To Have Loved Him

Chapter 6

A Rude Awakening

By: 12stoneswithin

Summary: You never quite know what life has instore for you but sometimes it's better not knowing.

What Happened Last Time-

My mate lay unconscious for three days now her hair lay around her in black waves and her skin has returned to it original tone but she has yet to move. The healers say she will wake up soon but they wont give me an exact day or time. It is beyond annoying I just want my mate to open her beautiful eye, I want to hold my mate for the first time and tell her she is mine.

"You know that she is to be the second mate of our half brother you cannot and will not say a word to the miko." came my other halfs voice.

"I will do as I please until you can over power me or I give control back to you." he sighed becoming annoyed with me once again as he became silent. Our mates breathing began to change and i could see her eyes beginning to flutter about. I barked for a healer as I held her hand to my lips waiting for her to come to.

Kag Pov

I knew I had fainted from blood loss but I didn't realize that it was gonna hurt this much when I tried to wake up. Every inch of my body felt like it was on fire and being torn to pieces I wanted to scream but couldn't make a sound. Then I felt something soft and warm on my hand and the burning slowly went away and I was able to think straight. I felt my eyes begin to open and was met with the glowing red eyes of Sesshomaru. My blood grew hot in my veins and I couldn't help but try to say that I was okay but my voice was far to hoarse to use. Seeing that I was uncomfortable he went to let go of me and grab the water but I didn't want the pain to come back and held fast to his hand pleading with him with my eyes not to let go. He nodded slightly confused but went back to doing what he had been before. His eyes never leaving mine until the door slid open to reveal several older youki. He growled loudly and walked over to them but as soon as his hand wasn't on me I cried out in pain causing him to comeback immediately and the doctors to rush the bed. I lay panting in pain as they ran around me pushing Sesshomaru even further away. I began to panic and tried to reach for him to make the pain go away but before I could I felt a loud roaring growl as he fully shifted and curled around me. Almost instantly the pain went away and the healers all looked confused and then I saw recognition on the face of the oldest man.

" My Lord it would appear that this young lady is your mate. She cries out not because of us but because her body is trying to shift and become youki. However, without you by her side during the change she will die." at this I felt him growl and pull my body closer and nuzzle my head with his snout. "My Lord the Lady Kagome is in need of water. I'm going to grab it for her and hand it to her is that okay?" I felt him nod his head softly. In no time I had water and drank it slowly so I wouldn't choke.

"Sir, I can't be his mate I am to be the second mate of his half-brother." I said softly as Sesshomaru growled at me.

" You might have been at one point my lady but you can no longer do so. If you were to mate any other than his lordship you and he will die." his voice became sad and gruff at the last part.

" I don't think you understand my wedding isn't all that far away and I can't break a promise to my mate." I fell back to the bed as Sesshomaru shifted back,

"Do you really want to be a meger second mate for a half demon that cares not for you over being my one and only mate?" I know my face is showing my pain and shock but I can't look away as he caresses and holds my face in place. " Do you really wish to die for someone that would not die for you ?" When I look at him confused he mumbles something to himself before he looks to me with so much pain and desperation it hurts. " The day we defeated Naraku you almost died. You had harnessed every ounce of power you had and had increased everyone in a dense barrier for protection as they fought. You kept this up for days on end never wavering. However, toward the end you began to weaken but rather than letting everyone fight and die you pushed even harder causing the barrier around you to waver. Naraku saw this and went to attack you but at the same time Kikyo appeared and Inuyasha ran to protect her he got a little to far away and his barrier tried to give way but you gave up your own protection to save him. He didn't even see Naraku's tentacles circling you or hear your screams until you had already killed him from the inside out." his jaw tensed at this memory making me shiver. " To be honest Inuyasha left after you killed Naraku and wasn't scene for almost a month before he came back to the village stating that Kikyo was his mate. You had left and tried to go home only to find that you couldn't go home. At that point we all lost track of you and Inuyasha and his new mate. Kaede and I sent out several scouts but to no avail. Then one day you all came back and Inuyasha and you announced that you were to be mates as well. " at this he growled loudly. "However, the last part no longer matters you are my mate now and I won't give you up. " he nuzzled my check and kissed my hand softly before looking away and speaking softly to the doctors asking them to leave us. Once the door closed behind then I tapped his shoulder softly.

" Why did you send them away?" I hate how weak my voice sounds but I can't help it.

" They went to find answers for your amnesia as well as why you are my mate." he stated simply before laying be down and cuddling me. " Now sleep hopefully when you wake up we will have answers."