Still Just Way Too Much
Chapter 2: Quick Decisions
By: Can't Stand The Heat
"Why are you here?" I asked.
"Why, to take you to work of course."
"I'm a big girl, and I think I can take care of myself."
"I know that, it's just that… Please come with me. It'll make me feel better." I was confused, but I decided to go along with it.
"Ok, fine." I said, then jumped in the passenger seat, and slammed the door. I mentally laughed.
"Jude! What have I told you about slamming the door to my car?"
"That you are obsessed with an inanimate object that you love above everything." 'Not everything,' Tommy thought, as he thought of the girl, no, woman beside him, no girl, no woman, never mind…
"Hello? Earth to Tommy? We were planning on going to work in less than eternity right?"
"Oh, sorry." He said then began to drive away. While on the road to G-Major, Tommy said, "Jude, we have to talk." He focused his eyes on the road, and he had his steering wheel in a death grip.
"Yea, I know… Tommy I'm sorry. I should've listened to you, but I couldn't and I still can't. I'm sorry; it's all like a dream. But… I love you too. I'm just not ready to accept the fact that you love me." He pulled over to the side of the road, and stopped the car.
"Will this help?" He said then leaned over and grabbed my face and kissed me. He gently kissed me until I gasped as he bit my lower lip, and he pushed his tongue inside my mouth, that's when things began to get heated.
Then his hand tugged at the bottom of my shirt, and his other hand snaked up my shirt. He began to kiss my neck, and I stroked his hair. (A/N: Come on people what did you think I was going to write? Get your minds outta the gutter…) I pulled his head back up for another kiss, when 1 coherent thought went through my head. I stopped him.
"Tommy?" He looked up at me through half-open eyes, and they were glazed over with lust, and something else… His mouth was hanging open, and his face was a little flushed.
"Hm?"
"We can't do this."
"Why?" He went back to kissing my neck.
"Tommmmmmmy…" He stops. "Look we can't do this because I'm not ready yet. We can't. I need time to think about you, us, and my feelings. I just need time." He began to think after that. He pulled away from me, and started the car again.
It was silent the rest of the way. It gave me time to think, and Tommy to start to regret his actions. When we got to there, we both went directly to the studio. When we finished recording my new song, I went to get lunch down the street.
Tommy was in the studio with a guitar in his hands. He absent-mindedly began to strum a tune, and he sang what he was feeling.
Girl can't you see,
That this is meant to be
It was always meant to be us,
For it was only you that I could trust…
Hold my hand,
Remember all the good times we had,
Hold my hand,
And remember how glad,
We were together,
Just hold my hand and remember,
Do you remember what hurt the most,
Before we were ever close to home,
Was remembering that I got so close,
But then I let you go,
You slipped through my fingers,
But that was so long ago,
Soooo long ago,
Will you please remember how glad you were?
When you held my hand…
Remember the rain,
Falling down from the sky,
Remember how calm we were,
When we were soaring high,
Please don't cry,
Remember how we passed it by,
When we soaring so high…
Hold my hand,
Remember all the good times we had,
Hold my hand,
And remember how glad,
We were together,
Just hold my hand and remember,
Do you remember what hurt the most,
Before we were ever close to home,
Was remembering that I got so close,
But I let you go,
You slipped through my fingers,
But that was so long ago,
Soooo long ago,
Will you please remember how glad…
You were when you held my hand…
Tonight's the night,
We'll find each other again,
We'll walk away and never look back…
Just don't let go of my hand…
By the time he was done with his song, I had just walked through the door. I picked up a bag, and mouthed, "Lunch." He came in and grabbed a piece of paper, and wrote some words and notes on it.
"What did you do when I was gone?"
"Hm, what?"
"Never mind." He grabbed his food and sat down and stared straight ahead. I sat down and was thinking. I wasn't really hungry, so I was just thinking. Why does every time he smiles, why do I melt? Why does he have that kind of power over me? I picked up my guitar and strummed a tune. I sang some words, and eventually got this.
You make me weak in the knees,
You opened my eyes and taught me to see,
Then you forgot about me,
And began this game of hide and seek.
Stealing home,
Winning the game,
Alighting my heart,
With a burning flame,
With one more smile,
Or one more touch,
It's all still,
Just way too much,
Slow down,
Wait for me to catch up,
Mellow out,
Walk don't strut.
Cuz I just got blown away,
Just the other day,
When you sped the other way,
Leaving me in your wake…
Stay back,
Keep me away from you,
You make me feel weak,
And that's the truth.
Run like you always do,
In the other direction,
But excuse me,
This needs correction.
Stealing home,
Winning the game,
Alighting my heart,
With a burning flame,
With one more smile,
Or one more touch,
It's all still,
Just way too much,
Slow down,
Wait for me to catch up,
Mellow out,
Walk don't strut.
Cuz I just got blown away,
Just the other day,
When you sped the other way,
Leaving me in your wake…
Runnin, Runnin,
Like you always do,
Runnin, Runnin,
It's only you…
But now I'm the one that's runnin,
I need to get set free,
Cuz you freaked me out,
When you got down on one knee…
Stealing home,
Winning the game,
Alighting my heart,
With a burning flame,
With one more smile,
Or one more touch,
It's all still,
Just way too much,
Slow down,
Wait for me to catch up,
Mellow out,
Walk don't strut.
Cuz I just got blown away,
Just the other day,
When you sped the other way,
Leaving me in your wake…
Runnin away,
Stop this game,
It's getting to hot,
And I can't stand the flame.
I'm burning away,
I can't stand the heat,
So get off your knee,
And on your feet.
Tommy had looked up when I said one knee, but it rhymed. I got out and walked to "The Alley." I stood there for what seemed the longest time. When I heard the door open, and out walked…
Him. He had followed me out here.
"Why?" Was all he said for about 5 minutes. Why what? "Jude… Who or what, inspired you to write that song?"
"I dunno…" I said, he turned on me.
"Jude, I need to know!" He looked frantic.
"Why?" Well, there's that question again.
"Because."
"Because why?"
"Because if that song was inspired by me then I know you love me." Wow. Shocker, that was unexpected. "Who?" I didn't want to answer, I wasn't ready to answer, but I did.
"You." I whispered, and at first I didn't think he had heard me, but then he spun towards me, and kissed me. I was too shocked at first to do anything, but then I melted. I couldn't help it. Things had been tense between us, but for this second, they melted away. Then he pulled away, and rested his forehead against mine.
"Jude… I love you." He said, and then he grabbed my hand, flashed me a grin, and dragged me towards his car. He opened the door and jumped in, and so did I.
"Where are we going?"
"It's a surprise." Was all he said, and then took off driving. I went to turn on music, when his hand stopped me.
"Jude, what is the first rule to my car?"
"Never touch anything in/out of your car. The music will be chosen by the driver, which is always you." Then I laughed. I stopped eventually.
When we got to the place we were going, it was a small blue cottage. It was pretty cool.
"Whoa, where are we?"
"This is my home."
"Snazzy." He grinned at me, and then dragged me to the door. He opened the door and pushed me inside. When he got the door closed, he pinned me against it, and he kissed me. I melted, and kissed him back. I moaned when he bit lightly on my lower lip. I felt him pull away, and I opened my eyes. He was pacing now.
"What's wrong Tommy?"
"Jude, you're 16!"
I rolled my eyes. "Tommy you can't keep going back to that. One day, I won't be 16, what's your excuse going to be then?"
"I'm your producer."
"So? We'll be careful."
"We could both lose our jobs. It is a great risk to both of our work."
"I'm willing to take the risk."
"Jude, I can't" I saw red.
"You know what Quincy, you're a coward. You run away from your feelings, and you lie to yourself and to the people who love you. You should be ashamed, you coward."
I was so angry, that I didn't mean half of the words I had just said. Then I saw him stalk towards me with an intense anger in his eyes. My anger turned to fear, and I backed away, but my back hit a wall. I gulped. He grabbed my shoulders and bellowed, "I AM NOT A COWARD!" And then he kissed me, hard. After that he proceeded to make love to me, brutally. It was my first time, and it hurt like hell, but I'd always remember it. I fell asleep next to the man I loved. It was a good sleep, and I could sleep forever. But unfortunately there is a world out there, but I didn't want to be there the next morning.
Too late…
End Chapter 2