To Have Loved Him
Chapter 2
The Beginning of Finding Myself
By: 12stoneswithin
Summary: You never quite know what life has instore for you but sometimes it's better not knowing.
Dear Kags.
I miss you greatly and I'm sorry that I can't be there with you right now but I promise I'll do my best to be there for your mating. I hope to hear from you soon.
Love,
Sango
"Kagome, it's just a letter stop fussing over it!"
"You don't understand!" my headache is starting to turn into a migraine from all the yelling I've done today. " It's so unlike her maybe I should go visit or she could come here?"
"Feh, just leave it alone she's fine she can take care of herself." as Inuyasha walks away I can't help but feel ignored and annoyed by him and his lack of worry over our friends. It's been months since either of us have received anything from Sango or Miroku and now this note appears. It all feels just too odd and coincidental that it would show up now.
Perhaps he is right though maybe I am overreacting from the stress of planning my mating and making something out of nothing. My head pounding like a jackhammer and wondering about the village isn't helping much either. As I come upon Keade I can't help but feel a small relief.
"Keade, I think I might skip training today I'm not feeling so well." as she looks at me I feel like a young child about to be scolded.
"Ye must be ill to miss a training session." as she stand and hands me the basket of herbs I can't help but except my fate and begin walking toward the practice field. "Although, ye are not truly ill I will give you a break from practice today, however; ye must take those herbs to my hut and rest there so ye might recover from what ails ye." I can feel the surprise plain as day on my face but nonetheless I can't help myself from running to hug her,
" Thank you so much."
"Ye are welcome, but I would refrain from spilling those herbs or ye might have to pick more." as I jump back and begin to pick up the fall herbs I feel Kaede's hand lay on my shoulder " Child go get some rest I will keep Inuyasha and my sister from you for the day" smiling with gratitude I head off to her hut.
Kaede's hut is much smaller than Inuyasha's but it has always felt more like a home to me. Although, she has moved things around a bit I can still find where everything is with ease whereas I can't find anything at home half the time.
Looking about I can see a matt layed out off to the side practically calling my name. As I lay down sleep clams me almost instantly.
Through the fog I see my friends speckled throughout the demon infested ground. Sango's body lay motionless on top of those of Miroku and Kohaku while Inuyasha's body is hurtled to the ground by Naraku's tentacles. Panicking I try to run to him but I can't move I can't speak. The fog becomes denser and denser to the point it's like a concrete wall. As It begins to close in on me I feel myself hyperventilating . Soon my chest is a flame and my vision begins to fade to black but before its fully gone I see a figure cutting through the fog.
" Kagome, wake up!" I jump to attention pouring sweat and shaking violently. " Child are ye alright? You were screaming and thrashing about I thought a demon had got ye." Looking about I begin to calm down seeing Kaede sitting next to me.
"I'm fine it was just a really bad dream. It just felt too real. It felt like it had happened before." I through myself into her arms and begin to cry" Keade, they were all dead and I couldn't help them." I can feel her stiffen and then begin to run her finger through my hair.
" Sadly ye are not wrong in feeling that this was a real event. Child ye friends all died in the final battle against Naraku. The only ones who survived were ye and Sesshomaru it was out of respect for ye that he granted you the gift of bringing them back."