Part Two: Just Tonight…(Jimmy Eat World)

Ashley

It took Ashley three hours to get up the nerve to go to the party. Just by going there and knowing what she did about the other brunette's feelings towards her felt like cheating on her girlfriend. So, once she decided that Madison would most likely be harmless enough, she changed her clothes about a dozen times and left.
She walked in the door around 10:45 and immediately started scanning the crowd for hidden traps and/or an ambush. Instead, she turned to see the brunette cheerleader sauntering over towards her with a plastic cup in her hand.
At that moment, Ashley was ready to haul ass out of there if the need arose. It didn't as the brunette offered the plastic cup of miscellaneous forms of alcohol to the younger girl.
Ashley looks suspiciously at the beverage. "Happy 18th," she murmurs as she sniffs the drink and takes a tentative sip to make sure it isn't spiked with arsenic.
With her hungry grin softening, Madison tilts her head to the side. "Glad you could make it," she replies sincerely, taking a cursory glance behind the shorter girl. "Where's your other half?" She inquires in regards to Spencer.
"Spending quality time with her family," Ashley rolls her eyes, irritated about not being able to spend time with her girlfriend due to the other girl's plans. Despite her initial awkwardness, she feels herself begin to relax as the heavily spiked drink begins to do its thing.
"I still can't believe you two are actually a couple now," the cheerleader shakes her head, still in awe at the news.
"Why's that?" Ashley growls as she jumps on the defensive side.
"I was just saying…" Madison responds as she places her hands in the air to placate the shorter girl. "So I guess that means that you are no longer carrying a torch for me," she states in a questioning tone with a slight frown.
Ashley allows herself to calm down and soften up at the borderline vulnerability of the older girl. "You sound disappointed," she notes.
"Maybe I am," Madison shrugs.

I was scared but once I thought about, I let it go
Everything she said to me I guess I outta know
We're all tired of talk when it comes to shove
Put up, put out or stay at home

Moments later, Ashley finds herself being led to the stairs by Madison, who is assuring her that Spencer will never know what happens between them tonight. After a minor tiff in the hallway, the two get to the bedroom.
Feeling the weight of what is about to happen settle over her, her doubts begin to surface. However, before she can fully process the consequences, a pair of soft lips have latched themselves onto hers. All thought processes stop as she begins to melt into the other girl's kisses and moans and sighs.
Before she becomes to complacent in their current standing position, Madison is pushing her onto the bed and climbing on top of her to straddle her waist. Then, the older girl continues her assault on the younger girl's senses by sucking on her throat and neck and nibbling on her ears.
Ashley moans and combs her fingers through silky dark locks, immediately comparing it to her girlfriend's. As the guilt drops on her like a ton of bricks, Ashley gently, but forcefully, pushes other girl away. "I can't do this to Spencer," she says regretfully.
Madison is clearly frustrated. "You aren't doing anything to her," she sighs unconvincingly. "You only live once, Davies, and I know that we both want this," she says softly, gently cupping the face of the girl underneath her.

We'll never be the same
Never feel this way again
I'd give you anything but you want pain.
A little water please
I taste you all over my teeth
Never again
Just tonight?
Ok

Ashley rests her hand on top of Madison's, ready to protest. However, her heart catches in her throat as she sees sorrow etched in the older girl's eyes.
"Come on Ash. It's just us tonight. You and me and no one else. We can just pretend that we're the only two people in the world tonight," Madison pleads softly, her voice cracking slightly in the end.
Ashley closes her eyes as she lets the words sink in. "I don't know if I'd be able to stop after tonight," she confesses quietly.
"Then wouldn't it be better you know now rather than wait until after you and Spencer have been together a while?" Madison reasons.
Ashley can't deny the truth in that. However, that doesn't make her any less afraid. Her love for Spencer is as undeniable as the moon and the stars, but the way she feels right now, in this moment, can't be denied either.
"Just tonight," Ashley croaks out, needing this moment to go on. "No more, no less. Just tonight," she adds.
Madison nods, the whole situation being incredibly surreal. The finality of the other girl's words make her more want Ashley all the more. "Just tonight," she whispers in affirmation as she dips her head back down and their lips make contact once again.

All at once the music stopped, the feeling went away
An ugly picture, me and you, but nothing I can change
You know what happens with the lights back on
The less you know the more you want
(And you want, you want)

Hours later, Ashley is completely naked and covered in a thin sheet of sweat, the heat of her body causing it to rapidly cool her flushed skin. She is staring blankly at the ceiling of Madison's room and going over every detail of their time together.
Ashley had made it clear earlier that she would not be there when the cheerleader woke up the next morning. It was for that reason that Madison had only just gotten to sleep moments ago: she wanted to savor the moment as best she could for as long as she could.
The bed creaked slightly as Ashley rolled out of it. She turned quickly to make sure she didn't wake the older girl. Satisfied that she was still unconscious, she gathered her clothing and made her way to the bathroom. All she wanted to do was wash every trace of Madison off of her body, she was going to see Spencer in an hour.
Ashley turned the heat all the way up and stepped into the scalding water and let it beat against her sensitive skin. She tried not to think about what happened, but she couldn't help it as she sank to the floor of the tub, wrapped her arms around her legs and began rocking back and forth. Tears began to sting her eyes only to be immediately washed away.
Madison woke up to the sound of the front door of her house being slammed shut. She looked over to where the other girl was sleeping beside her only to find it cold and empty aside from a small yellow post-it. In familiar handwriting is simply said: "Last night was all it will ever be. -A".
She felt tears stinging her eyes because she knew from the start that there would be no happy ending. It didn't make it hurt any less.

We'll never be the same
Never feel this way again
I'd give you anything but you want pain.
A little water please
I taste you all over my teeth
Never again
Just tonight?
Ok

Ashley walked up the steps to her girlfriend's house only to feel her phone vibrate to let her know she had a new text. It was from Madison and it read: "Thanx 4 comin 2 my party". She felt like she was going to be sick, especially when a bright-eyed Spencer opened the door with her warm smile.
"Morning," the blonde greeted her girlfriend as she leaned in for a chaste kiss, only to have Ashley pull away. "What's wrong?" The younger girl asked dejectedly.
Ashley felt dirty. "I just need some water to wash away this taste in my mouth," she responds, not lying.
"Yeah, of course," Spencer smiles once again, leading the brunette into the kitchen. "Oh, I almost forgot to ask. How was the party last night?" She inquires as she pulls a glass down from the cabinet.
Ashley feels her heart shatter into a thousand tiny pieces and all she can sat it, "Fine."

We'll never be the same
Never feel this way again
I'd give you anything but you want pain.
A little water please
I taste you all over my teeth
Never again
Just tonight?
Ok

END