CHAPTER 3

CUTTING, MEMORIES AND...... GOING BACK?

"..."MEANS TALKING

'...' MEANS THINKING

DISCLAIMER: I DON'T OWN INUYASHA NOR WILL I EVER!

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It was 5 in the morning when kagome woke up.

"Shit what happened" Kagome said out loud then remembered last night's events. She looked around and was confused. She was in her room. But how did she get there? The last thing she remembered was her blacking out in the kitchen.

When she looked down she was even more confused. She was only wearing her sheets. Then it struck her. Her own father had molested her. No not raped. He had not gone that far. But she new sooner or later he would get bored of "playing" with her and get down to business. But she prayed to god that, that never happened. It was the only thing she had left of her pride and she didn't want it taken away from her.

She started to cry. She hated her life.

"Mom, Why did you have to go? Why did you leave me? Please mom come back. Come back." Kagome said while sobbing.

When she finished crying she got up but winced at the pain she had received from the previous night. When she got up she limped to the bathroom and took a shower. And when she finished she went to her closet and started to look for some clothes to put on. But right when she was was going to pull out some black cargo pants a little box fell on the floor.

She kneeled down and got it. She sat on her bed and was debating on opening it or not. Finally she decided on opening it and found a pocketknife.

She snapped it open and stared at it. Then she gently brought it down to her skin. She slid it across her skin and jumped at the pain. But after like 3 seconds of pain she found it relieving. So she cut her self several more times watching the blood drip onto the tile floor. She was in a dream state. She felt as if all her worries were flowing away with her blood.

When she finally came back to reality she snapped the pocketknife close, Put it under her pillow and went to the bathroom cleaned her cuts and put a Band-Aid on them. And then got a towel to clean her floor.

She got dressed wearing a long sleeved shirt that said "why do you hurt me so with your words of lies?" And some black pants with her hair down and obviously some make up to cover up her bruises.

She went down stairs and did the normal routine.

"RING, RING, RING" Rang the phone.

"Don't just stand their get the fucking phone you dumb bitch!" Screamed her dad.

"Yes sir " Replied Kagome.

" Hello Higurashi residents" greeted Kagome.

"Hello is Mr. Higurashi there." Yes sir. Hold on one second please.

"Dad the phone is for you" Kagome told her dad.

"Give that to me you Whore " Answered Mr. Higurashi and snatching the phone from her hands at the same time.

"Hello, Mr. Higurashi speaking how may I help you" Answered Kagome's father oh so politely on the phone.

While this was happening kagome was thinking....

'How can people be easily fooled by his charm?'

'Why cant they see the true horror of him? The ugliness?'

Kagome then went upstairs to clean her room. While she was cleaning her room she found some boxes, but one box caught her eye. It was a normal regular box but what was so special about it was it had photo albums of friends.

She opened the box and found 2 photo albums, a small one and a big one. She opened the small one first and started to flip threw all the pages. She was crying of all her memories when she lived happy. she stopped at one picture. It had inuyasha grabbing her by the waist whispering something in her ear. Miroku was on the floor like always unconscious while sango was standing above of him red from embarrassment.

Right when she was going to flip threw the page she herd her dad yelling for her to come down.

"Kagome hurry up pack our clothes in a suitcase were leaving. Were moving back to Kyoto. I just got a business offer I cant refuse. were leaving today. You will be starting school on Monday (Today is Saturday) the same one you went to when we lived back there. Shikon High" Said kagomes father.

"y..yyes sir" stuttered kagome.

she couldn't believe they were going to move back to Kyoto. No! She didn't want to move back to Kyoto. Not to were her friends can be ashamed of her. She wouldn't be able to take the pain of her friends no scratch that her best friends being disappointed in her. She could bear every one else being ashamed of her but not Sango, miroku and especially not inuyasha.

'What am I going to do? how am I going to explain my sudden disappearance? how am I going to explain my change?' All these thoughts ran threw her head while she was packing her and her dads clothes.

When she finished she heard a honk down stairs. So she brought the suitcases and walked to the car. She put the suitcases in the trunk and got in the back seat. She was not allowed to sit in the front it was only for people who were loved or were actually someone in life. According to her dad.

Threw the whole drive she slept. it was a days drive, When they finally got there she had already woken up and got out of the car.

No she did not live in the same house as she did before. She lived in the one next to it. Thank god her dad had some sense of feelings and not purchase the same house. No one had bought that house since she had left. She guessed it was from the incident. She was about to break down from all the memories she's had but gathered herself.

She went to the trunk and got the suitcases.

"Go and set my room with my clothes you know how. Our stuff should already be set in the house. Every thing should be ready by the time I come back or else. I'm going to go to your school and go register you in." Said Mr. Higurashi with a threatening voice.

Kagome nodded and went inside to set everything up. When she was done she started thinking about how tomorrow she was going to go back to her old school, and face all the people she had hurt when she left. But right now she was not going to think about that she was just going to go to sleep and go to the only place she has ever been happy since that dreadful day her dreams.

But before she fell into a deep sleep she whispered one more thing......

"Until tomorrow...."

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A/N: Sorry it's kind of short. I just wanted to get this over with so I could get started with the next chapter........were all the shit starts to happen. Well pleases read and review. NO FLAMES!!!!