Chapter 2:
Kaoru stared at Aoshi without knowing what to say. She knew that he was right about her feelings towards him, but still, she couldn't force her self to admit it to him or to herself. She took a long breath and when she found her voice she tried to avoid answering him "Aoshi sama"
"Since when?" he asked sarcastically "since when did I become Aoshi SAMA?"
"Since now" she challenged
He laughed and shook his head "you are a strange woman Kaoru" his serious features returned "now please answer my question"
Kaoru couldn't face him and instead, she stared at her hands "I'm not going to answer that"
"And I'm not letting it go until you do" he demanded.
He loved this woman so much. Because of her he started to open up to people. He felt that he could start show his emotions and feel free to act the way he felt. She was the one to help him do that, but she was also the one who hurt his feelings. She put Kenshin before them both and chose him over them. He didn't understand why she did that and he didn't care. All he wanted now was to know how she really felt about him..he wanted to hear her tell him that she loves him..he knew that she does but he wanted to hear her saying the words and he wasn't about to give up before getting what he wanted.
"Please don't" Kaoru stood up slowly "I can't answer you Aoshi..it's just too hard"
He looked at her eyes from his place at the floor "why can't you? I don't mean to embarrass you Kaoru..but you seemed to be enjoying the kiss just as much as I did" he continued even when he saw the red color that spread over her beautiful face "you also wanted it…just like you did the first time we kissed"
Kaoru shook her head "I..I..umm..Aoshi..the two kisses shouldn't have happened..they were both a big mist.."
"DON'T" Aoshi said sharply "I won't allow you to call the most beautiful thing that I ever did a mistake" he stood up and walked over to her "that kiss was the thing that made me remember just how much we were close to each other back then…how much we had fun and how much you cared about me"
"Aoshi" Kaoru whispered
"Do you remember that time?"
'How can I ever forget??' her mind screamed 'it was the most wonderful time I ever had'
"Yes I do" she answered with a shaky voice as tears started running down her cheeks "but we have to forget about it. Everything that happened then was wrong. What is happening RIGHT NOW is wrong too. I shouldn't be here. I should just go and leave to Tokyo tomorrow morning"
"You mean runaway" he corrected softly
"No I don't. Aoshi you have to understand..it's not easy to…"
"For God's sake Kaoru would you stop that?" he interrupted her "you make it seem like something impossible…you are talking just as if we are planning for a war against the world or something" he held he chin between his fingers and lifted her head so that her eyes met his "I'm talking about a simple thing..a man and a woman in love. All they need to do is confess their feelings to each other and to the world around them. Then get married and live their life happily. Why do you find it such a hard thing?"
She didn't know what to say. He was right. Every single word that came out of his mouth was right, but for some reason she couldn't just think of it the same way he did. What she didn't want to admit is that she was scared. She was scared that she may get her heart broken by making a bad choice the way she did before. She once thought that she was in love with Kenshin and she didn't even try to hide her feelings from any of her friends. And what was the result of that? When Aoshi visited them a year ago she had a crush on him. And although Aoshi had the same feelings for her, she rejected him because she thought that Kenshin somehow returned her feelings.And so she didn't want to break his heart. She didn't know then that Kenshin would be the one to break hers!!
She and Aoshi agreed to never mention what they shared that year and they said goodbye to each other just as if nothing ever happened between them.
Now, as she stands in front of him, she is scared to reveal her feelings because she doesn't want to hurt him anymore or to hurt herself more than she already did. She sighed, how is she ever going to tell him that?
"It's a hard thing because if I say that I love you then I'll be lying. And I actually can't do that because.." she started to talk as a little girl who didn't know what excuses she'll make out to defend what she did. That actually earned her a soft smile from Aoshi who for the second time pulled her to him, gently this time "shut up Kaoru" he whispered "just shut up for a moment"
The kiss was so gentle and loving that Kaoru felt that her knees won't be able to hold her anymore
"Aoshi" she whispered before kissing him back. After a moment, Aoshi pulled back and looked at her. Her face was flushed and her eyes were teary. He loved her so much and he couldn't hide it anymore. He pulled her to hug and caressed her hair as she started crying really hard this time.
"I can't take it anymore. I just don't know what I'm going to do"
"Shh. It's ok Kaoru. Just cry and you'll feel better"
She pulled back and smiled weakly "I really better go now"
"You are not going back to Tokyo so soon. Are you?"
"I don't think so. If I go then you'll think that you are right and that I'm running away. I can't let you win so easily now can I?"
"No you can't . If you do then you won't be my Kaoru"
The blush rose to her face again "I'll be going now..um..good night" and she walked as fast as she could to the door before she was pulled by her ponytail "OUCH"
Aoshi was holding the end of her ponytail in his hand "where do you think you are going alone at this time of the night?" he pulled her back "wait for a second and I'll walk you home"
"I told you I can take care of my self" the sparks came back to her eyes
"And I said you aren't going any where without me at this time of the night?" his eyes warned her not to add another word and so she didn't.
After a minute they were both heading to Kenshin's house without saying a word to each other. But as they walked, Kaoru found her self walking slowly closer to him and she felt his hand hold hers. She blushed but she didn't pull her hand away. Rather, they continued their walk in peace.
"We have a chance Kaoru. Believe me we do"
"I can't say that I agree with that Aoshi"
Aoshi just smile 'oh Kaoru, you just don't know that you have no choice at all. You are mine whether you like it or not and that's final' he said to himself as they continued their walk.
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kawaii sakura-chan: thank you very much and I'm glad that you liked this story.
WhiteRabbit5 : hey girl :) thanks for your offer but you know, i need to try to do thid on my own first. but I'm happy to know where i can go for help when i need it. I was really happy when i read your offer and I think that I'll need it very soon. LOL. but I think I'll have to try and get things better by myself first. thanks again
Orchidaceae: I'm so glad to know that you liked the story and I'm trying to do my best, but I'm a little busy now so i hope you'll all be alittle patient with me.
thank you all for your reviews..it really gave me apush forward!
Kaoru stared at Aoshi without knowing what to say. She knew that he was right about her feelings towards him, but still, she couldn't force her self to admit it to him or to herself. She took a long breath and when she found her voice she tried to avoid answering him "Aoshi sama"
"Since when?" he asked sarcastically "since when did I become Aoshi SAMA?"
"Since now" she challenged
He laughed and shook his head "you are a strange woman Kaoru" his serious features returned "now please answer my question"
Kaoru couldn't face him and instead, she stared at her hands "I'm not going to answer that"
"And I'm not letting it go until you do" he demanded.
He loved this woman so much. Because of her he started to open up to people. He felt that he could start show his emotions and feel free to act the way he felt. She was the one to help him do that, but she was also the one who hurt his feelings. She put Kenshin before them both and chose him over them. He didn't understand why she did that and he didn't care. All he wanted now was to know how she really felt about him..he wanted to hear her tell him that she loves him..he knew that she does but he wanted to hear her saying the words and he wasn't about to give up before getting what he wanted.
"Please don't" Kaoru stood up slowly "I can't answer you Aoshi..it's just too hard"
He looked at her eyes from his place at the floor "why can't you? I don't mean to embarrass you Kaoru..but you seemed to be enjoying the kiss just as much as I did" he continued even when he saw the red color that spread over her beautiful face "you also wanted it…just like you did the first time we kissed"
Kaoru shook her head "I..I..umm..Aoshi..the two kisses shouldn't have happened..they were both a big mist.."
"DON'T" Aoshi said sharply "I won't allow you to call the most beautiful thing that I ever did a mistake" he stood up and walked over to her "that kiss was the thing that made me remember just how much we were close to each other back then…how much we had fun and how much you cared about me"
"Aoshi" Kaoru whispered
"Do you remember that time?"
'How can I ever forget??' her mind screamed 'it was the most wonderful time I ever had'
"Yes I do" she answered with a shaky voice as tears started running down her cheeks "but we have to forget about it. Everything that happened then was wrong. What is happening RIGHT NOW is wrong too. I shouldn't be here. I should just go and leave to Tokyo tomorrow morning"
"You mean runaway" he corrected softly
"No I don't. Aoshi you have to understand..it's not easy to…"
"For God's sake Kaoru would you stop that?" he interrupted her "you make it seem like something impossible…you are talking just as if we are planning for a war against the world or something" he held he chin between his fingers and lifted her head so that her eyes met his "I'm talking about a simple thing..a man and a woman in love. All they need to do is confess their feelings to each other and to the world around them. Then get married and live their life happily. Why do you find it such a hard thing?"
She didn't know what to say. He was right. Every single word that came out of his mouth was right, but for some reason she couldn't just think of it the same way he did. What she didn't want to admit is that she was scared. She was scared that she may get her heart broken by making a bad choice the way she did before. She once thought that she was in love with Kenshin and she didn't even try to hide her feelings from any of her friends. And what was the result of that? When Aoshi visited them a year ago she had a crush on him. And although Aoshi had the same feelings for her, she rejected him because she thought that Kenshin somehow returned her feelings.And so she didn't want to break his heart. She didn't know then that Kenshin would be the one to break hers!!
She and Aoshi agreed to never mention what they shared that year and they said goodbye to each other just as if nothing ever happened between them.
Now, as she stands in front of him, she is scared to reveal her feelings because she doesn't want to hurt him anymore or to hurt herself more than she already did. She sighed, how is she ever going to tell him that?
"It's a hard thing because if I say that I love you then I'll be lying. And I actually can't do that because.." she started to talk as a little girl who didn't know what excuses she'll make out to defend what she did. That actually earned her a soft smile from Aoshi who for the second time pulled her to him, gently this time "shut up Kaoru" he whispered "just shut up for a moment"
The kiss was so gentle and loving that Kaoru felt that her knees won't be able to hold her anymore
"Aoshi" she whispered before kissing him back. After a moment, Aoshi pulled back and looked at her. Her face was flushed and her eyes were teary. He loved her so much and he couldn't hide it anymore. He pulled her to hug and caressed her hair as she started crying really hard this time.
"I can't take it anymore. I just don't know what I'm going to do"
"Shh. It's ok Kaoru. Just cry and you'll feel better"
She pulled back and smiled weakly "I really better go now"
"You are not going back to Tokyo so soon. Are you?"
"I don't think so. If I go then you'll think that you are right and that I'm running away. I can't let you win so easily now can I?"
"No you can't . If you do then you won't be my Kaoru"
The blush rose to her face again "I'll be going now..um..good night" and she walked as fast as she could to the door before she was pulled by her ponytail "OUCH"
Aoshi was holding the end of her ponytail in his hand "where do you think you are going alone at this time of the night?" he pulled her back "wait for a second and I'll walk you home"
"I told you I can take care of my self" the sparks came back to her eyes
"And I said you aren't going any where without me at this time of the night?" his eyes warned her not to add another word and so she didn't.
After a minute they were both heading to Kenshin's house without saying a word to each other. But as they walked, Kaoru found her self walking slowly closer to him and she felt his hand hold hers. She blushed but she didn't pull her hand away. Rather, they continued their walk in peace.
"We have a chance Kaoru. Believe me we do"
"I can't say that I agree with that Aoshi"
Aoshi just smile 'oh Kaoru, you just don't know that you have no choice at all. You are mine whether you like it or not and that's final' he said to himself as they continued their walk.
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kawaii sakura-chan: thank you very much and I'm glad that you liked this story.
WhiteRabbit5 : hey girl :) thanks for your offer but you know, i need to try to do thid on my own first. but I'm happy to know where i can go for help when i need it. I was really happy when i read your offer and I think that I'll need it very soon. LOL. but I think I'll have to try and get things better by myself first. thanks again
Orchidaceae: I'm so glad to know that you liked the story and I'm trying to do my best, but I'm a little busy now so i hope you'll all be alittle patient with me.
thank you all for your reviews..it really gave me apush forward!