River of Blood
Chapter 5: I promise
'Arrow! Thanks for the reviews and this chapter is kind of more 'happy' actually no… just plain funny and yeah there is romance… and the opposite but I promise it will get better then better then when things were about to get to a 'happily ever after' Slade comes in and…. Well we'll have to wait for that won't we! grins no seriously I don't even know what will happen yet I will make it up as I go! Yay! Go me! Anyway enjoy this one and REVIEW! …..please?
Disclaimer: I don't own Teen titans but I own the new clothes I got from Glassons and JayJays! I smiles and walks down catwalk showing my new gothic style very cool clothing… then trips over high platform gothic boots and falls and breaks neck and dies and everyone applauses… at least I die with a smile! . Yay! Go me!
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Robin smiled and stroked her cheek softly and he kissed her gently on the cheek.
"There is always hope"
Robin didn't want to wake her so he carried her up to the tower past the slightly confused Titans that were wishing to help their cold and sick friend. BB looking rather depressed than the others held a hand to her but Robin backed away.
"… Leave her alone"
He tried to say in the softest voice possible trying not to sound offensive to Beast Boy. He continued his walk to Raven's room, he opened the door and laid her on her bed and while he was pulling her sheets over her she awoke.
Raven looked at him and smiled and when Robin noticed her, he stopped and leaned over her and stared at her into her deep violet eyes that hold the most tragic secret a young girl could ever have.
She was confused and then he narrowed his eyes at her but tried to force a smile off…. Ok an extreme case of hysteria by what he wanted to talk to her about and wanted to save the laughing for her embarrassment.
"Is there something you want to… talk to me about?"
Robin was taunting her and she did get the hint but was trying not to think of it, she would never tell him ANYTHING not even that she had a desperate craving for cheese, they would never know.
"Something… serious?"
She nodded her side to side slowly trying to look like she had no idea what he was talking about but to Robin, she was making him think that he was the Mayor of Crazy Town in the land of Retardia… lovely place it is.
"… Any secrets? Emotions? Facts? …Anything? Oh that's right you won't talk will you?"
She nods her head up and down slightly smiling at what he has just learnt today.
"Well how about I tell you what I know?"
Raven's smile fads and she turns over away from Robin still lying on her bed.
"… I know why you left… you found something out… a secret that would screw up your life forever… and you thought your friends wouldn't like you again for it… even though it wasn't your fault… you ran away… took all your personal things with you… and sat on the side of the road ready to rot…"
Raven was listening and what hurt was everything that he said was true about her. She let 2 tears drip from both eyes and closed them trying to trick him into being asleep by his lovely 'bedtime story'.
"But you never told anyone… not even your most trusted friend who would understand and always be there for you no matter what happens… you left yourself to die and hoped no one would find you and for what you did… and everything is the cause of one particular person… the one that made your life a living nightmare… the one that got you pregnant…."
Raven let a horrified gasp from her mouth and was about to scream because of the memories she could feel him behind her, she could hear his breathing and smell his hot breath, she could feel his hands all over her and Raven opened her eyes bloodshot and jumped out of bed surprising Robin and ran to her Mirror.
She looked in it and in her eyes she saw Robin as Slade and she screamed so loud and her emotions were let go and shattered the mirror into a thousand pieces cutting and scaring her body. She moved away near her books they were already being flown out towards her and he room was a mess again and Raven couldn't stop it… she needed to end her pain now.
Right then a very frightened Robin held her and turned her around to face him and she saw Robin, the one who has always been there for her and even now when she is going insane. The room stopped rattling and things stopped moving and breaking and Raven breathed deeply trying to calm down.
"Raven! Relax it's only me… it's only me… you're ok now… you're safe"
He brought her to himself and held her in a tight hug and she hugged him back and she wrapped her arms around him, she wanted to tell him everything about what she has done and what happened but out of millions of things important to say she only said one… marshmallow! Jokes…
"S-Slade…"
She choked out and Raven held her back to look at her properly and had a wild eyed look on his face.
"Raven! You're talking!"
"Slade! Slade! He did it! Slade! It was at night and I was asleep but then I saw something and my mirror broke and I saw a shadow and-"
Robin held her again thinking and listening while she was mumbling away non stop about what happened and she wasn't stopping for breaths either and then after a while she looked back to him.
"… but then you came for me, I never thought anyone would but … you…"
"Shh… enough talking…"
Raven right then burst into tears again and she brought both her hands to her face and then from behind a book blew up unexpectedly, Raven jumps and stops and turns to it.
"I'm sorry… about everything I ever did… I just didn't think you liked me…"
Robin denying this dragged her into him and they had a long passionate kiss. Robin smiled and laughed when they were done but Raven just looked confused by this. Robin walked out of her door and yelled down the hallway.
"Oh really!"
Raven was left in her own messy room and thought she might as well tidy it up. Robin knew that what he was about to do was VERY risky and it could cost him his life unless it was reasonable but didn't want to spoil Raven's secret, he would leave her to do that. He walked past a few rooms with all the titans in them but he stopped at a certain one… Starfire.
He knocked on her door with the smile gone from his face but it was there in his mind but thought it would be knocked right out his noggin soon. The door slowly opened to a scared Starfire but when she saw Robin she smiled and jumped on him almost strangling him.
"Robin!"
"…h he hi 'tar"
He choked out and Star let go and starting questioning him.
"Is friend Raven ok? I heard some screaming and disruptance in our home and is she alright? Does she require assistance with anything? Must she need the girl-to-girl talking?"
Robin thought it best to answer her questions first or she might get real angry if he jumped into the subject.
"Um no she's fine she just needs some rest… what are you doing now"
She giggles and grins frightfully at him and holds up her hands, with her gloves off she has them all painted a light pink colour and on her left hand pinkie has a small white heart on it. It certainly smelled like nail vanish and Robin looks in disgust but trying not to offend Starfire and her preppy ways.
"I have been performing the painting of the finger nails to get my mind of things so horrible lately…"
Starfire sighed and stared at her heart… it might as well have a knife sticking through it and be on fire. Robin thought now that the time was right… he would break up with her. (Oh in the beginning of chapter…2? I said they were dating and were together and stuff but not anymore!)
"Um… Starfire?"
"Hmm?"
"Uh… you know how we have been dating for what… 3… 4 weeks now? And I do love you but…"
Oh no! She is getting suspicious!
"…I...I just don't think that… this is going to work out"
There now that was easy! Now for the aftermath! grabs popcorn and watches from BB's room intensely
"…you are … doing the 'dumping' on me?..."
"I'm sorry Star but we are still friends? Right?"
"But I thought it was going so well! What did I ever do-"
"No no! It was never you it was me! It was always me!"
Star holds back tears of betrayal and looks down at her purple boots. After a while Robin puts a hand on her shoulder.
"Starfire…"
Star looks up slowly with anger in her bright glowing green eyes, and Robin backs away carefully.
"Star?"
She flies back into her room and grabs everything she can find and starts yelling at him with a mix of Tamaranian and English and Robin to paranoid to move is unfortunately an easy target for her very hard and girly objects flown at him. Poor Robin.
"OUCH! Starfire! Stop it! Cut it out!"
"You said you loved me! And that no love can last like this love!"
Right then Starfire picked up a hair dryer from her bed and throw it at him and Robin trying to reason with Star didn't see it coming and it hit him on the head! Robin yells in pain and falls backward on the ground. Starfire realises what damage she has done to her friend and she gasps and runs to his side, Robin holding his bleeding head in pain.
"Robin! Oh! I am sorry! I did not mean to-"
"No no… it's ok… I think I deserved that and no you didn't mean to hit me on the head with a hair dryer hence the 'throwing hard objects at Robin for dumping me' game"
He smirks at her and she just gets pissed at him again and turns around and walks into her room without a word not even caring if Robin had brain damage or was already brain dead or had eternal bleeding or AIDS or anything serious like that. He sighs and walks back past everyone's rooms and noticed that they are slightly open with one or two eyes poking from them.
"Hey guys!"
He shouts and almost immediately every door had shut loudly and they run to their beds pretending to be asleep. Robin laughs manically… maybe he did get brain damage… shrugs Star was the doctor and she gave it pass not my job. He waked to Raven's room and knocked on her door.
"Me again"
The door opened and Raven was already dressed in her usual uniform and was dry apart from her hair was a bit damp, she was still looking confused about what he did and then noticed the cut on his forehead…
"Robin! Your head! It's bleeding… what did you do? Break up with Starfire!"
"Actually yeah I did"
"…Maybe you really are brain damaged"
She walked back to her bed and sat down on it looking depressed, Robin followed her and sat next to her.
"What's wrong?"
"…why did you do that?"
"Because… you need someone around, to help you deal with this and I can't really help you while I'm dating Starfire"
"You wouldn't dump her just for me… would you?"
"…well… I always thought she was… kind of 'too happy'… on our third, she tried to drag me to the Santary Moons! I wondered if the air was even breathable"
Raven let out a weak laugh and Robin smiled at her.
"…So when are you going to tell the others about you being… well you know"
"I was planning that they would figure it out"
"Come on Raven you have to tell them or I will! And why can't I? You can trust them they are our friends and Starfire will understand why I dumped her, and it's not like they are not going to notice I mean you are already getting fat"
"…But… what if they hate me? What if they don't want me and think I'm a slut faced hoe and wants me to live my own life?"
Robin can't believe Raven would even think that and he hugs her tight with his warm arms wrapped around her shoulders massaging them gently.
"They would never do anything like that to you ever you hear me? And Raven… don't cut… please don't cut and don't end your life… you have a lot to experience instead of staying locked up in your room all day. Things will get better… I promise"
Raven looks at him and nods thinking about the pain… what about the pain… could it be it was never really there? Just something she thought was ruining her life? Destroying her pain by making it worse… if she could suffer a quick painless death, she would die happy… but since having to live with it… she doesn't know what will happen and doesn't even want to think about it.
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OK so that was it for this chapter and yawn I'm tired I want to go to bed… NO! I'M HUNGRY! looks in cupboards hopefully and finds… OMG! THERE ARE MARSHMELLOWS! AHHHHH! runs down street in PJ while being attacked by a mob (packet) of 95 fat free, pink and white, squishy MARSHMELLOWS! THE WORLD HAS COME TO AN END! …I'm serious! Or maybe I'm on crack… nah I'm pretty sure I'm serious. At school we got this dodgy books about drugs, sex, abuse and all that Jazz and tomorrow I fear we might have …'the talk'! DUN DUN DUN! Wish me luck! Maybe we'll just watch a video instead! …even worse! I can not escape the dodgy ness! Help! …I think I'll go to bed now. Rock on man!
Shady
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