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Playground schoolbell rings, again
Rainclouds come to play, again
Has no one told you she's not breathing ?
Hello, I'm your mind, giving you someone to talk to
Hello

If I smile and don't believe
Soon I know I'll wake from this dream
Don't try to fix me
I'm not broken
Hello, I'm the lie living for you so you can hide
Don't cry

Suddenly I know I'm not sleeping
Hello, I'm still here, all that's left
Of yesterday...

Kaetila

I lay, broken, helpless, tired.

It was the next afternoon. My fur was caked in blood. I still feared the strong sense of smell of a stray Taxxon.

It was so hard to breathe. My legs were so thirsty. I had struggled all I could. Or the Sub-Visser had anyway.

After I stopped screaming and weeping after a while, he became bored with torturing me mentally, and went back to struggling.

I no longer laughed. I no longer tormented him.

His fear was growing more desperate.

For he had begun to feel the tiniest tinges of hunger...

And his hunger frightened me, because I realized I was joined to the threat of his death, just as he was joined to my mind.

All the memories...I was too weak in body, and now in mind and heart to taunt him. I felt life slowly slipping away.

I thought of my existence now, and everything I had done...and I felt it absolutely pointless...

I had had no personality. I had done nothing great. Hadn't even raised a family...

I had lived entirely for my own survival in my career.

I could have gone home...married...just lived like any other female...

But I had to be stupid. I had to prove myself to my father...

The father who had disowned me. The mother who desperately thoughtscreened me, and begged me to change and apologize and come home. The brother who had worried for me, then encouraged me to do what I wanted. The perfect sister who asked me why I couldn't just be like everyone else...

But I'd never really known what I wanted.

And now it seemed I never would...

I began to weep as these thoughts came me, covering me in more mud, dragging me further into my pit...

I lay there with the Yeerk's curses in my head; at times his wild, desperate sobbing, then his anger, directed at me, at the trees, at the very wind, the rocks that trapped us, anything that would listen.

Hour by hour slowly...oh so slowly...passed...

I needed to feed as well. The hunger was unbelievable.

And with shock I realized I could no longer feel my left rear leg...

The hot sun blazed down. It was afternoon, and it was starting to get less intense, but midday had been agony. And I was sure I was going to die then. What was I doing still alive?

I wanted to live...I wanted to escape.

But I didn't help him struggle.

If I did, and we escaped, he would rule over me again...

And I could never live like that...

Being dominated was one thing. I've been dominated before. Domination I can stand.

Cruelty I cannot.

My legs were so dry...

I was feverish. Even my eye balls felt hot. I couldn't feel my eyestalks.

I would die if I had to take another day of heat...

But I would not help that Yeerk survive to torment anyone else...ever...

(So I'll die.) I said simply, and closed my eyes, to sleep again.

Hoo! Okay. Obviously the song at the beginning is by Evanescence (WOOT WOOT and GO AMY!). I don't know if it really went with the whole 'near death' thing or not, but you can tell me in a REVIEW! Clicky on the button pleeze! Type ze review pleeze!