He just looked at me. I knew he loved me. I always knew. I had my doubts at times but some part of me knew it.
"Do you love me"?
I didn't know what to say. I loved him but did I really want him to know that, I am so confused. He sighed and walked towards the door. He was at the door and turned to look at me. He walked out and closed the door. He was leaving me because I couldn't tell him how I felt. I ran out the door and towards his black Nova with red racing stripes. And swung the car door open and flu on top of him and pressed his face against mine. I kissed him like I used to. He kissed me back. I felt like a hole in my heart was finally filled.
"Sean I love you so much"!
I said it between kisses. He picked me up my legs were wrapped around him and carried me into the house. He sat on the couch me still wrapped around him. I unbuttoned my pants and he ripped off his. Having sex while sitting down is no easy task. Nether is standing up. But with me and Sean I didn't care ether way I felt safe. He started moving faster. I loved it. He threw me on the floor and got on top of me we rolled around the floor He tore off my shirt and his. We slammed in to the coffee table but only flinched. Sean started kissing my body lower and lower I roller him over and did the same. We started to slow down and huffing and puffing came to a long extended stop. Lying there him breathing on my and kissing my neck. I feel asleep listening to his soft breathing.
4 hours later.
I woke up and turned around. Sean was gone.
"Sean, where did you go"?
"Hello".
He was sitting butt naked on the couch.
"Watch are you doing"?
"Nothing really just looking at you".
"Well are you back a Degrassi now"?
"Only if I can find a place to live".
"You can stay here. I don't mind".
"Really"?
"Just as long as you don't leave me again".
"I will never leave you again. I promise".
I got up and walked into the bathroom. My black CD case with my razors in it was sitting on the toilet open. Sean walked in.
"I thought you stopped doing that".
"I did but then you left and I …I".
"Ellie I understand but no more, ok".
"No more".