R.S.: I am so sorry that I haven't updated in a long time. My father punished us for our grades by taking away the internet for over a month, and they wouldn't let me update my chapters in school. So I really do hope you guys forgive me. I wanted to update so bad, but they just weren't having.
But enough of me rambling on. I'm back and that's all that matters. Here's the chapter you guys, and once again, sorry.
It's always that one person
by: Rampaging Sorrow
Chapter nine: The tears I shed have words
School is wild with Principal Cemore
Kaoru lay in her bed, just staring at the ceiling. She didn't feel like getting ready for school just yet, so she decided to stay there and think. She then looked over at her desk. There was a picture there of her and her mother. Her mother was holding her tightly, her eyes excited as Kaoru had a big smile to match her mother's, eyes just as excited. She couldn't help but smile before getting up and looking into her closet. She began to dig through her things as she was looking for something precious.
"Aha! Here it is!" she pulled out a box before looking around. She then grabbed a flashlight and she looked around once again before opening the box in her lap. She pulled out a diary and then she held it close to her. This was a diary that had belonged to her mother. It was something that she had always wanted to read, but her mother had told her not to read until she was about seventeen.
"Well I may be sixteen... but i'm old enough anyway." she then put it down before pulling out a necklace. It was something beautiful. It had the ruby jewel of her mother's eyes, yet the light blue jewel in the middle of her father's eyes. She put it back in before pulling out some pictures of her parents. Soaked in the rain, smiling happily, doing things together, the start of their family, and up to Kaoru was where the pictures of the children ended. She put them back in before she took the diary and placed it in her dresser drawer with her underwear and her bras. She then went back into the spot and she opened a latch. It had a hole. She then put the box back into the hole before shutting it and locking it with the lock. She came out of her closet before going into her dresser drawer and looking for some black and white. Once she was done, she headed for the shower.
Kaoru was driving towards the cemetary two towns away, a place where they had lived before, a place where her mother had called "Home sweet ol' home". She then saw the cemetary entrance and she stopped there before getting out and pulling her mother's favorite type of flowers. Pink roses and amarillas. She then shivered and placed on her zip up hoodie. She had on a white shirt with a black paw in the middle and she had pajama pants that were black with white paws. She began to jog up into the cemetary and then she began to look around. She finally found her mother's grave and then she stopped and she caught her breath.
"I always have trouble finding you mom. Everytime I remember where you are, when I get to this place, I seem to forget." she then sighed and twidled her thumbs before placing the flowers down.
"These are for you mother. I brought your favorites. I had to check because I was going to get the lilies again... but I hope you do like these. I had them pick out the prettiest." she twidled her thumbs around again. She was wondering where to start, as she had so much to tell.
"There's been so much that has happened within the past two months mother. I... honestly don't know where to start... but I do want to tell you about the people that i've met. Their... different from who I would actually hang out with." she began to tell her mother about everybody that she met and how they acted and what they looked like.
"And Tommy and Jacob call me "Taran Street's Princess. I think I like the name." she began to tell more things about them. Then she got to Kenshin.
"Kenshin Himura... he's so different from all the other boys i've liked. He's very defiant towards daddy and he went out of his way just to see me. He has red hair of fire and blood, and I don't know why, but I just like it. It seems like an odd color, but it's just so different from everybody else's hair colors. He's the only redhead in school. And his eyes... his eyes are a rich shade of amethyst as you would say, and they are so deep and they hold so much in them. But he's so different because his eyes can turn a sharp gold. It seems so weird... but I like him for it. It makes him different as I said before.
He's very sweet, and he is so kind hearted and he treats me like i'm a expensive jewel. He's always there to help me and he's been showing me how to turn away from problems and how to solve them. I think I would probably be on some kind of suspension without him. Oh now that I mention it, i've been suspended twice in the past two months. I know it isn't good, but I did use your motto. 'If they hit you, then beat their ass' " she sighed again before looking down.
"But even with all the new people i've met... It's brought so much trouble." she felt tears coming to her eyes.
"I've never ever felt pain like this before. And the sad thing is... is that some of it is my fault, I believe. Enishi came back and he was ... worse than before. He raped me... and I couldn't do anything to stop it. I felt so used, because he beat me and then I went into concussion. And now I have something called emotional stress attacks, where if I get too sad, then I can be seriously hurt or I can begin to have a seizure." she blinked some tears back.
"And Kenshin did help with the others... but the things that i'm mostly sad about are how they kept on going." she felt the tears streaming down her cheeks.
"Yahiko was stabbed mommy. By Enishi's little brother. And I couldn't even help him. He's still in the hospital, and he shouldn't even be there! He had nothing to do with it, and yet no matter what, he got caught in the crossfire. And he's in there... trying to work on his own... but he can't without a machine. He can't even wave at me!" she put her head in her hands before letting out her held back tears. Then she wiped them and she looked back up.
"And then there was what happened to Kenshin. Mother it was so bad. They... they just tore him apart. They beat him, stabbed him, and just sliced at him. He has so many scars that it's just so sad that he didn't deserve it. And no matter how much he says 'It wasn't your fault', I know it is because they fought Enishi for me." she then let herself get together before wiping her tears again.
"And then there was a gang war. And Tommy, Jacob, and even Aoshi got hurt. But the thing about it is, that it was so horrible. Jacob got shot twice and he's in the hospital right now still recovering. They say he's doing bad, but he'll get better. To me, I don't think he will be the same.. He's just so badly bruised. It was horrible what happened to him as well. The others didn't get hurt too bad. Tommy got shot in the leg, Aoshi got a few stabs, but we're mostly worried for Jacob. He's the oldest and they've already lost a son due to violence. I don't think their mother can take another loss.
She's kind of like you, but she'll never be just like you. You always will have something... that other mothers will not."
Kaoru wiped her tears again before just breaking down even more than she did before.
"I need you so badly mother! It's just not the same! I need that motherly figure in my life! Genia can't do it all, she has to live her own life! And I feel awful because Kenshin lost his mother as well, but he probably didn't have the same connection that I had with you! You were my best friend, you were my first friend, you were everything to me, and now your gone and nobody can replace what you left! Nobody can replace all the things you did! Nobody can replace that glow that you left! Nobody can replace you! Nobody can replace Annalise Loire Kamiya!"
Kaoru began to sob and then she felt two arms come around her and pull her to a warm chest. She saw red hair and then she clung to him tightly and she began to sob into his chest.
"Kenshin..." Kenshin sighed before he held her tightly and rested his head onto hers as she cried in his chest. He began to rub her back.
"Kaoru... don't shed anymore tears."
"But you don't understand! She was my best friend and my mother! Who can replace her Kenshin! Who!"
"Nobody can replace your mother. Nobody can, and nobody ever will... but is this truly what you mother wants? To see you here, crying and depressed?"
"No..." Kaoru looked down as Kenshin looked up.
"Then do what she wants. I can tell by the way you carry yourself, that your mother was a very very good person who loved you guys very much. She she probably wants the best for you all. But crying like this will make your mother sad because you still are hurting for her... when all she wants is for you all to be happy and live your lives to the fullest." he sighed as she kept on crying softly into his chest.
"I remember when I was younger... and my mother was taking care of me. We both had the flu, yet she got up from bed everyday to nurse me back to health while just letting herself get sicker. I always told her to go away and to get better herself, and that I didn't need her to take care of me. But she told me something that I will never forget.
'I take care of you because I love you. And if I was gone, then you would miss the caring that I do for you. So cherish these days, because soon you might not have it.'
I didn't understand what she meant by it before, but now I do. It's basically saying 'Love what you have because you will never know when it's going to go.' I didn't really take it seriously, but you did. And even though I don't really understand all these tears, I know that the connection between you and your mother is something that is truly only for mother and daughter and that is meant for nobody else to understand. So at least try to make her happy by keeping yourself together and showing that you are the strong daugther that she knows." Kaoru's tears had stopped and then Kenshin let go of her before opening his jacket and pulling out some flowers.
"I never really introduced myself to you. My name is Kenshin Himura, and you have a daughter with a heart of gold. I think I would be dead right now if it wasn't for her, so i'm saying thanks to you, because everytime I talk to your husband, he tells me how much Kaoru is like you." he placed the flowers down before looking at Kaoru and then at the sky.
"My mother was just like you... and I think its mothers like you and my own, that truly make people's hearts good." He then said a small prayer before beginning to walk away. Kaoru looked down at the grave with a soft smile before wiping her tears.
"I have to go now mother... but I will be back soon. But until then, I hope you are safe and that god is protecting you." she said a small prayer as well before taking off one of her rings and placing it in the dirt. She then turned and she went off to catch up to Kenshin. Kenshin took his thumb and then he wiped her tears before they kept on walking out the cemetary arm in arm.
A week and a half later...
Kaoru was once again driving back to the cemetary. In her hand she had paper that she was going to place down as a note to her mother. She was with her father and her siblings, but they were in his car. They parked up before walking up to the cemetary together. Kaoru was happy because in that week, Yahiko was able to move his upper body. With the proper help, Yahiko was moving and Shinji was able to at least take him from the hospital for a few hours. Yahiko was back to the energetic child that he use to, and the first thing he did was hug Tommy and thank him for coming by almost every day and making him feel better.
"Daddy are we going to see mommy?" Yahiko asked as he held onto his father's hand. Shinji looked down at him and he smiled.
"We're going to see mommy. But not in body. In spirit."
"Spirit? Why is that?" Yahiko looked up at him with wondering eyes. Shinji smiled at his son.
"Because mommy can't be here right now, so when we talk to her, you won't be able to see her. Do you understand Yahiko?" he nodded.
"It's okay." he finally said before they let out a small giggle. When they reached her grave site, they paled. Shinji picked up Yahiko and he put him on his shoulder, his eyes away from the scene.
"Daddy? Is there something bad?"
"No Yahiko." Aoshi said to him. Tara took Yahiko before they looked at the site. The grave was literally cracked in two and the ground looked dug up and messy and her flowers were in broken petals. The ring was gone as well. Kaoru clenched her fists together as she looked down and felt the tears coming into her eyes. She felt Shuichi pull her into a hug before she began to cry softly. Shinji was raged.
"What kind of sickness is this! The woman is dead for godssake, do people have remorse!" Kaoru began to cry louder. Yahiko then jumped down before looking at it. He was at loss of words.
"... What happened?"
"Somebody was grave robbing." Shinji said.
"Grave robbing?"
"It's when they take some very important stuff. They came here and they took something from mommy." Aoshi looked down at Yahiko as he just looked at everything and taking it in.
"Is mommy going to be hurt?"
"Yes Yahiko. Mommy is going to be very hurt." Yahiko then had a sad look on his face as he looked on.
"Poor mommy. She can't protect her important things. Is it because she's in spirit daddy?" Shinji picked up Yahiko before giving him a sad smile and nodding.
"Yes. It's because she's in spirit."
Kaoru, Aoshi, and Tara walked up to the building, very very angry. Tara split from them with a 'see you later on' and then Aoshi and Kaoru had to split. Kaoru slammed her locker shut before kicking it hard. She left a dent. She then went to her door and she opened it harshly and she slammed it shut before going to her seat and dropping down in it. The teacher and the students looked at her like she had two heads.
"I'm not interrupting anything! Go on with the damn lesson!" they gasped at her words before she got tired of them staring at her. She went down the steps to the classroom phone and she picked it up.
"Hi can I get the principal? Thanks." she waited for a few minutes before she heard a deep voice.
"Yo Cemore. Can I come up there please? I want to talk about some old times... yeah. Thanks pal." she hung it up before going and grabbing her bookbag.
"Mrs. Kamiya please take a seat."
"Kaoru Kamiya please report to the principal's office." she looked at the teacher.
"Ooo. Shut up." she said and they gasped again as she left the room. She headed down the hall and up the steps to his office. She went in and then she sat and put her feet up.
"What's going down Cemore?"
Kaoru sighed as he was talking to her.
"Kaoru you know i'm telling the truth. Don't fight anybody for this. Just let authorities handle this."
"Nah fuck that shit Cemore! How the fuck can you do that to a woman's grave! She's dead for fucking sake that's bullshit!"
"Kaoru." she looked into his eyes before sitting down.
"But still Cemore that is the most fucked up thing you can do. It's like they hurt my pride, because I couldn't stop it."
"And I know it's fucked up." she looked at him.
"But you can't just let your pride get in the way of this. This has nothing to do with it. If you do fight, then fight for your family, at least." Kaoru looked down as she let out a sigh. Cemore put his hand on her head before she looked up into his eyes. A light brown met a light blue in understanding. Kaoru then saw him smile and she gave him a soft smile herself before shifting herself slightly. He then let go before opening his desk and pulling out his cell phone. He then called up the chinese store.
"Hi can I order some things? Thanks." he put his hand over it before asking her a question.
"What do you want this time my little bad ass?" Kaoru couldn't help but laugh as he stuck his tongue out like a mischevious little kid.
Kaoru laughed as he slurped up some noodes. They were just eating up and listening to Kaoru's type of music.
"Yo Kao."
"What's on ya mind Cemore?"
"I say tomorrow we go and we do this all over again at seventh period. Yo in badass?"
"Yeeeeeaaaaahhh boy." the two shared a laugh.
"Yo Cemore pass me some chicken."
"Pass me some fries then."
"Then pass me some General Tso chicken."
"Then pass me some Beef n' Broccoli." the two then began to laugh as the slid things across the desk. Kaoru began to choke and she then dropped. Cemore stopped laughing and he looked over.
"Yo Kao! You okay!" he saw her sit up and the two said 'aaaaaaah!' before laughing it up. Kaoru then pulled her hair back into a high ponytail and Cemore gave her a playful push.
"Got me worried as hell about my favorite student."
"Yo Cemore put these in the school fridge. I wanna let you do something with me for a quick min."
Kaoru had changed into a baggy pair of jeans and a tight white shirt. She had Cemore unbutton his shirt and she gave him a hat and put it sideways. She also gave him a baggy chain and she made him sag his dress pants. They were in a music booth in the music room.
"Yo what are we doing?" he asked her as she had one of her friends just set everything up.
"We're gonna freestyle. And we're just going let things flow. Kay?" Cemore nodded and then he rolled up his sleeves.
"Yeah yeah. Just like that. Loosen up. This is how I let some problems go. Since I love music so much, one of my friends taught me how to do this. But it just has to make a lot of sense. Kay? You should know how to do this. Hit it Katyli!" then he heard the music come on into the studio and he gulped in nervousness.
"I'll start it off. Okay? It can be stupid, funny, real, whatever. Just make sense. Like this." she put her hand up as if to say 'start recording' Cemore saw Kaoru just start to unwind and soon he knew what to do. Katyli just got bored and she left.
"My mother dying in my arms put a lot on my head
Sleeping in my bed knowing now that same woman is dead
Couldn't bare the fact she was away from my eyes
Laying in a long box, her eyes blank, my heart cried
From the day that she died 'till the day I was nine
I was rebelling hard, my mind full of crimes
I couldn't give a fuck about what the world said
Because whatever they said, couldn't help bring back the dead
But now I realized, that I can't do it all
So i'm just gonna kick back and let my man take over. C.U. Start that ball!"
Cemore just jumped in as he knew what she was doing.
"Yo, my name Cemore Ustrajiva
Yeah, and I'm from da place called Romania
Okay-I'm hottest thing around
Kaoru: For real?
Yeah girl
I'm just like the Neptune sound."
The two began to laugh before he continued.
"It took me a while to get to where I am
The drugs, the money, the people, the scams.
See I lost my parents when I was four years old
My whole idea of life changed, my mind forever cold
I knew that they had looked at me was differently
The pain in my heart when they glared, it hurt me
It wasn't my fault they were shot down in the dark
But the way I saw them drop, it made my heart stop
Lord only knows what they did to die
But sadly, I wouldn't know, seeing as how much I cried
I came to the U.S. Hoping for some more
Thinking about the new things that I would explore
Chillin with family, hoping that I would soar
But my cousin was a gang banger, the other was a whore
I got mixed into it all, and soon I was selling drugs
Making money by running crack through the underground
Getting locked up every other week for a bad beat down
I sat down one night and I asked myself 'why?
Is this the life I want to live, or do I just want to die?'
After being in a shoot out and getting caught in the chest
I finally knew that this stupid drug shit had to rest
So I ran away from that life
And I changed my name from Kalits to Cemore
My whole past gone, my future forever unknown
I went to school again, I decided that I needed to begin
I got my degrees, I went into teaching
But that shit wasn't for me, It was too... boring
So I turned out becoming a principal
And here I am now, telling you the chapters
And I give it back to my badass to start it up more."
"Yo you never thought the two maniacs would clash in the booth
Never ever think student and principal could shoot
Didn't really think about why we're doing what we do
But it's all about... you.
Cemore:Nah it's about you
Kaoru: Stop playin' son it's about you
Cemore:No about me
Kaoru:No about you
Cemore:If you say so...
Kaoru:... oh damn." the two began to laugh before Cemore hugged up on Kaoru and the two put up sings.
"Cemore: Kendjis Ave!"
"Kaoru: Taran Street's Princess!" they left and then they shut it off before pulling the CD out. Then Kaoru turned and she hugged him tight.
"Oh why didn't you tell me your whole background Cemore?"
"Because, you never asked badass." he tapped her nose lightly before they just went wandering the halls and joking around. They had passed by her room and Kaoru saw Cemore run by and he did a flip and he landed hard on his back. Kaoru began to laugh as she went into the doorway and she held her stomach as she bent forward and put her hand out. They saw as she pulled him up.
"Gosh. You can't land?"
"Shut up Kamiya." she laughed again before they walked off. They didn't really question the whole thing, they just left it alone.
"Yo Cemore."
"What you need?" they were eating Chinese once again. Kaoru was sipping on her soda. Then she dipped her chicken in some sauce.
"Can I call you your real name? All the other teachers call you "Cemore" and I want a name to call you that nobody else has. So can I call you Kalits?" Cemore saw the puppy dog look in her eyes.
"Please?" Cemore then smiled at her and he nodded, his light brown eyes cheerful.
"Sure. You can call me Kalits, and I can call you 'Sitret' "
"Sitret? What does that mean?"
"It's some video game on my computer." the two then began to laugh and the bell rang.
"Let's save this for later. We bought so much." they put everything away before Kaoru changed back into her regular clothing.
"See you later Kalits."
"Sitret." the two then began to laugh again as she went down the hall and to her next class.
"Kaoru Kamiya get your butt out here right now!" Kaoru turned as she saw Cemore(or Kalits) standing in the doorway. She went outside and he shut the door and looked at her. He was mad.
"Kaoru what did I say to you earlier? Huh? What did I say?"
"You said to not fight over pride, and just to fight over family honor."
"So why did you go and beat that boy into the ground?"
"Did you even hear what he said?"
"No, what did he say." Kalits really wanted to hear.
"He said 'Haha! They messed up that grave place! Must have really didsomething bad to the kids next door, huh?' And I just snapped. I'm sorry. I tried. But the way he said 'That grave' really ticked me off becaust 'That grave' is my mother's."
Cemore sighed before looking down at her apologetic face.
"That's not going to work on me. You have to control yourself, okay? Please just ignore every other person in this school and do what YOU have to do. Don't let nobody else change your mind. Make me happier. Okay?" she nodded with a soft smile before he returned it and she shook his hand.
"Bye dad." he laughed before she went back into the room. He put his finger up and he moved it as to say 'you know what to do'. Kaoru pulled her hair behind her ear with a beautiful smile before nodding to him as he went off.
Kaoru sat at lunch, reading her mother's journal. She had wanted to start fast, so she had decided to just read it in her car as she had her feet up and her hair pulled back from her eyes. She was mostly surprised, as the diary was since she was sixteen years old.
"So then there must be more... because it stopped the day before she died." she looked at the back and then she nodded.
"Yup. There's more." she went back and then she began to read from where she had stopped. The way her mother wrote, was truthful, and as her lunch period ended, she had one small part that she loved.
Even though singing is my passion, I have to keep going. Because, what if singing fails, then what will I do? Will I not do anything? No, I must do something. Which is why I am going to keep going, because even if singing doesn't work out, I will have something to do with my life. Even if that means I have to work for somebody else.
Kenshin was walking into the building. He was in the hospital for the first half of the day because he had to get his weekly checkup on all his injuries. He entered the building and then he saw the principal wandering the halls with the most confused look he had ever seen on any adult. He went up to him and then the principal jumped in shock.
"Oh! Kenshin. How are you feeling? Any better?" Kenshin nodded with a smile.
"Great. Have any mental problems?" Kenshin shook his head.
"Even better!" Kenshin couldn't help but laugh. Then the principal heard a loud 'SHUT THE FUCK UP AND GET THE FUCK OUT MY FACE!' They both turned to the door to see Kaoru being pushed out and Kaoru was rolling up her sleeves, ready to fight.
"What are you feeling froggy bitch! You feeling froggy! Because i'm ready to fight and fuck a bitch up! So you come and show your fucking face to mine so both could feel froggy and fight!" Kalits sighed before he and Kenshin grabbed Kaoru and carried her down the hall. Kalits put his hand over her mouth.
"Kaoru Kamiya sit here for the rest of the time and you chill out. This instant." Kaoru 'hmphed' before sitting at the window. Kenshin was sipping on some nice warm tea in his mug as he sat there by the computer. They were in a classroom. He went and he checked his mail. Then he let out a yell.
"Oh my fucking god! Yo I can't believe it!" Kaoru turned her head.
"What! What!"
"He's out! He's fucking out!"
"Who!"
"Hiroshi and Enishi! Yo what the fuck is this! They said without bail!" Kaoru went over and she began to read the e-mail. She was mad as hell just like Kenshin.
"Man this is something else boy." Kaoru felt like crying.
"So then we did everything for nothing."
Kaoru was laying in Kenshin's bed and she was reading her mother's diary. Nobody was home at her house, and she was on suspension from the basketball team because of what she had said in the hallway at school. Yahiko was laying next to her and he was sleeping with his machine. She was on her stomach and she couldn't stop. Her mother had so many deep and secret things, that she didn't want to stop reading because she was so interesting. She turned the page and went to another entry. Then she began to rub Yahiko's back. He let out a sigh and then he opened a sleepy ruby eye to look into her light blue ones. Kenshin came into the room in some pajama pants and he laid down on the bed before turning on his side and beginning to think.
"What are you reading Kaoru?"
"Nothing really. It was something of my mother's belonging."
"Oh." Kenshin then looked over Kaoru's shoulder to Yahiko.
"Hey Yahiko."
"Hi." Yahiko then began to crawl across the bed. Kenshin picked him up and then he rested him on his chest before the two shut their eyes and fell asleep. Kaoru couldn't help but smile and then she went back to reading. She couldn't help but feel tears.
September 28th
Dear Luina,
Today isn't such a great day. I don't think i've ever felt more tears then what I felt for today's events. It happened so fast, that I couldn't even say a word. That's why I haven't written in so long. I was in this hospital.
Me and my big brother were driving through the countryside. It's snowing over here, suprising I know, and the woods paths are so beautiful. I took pictures and we stopped the car millions of times already to just watch as some animals went by, the different people wandering around, it sounds a little boring to other people. But the reason that it was so special to me was because it was my big brother. I've always spent time with him, and today it just feels so special because we both love snow so much and we play in it all the time.
Marcus... Marcus is so good to me. Marcus has always been there for me... when my parents were not. I love him so much. But I don't know if i'll ever see him again. Back to telling you what happened.
We were driving and admiring everything, and as soon as we exited the woods path, a car came straight for us. It must have been going over a hundred miles per hour, because it wasn't stopping one bit. We tried to turn and go back, but as soon as we turned, the car just hit us so hard, that we flipped in the air twice and we landed hard on the top. I could move, so Marcus pushed me out of the car. Then as I was pulling him out of the car, the car came down on his leg, and his leg was crushed in the car. As the fire department came, and the ambulance came, the car began to grow on fire, and they had to pull him fast. He was in so much pain, that I could see the tears coming into his eyes. I knew that my arm was broken and I had some kind of head injury, but I also needed to see if he was alive. As soon as I saw, I had passed out.
When I had woke up... something bad had happened and Marcus was screaming. They had to amputate his leg, and he didn't want it and he said he would rather die. But they had to take it off. I felt so bad, because my brother was crying his heart out. And all he could do was hug me tight and cry into my shoulder and cry how his whole life was over. How he couldn't even play as much sports as he use to. How everything was different for him now, and all I can do is cry, because Marcus doesn't want to even speak anymore. And I don't give a damn about anybody else. The sad thing is he won't even... talk to me.
Yours truly,
Annalise Loire
R.S.:I know it must have ended weird, but you'll see in the next chapter how this all fits in. It's going to be weird in the next chapter, because you'll think one thing, and then it'll turn to something else.