(A/n: hee hee hee okai! On wiht chapter nine! woohooo! celebrateeee! Ha ha ha no flares! just nice reviews please! )

9. Unbearable

the next day

Shigure, Yuki, and Kyou left the house and into a car. " We are going to stop by the market... only to "visit" Ayame and ask him questions... Or just completely tear his place down and look for them damn potions and get Hatori back!" Shigure said... in his head. Shigure turned the car on and drove at full speed. " Hey are we gonna go to Ayame's workshop?" Yuki asked. Shigrue nodded. " We have to find Ayame and ask for questions." Shigure said.

At Ayame's workshop...

" Hatori... tiem to wake up... you'll probably wonder why you are here..." Ayame said as he nudged the bigger man. " Ugh... uhhh... oh oh Hello Love... How is my dearest this morning as Hatori moved in for a kiss he successfully stole. Ayame couldn't believe it. " You... you still love me?" Ayame asked. " Of course my dear... why wouldn't I?" Hatori smiled. Ayame fell unconscious. Hatori just quizically looked at him. Ayame woke back up. " Wow... how long was I out?" Ayame ask as if he had been out for two days. " You have been out for like... 5.67 seconds..." Hatori said. Ayame just looked away blank.

" Hey Haa-san... you aren't supposed to love me anymore..." Ayame whispered.

A few minutes later...

Knock, knock...knock, knock...KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK... BANG BANG BANG KICK!

" AYAMEEEEEE Shigure, Yuki, And Kyou came to visiiiiiiiiiiiit!" Shigure sang in a very pissed off tone. Ayame came rushing up some place with stairs with Hatori following. They were... laughing...

" Ayame... what did you give him?" Shigure said grabbing Ayame by the collar. Ayame shivered. Shigure had a sexy deep voice.

' a... love pill... it was supposed to wear out by now but it hasn't... it lasts for 24 hours... but yet... it doesn't seem to be true..." Ayame said as he was dangling off the floor by each bad complaint. " What have you done..." Shigure asked with watery eyes. " Yuki you are good at this medication stuff... tell me how long Haa-san's going to take till he recovers from this... pill..." Kyou said as he grabbed grabbed hold of Hatori.

"Okay... I need some skin cells... and his hair sample... and a saliva!" Yukki said getting out three test tubes. Kyou scratched some skin off with his long nails, pulled a strand of hari out of his head, and made him spit in that last test tube. " Here you go!" Kyou said giving Yuki the three tubes. Yuki had some kinda of DNA scanner with him and a microscope and shit and he analyzed. It took two hours till he was finished. " Okay you two... I have the results..." Yuki said as he came walking with a sheet of paper turned over.

Shigure hoped it wasn't long. Yuki flipped the paper up front of their faces. Shigure's heart dropped.

Ayame gasped.

Kyou grew wide-eyed.

And when Yuki saw it... he fell to the ground.

" 4 years! he'll be in this condition? four... ye...ars..." Shigure fainted with tears in his eyes.

" Oh my god... Ayame... you screwed up... completely..." Kyou said shaking his head as he tried caring Shigure up. Yuki helped and before they left the store... Yuki shook his head in a very displeased way. They both to Shigure to the car and YUki drove them home.

Ayame sat there... Sitting in between Hatori's legs. " Haa-san... how can I be soo evil..." Ayame asked in a whisper. " You aren't evil to me Aya... you are my one and only...' with that said Ayame cried and cried.

Two years later...

Shigure looked into his mirror... He didn't see the normal guy he used to be when he was with Hatori... no... not even a hint of that was shown on this now 34 year old face. What you saw was a pale, skinny, and badly shaped guy. He had a few wrinkles... he can't smile anymore... he won't eat as much as he needs too... he goes to a hospital to be fed... his worse habit though was the habit of most depressed and sad people... cutting... he's been cutting since the first unbearable, dreadful month of the news. Every place on his body was cut beside his legs... those, though, would come next. He had to more cuts to go till he is on one of the legs.

Although he still has a way of looking good. No matter how pale. He's skinny enough to wear them emo gurl-like pants... he wears long arm coverages you can get at hot topic so he can block off the cuts on his arms. He wears nice casual dark shirts... he keeps his hair back ( he's gone to uncaring to cut his head... it's just shoulder length...) In a half ponytail.

Ever since the incident he has gone to a selfish bastard that keeps everyone away. Especially guys. Shigure comes out of the bathroom to be greeted by a happy Momiji. " here here hereeee! We are having a engagment party and you and this whole household is invited! You have to come! No questions asked!" Momiji said as he grabbed Shigure's wrist and forced him to go with this now tall, hot, blonde. A huge party was outside. Shigure couldn't tell who was engaged with who! Shigure walked awhile to find anyone suspicious looking for being the engaged couple.

Shigure couldn't believe it. The one person he wanted to avoid is now.. In his sight and is smiling holding hands with the one cousin he will never forgive.. Ayame. " Those two... are the ones engaged aren't they... they have the matching rings..." Shigure asked particularly to no one. Shigure once again cried. Of all these years he has tried to keep in his tears they come out... with full blast... he's crying in public but it feels that he's the only one... in the big crowd... it's like everyone disappeared... so he continues to cry.

By now everyone is looking at him sadly. One person approached him. " Shii-san... are you crying again? Do you need comfort?" a little boy's voice came.

Shigure looked up disbelievably. " Haa...Haa-chan... you... how... yes..." Shigure said as he ducked to the little boy's height and hugged him. " Oh Haa-chan... I don't like you away form me... I want you to love me again... I need you to love me... I want you with me again... I am wrecked with out you... I don't think I'll live without you... I need you..." Shigure whispered as he looked at the little Hatori's face. Shigure looked to where his blind eye was. He lifted up his hair and kissed his suffering eye. " I love you more than anything and I think I'll die before you come back to me..." Shigure said with tears in his eyes.

Little Hatori looked up at Shigure. " I have to go now... you have to wake up..." little Hatori said.

Shigure looked up at the people surrounding him. " Are... you okay sir?" A little boy asked. Shigure looked at the boy and smiled a smile that wasn't there in a long time...

" Yes... cause I know this all will end soon..." Shigure said as he hugged the boy.

A few weeks later...

Shigure was once again in the mirror... his cuts went down to his legs now... he started on his second leg... Shigure sighed as he covered up the last cut he made. " Today... is a bad day for me but good for the two I love but hate most right now... Hatori and Ayame. They're getting married." Shigure said to himself. He thought about that dream he had with little Haa-san... he thought of it every night and cried himself to sleep. Shigure sighed as he looked in the mirror. A white nice blouse. A Black tie. And Tight pants. Yep.. It's just him.

Shigure walked over to the wedding place.

Once Shigure arrived he was greeted with every family member. Shigure nodded in return.

" This is the day I feel like my world will crumble..."

(A/N: yea... sad right? If it isn't.. OH WELL I TRIED! lol wouldn't it be weird to be on a love pill that lasts till like... 4 years and you end up marrying them anywayz... before those four years are up.. And then once the years are up you are like... what the hell? Why am I here? Who the hell? what the fuck? and yea! Lol oh well until next time! )