And here we go…did we go yet? This is the second chapter if you did not know that click back because you need to go back to school like right now! Ok for those of you still left this chapter is more my normal thing now if that is good or bad I'm not sure. Anyway even if I said it was good it's my work so blah right? Aw read the thing yourself already I just type it.
WarNinGs: Shounen-Ai, OOCish, Heero pissed right off the bat, Very little action compared to Chapter 1, Deep and philosophical topics, May cause thinking.
Aishi Say"There are still many human emotions I do not fully comprehend…anger, hatred, revenge…But I am not mystified by the desire to be loved….or the need for friendship…these are things I do understand." Data, now I love Data he reminds of Trowa in some ways learning how to feel by those around him. This quote can be used for either Trowa or Heero in this fic but mostly Heero since he is the main focus Trowa only the second.
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Heero frowned arms crossed narrow eyes focused on his fellow pilot disappointment clear, "Trowa if you were not one hundred percent you should have told me before the mission started. You put me and worst yourself at unnecessary risk and I want to know why right now and you had better have a good reason. Trowa answer me?"
Trowa sighed resting his arm on his raised knee examining the gash the bullet had torn, "And if I don't you'll what shot me?" Green eyes looked up chin resting on his arm, "I was fine until I got shot Heero it was not relevant." He frowned, "What are you really mad about me going in tired or me getting shot?"
"Don't even try your mind games on me I am the leader so I am responsible for all of you I cannot do my job when you do not tell me these kind of things! You're smarter then this at least I thought you were," Heero frowned he was madder at himself for not noticing then at Trowa for not telling him but he was the leader and he had to know when anything was going on with any of the others.
Trowa turned his gaze away, "And here I was thinking getting shot." He commented softly tone making it impossible to tell if it was a joke in the least bit.
Heero closed his eyes feeling drained and a little guilty joke or otherwise, "Trowa I'm sorry but Duo and Wufei have been driving me insane with their petty fighting lately I have no right to take it out on you it's my fault for not noticing."
"It's fine Heero Kathy yells constantly," Trowa assured him running fingers over dried blood ignoring the sting. "I should have told you. How insane?"
Heero rolled his eyes, "Too much free time leads to fighting and with Hilde taking those piloting tests Duo hasn't been able to go see her. I almost let Wufei chop his braid and hang in up in his room on a plaque as a trophy twice Quatre has been busy with Noin lately so he has been no help and you just got home."
"Sounds busy. So why did you stop Wufei?" Trowa asked as he began to wrap his wound back up tone absently curious.
"He is my partner and I know he does not mean to drive people insane he is just very…energetic. Quatre will not be pleased about this," Heero reminded him knowing full well how much the blonde worried about them Trowa especially.
"Yeah well 'just a flesh wound' does nothing to ease his worry. So do you think Duo will be mad he missed a mission?" Trowa smiled shaking his head, "Scratch that how mad do you think he will be?"
"He wanted to see the new Pegasus suits no one forced him," Strong arms crossed he could hear Dup shouting already. "To be honest I still would have left him home and taken you I needed you not him." Heero frowned when he thought about that he had been very glad to see Trowa walk through the front door while he was on the phone with Sally maybe too glad? He watched Trowa work white gaze standing out against his lightly tanned skin graceful fingers moving in controlled practiced movements.
"Hm…well it's nice to be needed. When are the others expected home anyway you never did tell me?" Trowa looked up watching Heero frown, "Heero?"
Heero walked up to his friend sitting down on the bed taking the bandage form his hand and tucked in the end, "Soon actually I didn't notice what time it was." He looked up into confused familiar eyes before looking down at his hands, "Sorry."
Trowa shook his head, "Don't be it's fine just don't go blaming yourself alright Quatre does it enough?"
Heero nodded turning to look out the window for a moment, "True. I'll be downstairs if you need me."
"Sure, hey Heero?" Trowa called stopping the Japanese youth in the doorway.
"Yes Trowa?" Heero asked turning hand still on the doorknob.
"Thank you," Trowa smiled resting his chin on his arm again, "and sorry."
Heero smiled back, "Forgiven and you are welcome," He turned before looking over his shoulder, "Trowa katei kangei."
Trowa frowned in thought for a moment before nodding, "Heero arigato."
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"I still say they should model some after my baby I mean come on demons are way scarier then angles." Duo smiled turning Trowa was sitting on the couch closest to them reading something FUSE on the TV. "Yo Tro what do you think bat or birdy?"
Trowa shrugged, "Both types sever a purpose Duo I doubt Relena will approve of any demonic looking suits but maybe you'll get lucky."
Duo frowned walking up to him arms folding on the back of the couch, "Good point there buddy. Hey what happened to your leg? Don't tell me that house cat form Hell of yours decided to use you for a chew toy?"
Trowa shook his head, "No I was just shot it's nothing. Did you three have fun?"
"Oh yeah lots…," Duo trailed off blinking, "Whoa, whoa just shot?"
"Who was shot?" Wufei demanded entering the house with a frown, "Welcome home."
"Thanks and that would be me," Trowa answered turning the page.
"When?" Wufei asked frowning trying to think of anything he had heard.
"Earlier today there was a mission simple base job," Trowa frowned, "Where's Quatre?"
"Talking with Noin. What mission no one mentioned one?" Wufei frowned Sally should have mentioned a mission he was going to have to have a long talk with her.
"The one Heero was ordered on. I didn't know about it until I walked in the door he was still on the phone." Trowa turned another page, "It was nothing really."
"Ah-huh. Oh Cat your partner got himself shot again feel free to yell at him!" Duo called when Quatre closed the front door.
Aqua eyes blinked, "I'm sorry what?" Quatre asked he had not been paying attention and had only heard 'yell at him'.
"He has a hole in his leg which he is not even trying to hide," Duo answered straightening frowning down at Trowa, "That is so inconsiderate."
Trowa sighed, "It's not a hole it's a gash and how is hiding it considerate?" Graceful fingers turned the page still not looking up, "Or did you forget he's empathic?"
Duo frowned, "OK maybe I did. Cat yell he went on a mission without us and got all shot and stuff!"
"Unless stuff involves shooting things I would stop speaking now." Trowa commented turning yet another page he was becoming as annoyed as he could with Duo for trying to get him in trouble because he was jealous he had missed the mission.
"Trowa promise me you won't do anything foolish until your leg is healed?" Quatre asked sitting down beside him watching green eyes move over pages he did not feel like glancing at.
Green eyes turned to him, "Define foolish?" Trowa asked ignoring his book and the others for the moment.
Quatre smiled knowing his friend very well, "Anything that will hurt."
Trowa nodded, "Done," he agreed before turning a page as he went back to reading. He smiled when Quatre hugged his shoulders before standing.
"Where's the yelling?" Duo asked frowning arms crossed.
"Trowa did not get shot on purpose Duo besides I have learned form Katharine that yelling has little to no affect." Quatre smiled placing his hands on his partner's shoulders, "And he knows if he ever did something that stupid on purpose I would tell his sister and she would handle it."
"Yeah break my jaw," Trowa muttered softly not joking in the least bit she had a nasty right hook and could do it if she was mad enough.
"Honestly Duo let it go already. I'll be in my room or outside if you need me," Wufei nodded before heading upstairs nodding to Heero who nodded back as they passed.
"What's wrong Duo?" Heero asked concerned Duo looked upset and since Wufei was not present he assumed the moody youth had said something.
"You took Trowa and not me," Duo half pouted half whined at him.
Heero nodded, "You three where busy he wasn't next time I'll call you."
"Promise?" Duo asked turning to look at his partner tone doubtful.
Heero nodded once more knowing just the trio of words to end the conversation, "I promise aibou."
Duo smiled, "Well alright then I'll be in the vid room latter!" The braided youth waved as he went running up the stairs planing on spending the next few hours mashing buttons.
Quatre shook his head as he stood Duo was just like that sometimes but now life could move on, "Nothing really happened other then the tests went well. I have some reports to look over you two take it easy and I mean it."
"Yes Quatre," Trowa teased smiling for a moment when Quatre walked off smiling, "So Heero what do you want?"
"Only to talk. What are you reading?" Heero asked glancing at the book and frowning, "I thought you knew what I said?"
"I though it was welcome back I was a little off. Talk about what?" Trowa prompted since wanting to talk meant there was a topic already picked out and everything.
Heero sighed, "About earlier…I don't want it taken the wrong way."
"I already said it was fine so don't go all Quatre on me," Trowa reminded him turning another page. "You need some java you do know that right?"
Heero sighed leaning close so he could read what Trowa was glancing at so far Duo had been trying to learn some things but he had not noticed Trowa doing the same. "I'm having an off day too. So any reason why?"
"Wufei suggested it actually he thinks since we work together it would make sense Quatre has taught me a little Arabic but he's been busy lately. So is that all you wanted?" Trowa asked glancing at him Heero was acting strangely but if he said it was an off day that was what is was everyone had them.
Heero shook his head taking Trowa's mug from the glass table, "No…I'm sorry I'm just not use to…"
"Acting protective?" Trowa suggested setting the dictionary down and selecting another book from the small pile, "It suits you, but don't force it or you'll always feel awkward."
"Did you read that somewhere?" Heero asked knowing his calm friend spent a lot of time reading about various subjects, which was one of the many reasons he went to him for advice.
"Nope Kathy she's smarter then she acts sometimes," Trowa sighed leaning back.
Heero nodded sipping the still hot coffee, "I know."
"It's rude to speak ill of another's family Heero we Europeans just hate it," Trowa smiled, "Of course killing you would create so much paper work."
Heero chuckled shaking his head, "You're in an awfully good mood for someone who recently got shot why?"
"No lecture from Quatre and it will be healed before I return to Earth so Kathy won't have to know. He's been learning things from Duo again poor Wufei," Trowa glanced at his fellow pilot Heero was still leaning close stolen mug in his hands. "And so have you I see."
Heero blinked as he sipped the coffee before looking down at it he had completely forgotten it was not his. He meet Trowa's sideways glance knowing he did not mind he was only teasing him a little as time went by he learned while Duo was very casual and blunt in his humor Trowa preferred sarcasm and gentle gibes. "Sorry," Heero apologized not sure what else to say.
"It's fine," Trowa assured him returning dark eyes to the pages, "So anything else on your mind?"
Heero finished the coffee setting the empty mug down on the glass with a soft clink while he could hide things from Duo and Wufei easily enough, Quatre with more effort because of his gifts, he could hide nothing form Trowa. He never had been able to the two of them understood each other too easily naturally it also meant Trowa had the same vulnerably which, of course, he did not mind it in the least bit. The shorter youth leaned lightly against his friend chin on his shoulder, "I've been thinking so much like Quatre lately questioning everything I've ever done and trying to justify it to myself. I have done things I am not proud of they were necessary evils but still I never felt quilt like this before."
"I have learned that everyone has to make peace with what they have done for some it can be very hard. Was it Relena?" Trowa asked knowing the blonde pacifist had a profound affect on his leader.
Heero sighed shifting his weight so he was more comfortable, "I should not let her mess with my head but she just does." It was so confusing sometimes he wondered if it was because she was a women they seemed to have a knack for confusing men. "She asked me about the little girl and her dog."
"Little girl?" Trowa questioned confused Wufei had mentioned Heero asking him how many times did he have to kill them but he had never dared to ask what he had been talking about.
"Right that was only Wufei…when I was twelve I met Mariemaia before a mission she was so happy playing with her puppy Mary it was hard not to smile with her." Heero smiled at the memory of that happy little girl running in artificial sun warmed grass he had never seen anyone look that innocent when they smiled except for Quatre. "The mission went smoothly until a blast knocked a Leo into a house I founded Mary dead in the rubble and I thought I had…" Strong grip clung to lose navy as he trailed off closing his eyes even knowing she was alive did not help to ease the quilt he still felt. "After that I was trained until I became you I felt nothing, cared for no one, but then I met all of you and that all changed." Heero opened his eyes frowning, "I'm sorry I meant the old you not…"
Trowa smiled placing a gentle hand over Heero's clenched fist Heero cared deeply for his friends others just did not see it. "I knew what you meant Heero so there is no need to apologize I'm sure if Dr. S knew Trowa would become a liability he may have actually looked for a replacement pilot."
"Doesn't it bother you every time you hear that name? I know you disliked him I never knew the 'real' Heero Yuy." Heero had never really thought about it until he heard about the 'real' Trowa Barton so he asked 'their' Trowa and decided he preferred 'their' to the 'real'.
"No Heero it doesn't it's just a name and he doesn't need it anymore anyway. Did you think it did?" Trowa asked he had never really thought about how he felt using the dead man's name but since he had in affect replaced the late Barton heir it made sense to assume his name along with his mission.
"Sometimes but Nanashi just doesn't suit you anymore personally I like it," Heero smiled hand unclenching under Trowa's relaxing. "Has Quatre ever asked?"
"Once he wanted to know if I killed him he was so nervous it was funny I still think Duo put him up to it. Feel better now?" Trowa asked he could feel the weariness in his friend's lean frame but the tension and anger were gone.
Heero smiled faintly when he felt Trowa's thumb move gently across his own reminding him where his hand was. He took Trowa's hand interlocking their fingers and squeezed gently he knew what his hands could do to steel he did not want to do that to his friend. "How could I not you are very good at this?" Graceful fingers returned the gentle squeeze and Heero smiled again he was always amazed at how gentle those hands could be.
"I should be Quatre gives me plenty of practice," Trowa smiled the empathic blonde was very emotional but he was just so cute sometimes.
Heero frowned pulling his hand away at the mention of Quatre before frowning again why had he reacted like that? They were partners so of course they were close it was nothing to get jealous over. 'Wait am I jealous? Is that why I was so mad because he got hurt? No I felt responsible because he was with me I would have been that mad at any of them' "I imagine he would," Heero agreed he knew first hand how the littlest things effect him. Eyes closed with a soft sigh he was tired of thinking he just wanted to make it all go away shifting slightly he smiled absently content.
Trowa blinked when Heero pulled his hand away suddenly but did not ask if Heero wanted him to know he would tell him. He looked down when Heero sighed and smiled the leader of the most feared ban of pilots ever assembled smiled in tried contentment clearly drifting off. Quatre did the same thing often enough so the warmth of another body against his left side was no distraction in the least bit not that he was working on anything at the moment. Shaking his head in amusement he flipped open the book he had selected earlier half closed eyes glanced over a few pages before they closed completely cheek resting on long bangs and much darker brunette book slipping from graceful fingers after a moment falling open to the floor a single page turning.
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