, which has brought me all these feelings. Shinji. I believe you are the reason I will keep fighting =
Shinji was in awe of the city and the expression of calmness on Rei's face. =I knew that she needed some time to relax. To bad this moment's gonna end. I wish that I could find a way to get her out of this situation. I know I won't be able to because my father would only bring her closer to control me. I'm so hopeless when it comes to being kind to girls', heh. I bet she doesn't feel the same way I feel about her. I would do anything to protect her. =
"We should do this more often Rei." Shinji then stood up, "but I guess we had better get back home, it's getting late and we're both in bandages and casts. Rest would be best if we plan to wake up for school tomorrow."
Rei stood also and picked up her share of the bags, "yes." They both took one last look at the scenery and walked back down the hill. It was starting to get dark and they were home within minutes. When they got to Reis' door she opened it walked in and turned to Shinji, "please enter." He walked in took his shoes off and proceeded to the kitchen to put the food on the table.
Rei closed the door and was going to the kitchen when her phone rang. She stood still for a moment and thought of the only person that would ever call her. The commander. With her new perspective of him she was nervous to say the least. She walked over to the phone and answered in her monotone voice.
"Hello"
"Hello Rei, it seems that you were out of your apartment for a long time today, as was Shinji. Is he with you?"
"Yes sir"
"Put him on the phone please"
"Yes sir. Shinji the commander wishes to speak to you."
Shinji was now in a serious mood. The mood he seems to have when he hears mention of his father. Shinji was thinking of just hanging up on him but he knew that was not the answer at all.
"Yes"
"Shinji, I noticed that you are spending your free time with Ayanami as I have requested. Have you come to sense or is this one of your personal excavations.. Well Shinji?"
"You can control my life as a pilot, but this is going to far."
"It is, is it not? If that is the best way to achieve my goal then so be it. I want to make it clear that you will not disappoint me. Understand? If she means as much to you as you yourself believe then you will go to great length to protect her. Will you not? Her fate lies in your hands Shinji. You must know what I am capable of by now." Then there was a click and low hum of a dial tone.
Shinji did not believe what he heard. He had dreamt of this situation before. He knew all to well what happened when he disobeyed his father. Rei had been killed and Shinji himself held the grip around her neck. He wasn't going to let this happen. So he would play his fathers game for as long as he knew Rei was safe.
Shinji hung up the phone on his end saying to himself, =shake it off Shinji, you don't want any of this to upset Rei more than she already is. = But it was a lot for him to handle at the time. He was reliving the moment when his father left him so many years ago. Then, he would have done anything to be with him. Now he wanted to give it all up to get away from him.
Rei saw tears in Shinji's eyes and brought her hand to her mouth in a gasping motion. Her facial expression didn't change but her body language signaled that she couldn't bear to see Shinji like this.
Shinji wiped his face and looked to Rei, "its ok Rei, everything is.. Okay. Don't worry about me. I'm fine I'm fine." Rei looked into his eyes and said, "Thank you Shinji."
Rei wanted to say more than just thank you. But Shinji said, "lets get those groceries put away now. We both have to get some rest. Its my first day of school tomorrow." Rei was feeling less disturbed now that Shinji was trying to break the tension. It was not so subtle; yet, it was kind of him to do. Now she wanted to just sleep and forget her troubles. To her sleep was a comfort where she could turn off her mind. But for Shinji, that was a different story.
"Okay Rei I'm going. I need to get some rest myself. Take care. Oh, and I'll see you at seven.. Good night Rei." Shinji then walked to the door as he heard a soft reply, "good night Shinji."
=He seems to have recovered from his conversation with his father. That is good. I will look forward to tomorrow. =
Rei then proceeded to ready her bed. She then decided to take a shower now because she did not want to take to long getting ready tomorrow morning.
Shinji got in his apartment when he realized that he never got a replacement for his SDAT player. His conversation with his father had shaken his nerves enough to make him dread the night that was ahead of him.
=I still have to at least try and sleep. If only for a bit. =
He laid down in his bed and fell asleep very quickly. The hard part for him was staying asleep. His dreams would surly creep into his mind.
He had the same dream as he had before. The one about his father and Rei. Only this time he wasn't choking Rei after Gendo dropped her lifeless body. Gendo looked at a kneeling Shinji and said, "If you don't do it, then I will." Shinji looked down at Rei and saw her gasping for air. He then looked up at his father who was now holding the same gun that he gave Shinji before. He unloaded the whole clip into Rei in an instant. "She would have wanted death to be a gift from you"
Shinji jumped to his father like a wild jackal and swung at him screaming as loud as his lungs made possible. Right before he made contact. He saw a ceiling. He woke up in a sweat, staring at the ceiling.
=If dreams are a way for your subconscious to solve problems, then I'm in a riddle with no answer. = He then forced himself back to sleep.
..
Meanwhile back at Rei's apartment she was just getting out of the shower. She walked over to her bed when she noticed commander Ikari's broken glasses that she kept as a memento. There was a folded piece of paper under them. It read:
=Cherish the time you have with him. You never know when he will not be a necessity to me any more. He will surely be taken care of once all the wheels are set into motion. Serve me as you have always done. Without question. And I promise his death will be painless, if I feel his death need be necessary. =
Rei threw the commanders glasses against the wall watching them break apart. She still had no out going emotion in her face. She had the feeling as if she was going to breakdown completely. So, quickly she got in her bed and drew the covers over herself.
=Life without Shinji Ikari. That is not a life I wish to see. The commander will regret his words. I will make him regret them. I will give my life for Shinji before I would ever let the commander take it from him.. And me=
She was frozen in her thoughts when she had a new feeling. She couldn't keep them inside anymore.
She felt tears gather in her eyes. She rolled over on her stomach and began to cry. Completely letting herself get lost in the moment. It was the first time she had ever let her emotions get the best of her. She cried all night till her body forced her to sleep.
Crying herself to sleep was such a way for her to vent without having to show her emotions to anyone. This would now become a common sight to the moonlight if she would continue to keep her emotions locked from everyone. She wanted comfort, but was too afraid to seek it.
She wanted a reason to sleep soundly at night. She wanted peace. She wanted to express herself.. But.. Couldn't.
A/n: whoa, deep huh? The next chapter is on its way. I'm already halfway done with chapter 6. Should be up soon.