AN: I've never owned the Teen Titans, so why would I now? Quite asking!
Chapter 11
Raven awoke and felt the morning sun on her face. It was warm and was a pleasant feeling. She yawned and stretched and then felt someone next to her. She quickly shot up and looked; it was Beast Boy. She had forgotten that she was back at the tower. She sighed, relieved, and slunk back down into her bed. He was still asleep and had been holding her. She cuddled back up to him and closed her eyes. They had only slept in the same bed once before.
He could feel her in his arms and he wasn't happy about it. He sighed and opened his eyes. To his surprise it wasn't Terra. It was Raven! He had forgotten that she was back for a little while. He held her closer and inhaled the sweet scent of her body; a mix of honeysuckle and lilacs.
She could feel that he was awake and opened her eyes. He gave her a smile and she did the same back. She was so happy not having to wake up alone and he was happy to actually be with the one he loved.
"Good morning," said Beast Boy, holding her tighter.
"I forgot you were here," said she said smiling. "I'm glad you are."
"Me too," said Beast Boy, kissing her forehead. He rested his head against hers and moved his hand over to her stomach, smiling. "I can't believe you're gonna have a baby."
Raven smiled and closed her eyes. She liked him touching her pregnant belly. She was just showing and she wondered what he would think when she really started to look pregnant.
Beast Boy loved the feel of her stomach. He could feel the warmth coming from it and the thought of a little baby growing within her made him feel great. Then that feeling left when he realized that she wasn't the only one carrying his child. She was going to have to share him with Terra, no matter what. Poor Raven had never been able to enjoy any of the normal things in life. And now she had to share the man she loved and the father of her child with another woman. Couldn't she ever catch a break?
"Raven, I'm sorry I got you in to this mess," said Beast Boy.
"What are you talking about?" she asked, opening her eyes.
"I'm sorry that all of this happened," said Beast Boy. "You don't deserve any of this. I wish we had listened to you all those years ago when we first met Terra. You were right. You're always right."
"I'm used to these things happening to me," she said plainly. "And I'm happy with the way my life is turning out."
"How can you say that?" asked Beast Boy. "How can you possibly be happy?"
"Beast Boy, my life was supposed to be over years ago," said Raven. "I was supposed to die so Trigon could take over the Earth. But you guys saved me and I am alive. And everyday I'm thankful for that. I also never thought I would fall in love and I certainly never thought anyone would love me. But here I am, lying next to someone who does. And I'm pregnant. I never thought I would have a child. So you don't have to be sorry. I'm happy."
Beast Boy still felt terrible and he held her close again. They lay there for a while in each others arms, Beast Boy's hand never leaving Ravens swollen tummy. Even the touch of her gave him that spark he had been craving. All those months he couldn't be with her he had longed for it. When he sensed her he felt that spark. When he saw her he felt that spark. When he touched her he felt that spark. It was addictive and he never grew tired of feeling it.
After a while they decided to get up. They didn't really want to leave the sanctity of her room, but they knew that they had to sooner or later. They held hands as they walked down the hall to the common room. They passed Terra's room and could hear her moaning. Beast Boy quickened the pace; he really didn't want to be anywhere near her.
Robin and Starfire were eating breakfast and Cyborg was cooking. All three gave the two warm smiles, even though they were still trying to get used to the fact that they were together. Beast Boy smiled back and Raven felt a little embarrassed with all of them staring at her.
"Good mornin you two," said Cyborg. "What'll ya have?"
"Are you gonna make me my tofu?" asked Beast Boy as he sat down at the table.
"Do I ever?" chuckled Cyborg. "You want anythin, Raven?"
"Can I have some scrambled eggs, bacon, toast, and what kind of fruit do you have?" asked Raven.
The other three just looked at her queerly. "Uh… we've got some grapes," said Robin.
"Oh, perfect," said Raven pleasantly and she pushed past Cyborg to start some tea.
"Raven, I have never heard you want so much for the breakfast before," said Starfire.
"Well I'm not just eating for me," she said plainly. "So I can't eat like I used to."
"Well I'm more than happy to make you anythin you want," said Cyborg with a grin. "You just name it."
The doors to the common room swooshed open and Terra entered, looking a bit pale and drained. She was holding her abdomen and shakily walked over to them.
"Hey Terra," said Robin. "Morning sickness?"
"No," she said slowly sitting down. "I just don't feel good. I feel like I have cramps or something."
Raven was alerted by this. "Terra, have you been… bleeding at all?" she asked, quietly so she wouldn't really embarrass her or make the guys feel awkward.
"What do you care?" snapped Terra.
"Terra, I'm just trying to help you," said Raven calmly. "You might not think I care, but I do because your child is also the man I love's child."
"He doesn't love you," she said rocking back and forth due to the pain.
"Okay, whatever," said Raven. "Just, please tell me."
Terra clenched her teeth and thought. She really didn't want to talk to Raven about this. She had stolen the man she loved from her. But, she had no one else to turn to. "Yes. I did see some… blood."
"Terra, I think you should go to the hospital," said Raven seriously. "You're baby may be in trouble."
"No, I went for my checkup yesterday," said Terra coldly. "He said everything was fine."
"Then you should go just incase," said Raven.
"I agree with her, Terra," said Robin. "You should probably go to the hospital to make sure everything's alright."
"Fine," she said and then winced with pain. "I'm going to lie down." She slowly stood up and made her way to her room.
"Why is Terra feeling ill not good?" asked Starfire. "I thought she was supposed to feel sick."
"She's not nauseas," said Raven. "She's in pain and if she's bleeding her child may be in distress."
"Then we should take her as soon as possible," said Robin.
Beast Boy sighed and stood up. "I'll take her," he said heading off.
"You sure, man?" asked Cyborg.
"I may not like her, but if my baby's in trouble I have to make sure it's okay," said Beast Boy leaving the room. A few minutes later the two left for the hospital. Terra wasn't happy about it, and neither was Beast Boy, but her pain was increasing.
Raven enjoyed the lovely breakfast Cyborg made for her and drank a cup of tea. Once she was done she decided to go meditate for a while. She knew she would be leaving either that night or the next day. As much as she loved it at the tower with her friends, she loved her cottage more. It made her feel almost normal, and that was something she had longed for for most of her life.
She was brought out of her meditation when there came a knock at her door. She opened it and saw Robin standing on the other side, the phone in his hand. "It's Beast Boy," he said and handed her the phone.
"Thanks," said Raven and she put the phone to her ear. Robin politely excused himself and went back about his business. He had already talked to Beast Boy. "Hello?"
"Hey," said Beast Boy in a low voice.
"How's Terra? Is she okay?" asked Raven.
"No," sighed Beast Boy. "She… she had a miscarriage."
Raven was afraid that that was what it was. "Oh, Beast Boy, I'm so sorry," she said sadly. "Are you okay?"
"I guess," said Beast Boy.
"How's Terra?" she asked.
"She's pretty upset," said Beast Boy. "The doctors want to keep her overnight just to make sure she's okay."
"She's really going to need to see a therapist now," said Raven sitting down on her bed. "I feel so bad for her. It's really hard to get over having a miscarriage."
"Robin said that he, Star, and Cyborg are gonna come down here to see her," said Beast Boy.
"I'll come to," said Raven.
"You don't have to," said Beast Boy. "And I would actually suggest that you not. She's blaming you for this and saying… well, not very nice things."
"Okay, I'll stay here," said Raven. "But tell her that I am sorry for her and I hope she's okay. No one deserves to lose their child that way."
"I'll try, but I doubt she'll accept any of your words," said Beast Boy. "I'll see you soon, okay?"
"Okay," said Raven. "I love you."
"I love you too."
"Bye," they both said and hung up.
It was hours before Beast Boy, along with everyone but Terra, came home. It had taken a while to explain to Starfire what had happened and once she understood she began to cry for her poor friend.
Raven had stayed in her room and meditated all of the while; except when she had to leave to eat. She heard a soft knock and knew it was him. She opened the door and they wrapped their arms around each other. They rocked back and forth while Raven tried to comfort him.
"I don't know why I'm so upset," he said, trying not to cry. "I mean, I never wanted the baby in the first place."
"Beast Boy, it's okay to be upset," said Raven softly.
"I shouldn't be, though," he said angrily with himself.
"Yes, you should," said Raven. "You may not have wanted it, but no matter what you have a natural love for your child. And you've spent four months thinking she was pregnant with it. So it's okay that you're upset about losing it."
Beast Boy didn't know how she was so good with words. And now he couldn't stop his tears and he cried into her shoulder. Raven hushed him gently and kept telling him that it was okay.
Once he began to calm down, Raven pulled him away softly and wiped his tears away. She kissed him and hugged him again. "Everything's going to be okay," she said quietly. "I promise."
They lay down on her bed and decided to rest. Beast Boy had been through a lot that day and Raven was drained by the child that was growing within her, so they were both tired. Now that he had cried, Beast Boy felt much better. He was finally able to think about the future. Now there was nothing keeping he and Raven from being together and dedicating themselves to the other. It was horrible that this was what had to happen for them to be together, but it had and now they were.