River of Blood
Chapter 8: It is time
…Smile for the world Shady… -grins at everyone and they run away screaming- and this just proves NEVER trust your conscious. Ok this is kind of near the end of story so random stuff happens and I will miss out stuff simply because I do not know what happens… and I wouldn't try it either… I just don't want to go into gory detail like in chapter 3 when I scared nearly everyone away…
So basically suicidal stuff coming: D stay tuned!
Disclaimer: My mummy sayth I'm thpecial no matter what the other kidth thay! You talks funnys! ….I got a lithp! …a littthhhhhpp! So that's why I don't own teen titans! OMG! Ok just review my story! PLEASE! I'll give you brownie! –Waves them in front of readers- no? How about a BLUEBERRY MUFFIN? NO! YOU'RE NOT GETTING THEM! THEY ARE MINE! –Stuffs 10 of them in mouth-
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Raven had grown very close to Robin over the 8 months, she even let him start hugging and kissing her in public and let him sleep with her. She trusted him and the titans again. She could always be with them and never be afraid of anything at all, not even Slade. When ever there was a villain to take down or disaster to stop, after 2 months, Raven never came. People got suspicious but there was never any word about it, she just stayed in the tower and never left. Only on one condition that she cleans and tidies up the tower, she wasn't impressed but it was a living.
Everyone was ok with Raven being pregnant and respected it and gave her more space, always asking and offering things to her like she was the queen of England. She was better than ok, she was happy and nobody could take that away from her… true, there had been slightly unfortunate events… like with Beast Boy around 5 months when the titans were downtown shopping…
Flashback
Raven walked around the corner to the living room and wasn't aware that BB was coming the opposite way. The knocked into each other and they both feel on the ground with a moan. Beast Boy rubbed his head then looked up to see Raven, he gasped and looked gob smacked. He jumped up and lifted Raven off the ground.
"Raven! Are you ok! I'm sorry! I didn't see you! And I-"
"It's ok… I'm fine"
There was an awkward silence between them when BB just started smiling at her, then he lifted both his hands and placed them softly on Raven's mostly fat stomach, and he watched them. Raven started to feel fear, the fear that he might turn against her and if she doesn't oblige then he will hurt her… then no, he was her friend and he would never hurt her… he's just got an interesting way of saying hello…
"…it kicked"
"It missed your head"
Raven joked still using her daily sarcastic insults, Beast Boy shifted his hands from her stomach to her back and held her while he stepped forward and kissed Raven on the lips passionately. Raven eyes widened in terror and she pushed him away and stumbled back holding to the doorway to get back her balance. Beast Boy's face when white and his mouth fell open like some sort of retarded fish.
"OMG! Raven! I didn't mean it! Please don't tell Robin, he'll kill me!"
"You had your chance Beast Boy… but you never got there… and I'm no Terra"
Raven kept walking past Beast Boy and went to the living room. Beast Boy was left standing their, he had just kissed Raven who was in love with Robin. Beast Boy missed Terra deeply and couldn't get over her, but she would just keep rejecting him and that hurt him real bad. He just saw Raven as Terra and she realised that he was comparing her to his crush, but Raven wasn't hurt, she was just concerned… always concerned.
End Flashback
That was the most disturbing time, Robin never did find out and now BB has seen Terra kissing and hanging out with another guy. He was heart broken. After Robin broke up with Starfire she had seriously been better off, she has been having more freedom and been feeling good about herself, rather than been trapped by Robin and his limits apparently. Cyborg and Bumble Bee have started dating too and it seems to be going well enough for them.
And then… One fine morning of June 6th 2006… (Ha! 666 get it? Go me!)
Starfire jumped up and down outside Robin's room and was chanting, over in the corner of the corridor was Cyborg and Beast Boy trying to cover their ears from the dreadful debate about nothing.
"COFFEE! COFFEE! COFFEE!"
Robin came out of his room nearly scared to death by Star's high jumping and shouting, he ran over to the corner with the others and tried not to be seen.
"No! Go back out there! She'll come over!"
Cyborg was right, Star jumped over to them and yelled in their faces louder than ever and then from a distant room it opened to Raven. She looked tired with blue bags under her eyes and she had on a grey t-shirt and a black cardigan wrapped around the top half of her body, she had stretchy black pants on and no shoes, her hair had been grown out to about just below shoulder length all the way around. To Robin, she was a fallen angel.
"COFFEE! COFFEE! COFFEE!"
"Star… migraine"
She stopped yelling and joined the others giggling madly like she was high. Robin walked over to her and held her hands in his.
"You sure you are going to be ok here by yourself?"
"I'm sure it's not that hard"
"…ok, well be back soon"
He kissed her lips quickly trying not to look at the others laughing and their teasing.
"So what do want to get Star?"
"Um… may I please purchase the Hot Chocolate?"
Raven laughs to herself thinking how could she get such great friends… a guy with a giant sunglasses, a cyborg, an alien and a shape shifter with an extremely munted green tan. It was a life… well a better lived one now anyway. She thought what would have happened if she was gone… would the titans still be together? Happy and rearing to go like always?
Raven walked to the kitchen and started to make herself a herbal tea, she got the cup and boiled the kettle and got her tea and uh… made it? Um… never made tea before… sorry guys! I munted it! Anyway she got her tea then walked to the TV but then her eyes were consumed by a great pain and Raven dropped her tea, hands shaking and moaned as she fell to her knees on the floor clenching her stomach.
She screamed in agony and tried to get up, she fell over a few times hitting her head on the doorway. Once she was up, she took out her communicator and held it to her face… then she threw it across the room, not wanting to disturb the others. She made her way downstairs and walked outside. It was sort of cloudy and misty now, but she didn't care.
She walked over to the rocks and tried to get to the salty ocean water, she fell over and cut her leg, another huge scar right down her leg behind the ripped shreds of her pants. She let out a cry of pain but tried to hold back her emotions but it was no use, rocks started melting and blowing up and being thrown into the sea.
She finally got to the water and jumped in, feeling the stabbing cold liquid cover her body. She closed her eyes tight and watched the black darkness behind her eye lids and held her breath the best so could.
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Raven opened her eyes suddenly and swam to the surface of the sea, she jumped up gasping for breath and coughed. She looked around the water around her and put out her arms till then she saw it… it was her baby.
Raven's blood drained from her face as she carefully lifted her child to the surface, trying not to hurt it. She bought it out but it was not moving. Raven let river flood from her eyes that surely must drown her. She held her new born baby girl and took of her cardigan and wrapped it around her to keep it warm, but yet the baby wouldn't even breathe.
Raven feared she was too late… that she left the baby under the surface of the ocean too long, not giving it any air to breath… suffocating it… murdering it. Raven clenched it with her shaking arms and held it in front of her.
"… Please… breathe, move… do anything! Oh god, please!"
Raven let out a choked whisper, she looked at her child and she felt like she actually wanted the baby… she couldn't fight the bond between mother and child, it was too strong. She wanted to keep her and raise her and be the best mother she could ever possibly be… but her dreams would be shattered if the baby was dead, Raven would be broken.
Raven thought she was dead. She let her child go and it started to sink into the depths of the dark waters. She couldn't bear to face anyone with her dead new born. She watched it till its face fell below the surface… Raven let her tears continue to flow over her pale face but it was no use crying over something that could not be changed. She had killed her own baby… but she thought it would have been better off… never have known her villainous father… and her insane mother.
Then Raven felt a little hand on hers… she gasped and looked down on her baby to see it squirming for oxygen trying to get to her mother to say… I love you. Raven lifted it out of the water and it coughed and choked out the salty water in its throat and it opened its tiny indigo coloured eyes and stared at Raven and it smiled at her and put a hand out to her.
Raven sobbed and smiled back and touched it hand and rubbed it gently… it was alive… this was the best thing that could ever happen to Raven, and no one could take away this moment from her and her baby, she kissed her on the head softly and held her to her warm body and it rested.
"Sleep tight… My Rachel… I love you"
She said to her baby and she swam back to the rocks with one hand and climbed up and sat on the staring to the city while letting the hot sun dry them. Then Raven couldn't believe it… she was a mum… but where was the dad? Then from behind her she heard a light chuckle, she felt very protective of her baby, she warmed up her powers and turned around and screamed at the intruder's presence.
"My dear little Rachel… and my sweet… Raven'
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-Claps loudly- Congratulations Raven! Poor Raven… like if her baby died… that's the most horrible thing that can happen to someone… -wipes away tear- I can't believe Raven would just leave her baby there! Meanie! Well there I told you it was important! Jokes it gets way more important but the only thing you have to do is REVIEW! PLEASE! I WANT TO KNOW IF PEOPLE ARE READING NOW! IT'S NOT DISTURBING IS IT? Oh well 12:06am …time for bed! Doubt there is anything on now.
Shady