Author's note: Hey, I decided to try and continue this and try to actually make a story out of it. This will be an angst fic, but of course there will be some romance in it, but it will develop slowly. So please review if you have any suggestions or comments. )

It was a rainy day the next day. I could hear the raindrops falling silently on the roof. I got out of bed and put on the new school uniform that my college suddenly decided we should wear. I put on my skirt, buttoned my blouse except for the first two buttons, and I put my tie on. When I got outside my room, nobody noticed me like always. I went to grab some breakfast then left for school. I remember vaguely getting an umbrella and walking towards school. I was so busy thinking about what happened I didn't notice that a car was about to hit me. But suddenly I felt somebody pull me out of the way, and we both landed on the wet ground.

"I-I'm sorry. I didn't notice.." I started to say while I looked at the one who just saved my life. "Gu-Gure-san..?" I asked.

"Kagura, you really should be careful when you're all alone. You might have been hurt really badly if I wasn't here to help you." Shigure said to her as he helped her up. It was only then that he noticed her attire.

"Kagura, why are you wearing a school uniform?" Shigure had no complaints at all, in her school uniform he could see her long legs and the blouse wasn't loose at all. But he pushed those thoughts out when there were more important matters at hand.

"Ah, my school suddenly decided to make us wear uniforms for some reason..Oh well, thank you Gure-san. I'll be off to school." I said while putting a fake smile on my face. I started to walk away but then I felt Shigure pulling me and saying that we needed to talk. So, I let him pull me away, I wasn't that excited to go to school anyways when I looked like a mess.

We walked to his house silently. I was starting to wonder on what he had to talk to me about. Finally we arrived at his home, I was about to head to the living room but he steered me to the room where he worked.

"Um, ano..Gure-san what is it that you wanted to talk to me about?"

"Kagura, why did you let him?" He asked her seriously. I shivered from how cold and emotionless his face was and also from the may he looked at me.

"Huh? Gure-san, I don't know what you're talking about." I laughed fakely, I knew what he was talking about but I didn't feel like talking about it.

"Kagura, do I have to say it out loud for you? I know you're not stupid and you know what I'm talking about. If you think I am oblivious to your lies and your fake laugh, then you're wrong. Now, just tell me, why did you let him?" There was just something in his voice that didn't let me lie.

"There was nothing I could do to stop him. If I fought him, I would have lost and he would have hurt me even more. So, I just let him."

There was silence for a while, but then Shigure spoke.

"Was it your first time?" He asked again, he said it in such a low voice I thought I just imagined him asking the question.

"Yes." I said while looking down at the ground. I just couldn't let him look at me.

"What is wrong with you? You could have at least screamed when he was forcing you to follow him. Don't you know how worried everybody was about you? Don't you even care about how worried everybody was when they noticed you were gone, and so was Akito." He said, losing his usually calm façade he put on.

"Do you really expect me to believe that anybody cared? I wonder how long you had to practice to say that so convincingly. Nobody cares about me Shigure, and nobody ever will. So if that is all you wanted to talk to me about, I think I'll be going now." I didn't get the chance to leave though since Shigure forced me to sit back down and was looking right at me, his face just a few inches away from mine.

I shivered as I remembered what happened last night. I looked away not wanting him to see the tears that were threatening to fall. He probably knew what I was thinking so he backed away a little, but not so much that I would be able to escape.

"Kagura, " he said, " we do care. And we never stopped caring about you. We love you. What happened to the old Kagura we all loved? The old Kagura would have never let Akito or anybody take control of her."

"How can you say that the old me would never let Akito control her when he controls my very life? And also yours as well."

"That may be true in a sense but she would still fight back. She was the boar, who is stubborn but passionate about her life. All of us miss her. What happened to her?"

"Ha! It's only now that you realized I'm different. Well, let me tell you a little secret of mine. I never changed. I was always this way, I just tried to hide it but now, I'm tired of hiding, of acting oblivious to everything around me. I'm tired of seeing everybody happy when I know that they can only be happy if I'm hurting. And to be honest, I'm getting tired of lying and putting a big fake smile on my face and telling people some fake happy words. I'm tired of living Shigure, because I know that everybody would be happy without me."

"That's not true Kagura. I'm not happy if I see you suffering, why do you think I helped you a while ago?"

"You helped me Shigure, because you would feel guilty if you didn't. Since when have you been so interested in how I feel anyways?"

" Why wouldn't I be interested in the life of someone who is depressed and thinks that nobody loves her. Why wouldn't I be interested in the person who just let somebody rape her without even fighting back? Why wouldn't I be interested, when I saw this person suffering even before? I am the dog of the zodiac Kagura, I can sense if someone is suffering."

"If you could tell that I was suffering then why couldn't you save me? Why couldn't you help me? If you knew all along, then why did you only wait until now to try to 'help' me?"

For the first time, Shigure couldn't answer back. So, I left walking out of the house towards who knows where, I just had to get away.