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Summary: Lily is about to fall into great depression. The only thing that has kept her alive this far is the hope of a better tomorrow, but when she realizes it's not coming...what will happen... will James be able to withstand everyone's disapproval and save her?

Date Started: May 2, 2005
Date Finished: May 3, 2005
Date Posted: May 10, 2005

Chapter One: Prologue

Most eleven-year old girls are scared of the dark or traveling down into their family's basement by them selves, but then most eleven-year old girls aren't witches.

Lily Evans had just turned eleven today, but you never would have guessed. There wasn't a single present anywhere and there was no cake hiding in the refrigerator. All you could find was a little red head, who's hair waved gorgeously down to her mid back washing dishes. Lily had received a letter this morning, she had saw it on the kitchen table, but she was way to afraid to go and grab it, but when her father's bitter sweat tone, almost taunting her, asked her to come sit down she trembled even more. "Look what I have hear, honey. A letter was sent to you". He reached out and handed her a letter. Lily visible flinched at the outstretched hand and slowly, cautiously took the letter. Lily began to rip the seal. A particular seal it was she noticed, it looked like a crest. AS she took the contents out of the letter she slowly skimmed the first page. Her face then clearly lit up… 'A way out' she thought'. Her father saw this sudden change in mood and snapped the letter back and also skimmed the contents, "No, way in hell are you going".

"But I'll finally be gone, you wont have to deal with me" Lily argued

"I said no, and that is final. You deserve what you get here and most definitely do not deserve to be playing around in some silly school… happy". He said the last word with disgust, cause just the mere thought of his daughter being happy after what she did made him sick to his stomach. "Now go upstairs it's time for our morning routine".

Lily quickly scurried upstairs, dismissing the letter for now. Like she had so many times before, she sat cross legged on the bed waiting… ever since she was eight they had started this horrible routine. Once in the morning, so she was awake. Once after lunch so she never forgot. And once after dinner, which was always longer and harder, to remember the whole entire night through. They had started this ever since the accident. Lily and her mother were out in the car and well simply had got into a car crash, but when Lily came out alive and her mother didn't all hell broke lose. Lily's father held her responsible fore her mother's death and was very keen on punishing her for it. Over the years Lily grew to realize that she did kill her mom and after time didn't think of the accident at all. She had made her own little version that night, where she killed her mom. After that the punishments became easier cause she knew she deserved them. Three beatings every day, so she remember exactly how horrible and worthless he is.

Because Lily truly believed she was a murder, and could never understand why she would kill her beloved mother, she stayed away from everyone. She was always scared she would grow to like someone or a have a friend and then absent mindly kill them. Instead Lily hid herself in her books. She would pretend that it was she in the book and live a happy life, but it was never real, but it was her own source of happiness so she kept on.

Lily is draw from her thoughts back to her room when she hears those dreaded footsteps come closer to her room. There's no knock, he just swings the door back and yells, "You dirty little bitch, how dare you even suggest to get away from your punishment" Her father (A/N who I failed to mention his name as Tomas) then unblocked his belt. Lily knew it was always better to stay silent no matter what. Talking always infuriated him more. "Don't ignore me, bitch" he barked, as he kicked her in the stomach so she fell over and then twice in her side. Lily now lay face down into the floor. Her father lifted the back of her shirt and brought the belt as fast as he could down onto her back. Again and again and again until Lily's world swirled black.

When Lily did awake, her shirt was soaked in blood. She went on to expect her wounds. Apparently after he had slashed up her back a lot, till you could see no flesh he had moved onto to her front and had slashed her stomach and chest until everything was bleeding. Lily slowly stood up, but then fell to ground from immense pain. This was most definitely the worst beating yet. The last thing she thought before she slipped out of conscience again, was that no matter what after three years of this her debt had to be paid, she wanted to get out of this, no matter what