Hatori- Shadow- Ashlee Simpson - Written by Jessica
I was six years old
When my parents went away
I was stuck inside a broken life
I couldn't wish away
She was beautiful
She had everything and more
And my escape was hiding out and running for the door
Hatori sat at his desk, it was all he could do just to stay awake. No one in the Sohma family seemed to be sick today, not even Akito. Finally, he stood up and walked out of his office. He put on a coat and walked outside. Snow was freshly fallen. The ground was white and everything seemed to be asleep.
He strode down the walk, through the gates, and let his feet do the walking. His mind drifted, and soon he was daydreaming. He was remembering Kana. Walks in the sun, watching snow fall, working side by side, little hidden gifts, kissing, and when she found out.
Somebody listen please
It used to be so hard being me
Living in the shadow
Of someone else's dream
Trying to find a hand to hold but every touch felt cold to me
Living in a nightmare
A never-ending sleep
But now that I am wide awake
My chains are finally free
Don't feel sorry for me
At this thought Hatori woke from his daze. He supposed that her finding out had led to them asking to get married, Which led to him getting his eye hurt and Kana getting her memories erased. These memories still hurt Hatori, but he could bare them
He hadn't dreamt of Kana since Tohru had come to visit. He hadn't thought of Kana since Ayame gave him the pictures of her wedding. He hadn't done much but work for a long time. Now Hatori was kind of glad that no one in the Sohma family was sick today. Kana was something from a dream, and her memory was both a dream and a nightmare.
Hatori was snow, and snow was cold. Only one thing could melt the snow, that was time. Time brought Spring, and in the Spring the snow melted. Not enough time had passed for Hatori's snow to melt. Time, in fact, seemed to have stopped completely, shortly after Kana left. But, it did seem, that time had begun moving again...Slowly, but it was moving.
All the days collided
One less perfect than the next
I was stuck inside someone else's life and always second best
Oh, I love you now 'cause now I realize
That it's safe outside to come alive in my identity
Hatori had always allowed Akito to tell him what to do. He erased memories, hurt feelings, broke up families....Sometimes Hatori wished he didn't have the ability to cover up memories...It just seemed to be a burden. Somehow though, Hatori was growing out of that.
People found out about the curse less and less, the entire Zodiac was born for this generation so no families would be split. And.....Tohru.....
So if you're listening
There's so much more to me you haven't seen
Living in the shadow
Of someone else's dream
Trying to find a hand to hold but every touch felt cold to me
Living in a nightmare
A never-ending sleep
But now that I am wide awake
Then I can finally see
Don't feel sorry for me-
Yes, Tohru, the main reason for time's beginning. She had made him remember Kana, it had not been the snow. She was kind, cheerful, and brave. Tohru taught Hatori that snow will eventually melt, and spring will arrive. Even if it takes awhile. He would have to thank her for this....someday.
He found that he was now walking through town. He had just passed Ayame's shop and was still walking. Soon he would come to the grocery store, and later a beauty shop. Hatori seemed to know the layout of the city, even if he didn't pay attention.
Mother, sister, father, sister, mother
Everything's cool now
Mother, sister, father, sister, mother
Everything's cool now
Oh, my life is good
I've got more than anyone should
Oh, my life is good
And the past is in the past
Hatori's father had been head of the Sohma family before Akito. There was no resentment there. His father had been a just head, as was Akito. But....Hatori's father had not had the temper that Akito possessed. Hatori wondered...if that may have been because his father had been shown a new world, when he'd met Hatori's mother.
Akito's eyes were half closed, and he was half in shadow. The problem was...that Akito didn't know that he could find happiness, too....Maybe, like she had helped him, Tohru could help Akito. Yes, it seemed that she had helped many of the zodiac members to overcome problems...
I was living in the shadow
Of someone else's dream
Trying to find a hand to hold but every touch felt cold to me
I'm living in a new day
I'm living it for me
And now that I am wide awake
Yea I can finally see
So don't feel sorry for me
Don't feel sorry, don't feel sorry for me
Don't feel sorry, don't feel sorry for me
Yea, Hatori was the snow. He was....moderately fine with that. Sure, he wanted for the snow to melt, but....when it did, what would there be? A vibrant spring? or a dead wasteland? He didn't know, nor did he care. Time was still moving, as was he. Life continued.
Hatori saw he was in front of Shigure's house.....why was he here? It seemed that time....was not the only thing in motion. Many things drive us to do many things....many things, many things Some crazy, some fine.
"Oh. Hello Hatori. What are you doing here?" came a voice. Hatori turned around to see that Tohru was there, with Yuki and Kyo. Apparently they were arriving back from shopping. He smiled.
"Just enjoying my time off." he said in a sweet voice that he rarely used. Yuki and Kyo stared at him, but Tohru smiled and invited him in for dinner. "Sure."
Living in, living in, living in the shadow
Living in, living in, living in a new day
"Thank you, Tohru.
From Frozen Snow"
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Ok. This turned from a 'Hatori's Thoughts' fic, into a 'Hatori Thanking Tohru' fic. Sorry. Oh. I shall be posting my Yuki fic kinda Yukiru, but it's a good fic soon. Maybe after I eat. - Jess
You love that fic. - Reb
You're just mad cause it's Yukiru......I didn't mean for it to be like that. And Reb! Stop imagining it as a Kyo song when you read it!
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Oh, and I know that the song doesn't fit Hatori that well, but it did seem to fit in my opinion. The lyrics, not the song itself. - Jess