River of Blood

Chapter 3: Forgotten Memories

Hay! I was so board that hardly anyone was reviewing, that I reviewed myself! I said 'that's awesome man!' hahahaha! Is that illegal? Who cares? It was funny! Umm… running out of ideas here… help me! And thank you come again but first… REVIEW!

IF YOU ARE SCARED OF OFFENDED OR WHATEVER BY RAPE THEN DON'T READ THIS! YOU SHOULD BE IN THE HAPPY/SUNSHINE STORIES! NOT IN THE SUICIDAL/RAPE STORIES! THIS INVOLVES RAPE! …only a bit though… actually it's not even good… oh whatever I don't care!

Disclaimer: Fuck the disclaimer man! I OWN this story! Not the show! If I did why would I bother on here instead of just making the damn episode! Gosh! Who invented this? Going to kill them!

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It has passed 3 weeks since Raven was found, and she hasn't spoken a word since. Not to Robin, not to her friends, not even to herself. She had stopped meditating but seemed only scared now, scared of her own shadow. She hadn't purged or cut herself until her friends found out, they thought she was crazy but still she was their friend and they treated her like a human.

Robin had given up on helping Raven, he thought even she was dying it would be too late to save her so he just stayed with Starfire. They started dating about a week ago and it was going well for them, but Raven just watched them in jealousy and wanted to be with Robin but she had her chance and just wasted it on blood and depression.

Until one day….

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Raven gasped as she awoke from her flight having passed out, she looked around and found nothing but darkness surrounding her. She stood up and walked forward till she touched a wall and she followed it to the right then she hit something hard. She banged against it with her hand trying to make out what it was; it made a loud metal sound and then she heard a sigh from it and was alerted of who it was.

"Boo"

He said and before Raven could turn around to run away he grabbed her and shoved her into the wall and pinned her down by her arms and legs so Raven could not move. She struggled to get out of his grasp but it was no use.

"The poor little Raven is trapped… how cute"

Only then Raven actually remember her powers, and her eyes turned a glowing white and she pushed him back with the force of her dark energy. He skidded back and then a light turned on to reveal the criminal… Slade.

Raven lifted her head up with a small gasp, she was in her room in her usual uniform and it was night and raining like hell and thunder and lighting. She was had a flashback of what had happened to her but it ended, because she wanted it to. She had already experienced much pain from Slade and now Robin was making it worse. She wanted to cut herself but Robin would know and probably kill her himself.

Raven decides to go out of her room just to get herbal tea and go back because she was hungry and she hoped no one was in the living room at the time, having to ignore her or help her or just watch her in amazement. Either ways, Raven didn't like it she thought she would never get a connection back with her friends and even know she doesn't know if she's allowed to use the word 'friend'.

She put her hood and opened her door and slowly looked left and then right and it was deserted. She levitated down the corridor and heard from the weightlifting room Cyborg and Beast Boy fooling around about betting on who can lift the most… apparently BB thinks he can lift elephant in human form… he must be high, but Cyborg won't try to ruin his ego, especially if he's betting $10.

She walked past and to the living room hoping not to intrude on Robin and Starfire doing… uh well… anyway there was no one there and Raven let out a sigh of relief and started to make her tea. Once she had done she took it and walked back to her room unnoticed. 'that was easy' she thought to herself, then when she took a sip of her tea she bumped into Robin, spilling her tea down her leotard and hot liquid burned her skin. She looked up at Robin who looked kind of determined as usual.

"… Sorry"

He said and he walked past her without turning back or worrying about her at all. Raven just ran back to her room and closed the door. She wanted to hammer it down with nails and boards of wood to block even the strongest of people to come through. More thoughts of what happened plagued her mind, she tried to take them off by reading her book but it was no use.

She was just too paranoid to do anything, she couldn't even scream though she tried with all her might to. She opened her mouth but only let out choked breaths. He walked towards her out of the light and it blinked off and she couldn't see a thing, everything was pitch black and she wasn't sure what he was going to do to her then she felt someone on her shoulders.

"Relax Raven… "

Raven tensioned and then fell to the ground facing up and was pinned down and she felt lips pressing all over her neck and face. Raven was paralysed… literally she couldn't move, blink or breathe. She couldn't see who Slade really was but could make out a face, a simple normal face, but which one out of the infinity in the world?

Slade moved his hands from her breasts down her curves and then at her stomach he ripped her clothes off. Raven tried to push him off now that she realised… he was raping her!

"Ah ah ah Raven, I'm not through with you yet… I know how you like pain, and I'll give you enough to take you all the way to the end"

Raven started to cry as he was ripped the last of her clothes off and then she shut her eyes and wished that it would all go away, the pain, the sorrow, the torture and everything else and she wished Robin was here to save her and beat Slade to death with his own 2 hands. But that would never happen for Raven… She would have been the one left behind and forgotten in the rain, and that's how it always will be.


Raven opened her eyes again crying like mad and rocking back and forth on her bed hugging her book remembering the horrible feeling of him raping her and sticking his tongue down her bruised throat, and his hands following her curves and his legs wrapped around hers tightly and how she was helpless, a poor little helpless girl who innocence was ripped from her.

Raven couldn't take it, she ran to her bathroom and lifted the toilet lid and puked at the sick mind she had just witnessed. She really was sick but she thought since she was raped she could be… pregnant

To Raven this was the worst that could happen, she thought that if she told them they would kick her out of the titans and throw her out of the tower and leave her on the street as a beggar and then finally dying after catching a disease by eating a rat. Raven never wanted her future to be like that. She thought if she was she would have to kill herself or ran away, because her friends would never understand her side of they story.

Raven was desperate, she searched through her draws and cupboards and found one… a pregnancy test. (shrugs I know it's strange isn't it? But what the hell it's fan FICTION!) She took it and then she waited… and waited till finally… red… it was positive… she was pregnant.

Raven dropped it and fell to her knees in shock. She wanted to grab her knife and slut both her wrists and cut deep… so deep the knife would appear out the other end of her arm, let it all go and be free forever.

Raven changed out of her uniform into some black baggy jeans and a dark blue loose top and put a black hoodie over it and put the hood over her head covering some of her face in shadow. She packed a bag with all her suicidal stuff, the knife she cuts herself with, the drawings she did of people suffering and dying and some other personal stuff that she stuffed in a black bag with badges of rock bands that BB gave to her.

All this stuff would be burned if she dies, or kept close to her if she survived. Raven looked around at her empty dark room; she smiled at a picture of her friends she left on her bed with Star eating mustard with Silkie, BB hanging from a tree ready to fall, Cyborg and Robin holding a basketball laughing and then in a corner was raven reading under the shade of a tree… this is where it all went wrong for her.

She mouthed the words 'bye' and climbed out her window and drifted down to the ground. She looked up and the tower and then let out all her tears. She loved the rain, because no one can tell she is crying. She walked out into the city past everyone not knowing who the mysterious Goth girl is but she didn't care and she never did.

And with a sigh of pain, Raven walked out into the dark cold night where anyone can be forgotten… But Raven already was.

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:'( Poor Raven

What'll happen you reckon? I bet you won't get it! I got something special planned!

THAT'S IT! IF I DON'T GET OVER 10 REVIEWS THEN I HAVE NO REASON TO WRITE! EVEN IF YOU JUST WRITE 'CHEESE' THEN IT COUNTS! EVEN IF YOU'RE NOT LOGGED IN OR DON'T HAVE AN ACCOUNT I WANT TO KNOW IF SOMEONE OUT THERE IS READING THIS! PLEASE!

Thanks luv ya!

Shady

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