Jessie woke up with a smile. It had been a week since she had made up with her dad and she couldn't feel better. Not only that but things with Sylvain were progressing greatly. They hadn't done anything more than share a few hugs and he had kissed her forehead a few times but that was it. Jessie was confused about things though, she decided to talk it out with someone. She picked up the phone and dialed a familiar number. "Hey Trish" Jessie said once she had picked up "since you don't have anything to do at the taping tonight will you come over, I need some advice. Also could you bring Lexi, the more advice the better".
"Sure honey" Trish told her "I'll send the kids with John and Randy too, they can watch 'em since they have that tag match and that's it". Jessie agreed and she hung up the phone. After that she got some clothes out of her suitcase and went to shower and change. As she showered her mind went back to John. After they had made up Jessie had made it up to him for getting him put in brutal matches. She had convinced Stephanie to give him tag matches with Randy, their opponents had been The Heart Throbs and The Dicks. John and Randy were in the midst of a face tag team that had a gimmick of 'dealing with all the ones who betray the people'.
Jessie had just finished tying her shoe when there was a knock on the door, she opened it expecting to find Trish but found Sylvain instead "hello cherie" Sylvain said "I just wanted to see if you wanted a ride to the arena today".
"Oh umm" Jessie said "I'm not going today. Stephanie gave me the day and well night off and I'm staying here with Trish and Lexi".
"Oh" Sylvain looked a bit sad "ok".
"Do you want to come by my room after the show?" Jessie found herself asking "we could order room service and watch movies".
"I'd like that" Sylvain smiled a bright smile, making his dimples come out. Jessie felt herself heat up as she admired how gorgeous he was. "I have to go now, cherie" Sylvain told her "I shall meet you here tonight though". With that Sylvain took her hand in his and kissed her knuckles before walking down the hall. Jessie stood there, leaning against the doorway, lost in thought about Sylvain. She couldn't help the goofy smile that was playing on her lips.
"Someone's in love" a voice sang out, making Jessie snap out of her thoughts. She looked and saw Trish and Lexi standing there, smiling widely at her. She rolled her eyes and walked back into her room, leaving the two girls to follow her.
"Sylvain and Jessie sitting in a tree" Trish sang out.
"K-i-s-s-i-n-g" Lexi continued with a smile.
"Lord you two act about as mature as your kids" Jessie said, smiling so they knew she was joking.
"We watch Spongebob and Rugrats all day" Trish said to her "what do you expect?"
"Not much" Jessie said, smirking.
"So let's talk" Trish said, flopping down on the bed "after all that IS what you called us for".
"I'm so confused" Jessie said, flopping down on her bed dramatically "I need help".
"No shit" Alexis said bluntly, sitting on the floor by the bed "ok answer a few questions. Do you think Sylvain's attractive?"
"Yes" Jessie told her.
"Do you want to spend time with him?" Trish asked.
"Yes".
"Do you want to open up about your life to him?" Lexi took a chance in asking, knowing that it was a big thing with Jessie.
"I..." Jessie didn't know what to say "yes" she shocked herself with her answer. She had shut her brain off and answered with her heart.
"Wow" Trish and Lexi both looked stunned. "Honey hold on to him" Trish told her "I think he's the one for you".
"Damn Trish" Jessie said "no its a looooong time before I start thinking about that. I wanna tackle other things first".
"I know" Trish said "but if you are thinking about opening up to him...honey that's a big step".
"I know" Jessie said "believe me, I know".
"Do you know when you're gonna do it?" Lexi asked her.
"Tonight" again Jessie was surprised by her answer but she saw the logic in it. "I mean if I'm going to get anywhere in my relationship with him then I need to come clean about my past. I mean the way I look at it, I can't go forward until I do".
"Honey are you sure?" Trish asked her "I mean you don't have to do this".
"Trish" Jessie said "he's already coming over here to hang out after the show and I mean, yeah it'll be tough, but I need to do it and the sooner the better".
"Girl you got balls" Lexi told her as she laid back on the floor, making Trish and Jessie bust out laughing at her.
"Are we gonna stay in all day?" Trish asked "I mean we're in Los Angeles we should so go shopping. I hear Rodeo Drive calling my name".
"I have no money" Jessie said "I haven't gotten my first pay check yet".
Trish took something out of her pocket and showed them to Jessie "I took John's credit cards when he was showering this morning".
"Trish" Jessie exclaimed "dad's gonna hurt you".
"No" Trish scoffed "I do it all the time, all he does is roll his eyes and tell me he's gonna be living in a box by the time he hits 40". Lexi and Jessie laughed, knowing that John would say something like that.
"So what are you gonna wear tonight for your get together with Sylvain?" Trish asked Jessie as they looked through racks of outfits.
"To her hotel room?" Alexis asked, incredulously.
"Well yes" Trish said "she wants to knock his socks off".
"He fell in love with her, not what she wears" Alexis argued.
"Don't I get a say in this?" Jessie asked them.
"No honey" Trish said "there's nothing to get a say in all we're doing is getting you an outfit that will knock Sylvain's socks off".
"I still say she needs to just have whatever on" Alexis mumbled.
"How about this?" Trish asked as she held up a black top with Sexy written in gold cursive on the chest.
"It..." Jessie said "doesn't really look like me to tell you the truth".
"Well what would you pick out?" Alexis asked, trying to let Jessie have a say in the matter since Trish was insisting she get a new outfit. Jessie looked through the clothes and saw a silk blue shirt that showed a bit of cleavage. She held it up and picked out a pair of black jeans to match it.
"That's ok" Trish said "I guess".
"Well its what I'm getting" Jessie insisted "I like it, plus Sylvain's favorite color is blue".
"Shit" Alexis said, looking at her watch "the shows almost over, we need to book it back to the hotel so we can get there before the guys". With that Jessie paid for her one outfit, Alexis paid for her 2 outfits and shirt she thought would look good on Randy, and Trish paid for her 14 outfits and 4 shirts and a pair of pants she thought John would look sexy in.
"God" Jessie said, flopping back on her bed after her shopping trip "I'm never doing that again...at least in heels". She forced herself to get up off of the bed and go to the bathroom to change into her outfit. She did with a smile, it was comfortable enough to sit around in yet sexy enough to get Sylvain's attention. She was just touching up her makeup when there was a knock on the door. She nervously went to go answer it.
"Bonjour mon amour" Sylvain said, standing on the other side. He was wearing jeans and a grey sleeveless turtleneck sweater, Jessie was shocked to see glasses perched on his nose but decided that they made him look sexy. "I hope you don't mind the glasses" he said as he stepped into the room "but I was too tired to put in my contacts".
"That's ok" Jessie said "I didn't know you wore glasses".
"Oui" Sylvain told her as he sat on the couch "I only need them when I drive and read though".
"I've never saw you with them when you read your script" Jessie observed.
"That is because my opponent is usually very chatty and tells me all about what is planned" Sylvain said with a deep chuckle, making Jessie laugh too as she sat by him on the couch. She was so close to him that she could smell his cologne. It was light yet intoxicating to her senses.
"You could always ask me too" Jessie giggled "Stephanie kinda put me in charge of all of yours and dad's matches, she said I'd do what's best for you and she trusts me completely. Her mistake" Sylvain laughed at Jessie's joke, making her light up at the fact that she could make him laugh.
"My own personal writer" Sylvain mused "I think I like that".
"Unless I put you in a match against Show on the 'net" Jessie joked again making Sylvain laugh.
"Cherie" he said, taking her hand in his "surely you would not be so mean. Especially to someone as hot and sexy and who can speak French, the language of love".
"And I thought Randy was cocky" Jessie said, smiling so Sylvain knew she was joking.
"Actually I heard you say it to Alexis the other day" Sylvain told her, making Jessie blush a deep red.
"Are you hungry?" Jessie asked, trying to get the attention off of her. "I could use some food, I haven't eaten all day".
"Mon coeur" Sylvain gently chided "that is not good".
"I know which is why I'm getting food" Jessie said to him as she moved over to the phone. "What do you want?"
"Roast beef on rye bread, fries and a root beer" Sylvain told her.
"Aren't you afraid of getting fat?" Jessie joked.
"Non" Sylvain said with a laugh "I will just work extra hard in the gym the next time I go".
"Man" Jessie mused, what she thought was in her mind "I may have to go with you to see that image" it wasn't until Sylvain laughed out loud that she realized she had said it out loud. She blushed crimson as she dialed the number for the front desk and ordered their food. Once that was done she went back and sat beside Sylvain. "Is it ok if I tell you something tonight?" Jessie asked Sylvain tentatively.
"Is this about your past?" he asked her, putting an arm around her shoulder when he saw how uneasy she was. Jessie nodded, a lump in her throat keeping her from speaking. "Then I shall be there to listen to you".
"Thank you" a knock on the door interrupted them, Jessie got up and let the usher in with the cart when he settled it in the room she walked to the door and shut it after he left.
"Looks good" Sylvain said as Jessie took the tops off of the dishes and handed him his food. They sat in silence as they ate, just enjoying each other's company. Jessie's thoughts were preoccupied though as she was trying to work out in her mind what she was going to tell him.
"Want to talk now?" Sylvain asked as they finished their food. Jessie nodded. She took their plates and put them back on the cart and put the cart outside the door. After that was taken care of she went back and sat beside Sylvain, close enough that she could feel his presence.
"Growing up I didn't have the best homelife. In fact it pretty much sucked. My mom started off being very neglectful. I did everything for myself basically from the time I was about 3. She'd go out on dates and all and bring the guys back to the apartment when she wanted to have a good time" there was no mistaking the hurt in Jessie's voice when she spoke "then when I was about 9 she got with Todd. He was a druggie. He was really creepy and I'd be left alone at night with him. He never did anything to me though. Then when I was 12 he OD'ed on cocaine or something I dunno. I felt relieved and happy but things got bad then. Mom started hitting me. She'd hit me for no reason at all and not just hitting really. She'd do things like burn me with a cigarette and lock me in my room for days. I went through hell with that contemptable slut. I used to defend her when I was younger, used to say that I wanted to remember the good times and not focus on the bad but fuck that. She was a bitch, a bitch in pain from losing the love of her life but a bitch none the less. When I turned 14 she died. We were in a car wreck, a drunk driver in a big rig hit us. After that I went with a social worker to collect my things and I happened upon my birth certificate. I saw that John was my dad".
"Mon dieu" Sylvain interjected "I thought he had always been a part of your life".
"No" Jessie laughed "I wish. Anyway when I first went to live with him it was more like living with him and Randy. They were always together, I kind of miss that in a way" Jessie looked reminiscent for a second before continuing on with her story "the next big thing was meeting Josh. I met him when I was at the mall alone one night while John and Randy went to the gym to work out. He was so hot, I mean for a 15 year old that is. He called me beautiful and made me swoon. Then he groped me out back. For some idiotic reason though the next day I called him when we went back to the mall. He had given me his card so I could. Well that was the mistake to end all mistakes. He ended up raping me in the bathroom" Sylvain gasped in horrified shock but Jessie brushed it off, she wanted to get through everything. "Fast forward to hmmmm right after my birthday I guess. I was at home having father daughter time with daddy. I got up and a shot rang out. It hit me in the back and put me in a coma for a few weeks".
"Josh?" Sylvain asked, completely engrossed and horrified at the story.
"Yeah" Jessie said "when I woke up I had amnesia. I don't remember any of those few days but from what I was told I was nothing like myself. Anyway I came out of it but the damage was done. Also I was in a wheelchair for God knows how long then I progressed to a cane from there. After that was the trial. It was all done in one day but it felt like a week. It sucked basically. The lawyer hired for Josh was a jerk. He made Randy and Mark seem like control freaks or perverts and he made dad seem like a neglectful parent. Which is so far from the truth let me tell you. Oh and I completely forgot about my miscarriage and attempted suicide". Sylvain spit out the sip of soda he had been drinking.
"Jessie!" he exclaimed "you had a miscarriage? You tried to kill yourself?"
"Yeah" Jessie looked a bit down for the first time since she had began her story. "I uh I became pregnant when Josh raped me and I didn't know it. I got into this big fight with dad over my mom and all and went to stay with Randy in St. Louis at his house. I woke up one morning and he wasn't there, I went downstairs and bent to get some juice out of the fridge and this pain ripped through me. I blacked out. The next thing I know I'm in the hospital being told that I had a miscarriage. After that, that night I couldn't sleep and I slipped out of the house and walked a long way. I found myself at a bridge and started thinking about certain things and all. I was ready to jump I swear I would have if dad and Randy hadn't shown up. Randy said some beautiful things to me that night. He talked about how my baby was in God's arms and how it was safe and all. Dad doesn't know this but I heard he and Randy talking not long after that day, my baby was a little girl. After that I had a few more doctors appointments and all and at one I was told that I would never be able to have a baby" Jessie teared up at this and Sylvain pulled her to him, not being able to hide his own tears. John was right earlier when he said that it would be an intense experience that he'd need to be prepared for. "That's pretty much it" Jessie said looking up at Sylvain. "That's my shitty life".
"I dunno what to say" Sylvain said, looking taken aback by the whole thing "when I sat down with you to have this talk I never expected things to be this bad. I mean God I don't know what I mean" Sylvain pulled Jessie to him and hugged her tightly to show her how he felt about her.
"It's not something you really need to comment on" Jessie said, trying to make him feel better "I mean just knowing you know is enough, and knowing you care also".
"Jessie" Sylvain said getting her attention. Instead of saying anything though he gently brought his lips to hers in a kiss that Jessie thought was perfect. It wasn't the first kiss she had ever had but it was the best. Sylvain was so gentle and so tender. After a few seconds he pulled back. "I need to go. There's a show tomorrow" he looked at his watch and saw that it was nearing 3 am.
"Ok" Jessie said "will you tuck me in?" Sylvain laughed lightly and picked her up, taking her to the bed and tucking her in. He kissed her again and wished her a good night, shutting the light off as he left.
After laying there for a little while Jessie began to have flashbacks of everything she had been through, she was shocked because she had gotten through telling Sylvain about it but it was now getting to her. She started crying, almost getting panicky. She got up out of bed and went in search for John's room. She finally found it even though it was difficult through her tears. She knocked quietly on the door, not wanting to wake up Kevin. Trish came to the door looking like a zombie "Jessie" she said, seeing the state she was in. "Honey what's the matter?"
"Daddy" Jessie managed to gasp out through her tears. Trish pulled her just inside the door then disappeared to get John. He came out seconds later, if Jessie wasn't so upset she would have laughed at the fact that he was wearing Spongebob loungepants and Scooby Doo house shoes.
"Babygirl" he said, going up to her and wrapping his arms around her, letting her cry on his shoulders "what's wrong, huh?". He guided her over to the couch area "babygirl, come on tell daddy what's the matter".
"I...I told Sylvain about...about my past" Jessie said "I thought things were...ok but I guess I wasn't as over it as I thought I was...I just needed my daddy" Jessie started sobbing again and John pulled her into his lap and snuggled her close to him trying to calm her down.
"Shhh" he started rubbing her back "it's ok, it's ok. I'm here, I'm right here. Let's lay down here on the couch and you can sleep on daddy's chest ok" John pulled them to a laying down position, Jessie laying ontop of him. Trish came back and laid a blanket ontop of them. Slowly but surely Jessie started to calm down. Finally she fell asleep, her head propped against John's shoulder. He kissed her forehead and joined her in slumber.