I can't believe it. I just can't believe that after all these years of not knowing whether he was dead or alive, I've seen him.
It was like he'd fallen off the face of the earth, and I had fallen into the arms of another man. And now here he was, alive and safe.
I couldn't see anyone else with him, so I assumed he'd come alone. That's good.
Who am I kidding? Even after all of these years I, Sarah Gardener, am still in love with my old boyfriend.
Steven could see how I feel. I know he could. I've never been able to hide how I feel from Steven that's what makes him such a great boyfriend. Made him such a great boyfriend. I think he knew that I was ready to dump him for Daniel, but my dearest Steven is bigger than that, and willing to take the initiative.
Pulling me to the side of the funeral party, he gently asks me the one question that effectively ends our relationship; "It was never me, was it?"
I looked down, ashamed at how I had used him. We were supposed to be getting married in less than two months! I was supposed to become the happy Mrs. Steven Rayner, but not any longer. And he knew it, too.
All along Steven had been more than willing to put work aside at nights to come home and be my boyfriend and my lover. Never once had he forgotten our anniversary. But I think we both always knew. If Daniel had ever come back, even as he had just returned, I would once again become 'Daniel's girl', and cease to be Steven's.
Somewhere in the back of my mind, I've always known that I was never Steven's girl. I'd always been Daniel's girl; Steven was just there when I needed him. Like a good friend.
Am I sorry I used the man now letting me go? Extremely. Steven was one of the best things that ever happened to me.
Am I sad that I'm now returning to the arms of my first lover, Daniel Jackson? No, I loved Daniel more than life itself.
Then there's this voice, in the back of my head, telling me that I'll never get to feel safe and secure in Daniel's arms again. It was like my heart already knew the outcome of the events that were to follow.
Even as I was returning to the man that I've always loved, I'm leaving again.
I was no longer Sarah Gardener, out to fix a wrong done many years ago. Now, I was Osiris, out to get off this god-forsaken planet and find out where my queen was. Now, I was out to kill all who got in my way finding Isis. And as a host, she would have Daniel Jackson. Then we could be together forever.