Title: Confused Heart
Author: Ying fa18
Short Summary: Falling in love? Great! Twice? Now that's different! A young girl's heart is caught up on who or what to follow…she can't just let destiny to unfold itself… she has to unfold it herself! Easier said than done…For now… Hope for the best!
Full Summary: Sakura Kinomoto falls in love with a total stranger on her birthday and finds out next morning that she's engaged to hell-knows-who and runs away to seek comfort down town and falls in love all over again, this time, to some commoner with an attitude who seems to be more than meets the eye…Can first love easily be just overcame by three weeks time by some who knows jackass?
Disclaimer: Well duh… of course I don't own CCS or any of it all…
Ages: : Sakura-18 : Tomoyo-18 :
Caution: M rated…… for language! Chapter 2: "My own little fairy tale…"'that's how my sister…Sakura Kinomoto is…this is how she lives it…her life…it's the joy of being Sakura Kinomoto…princess of all Japan…' Tomoyo thought to herself following sakura going towards the food table as the next song, "Let Me Be With You" played.
(Let Me Be With You)
I cast a spell to let me meet somebody…(baby baby)Place both hands together once more
So I will smile…
I pretend not to show my feelings
And all of a sudden we're together
I fell in love…(yeah)
Let Me Be With You…(yeah)
Let Me Be With You…(yeah)
Let Me Be With You…(yeah)
I want to hold you…(yeah)
Let Me Be With You…(yeah)
Until now, unable to say it, I've just been hiding it (baby baby)
I'm only acting strong, that's all it is, please see through it…
Just wait five more minutes after we meet…
And after that we fell in love…(yeah)
Let Me Be With You…(yeah)
Let Me Be With You…(yeah)
Let Me Be With You…(yeah)
I just want to cry…(yeah)
Just wait five more minutes until we can meet
I feel uneasy, I feel uneasy…
Let Me Be With You…(yeah)
Let Me Be With You…(yeah)
Let Me Be With You…(yeah)
I just want to hold you forever…(yeah)
(Yeah…)
-END-
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Tomoyo's POV (point of view)
'I wonder where sakura's going…I doubt she's hungry…I'm pretty sure there's another reason why she's going to the food table…' I thought as I followed my sister who was going towards the food table.
'Oh shit!' I thought as I saw sakura come into such a sudden halt right in front of me. I almost bumped into her…
'Where do I think I'm going! What's gotten into me! Why the hell am I heading towards the food table! Should I turn back?' Sakura thought as she slowly glance
back and saw a small glimpse of Tomoyo behind her.
'No…if I do Tomoyo would get suspicious…I guess I have no choice…' Sakura thought as she slowly continued walking towards the food table.
'I mean…there's nothing wrong with me going towards the food table… I'll just tell Tomoyo I was thirsty…' Sakura concluded stopping slowly in front of the table. Looking around.
Mr. Mysterious was nowhere in sight…
'Sakura seems…odd…odder than usual?' I thought to myself. To me, sakura looked as if she was looking for someone else… 'Could it be? Hmm… nah! must be my imagination getting to me…' I thought as I quickly tried to erase these thoughts and doubts about Sakura.
End of Tomoyo's POV
Princess Sakura slowly walked amongst the cheery, happy, rich, perky people that were in her castle right now. Trying her best to reach the table as slowly as she could possibly go.
'Did Tomoyo-chan stopped following me?' the emerald-eyed girl thought to herself not daring to look behind her, afraid she would have to face Tomoyo's observing eyes.
She knew…she knew if Tomoyo could just look at her… she could see right through Sakura's thoughts…
After a few moments of Sakura's self-debate, she realized that she has reached the table, wondering what she should do next, she slowly turned around and realized Tomoyo wasn't there anymore.
Tomoyo looked around and realized she just lost Sakura in the crowd.
'Well…she was headed for the food table…' the maiden thought to herself as and started walking again while wrapped up in her own thoughts.
Sakura looked around to see…a…well…a Tomoyo-free surrounding… she could have laughed at finally succeeding to loose Tomoyo at a time like this.
Unfortunately, it was no laughing matter because now she felt alone and worried as to how people will react when they see her and find out who she is.
Sakura just felt nervous and that horrible lurch in your stomach like someone was watching her…
'It's nothing… maybe I'm just nervous…yeah… that's right… I don't believe such funny premonitions…' Sakura thought to herself breathing in slowly as she lowered a glass to her lips and drank as she started walking away towards the other side of the room.
How very wrong she is…because someone is watching her…
'Oh no….where did Sakura go….' Tomoyo wondered to herself as she walked around the place.
'Hmm… where does Sakura usually go at times like this?' Tomoyo asked herself as her eyes darted around the room and landed on a pair of open glass doors that reflected the moonlight and the stars twinkling above.
'Of course! The balcony! I feel so stupid!… not that I'm not…really…' Tomoyo smiled contentedly to herself as she started walking.
"Oh my! I… I…I'm so, so sorry…" Tomoyo muttered in a hushed tone that clearly said she was sincere with her words.
"I… I wasn't looking where I was going… I'm so sorry…" Tomoyo muttered again before the man in front of her could reply to her first apology.
She was about to apologize again when the boy, who looked almost just about her age, stood up and held a hand to help Tomoyo stand up.
"Quite alright… it was my fault, I wasn't looking where I was going as well." The boy muttered absent-mindedly.
Tomoyo could only gaze at him and seemed to have forgotten the reason she was here in the first place.
He said another quick apology before staring to walk away slowly and disappeared amongst the crowd of people.
'funny how people always disappear like that in events such as these…hmm…' Tomoyo thought as she straightened her posture and went opposite the direction of her original, once, desired place.
Sakura meanwhile had started upon going towards the balcony, still clutching her glass that was only half way done.
When she reached the balcony, she leaned upon the smooth, marble made railings of their palace's balcony.
She looked up at the skies, the moon and the beautiful stars shining down on her with a dreamy expression all over her face.
She closed her eyes as she lay her head on her own shoulders, letting the cool, crisp night breeze wash over her face as she took in this small time of peace and quiet to herself.
She opened her eyes and looked up once again to the heaven above as a shooting star flew overhead.
Sakura smiled contentedly to herself, completely unaware of the pair of intense, amber eyes watching her not from afar, but directly beside her, hidden amongst the shadows in his long black cloak.
"I wish life was easy, and I didn't have to make such absurd decisions and fate could just give me someone who can love me and I'll love back with all my heart and he'll take care of me and… he won't hurt me…" Sakura thought to herself thinking and focusing on the shooting stars she just saw.
"Don't we all?" came a strong, determined voice from the shadows.
"Hoe!" Sakura's shrill voice rang as she dropped the glass in front of the owner of the new voice that was now walking closer towards her with an expression of deep amusement and mystery.
"Watch it lady, this isn't your home…" The boy said as calmly as ever as thought girls usually dropped their unfinished glasses in front of him in a balcony everyday.
"And I suppose this is your palace! And don't you call me lady, old geezer!" Sakura said clearly annoyed that this idiot is talking to her in her palace, in her balcony and calling her lady when it was clear that she was younger than this freak. I mean, she did own it, err… her parents did but she was their daughter! But he's is not to know that right now.
"Not likely. Unless you're clearly, and utterly, a blubbering idiotic lady, which I have no doubt you are, you would know, I think, that a princess lives here… not a prince." The rude asshole explained calmly to her as if reading a story she has never heard of before.
"Well Mr. Knowledge," Sakura started angrily, her hand on her sides glaring at him like she's never glared before at any other person. "For your information, there is prince Touya." She retorted angrily.
"I'm sorry Lady Idiot, you might have forgotten that prince Touya is 24 years old, and I am currently 19 for your, ehm…currently missing…knowledge." The rude boy retorted as calm as ever.
'How could he stay calm like that! Crap him!' Sakura thought making a face at him.
"How was I to know that you're 19 eh? For all I know, your looks clearly indicate OLD!" Sakura replied angrily.
It was true, by the maturity of his eyes; he was just as old or even older than her brother, Touya.
"You should know that prince Touya Kinomoto is tall" The freaky boy retorted to her.
"So what? And what do you know anyways? I didn't think you even had an actual brain to think! I feel sorry for the guy you stole it from! He should be looking for it now so why don't you get out of my sight and just return it!" Sakura replied angrily trying very hard to restrain her voice so as not to act a crowd… it was all she needed…really…
"I think that you're the one who doesn't have a brain. I would have left her ages if I could have, heck I wouldn't even be here, let alone even be in this damn country if I could help it, stupid." He replied coolly, not even losing his temper.
"Damn you! To hell with you! Urgh! Get away from me stupid asshole!" Sakura replied through gritted teeth.
She cant even think of a response to that incompetent jerk! That's just sick!
She stomped all the way back into the grandly decorated hall and back into her own birthday party when a voice stopped her in mid step.
"So…. Finally lost your words eh? HA! Youre even more stupid than I thought!" the boy smirked evilly, his arms on his chest watching her with amused and satisfied eyes.
"Get a life loser asshole!" Sakura replied rolling her eyes continuing towards the hall, this time in a manner more suitable.
"Al ready have… it's insulting you till you go mad as hell!" the boy laughed evilly.
Sakura glared at him as hard as she could then resumed stomping all the way back when tripped and fell flat on the face.
When she got back to her feet, she convinced herself to not ever, not for ANYTHING will she look behind her and see that satisfied smirk lurking in the mouth of that wretched, evil, horrible, evil, stupid, evil, insensitive, evil, crappy, evil, bad, evil, unmannered, evil, sharp tongued, evil, mean, evil, bratty, evil, spoilt, evil and just about everything else you can say bad about the guy! And EVIL… evil I tell you…. evil!
Yet from all the laughing, the sniggering, the side comments such as, 'klutz' and 'stupid' and 'idiotic' and 'clumsy' need Sakura say more? Yes? 'blind', 'gullible' and… argh! Just… just that! You should be able to get the picture! Were clearly heard as day.
"Shut up why don't you, you freaky bastard!" Sakura fumed, not even bothering to turn around as her face turned from pink to fuming red.
But in her stupidity, She looked around anyways and he was, indeed… clutching his sides like Sakura had imagined it… damn imagination…. And one hand was on the railings to support himself from falling to the floor and banging his fist to control himself from laughing uncontrollably and idiotically…
Sakura frowned. What an ass…. She thought to herself as she watched the guy laugh and finally…finally the laughter subsided…
"Finally realized you actually needed air to breathe?" Sakura asked coolly, raising an eyebrow and looking him up and down.
"Well excuse me lady," he started, smirking once again to Sakura's reaction, which was glaring at him while her hands formed a fist. "I, for your information, am a well educated person unlike yourself. So I believe that you don't even know the first thing about anything, for that matter, everything" he mocked Sakura looking at her with those bemused eyes of his.
"Hoe?" Sakura asked softly as her features softened. Her eyes expanded to their original size and her mouth straightened as she let loose her hands which was a fist just a moment ago, ready to punch the living daylights out of the guy and hide his body behind the bushes in the garden below. Her eyes showed confusion as she continued to look at the guy with undying concentration.
"See… you can't even process what I've just told you through your little, empty brain" the boy asked in mocked as a devilish grin became evident on his face.
"You…you! I hate you!" Sakura squealed tearfully. She bit her lower lip, praying hard that he won't notice the tears staring to well from her emerald eyes.
Sakura expected for him to laugh and tease her about being a 'cry-baby' or 'spoiled' but she didn't expect his smile to disappear almost instantly. She looked as if she found her shoes interesting as tears threatened to drop. She was careful not to let him see the tears forming in her eyes and she was careful not to blink, afraid to let a tear drop down her cheeks.
"I… I'm s-s-s…sor… don't cry." He stuttered.
"I'm not crying." Sakura forced her words out.
"Don't be stupid. I know your crying." The arrogant boy said as if he just didn't stutter a moment ago.
"So what if I'm clumsy! What if I'm stupid! It's not like you care, or will ever care! You can't even apologize properly!" Sakura cried.
The boy was taken back with her sudden outburst and he too stared at hi feet when he felt the girl walk away.
"Hey! Wait!" he said as he unconsciously grabbed her wrist to stop her from walking away from him.
"What do you want?" the Sakura hissed at him as she tried to wrench her wrist away from the boy that insulted her so much but didn't even bother to say sorry.
He realized what he was doing but didn't do anything about it. 'Her hands are soft to touch…' he said to himself without thinking. That's when he found an urge to…
"Dance with me?" he asked looking square into her beautiful emerald green eyes which slowly reflected a confused expression at the guy's sudden question out of the blue.
It was a weird feeling…it happened too fast but for Sakura.
She didn't even notice… just the feeling of his hand on hers… it was breath taking… it felt like a new burst of emotion at that moment… surely not love but something else…like there's something about him…
Whatever this feeling is…it feels nice… it's as if… a sort of scene that was bound to happen in just a fairy tale… or a… or a…a sort of freaky story a mad author just came up with to pass the time because she ran out of things to do and stories to read and an internet prepaid card to use and visit sites and maybe wait for a someone to go online and rant on about thing her readers obviously, really don't care about and get herself all hyper and freaky and wanting so much to dare what she hasn't dared to do before… simply saying hi to that one she loved that forced her to write this scene wanting so much to be in Sakura's place all this time which was the very reason she always writes about fluffy, mushy, romantic freaky love stories that twists and turns and simply indescribable…
But it wasn't like that…it was really happening…to Sakura… it was all she needed to nod and show that she said "yes." Even Sakura was shocked at her own daring…but she agreed…and there was no way to go back to what she has said and done.
The boy looked at her with unbelieving eyes, daring Sakura to say that again.
Getting what he was unknowingly hinting to her, she nodded again and with a strong, final voice, "Yes. I'll dance with you."
It seemed forever that they held each other when he led her back to the main ballroom of the Kinomoto palace.
Sakura let herself be steered into the middle of the ballroom by a guy she barely knew and allowed him to put his strong hands on her waist.
Sakura's POV
I absolutely cannot believe that, I have allowed myself to be taken to my own ballroom, in my palace by a guy I barely know! For all I know, he could be some kind of…of… mad killer or something near that or something along that line. (Is there even something like that?) But… the way he asked me… just out of the blue… I could sense it… even though it happened…no…. even though it just appeared for a millisecond… his face…. It had something in it I just can't describe… it's as if… it was true, he had been sincerely sorry… I don't even know what I'm talking about…
I just stared off into nothingness as the boy held my waist gently yet firmly despite his appearance.
I could just imagine it somehow… by the touch of his hand, I knew it would be like gliding in the clouds without a worries… his hands seemed so gentle no matter which way he held me… it was like a dream come true… we would dance together and when we're finished, we would get closer and be friends and he'll apologize properly for what he did… I could just hear him calling me right now… I sighed… even the way he called me… so firm, strong, yet caring….and worried… wait! Worried?
"Erm…are you alright …uh…?" he asked me looking at me.
"Oh, yes… sorry. I was just spacing out… don't worry…" I replied shyly. Damn! Did I just daydream in front of him? Please oh please no!
"Oh. If you're sure you're fine then…?" he asked me.
"Oh!" I said softly as I got the point he was making. He was asking my name! How could I be so darn stupid! But no…I can't simply tell him, "I am Princess Kinomoto Sakura, now, what can you match against that fact? And please, I request you to repeat what you have told me in my balcony if you please?" No! of course not that! Think… think… what name would be perfect? I know!
"Sorry. My name is Midori, Amamamiya Midori." I told him meekly.
"Nice to meet you Amamamiya-san." He replied. 'She's going to ask my name… I just know it…I can't tell her my name…what name would be perfect? I know!' the boy thought to himself.
I looked at him questioningly and he seemed to get the message and replied: "Keichiro, Amigashi Keichiro."
"Nice to meet you as well, Amigashi-san. And please call me Midori." I smiled at him.
"Then feel free to call me Keichiro." He grinned at me. 'That smile…it's just so beautiful…she's not bad looking as well, for that matter.'
It wasn't song when a new song played, and Keichiro and me danced together, silently and unconsciously admiring the other.
Hitotsu dake: Only one
Looking into your eyes
You always kept silent
Each time I saw you in my dream
You turned away before I could see your smile
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I stared into the maturity of his shining, deep amber eyes… it was the first time she noticed his eye color… the sight of it mesmerized me… I didn't notice it at first, but I knew I was staring… I knew I was in a trance…because his deep amber eyes were also looking at me. It's gaze was burning through me… but not in a bad way… it was burning through my heart… I don't know if it was his gaze, just getting to me…but I… in those eyes…I saw longing…the way he burned through my heart, as if trying to get through….this simply cannot be love…
'Yes…this isn't that feeling called love…it's something else…but what, I do not know what…' I thought to myself, not taking my gaze away from his eyes, hoping he doesn't notice.
But a voice in the back of my head told me otherwise: 'if this feeling cannot be called love, then what do you call love?'
Please stop…all this confusion…I do not like it…please stop the confusion.
As we continued to dance, I felt it more… confusion and this new feeling…yes…it was just like a dream…
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I realized who was important to me
You always protected me, didn't you?
Through it all, gradually, you're the only one
Always call me, and I'll help you
You're brave and you're amazing
Here, now, gently surfacing
Receive these overflowing feelings
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'Feelings? What feelings…please…. stop reminding… me…of what?'
What his eyes could do was mysterious…. he can make me confused yet clear my mind at the same time… 'What are you doing to me? I barely know you….' I thought to myself as I thought about him and how I'm feeling and what exactly, I'm feeling.
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Even though you were often scowling
You were always by my side
Among my feelings
You became treasured
I realized who my beloved was
More and more I felt in love
Gradually, finally, you're the only one
Always call me, because I will believe in you
Your courage, your kindness
Look, I'm sure this is it
Receive these overflowing tears
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'Sure? Sure of what?'
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The water, the wind, the sun, the earth
The moon, the stars, I'd give them all to you
You're brave, you're amazing
Here, now, gently surfacing
Receive these overflowing feelings
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'Feelings again… what's wrong with me tonight?'
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To you I give the future
Look, here, it's sparkling
Surrounded completely by feelings, you're the only one
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'Finally, it's ending. No more talk of feelings to confuse me… but…does this mean I have to stop being with him? No… I don't want to stop…I… I want to be with him…please let me be with him…I want you to be by my side…please?' I thought…I never realized that what I was thinking reflected in my expression…
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END (of the song :-P) )
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"Are you sure you're alright?" He whispered with worried yet questioning eyes.
"Oh…y-yes… don't worry…I'm sorry I was spacing out…" I stuttered as I tried to hide a blush.
He took one long look at me and a devilish grin played on his handsome features. He gave a wide smirk and said: "Can't resist me? I can't blame you." He winked.
I stared at him unbelievingly for a second but reconsidered. I put on a soft smile and replied: "Maybe. Thanks for not blaming me." I winked back as he started to guide me back near the door of the balcony.
He stared at me back, surprised by my reply but his startled expression turned into a flirting smile. "You are very different you know…" he told me as he met my gaze.
He leaned nearer to me, that our faces were just a few inches apart. "That" he said slowly closing in, "is exactly" he said as he came nearer for a second time as I dared to back away but failed. "What I" he continued. "Like about you." He said huskily as he closed a lot of distance between us that people that were looking from a not so far distance would think we were kissing… but that didn't matter… I personally liked it…. Not the flirting, but the way he said the words as if they were true from the bottom of his heart… but I knew better, he was playing me, but I didn't care.
"So you're admitting that you find me attractive then?" I asked, raising a brow as I smiled as sweet as I could to make him melt. It worked.
He stared at me, not once taking away his gaze from me nor backing away from his current position, which was leaning very, very close to my face.
"Well? I cannot blame you as well for finding me attractive." I winked at him. 'Is this me? Since when have I been a flirt? But… it feels natural… like it was true…like were not flirting at all… by the look in his eyes…it's as if he thinks I'm reading his mind…hoe? What's going on?'
'Crap! It's like she's reading my mind or something…' He thought as he just stared for like and eternity into Midori's evergreen, emerald eyes that sparkled with innocence and sincerity and courage all at the same time… but there's just something else….
"Well? Do not tell me you doubt now? Surely you don't?" I asked teasingly.
Keichiro smiled confidently. "You are unbelievably correct. You are attractive. Very. " he wasn't lying. She was very pretty.
"Hoe?" Sakura blinked. Did she just hear right? Did she just hear a straight confession from this guy that she was attractive and pretty? 'oh no… that feeling again…why do I always feel this way when I look into him?'
He chuckled softly. "What? Can't believe the truth?" he asked questioningly.
"I-" but he cut me off before I even answered.
"So…how old are you?" Keichiro asked, out of the blue.
"16. You?" Sakura answered automatically.
"17" Keichiro replied instantly.
"Oh" Sakura replied.
"I don't like it here…" Keichiro brought up, out of the blue once again.
"You too?" I replied, unsurprised. I felt so unnaturally confident with him as I felt like with Tomoyo. It seemed as if nothing he said or did could surprise me or shock me.
We looked at each other and nodded and we both started to walk back to the balcony we left minutes before when we went to have that wondrous dance together.
As we walked, Keichiro's hand just shot out of nowhere and grabbed mine. I looked at him questioningly and he replied "You're attractive remember?"
I laughed softly as I shook my head. "You're very strange…yet I feel comfortable with you…" I told him softly as I treasured the moment he held my hand for a second time.
"It's my charm. It shows that you're falling for me" he said casually as a smirk began to appear on his face.
"You are truly impossible." I shook my head.
"Yet you like that about me." He replied.
"How did you know?" I asked so suddenly.
"It's obvious." He replied, not meeting my gaze.
"It is that obvious? Am I really that transparent?" I asked him cautiously. How did he know?
"What? You mean it was true? You were serious?" he asked me, shocked and truly confused.
I blinked at him letting the words that left his mouth process through my thick skull… I blinked again…
I forced a laugh as he looked at me strangely.
"Of course not! I was joking!" I giggled.
He blinked and realized what was going on and grinned at me.
"I don't believe you" he smirked as he drew closer to me.
"Think what you want and I'll leave you to it" I sighed in defeat.
We reached the balcony and together, we both put our elbows on the cold, hard marble railing and watched the stars.
For a while we watched the stars and I let out and audible sigh. I felt his head turn towards me and watched me or a while.
For some time, I admit that it was quite fun, but it soon got irritating.
I turned to face him and saw his face full with utter delight as he looked at me. "What's so amusing if I may not be too rude to ask?" I asked politely looking at this freak that smiled and laughed at nothing.
He chuckled softly as he shook his head and raised his hands up in defeat.
"What?" I asked curiously.
He grinned at me and turned to look at the stars again. "You really want to know?" he asked me.
I considered this for a moment and said: "Of course I am." I smiled sweetly.
There was a long pause in which he seemed to have been having a self-debate on whether he should tell me. But after a while he seemed to have decided and turned to face me.
He gave a devilish grin before he swooped so fast near my ear. I felt his breath, it was so near me now…just his breath sent tingles down my spine… the electric shock that went around through my whole body gained more when he spoke: "It's you. You just have this effect on me…" he said huskily as he pecked at my neck.
I stood there shocked. I didn't honestly mind. I knew it meant nothing…the sweet words, gentle touch, hypnotizing words, friendly manner… he felt like the perfect prince charming out of a storybook. Just by looking at him, you could feel his natural charm.
He gave me a devilish grin and started to walk away. Before I knew it, my hand shot out and grabbed his own. "Don't… I… don't leave me…" I stuttered, not really knowing where this conversation was going, but it felt natural to me, out of instinct, yes, must be…
He turned his smirking face back at me. "What? Can't resist me huh?" he winked.
"You wish stupid!" I scoffed as I crossed my hands over my chest look away from him and pouted.
"You look cute when you pout." He chuckled as he lifted my chin up with his forefinger and thumb and look deeply into my eyes.
"I was just about to get us drinks, sweet Midori." He smiled with satisfaction.
"Oh…oh! I knew that! I was just… just… " I blushed.
"Just what exactly?" he smirked.
"Oh please! Get out of your delusional state of thinking that I'm in love with you because I am definitely not!" I scoffed.
He laughed at me and walked away. "Yeah sure! Just make sure you don't go with another guy while I go get something to drink for us, alright my dear Emerald! I'll miss you love!" he laughed.
In my mind, that scene flashed over and over again in my mind. "…Get out of your delusional state of thinking that I'm in love with you because I am definitely not!" 'Right?' I asked myself.
A few moments had passed carrying along with it, a disturbing, eerie and awkward silence.
"Gee… what a perfect scene for a ghost to appear…" I sighed to myself. I could have laughed… laughed nervously that is.
'He been gone for quite a while… maybe he's off with some other girl…' at this thought, my heart wrung uncomfortably. I didn't know why I was feeling this way, but I did. And there's nothing I could do to stop it… I turned around and… there he is…
He smiled at me and said: "Do you want to dance with me?"
I smiled back and took the hand he offered me.
And so we danced.
As we danced, the more he looked into my eyes… the more I realized things I thought I would not understand in my life…
I put my head on his chest as he held me safe.
When the song stopped, we stood there. My head still lying on his strong, warm chest.
I felt…
I knew…
Yes…
I am certain…
I am in love with you…
I smiled and closed me eyes…
'I love you…'
WELL NOW! That's about it, ne? LOL! Sorry for the super, duper long update! Gome! It's just that I'm having problems of my own and… well… it's confusing me… my heart is so confused right now! HEY! That goes well with my title right! Confused heart!
Not only am I having problems with how I feel but also with school. After I posted this fic, I never thought that activities in my school would come every week! I was so busy! Well… ok I wasn't… I only want to think I was because I was bored! Anyways… yeah… so should I put magic? Tell me in you reviews!
Oh! And reading other people's stories keep me away from mine! I love fluff! That's probably what my brain is made up of! Fluffy, mushy etc, etc, etc! lolz!
So…. Yeah…. That's it… and I had trouble deciding songs… honestly I haven't even heard hitotsu dake (only one)! If you have and it's fast…well… just imagine it as a slow song okay? I keep forgetting that this is middle age time… so I try to make them as polite as can be! Sorry if you see a scene that they're not so medieval-ly stuffy! Lolz!
For those who don't know…
Wrung: twisted – sort of that pain you feel in your heart when you think… or KNOW that you only one (hitotsu dake! hehehe) doesn't love you back or IGNORES YOU COMPLETELY! –looks around- me: I'm not gonna say it…-memory block-
Oh well…life aint fair nyweyz…….zzzzzz….geee….
Sana pala di nalang aku nagsalita! Notice someday I'm looking at you…
Oh well! My quote for this story… (ya… I'm starting one 'coz I feel like it…)
"Don't leave me, don't hate me, don't turn from me for reasons I don't want to hear,
You're always my friend, so please… don't say goodbye, now that you've said hello…"
Ooh! I just made that up now! That was only supposed to be "don't leave me"… but then…I realized the first day you had an ACTUAL conversation with me! You were just like Keichiro! (not the insulting part…but… you did sorta became like that…not that much thankfully!) but you actually talked to me! But now… non speaking terms are upon us again… kyaaaaaaan!
Wit for this story… (whaaaaaaat? hehhehe)
"I don't suffer from insanity…………. I enjoy every minute of it!"
P.S. Keichiro means "lucky son"
Midori means "green" I didn't know what emerald meant so I just used green! That's why "Keichiro" –cough… do I sense a strange likeness?- said:
"alright my dear Emerald!"
sigh…. I love mush!
Anyways… love lots…
-- Ying fa18 --