AN: I've never owned the Teen Titans, so why would I now? Quite asking!
Chapter 5
Three days passed. Three long days. Raven had barely come out of her room and Beast Boy was acting queer around everyone. Cyborg had finally returned and by the way Beast Boy was acting he wondered what he had missed.
"Yo, B, wanna play a few rounds of Mega Monkeys 10k?" asked Cyborg with a smile.
"No thanks, dude," said Beast Boy. "I'm not really in the mood."
"You sure?" asked Cyborg.
"Yeah," said Beast Boy. "I think I'm gonna go to my room for a while."
"Okay man," said Cyborg. Once Beast Boy was out of the room he said, "What's goin on with him?"
"I do not know," said Starfire. "He has been acting strange for these past few days."
"Terra, any ideas?" asked Robin. None of them knew that the two had broken up since Terra refused to believe it.
"No, but I'm sure it's nothing," she said with a smile.
"Perhaps you should do the talking with him," said Starfire.
"Yeah, I mean, they guy's your boyfriend," said Cyborg.
"That's right he is," said Terra in a weird tone. "I'll talk to him later."
Beast Boy hadn't felt right since he had kissed Raven. He didn't know why he had done it. It just felt like the right thing to do. He wasn't sure why. He wasn't sure why about anything. He only hoped he could finally work up the courage to talk to her.
He stood outside of her door with a knot in his stomach. He had to do it, for the sake of their friendship. He finally lifted his fist, which really felt heavier than usual, and rapped it on her door. He felt like he was going to be sick.
Slowly her door slid open and there she stood. "Oh… hi," she said looking to the floor.
"Hey," he said, doing the same thing. "Can… can we talk?"
Raven sighed and said, "Sure." She moved aside and opened her door a little more. Beast Boy took a big breath in and walked in. As he passed her they both felt a shiver crawl over their bodies. "So… what do you want to talk about?"
"Well… you know," he said, nervously. "I'm… I'm sorry I kissed you."
"Apology accepted," said Raven straightening up.
Beast Boy looked at her for a moment. "What? Just like that?" he asked.
"Well, I understand why you did it," said Raven.
"You do?" he asked.
"Yes," said Raven. "You've just broken up with Terra and it's obvious that you're on the rebound. You just did it to try to get over her. It's fine, I understand."
"Raven, that's not why I kissed you," said Beast Boy.
"Yes it is," she said plainly.
"No it's not," he said.
"Beast Boy, it's okay," she said getting irritated. "I've forgiven you, so we don't have to think about this ever again."
"Raven I didn't kiss you because I'm upset about Terra," said Beast Boy. "I haven't felt anything for her for a long time. I kissed you because… I don't know. Because I wanted to."
Raven sighed and said, "Beast Boy, I just got my emotions back to where they should be. I don't want to think about this anymore. Yes, we kissed, but it didn't mean anything."
"You didn't feel anything when we kissed?" he asked.
"I'm not allowed to!" she said getting upset. "Why can't you get that? It doesn't matter if I did or didn't, I'm not supposed to."
"So, that means you did," he said, putting two and two together.
"I want you out of my room now," she said through her teeth.
"Why? Because you're afraid of what would happen if that kiss did mean something?" he asked.
"Yes!" she said angrily. "I have made my decision to stay away from… feeling anything and I don't need you messing that up." She crossed her arms and turned away from him. She didn't want to see him. She didn't want to feel these feelings he was giving her. They were strange to say the least. Strange and… nice in an awkward sort of way. She had never been kissed before, and she had wanted to keep it that way. But now that she had, she had a whole new mess of problems to deal with.
"So… I make you feel something?" he asked, the slightest bit of hope between the words.
"Beast Boy, why can't you just leave?" she asked desperately.
"Because we're not talking about this like we should be," said Beast Boy. "You're telling me what you think you want and you're telling me what you think I needed."
After a slight pause she spoke. "I… I don't want to feel these things I'm feeling," she said, her voice shaking.
"Why?" he asked, going a little closer to her.
"Because it's wrong," she said turning around. "It's just plain wrong!"
"Why? Because of they way you're feeling or because you're feeling it about me?" he asked getting upset.
"Both," she said. "Is that what you want to hear?"
"No," said Beast Boy. "I want to hear you're really feeling."
"Why?" she cried.
"Because I might feel the same!" he yelled.
This caught both of them by surprise. They were both upset, but hearing this left them both speechless. Raven hadn't expected him to say anything like this and to say that she was shocked would be an understatement. But that was nothing compared to Beat Boy, who couldn't believe he had said that.
"You… what?" asked Raven at last.
"I… I think I might… kinda… like you," he said hesitantly.
"You… you do?" she asked, not really believing what he was saying.
"Yeah, I think I do," he said with a small smile.
Raven didn't return the look. She held her arms and said, "No you don't." She went over to her bed and sat down. "You're just trying to replace Terra."
"What? Raven, how many times do I have to tell you?" said Beast Boy going over to her and sitting next to her. "I don't have any feelings for Terra and I haven't for a while. I was on the rebound two years ago when I realized I didn't want to be with her anymore."
"Beast Boy… you and I… it would never work," she said, looking at the floor.
"Why not?" he asked softly, turning her face towards him as he had done three days before.
"Because I'm not supposed to feel," she said, trying to keep her emotions out of the conversation. "And you have to respect that."
"Is it that you're not supposed to feel, or are you just afraid to?" he asked, his voice calm and soft.
Raven stared into his eyes for a few moments. Those beautiful, emerald orbs that she had not until now noticed. She felt like he could see into her soul, that he would know if she was lying. "I'm… I'm afraid."
"You don't have to be," he said in almost a whisper. And with that he leaned in and kissed her again. It was almost like déjà vu. But this time, Raven didn't pull away. She closed her eyes and let him kiss her. He stopped for a moment, just to see if she was okay with it. She opened her eyes and looked into his. Then she did something that neither of them expected. She moved in and placed her lips back on his.
They kissed innocently and unsurely for a minute, then something arose in them and their sweet kissing turned to passion. Raven wasn't sure what was going on inside of her, but she felt something she had never felt before. She slowly put her hands on his chest then dared to move them up to his shoulders, then around his neck. Beast Boy cautiously placed his hands around her waist and the two brought each other closer to themselves.
And now he realized he had felt it. That spark he had been longing for. It was here, in this moment, with this woman. It was with Raven. But this spark was far different than anything he had ever felt before. It was stronger and enveloped him completely.
Every part of Raven felt electrified. Her body had never experienced anything like this. She began to feel light headed and between their kisses she gasped for breath. She had secretly longed for this, for this feeling. She wanted it more than anything, but had always told herself that it was not possible. She was not meant to feel passion or love. But here she was; her arms around Beast Boy and their lips dancing together like they had always meant to be there.
He slowly moved his hands over her and began to feel her body. Raven shivered all over as his hands went over her. She liked this. She liked this a lot. She let out a few small moans that surprised her. Both of them didn't even notice that her room had turned into a virtual tornado of her belongings. It wasn't until on of her books crashed into her vanity mirror.
Their lips broke and they both gasped as the sound of the glass shattering echoed in the room. They watched as everything that had been flying around fell to the floor. They both jumped back, obviously shocked by what had been going on. Then they looked at each other. Raven wasn't sure what to do. All of her worst fears popped up in her mind. Her powers were too out of control for her to be in a relationship, it was too dangerous for anyone to get close to her, and she wasn't sure what her powers would do next.
But the look she got from Beast Boy shocked her. He looked into her eyes and smiled, even letting out a giggle. Raven wasn't sure how to respond. So she slowly let a smile cross her face.
"Wow, you're one hell of a kisser," he said, chuckling.
Raven blushed and let her smile go a little wider. "Really?" she asked.
"Yeah," said Beast Boy laughing.
"Uh… thanks," she said letting out a small giggle.
After they cleaned up her room they weren't sure what to do next. What did all of this mean? Did they have a chance? Could they be together? Neither were sure. Raven then claimed that she had some meditating to do and Beast Boy left her be.
Beast Boy felt different. Better than he had felt in a long time. He had a smile on his face as he headed for his room. Of course, that smile faded as he opened his door and saw Terra sitting on his lower bunk in his room. He almost let out a scream he was so shocked to see her in there.
"Hey you," she said with a smile.
"Terra!" he said, clutching his chest from the shock. "What the hell are you doing in here?"
"I was making sure you were okay," she said sweetly.
"Why?" he asked.
"Cuz you've been acting sad lately," she said, standing up and going over to him. "Anything I can do to cheer you up?"
"No!" he said stepping away from her. "Terra, we're not together anymore. I know that that's hard for you to accept, but we're not. Now please get out of my room."
"Beast Boy, you're just having a problem with commitment," she said coolly.
"What?" he practically shouted.
"It's obvious that the idea of settling down with me scared you, but that's okay," she said. "It's normal. But, don't worry, in a few days you'll get over it."
"Terra you're insane!" he laughed. "I don't want to be with you anymore! And, I'm sorry, but I don't love you."
"Okay," she said, not phased at all. "We'll talk when you're feeling better."
"I am feeling better!" he yelled as she exited his room. "In fact, I'm feeling the best I've felt in a long time!" He slammed his door and let out an annoyed groan.
Terra walked out to the common room where the remaining three Titans were sitting on the couch watching television. But they all had heard Beast Boy yelling about something and were quite interested in finding out what was going on.
"Hi guys," she said as she practically skipped down the stairs.
"Hey Terra," said Cyborg. "So… what's the deal with BB?"
"Oh he's just in a bad mood today," she said sitting down next to all of them.
"Is that why he was doing the yelling?" asked Starfire.
"Yup," said Terra relaxing into the couch.
"Has anyone seen Raven?" asked Robin.
"I haven't," said Cyborg.
"I suspect that she is in her room doing the meditating," said Starfire.
"She's been quiet the past few days," said Robin. "I hope she's okay."
"Oh, I'm sure she is," said Terra.