I am highly upset right now. I haven't been able to think straight for a while. I've been trying to get my mind off of things, but today… today just felt wrong. I honestly feel like I'm being left out of everything. Like sometimes my family will get together, and it's like I find out that their out there laughing and joking around, and the whole family is out there… but me. Hell, even the neighbor's kid will be out there. I know I sound kinda dumb and selfish, but I can't but feel this way.
It's been going on for the past five years.
And it's like I'm the middle child, and now I'm just being reminded about it every single day. My brothers get almost all the attention, and I'm left out. And my cousin thinks it's funny… but it's not. And my friend who's name is Chantel, I talk to her, and I tell her everything, but she thinks I'm being selfish when all I do is ask her for help. And I got pissed off at her the other day and now she's like 'I know u hate me.' When did anger become hate so quickly.
I promise I'll update soon, but I just wanted you guys to know that.
And I changed the information on my author's page. I don't know if you've read it, but if you're taking the time to read this, please do. Not a lot of people understand me, and I wrote my whole life which will make you guys understand my life a little bit.
Oh yeah. And I have a xanga too. I write every two days, or every day if I'm in the house. It basically is how I feel everyday and what I've been doing. I didn't know if it would work on the page with my info, so i'll put it here.Take a look at it sometime!
And once again, i'm sorry that I did'nt post a chapter.
Love always and forever more,
Rampaging Sorrow
P.S.
It's www. xanga. com / skin . asp ? user shake u up and pop the three 7. Just take out the spaces.