Have you ever lost someone you really loved? Like, a parent or a grandparent. Maybe a sibling or a friend. It's really sad when they die all of a sudden like in a car or plane crash. Or even, if they kill them selves. But do you wanna know what I think sucks. I think dying slowly and painfully is a bad way to go. That way you know your going to die. Everybody does. You have to go through all the pain and sorrow. And people just don't treat you the same anymore. And the people you love have to see you suffer. At least when you die suddenly it doesn't hurt, as much anyway. But…having cancer hurts. I found out I had cancer when I was 13. I fought it and I'm now 17 and the doctors say that I probably wont be as lucky this time. So here I am watching the rain from my window knowing some day soon I'll be free like the rain.
"Hales…you feeling ok." Brooke said walking in the room.
Brooke James was my twin sister. I was older by 2 minutes. And over the years I was obviously stronger. So far I think she's taking it the hardest. I guess its because she's the only one that knows. Ha. I love her to death but I just want to be a normal teenager, for as long as I can you know?
"I'm fine Brooke." I said not moving still looking out the window as she came over and sat next to me on the ledge.
"Are you sure you want to tell them today. You know you don't have to." She said as she made me look up at her.
"Yeah, I think they all have a right to know. If it was one of them I would want to." I said standing up and walking out of the room.
Sunny days seem to hurt the most.
I wear the pain like a heavy coat.
I feel you everywhere I go.
I see your smile, I see your face,
I hear you laughin' in the rain.
I still can't believe you're gone.
"Hey you guys." Brooke said to our friends as we walked up to our booth in Karen's Café.
"Brooke, Hales. Is everything ok? You sounded weird on the phone." My boyfriend Nathan Scott said as I sat next to him.
"Yeah, everything's fine" Brooke said as she sat next to her boyfriend Lucas Scott. Nathan and Lucas were half brothers. They share a father but have a different mother. Besides Lucas and Nathan there was Jake Jagelski and Peyton Sawyer. Our other two best friends who were actually dating each other.
"Umm…no everything's not ok, Brooke. But there's nothing to worry about." I said standing up so I could look at them all.
"Haley? What's going on?" Peyton asked, looking worried.
"Umm…I have something to tell you guys. I've kept this a secret for to long."
"God Nate, did you knock Hales up." Lucas said as everyone but Brooke and me started laughing. When they noticed this they stopped.
"Haley, baby. What's wrong?"
"Nate, guys…. I umm…. You remember that summer when we were 13 and I went away for like half a year and we told everyone I was staying with my grandparents because I couldn't handle my parents anymore." I said as they all nodded and tears started running down Brookes cheeks, which didn't go unnoticed. "Well, that wasn't true. I was actually in a hospital in New York. I was umm… Guys I have…. cancer." I whispered the last part as they all sat there letting it all sink in.
"But you're going to be ok right?" Lucas said speaking first, as everyone else still didn't know what to say.
"NO! SHES NOT GOING TO BE OK! WHY THE HELL WOULD WE TELL YOU IF SHE WAS GOING TO BE OK!" Brooke screamed as she stood up and ran out the door. Everyone in the Café turned to look at us.
"I'm sorry Luke."
"Hales… are you going to…d..die." Peyton asked her voice barely above a whisper.
I looked over at Nathan and our eyes locked. He looked down when he knew the answer. I think everyone knew from the silence what the answer was. I, Haley James, wasn't going to live past 17.
A.N. Well Love It Hate It… its only going to be about 5 or 6 chapters longs, a chapter for each verse of the song. I hope you enjoyed chapter one and if so review and I'll do chapter 2. The song if you didn't know is Who You'd Be Today by Kenny Chesney.I have most of the chapters already written there's like 2 more left…so REVIEW!