Lacour: Who am I?
I saw you the other day
I'm hoping you were the one who waved at me
Walking across the prairie land brought me into thoughtless wonders
Would we have been good together?
Or was it my self I saw instead
Yes I know you think I'm great
But what is great if you have no one to share it with?
Accomplishing is nothing when you're alone
Even the littlest of things mean more with you
I tried to fight off the tears…but I was helpless
You weren't there to wipe them away
And as I continue to walk in thought with my head down you appear suddenly
Bumping into you I lose my breath completely for you have put me under your spell
Was it for good or bad? I look around as people pass through us and back at you
My face taking control and showing anger and guilt
I wanted to scream at you for not responding to me
As you continue to choke me I fall to the ground watching you appear farther away
Only to wake up in the same spot but you have left
I try to think but nothing processes and I black out again
There is a dream that I had once…one that showed a lighter side of you
Surely this wasn't the same person
But then I realized I had misjudged you
Lowering my head in guilt I forget everything that I had told you before
Loving means nothing when you say it alone
I know you wanted me to be stronger
Not physically…but as in my heart
I asked you why you had to bring me here
You held your ground and watched me suffer
Then you lifted your finger making me rise up
Yes…she said…You have always been weak of heart
You must make everything seem like it's alright
When really it's worse
If you can prove to me that you even notice me I shall spare you
Closing my eyes I took out my sword from its case
Through my closed eyes I could see you defending yourself
My hands tightening on the blade
There was nothing I would regret about this
Charging at you brought my speed back
And right as my sword went through you…my heart exploded…
Not from guilt…but from love…
That I was willing to pay for all my actions
My eyes had opened back up…only to be back where you had me
What was it you wanted me to do?
No matter how many times my eyes closed
You weren't there for me to make sure you were safe
And in a moment of panic I dropped my sword
Only to have it returned right back into my hand
Then I heard a voice that was as pure as gold
Did you feel your heart give up…the voice asked?
Not knowing what to say I gripped my sword even tighter
Yes…I can see and feel the hatred moving through you
You can expect to see me again when you're balanced
For with only light or dark…you aren't complete
And that was goal for you…
Now take me back so I may be a part of you again
Not for using…
But for saving
Before she left she added one more comment
Now that you truly understand what it means to be hated?
You know why I love you so much
Who are you?
Why you are my warrior…and husband
Thank you for a wonderful evening…