I had alot of fun writing this chapter, testing the waters of Bobby's head. I had to put a small dream spurt in, things are not at all as they seem.
And I think I will lead you around a little before I hit the light of understanding button.Please review it helps to grease the wheels of my imagination.
Advice is always welcome, and yeah I've noticed I stile spell Goren wrong sometimes, hoping to squash that habit soon-Thanx for reading.
Dreaming Again?...
I watched through the window. The silence in the car creating a thickly charged atmosphere.It was so warm. The heater pumping out
in waves.I cuddled closely into the black wool of my coat. Taking comfort where it could be had. I was so tired.
My eyes, in the mirror. Struggled againsed faint bluish smudges.Even as I tried to smile, nothing looked okay.
Bobby sat opposite me, and I wondered if even now he was assessing my behavior. Deep in thought his tap, tap, tapping punctuated the
quiet. Hand over mouth rubbing his jaw line, his hair, and his neck. Fairly bursting with the need to say something...my energetic partner leaned
over patting my leg. I prepaired myself for his worst. He'd come to some kind of conclusion..holding my breath..it was one of those explosive
Bobby moments. Where he would thrust home his idea. Asking the one thing that could catch you off guard. Getting you to confess.
''I'm getting a sandwich. You want one?''
My lungs squeezed out the remaining air, and I almost did start laughing. Sandwiches, I'd been worried over a folded square of processed
meat!
We pulled up to the curb at one of our favorite deli's.The blue in the sky, I'd noticed was now a chalkboard grey.
''No thanks'' I mumbled.
''You need to eat Alex''.
I weighed the outcome of the conversation if I was to protest again.Deciding I had no energy to argue my point, especially with a certain
man right now. I was lucky he'd let our discussion from earlier drop. Let's not press the issue. I turned, and smiled at him deflating his
growing concern, and letting Bobby father me a little.
''Surprise me''.
This seemed to please him as he stepped from the car to the pavement.
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Hunching barely over trying to camouflage myself. I pushed into the afternoon lunch rush. Sometimes my height was convieniant, but not
always. And although people probably could not tell by looking, I sometimes felt like a small man in a giant mammal suit.
Not that the suit was too small. But more my lack of species identification. When this happened, I found myself blanking. Just long enough
to come back with an extra kick in my step. It scared the hell out of me.Alex was who I was worried about today. She'd said it was just
nightmares.
On average children between the ages of 5and10 had the most random dream sequences-nightmares-Once you were a teen the percentage
droped,and after you entered your 20's, unless a stressor triggered by some emotional response. Some area of her life then, then...
He didn't know any area of here life that could be effecting her that badly.Two days now and getting worse. If it had anything to do with him
she would tell him wouldn't she?
Before when they'd been in the car he'd decided to try talking to her again. Good food, and conversation. After all he was good at asking questions
Minus the fact that it was her job as well. He might be able to atleast knock something loose.
Well he'd play nice for her. Of course he'd eventually get something out. After all she was not just his partner, but someone he trusted more
than anything. And she needed to learn she could put her trust in him also, no matter what she had to tell him.
The look she'd given him with her soft brown eyes earlier. If he could've gently nudged her then. She'd been about ready to spill out.
Then something, something had pulled, pretty damn stongly, pulled her back. Alex was no weak woman. So he had to figure it could be
something major.
He had to find out. What if she needed his protection? Protection Bobby, protection from what? Don't go racing off on your white horse before
The ladies even left her tower. Well right now he'd start by feeding the lady. And in order to do that he must deliver her a sandwich...
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Sitting back in my seat I watched the birds circling over the skyline, my breathing frosting the glass. A cold autumn leaf, fluttered across the back
Of my hand. I'd been turned into the window when his welcoming breeze disturbed me.
Smiling broadly I came around to an unexpected surprise in my passenger seat. Yeah it could've been Bobby sitting beside me, palms up in a
''Okay truce now here's your sandwich''. But instead I was greeted by Robert:lack of comfort there in...
''Robert''.I said watching as he cocked his eyebrow, and puckered his lips. His way of conformation.
''I missed you...Alex''.He pulled closer wrapping his fingers at the nape of my neck, and twirling them in lazy circles through my hair.
''But you don't know, do you?You don't understand what's going on?''
Finding my voice'''Why should I talk to you at all Robert? You're just a dream, a fantasy. Brought on with my struggling desire, and you talk
nothing but nonsense''.
I tried to form a stronger argument, but was distracted by his touch. Wake up, wake up, wake up! I repeated over and over in my mind.
''A dream, you think I'm a fucken dream''? Robert began laughing. He threw back his head, and howled like a lunatic.
Stopping suddenly he grabbed up my hand swallowing it with his large one.
''Does this feel like a fucking dream Alex? Alex my beautiful but stupid girl...''He brought my palm up to his chest. Where I could feel his
excitement through the fabric of his shirt.
''I'd like to take you right now ...but that would ruin my plans. I want it to build up Alex, until you feel like your going insane...I want you ready when
I come for you''. This was said in barely a whisper.
Wake up.Wake up.Wake up, Alex!
Curling his hand in my hair, he brought his lips to mine. Leaving my lips bruised, I was screaming...
Blackness...and then...I was staring into the troubled face of Bobby.
''I think now ...would be. A good..time to tell me what's bothering you. And who's this Robert?''
I gulped shaking my head. I acknowledged his request with all the grace I could muster.