Song: Iris- by the Goo Goo Dolls
Written by: Rebecca
Hatori
Hatori rubbed his temples as he heard a fight going on just outside. Kyo was over and Kagura was throwing him around. At the moment he couldn't remember why Kyo had come over.. But.. If they would just shut up.
Another crash and things on Hatori's shelve's came falling down. He quickly reached out and grabbed the photograph before it hit the floor. It was Kana's picture. He looked at it and touched his finger to her hair.
He stood up and then went to sit in his chair, but looked the door first. Last thing he needed was Kyo running in here for safety.
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Across town, Kana paused and looked behind her as though someone had called her name.
"Come on, Kana! We'll be late!" her friends called.
"Coming!" she continued to walk.
And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cuz I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
Hatori sat in his chair and sighed. How long had he closed off thinking about her this time? Now the memories flowed like they had when he'd met Tohru. Come to think of it.. Tohru was a lot like Kana, though much younger. So sweet, always smiling, saying things you need to hear sometimes.
A memory of kissing Kana after she'd found out about the curse flashed in his eyelids. He opened them and looked around. He remembered the day she found out. How close Tohru's reaction had been to Kana's. He would laugh if it wasn't such a touchy subject.
"Falling in love." Hatori looked out his window and saw Tohru looking to her right with a worried expression. Then Kyo ran past the window followed by Kagura. Tohru was trying to stop her.
"I wonder what they'll think when it finally hits them.." he was talking about Tohru and Kyo but he doubted either of them knew how much it was obvious that they cared. And it was obvious, almost as much, with Yuki. "Young lovers are idiots."
Hatori remembered how he was so afraid of her leaving him, and afraid for her safety when he went to tell Akito about wanting to get married.
"It's amazing the joys and sadness it can all bring. Isn't it, Kana?" Hatori got up and decided to go for a walk.
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Kana paused again and looked to her left and right. "Hey, did you hear someone calling my name?" she asked.
"No. Now come on. Or the show will start without us."
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cuz sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
Hatori remembered the tickets to a comedy show that Shigure had given him and groaned as he pulled them out of his jacket.
-FLASHBACK-
"Common Ha'ri! You deserve it! Loosen up!" Shigure laughed as Hatori looked about to kill him.
Hatori groaned again but figured he'd go since he was almost there anyway.
During the show, Hatori barely laughed and some of the people around him were giving him funny looks. He could care less. About 20 feet away was Kana. She and her friends were cracking up to most of the jokes.
Kana kept thinking about earlier, when she kept hearing someone call her. She sighed once, as though something had happened that was really depressing.
"Come on, Kana. Pay attention. You're making people stare." Mayuko laughed. Kana smiled and went back to watching the show.
"Sorry."
And I don't want the world to see me
Cuz I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
So during the show Hatori started thinking about Kana as the comedians changed again. And what came to mind was just what had happened. Akito hit him with that vase.. And it was all over.. And he remembered crying for so long, even if only inside. When he thought about it, it was like a bad soap opera.
Kana laughed and smiled as the comedian cracked another joke. She was oblivious to the pain she'd once felt.
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah, you'd bleed just to know you're alive
Hatori stood up and walked out, stares following the seemingly emotionless man. But they were soon caught by the laughter once again and decided to leave the dead weight alone. Hatori just couldn't sit in a room full of people that were lying to themselves and hiding feelings. He just wasn't one of them. Not since Kana.
Kana sneezed and looked around. "I've gotta go to the bathroom. I'll be back in a minute." she told Mayuko as she too got up and walked out. She didn't really have to go to the bathroom, but something nagged at her to leave. She didn't see the man walking a little a head of her, two isles over. Few people looked at her, because she was smiling as she walked, to hide the nagging feeling.
And I don't want the world to see me
Cuz I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
Hatori got outside and took a deep breath. He felt so closed off in there. Behind him the door opened but he payed it no mind.
"Hatori?" Kana asked. Hatori spun around and stared at Kana with slightly wide eyes, as though afraid. "It is you! Hello." she smiled.
"Hello, Kana." Hatori greeted her, regaining his composition.
That was it. Kana was sure of it. She didn't know how, but she knew he'd been the source of the nagging. She walked up to him and smiled again.
"Been awhile. How are you doing?" she asked. Hatori sighed in relief and let a smile grace his lips.
"Nothing new, actually." he said. Kana laughed and pointed at him. "What?"
"Nothing. I just thought you looked so much better with a smile on. I realized how little you smile and to think you'd smile for me, it just made me want to laugh." she explained. Another smile from Hatori.
"Well. You're a very special person, Kana." Hatori nodded. Kana's face lit up.
"The show wont be over for a while, how bout we catch up? Really. We just sit and talk, or we can go get coffee... or tea." she offered.
"Talking would be nice." Although Hatori feared her memories would break free, he couldn't say no and have her get disappointed.
And I don't want the world to see me
Cuz I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
So Kana sat Hatori down on bench and began to ramble about her friends and work and school. Hatori smiled sadly, yet relieved, through the whole thing. She really was getting on better. Then Kana came up with a question that seemed to stop time.
"Hatori, What happened to your eye?" And Hatori wonder how to answer. He couldn't say he'd asked to marry her. She might remember something.
"Um.."
"I'm sorry. I just wondered. It's just that when I figured out it was you earlier I became so happy and I didn't know why and then I wondered about your eye. It's a shade lighter than your other one and.. Well I was just curious." Kana stopped talking and a gust of wind blew through before Hatori answered.
"It's alright. I'm part blind in that eye. I was hit with a piece of glass. That's all." he stood up slowly. "Your friends must be worried. I wouldn't want to keep you away. I'm sure you enjoyed the show. There's still some left if you want to go watch it." He pointed at the entrance door.
"Are you coming?"
And I don't want the world to see me
Cuz I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
Hatori walked her to the door. "Laughter just doesn't seem to fit me anymore." he said sadly and turned to go.
"Well then.. I guess. I'll see you around..." Kana walked inside and closed the door. Hatori sighed.
"If only you knew..." and he kept walking. "How much I love you."
Kana was leaning on the inside of the door, feeling like she'd just let go of something dear. Her heart gave a heave and she sighed. Something about Hatori was just... special to her.. But she didn't understand why.
An eruption of laughter broke her from her thoughts and she placed the smile on his face and went back to her seat.
"What took so long?" Mayuko asked.
"Nothing. I just met an old friend." she said, though she wasn't sure you'd call your old boss a friend.
Hatori got back home to find Kagura in tears and Kyo being nursed to health by Tohru. He sighed at the simplicity of it all.
I just want you to know who I am
Kana looked back, as though expecting to see Hatori standing there, smiling down at her. But she was married. This was stupid. She shook her head and went back to the show.
"Oh but wouldn't it be great... if he did?"
I just want you to know who I am
The show got out and Kana heard some people talking about a guy who hadn't laughed at any jokes. She wondered if it had been Hatori and smiled. 'So he did smile.. Just for me..'
"Common, Kana. Your husband's waiting." Mayuko teased.
"Oh shut up." she laughed and ran to catch up.
I just want you to know who I am.
Hatori was asleep at his desk... dreaming peacefully. Next to his arm was a picture. A picture of a woman with a simplistic smile who he would never forget.